Ugh I’m not even going to cosplay kaworu anymore probably but at least I’ll be losing enough weight to look the part with all the puking I’m doing.

Fuck everything I just want to have one thing that doesn’t hurt but I we t through this with pokemon too and I’ll go through it with nge because I went for my version of the white haired anime boy when I knew better

My dad just knocked on my door and offered me popcorn?

I told him I’d just puke it up because I was too stunned to respond (truth) and then yelled thank you at him as he was leaving because that was nice of him?

Sorry I can’t be okay for you guys. You deserve it. You deserve everything I could never give you and all the dreams I broke. I’m sorry.