when you find a fanfic piece for your OTP rated Mature and you’re like yes, this is What I’m Here For… then you read on and it’s like rated Mature for ‘language’… this is Not What I’m Here For, how dare you attack me with your mild ambiguity?
I’m sad. Not that the show itself is going, because lets face facts, its been shit for a couple of seasons now. But Olitz is my one and only ship and the thought of not seeing them on my screen any more hurts. Remembering the first time i saw Tony and Kerry’s chemistry bring Olitz to life will always be with me. Although the show is ending, this blog will never change.
I know I haven’t been active on here much compared to how I used to be. A lot has changed for me over the years, I am now in medical school which demands a lot of my time and also my interest for the show has declined slightly. I know it has for a lot of you too. I just wanted to say I am here and I appreciate all the new follows recently. I will try and be more present for Season 7 given its the last, but right now after seeing a shirtless Joke Bastard in the promo, i’m not bursting with excitement. Honestly... I think its a pathetic attempt at Shonda having to give Scott Foley a bit of screen time. It both bores and infuriates me to no end and I can’t get excited for another cyclical year of boring repetitive love triangle shit and Olivia not sorting herself out until minute 42 of the finale ever episode.
There’s this annoying tendency in fandoms to regulate ships who communicate to friends as opposed to lovers and I mean that in, every time I would get into a debate with a DE shipper about why I loved SE and I’d describe how Stefan and Elena had emotional chemistry and vulnerability, how they could talk about their dreams, their fears, their goals, how Stefan provided Elena a safe space in which she could come apart at the seams because she felt overwhelmed by all the death in her life and could be honest about what she was feelings, I’d be told yeah, they would make for great friends. Same thing with Dan and Blair, if I would talk about how Dair was a partnership, how Dan and Blair would actually have debates about film and literature, they would go to museums, they would experience New York together, they would be about equality, Chair stans would scream about how that sounds very platonic. Jake and Olivia in Scandal, I talk about how Olivia can be honest about her wants and her doubts with Jake, she can tell him that her life is falling apart, that she’s falling apart, he would give her advice, he would also put her in her lane when needed, and I’m told “yeah, Jake makes for a good platonic friend.” Michael and Jane in Jane The Virgin, same thing. Michael knows Jane implicitly, he can tell when she’s sad, when she’s excited, he can calm her down or encourage her, they can stay up all night talking on the phone or texting and I’m told that’s platonic. And I’m just sitting here like … there is a serious problem if the ability to communicate with someone feels inherently platonic to you. I would want to share my life with my partner not be afraid of speaking my mind or being truthful about my emotions in case it disrupts the relationship, relying on other people for emotional security and comfort. Communication is not antithetical to passion. Talking is not antithetical to sex. Like I NEED PEOPLE TO GET THIS.
me : this episode sounds good but I’m going to stay cautious and not get my hopes too up
also me but honest : OMG!! I LOVE THIS STORY ARC! OLIVIA WILL GET ALL EMOTIONAL ABOUT QUINN BECAUSE SHE’LL REMIND HER OF HERSELF SO SHE’LL HAVE NO CHOICE BUT DEAL WITH HER ISSUES IN ORDER TO HELP QUINN AND IT’LL HELP HER GET HER HUMANITY BACK! AND THEN SHE’LL GO TO FITZ AND MAKE HIM A GENUINE AND CHEESY DECLARATION OF LOVE AND ASK HIM TO MARRY HIM AND THEN THEY’LL ELOPE TO VERMONT AND START A FAMILY