shes-my-bestfriend

I will never find the words to tell you how much I love you, I will never find them because there are no words to explain it. You are my soul mate, my rock, my best friend and my girlfriend. I’m in love with you because I don’t know what I would do without you, I forget what life was like before I met you. All that you are is all that I will ever need. I fell in love with your smile, the way your eyes squint when you laugh, when you turn up the volume in the car so we can sing together at the top of our lungs, waking up to ‘Good morning baby’. I fell in love with you because you are my perfect person, you are BEAUTIFUL! If I could ask for one thing it would be that you could see yourself through my eyes to see how amazingly perfect you really are! I love how you always make me feel like i’m worth something, how you make me smile when I almost forget how to.

I fell in love with you because you loved me when I couldn’t love myself.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.