shinkumi

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Shinkumi staring at each other in ep 2

I cried while re-reading Gokusen again.

Because Gokusen is my favorite manga (ever) and Shinkumi is my number 1 OTP of all time (ever) and Sawada Shin is the one I want to marry (ever). WHY COULDN’T THEY HAVE PUT THESE SCENES IN THE DRAMA?! Or they could have at least had Shin come back for the movie ;A;

I went ;_________________; when I read this line thinking OMFG SHIN FINALLY CONFESSED! FINALLY! AFTER THESE TWO FUCKING YEARS HE CONFESSED!

And this was scene was so beautiful I cried ;____; ‘cause Shin was mad at himself for not being strong enough for Yankumi getting himself into danger again. Oh it was also the time Yankumi answered Shin’s confession hihi ♥

Shin’s dad wanted Yankumi away from his son (again) so Yankumi was being stupid and decided to leave Shin. Yankumi’s intentions are good because she wanted Shin to have a better future rather than being dragged into the Yakuzas really but Shin’s words, this made me want to bawl out and ask why there’s no Sawada Shin out there T____T

So Shin decided to go to school. And this scene was so beautiful I was crying again. I’m so easily touched by simple scenes, really. WTF right? It’s like seeing them again from how they were 2 years ago ;A;

Shin talked about how he had loved Yankumi since then and how he tried to get the distance between them, student and teacher, shorter each time. How he tried to reach out to her as the years passed… I was banging my head on the pillow so hard when he said these lines.

AND THEN THE WORDS SHIN TOLD YANKUMI NEXT THAT EASED ALL HER WORRIES ABOUT HER DESTROYING SHIN’S FUTURE ;A; MY BB, WHERE IS MY SHIN IN THIS WORLD?! WHERE WHERE WHERE?! Because his words… made everything perfect ♥

Oh and if you’re wondering about Yankumi’s face, her students made fun of her again that’s why.

AH SAWADA SHIN ;_____; Shinkumi will always be the number 1 OTP in my heart no matter what happens ♥ BRB crying and sulking to why there was no Shinkumi in the Gokusen live action ;A;

My problem:

Watching the final ep of Misaki Number One again (for the 100th time) makes me want to watch Gokusen 1 but if I do that I know I’ll just be reminded of how much I love Shinkumi as well as MatsuJun and Nakama Yukie. 

Then if I watch Gokusen 1 I’ll come to this scene

when he confesses his desire to win Yankumi’s heart.

Then when I finished season 1 I’ll want to watch the entire series which means I’ll eventually make it to the movie and after I watch the movie again I’ll be like this

because of how awesome it was seeing so many returning students and to once I again be reminded how much Yankumi means to them and how much she’s affected them.

But then at the same time I’ll be

because when the movie ends I’ll be reminded that Shin/MatsuJun never returned and Shinkumi never became canon in the live action series. It’s just not fair…my Shinkumi feels. In all the dramas and movies I’ve seen so far I’ve never ship an OTP so hard like these two.

PLEASE!!!! If there is a god I beg of you…get Yukie and MatsuJun back on screen together…be it a movie, drama special, drama, one freaking episode…I don’t care. Just make them work together on something again. PLEASE!!!!