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little adhd things
  • verbal filters are a myth invented by the government
  • i went on wikipedia to look up sources for an essay but somehow i ended up reading about the history of meridian cannons
  • “did i eat dinner tonight?” *checks bin* *finds empty microwave meal packet* “wait is this from today or yesterday” 
  • always needing something in your hands to play with
  • okay i know you’re talking to me about something important but i can’t stop staring at that woman’s weird hat and now it’s leading me on a train of thought that has occupied my entire attention span
  • talking so fast you literally forget to breathe
  • i just read three pages of this book and i know i was paying attention but somehow i remember absolutely none of it
  • whoops i don’t have any plans for today so i guess i’ll just Die
  • being unable to remember the names of people you’ve known for months and talk to every day
  • panic attacks
  • “adhd was made up by millenials to justify kids with behavioural problems and underachievers”
  • did i do that thing yesterday? or the day before? or last week? did i do it at all?
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JUN & THE8 - “MY I” M/V + DUALITY
you were my future, I was your yesterday

to other mentally ill artists who are obsessed with getting better

- Finished Pieces TM are NOT the only works that matter. That half-lined sketch is good. That page of nothing but shapes and doodles is progress. If you’re doing whatever it is that you CAN do that day, you’re doing well

- take. BREAKS. as often as you need to. stop when you gotta. if you try to dig into tomorrow’s spoons to finish something, trust me, you’re going to hate yourself and whatever you’re working on later

- if you really want to, you CAN draw (or paint, or sculpt, or craft etc.) every day

- everything counts. everything. can’t draw for more than 20 minutes today? you drew. less than 5? you drew. take a pencil and draw three different circles on a sticky note. you drew. lay out your arm and trace whatever comes to mind with you finger. everything counts.

- if you drew SOMETHING today, you gained more experience than someone who did not

- draw whatever you want

- reward yourself for it

- don’t get so wrapped up in something that you forget to eat, drink water or sleep please. if you can’t make yourself care about what it does to your body, remember it WILL affect your productivity, which will lead to Bad Times, again, trust me

- you are SOMEONE’S art goals

- your art is good

- “this person doesn’t know me or my art, how do they know it’s good-” shh. doesn’t matter. its good

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Here’s Mirow, a freshwater leviathan. Infinitely patient and clever, she’s always willing to listen to interesting problems and could, potentially, offer her assistance. It’s just difficult to tell whether Mirow intends to help, or if she’s more interested in getting you to move a little, too, close, to her River.
But a 50/50 between being eviscerated or blessed with ancient gator magic is better than nothing, right?

Thanks to everyone who helped me decide on her colors on twitter a while back!

okay so everyone talks about Kevin the Exy Machine Without Feelings but I don’t really think that’s true?? like??

  • kevin worries about neil. a lot.
  • when neil gets injured, kevin tells him to take it easy.
  • when neil pushes himself too far, kevin tells him to stop.
    • kevin, who grew up around the ravens. 
    • who was never taught to stop. 
    • who was never taught to take it easy. 
    • who grew up learning to play through sickness, broken bones, and exhaustion because exy was More Important.
  • but kevin doesn’t force neil to do the same. 
  • why?? because he cares. kevin cares about neil more than he ever lets on.
  • he shows it the only way he can: through exy.
    • kevin grew up in a psychologically and emotionally abusive environment okay??
    • he’s doing the best he can.
  • so kevin asks neil to give him his game.
  • so he helps neil become the best player he can.
  • so he keeps holding night practices even when he knows neil isn’t planning to live through the year.
    • (bc at that point it’s not about exy anymore. it’s about neil.)
  • because while neil may give andrew something to build his life around, kevin is the one neil shows how to start living again. 
  • andrew and kevin give neil a life, but neil gives them both something to live for. 

anyway kevin day is a boy full of feelings he’s just shit at expressing them.