shepherd grey

Feels Like Loneliness - Part Seven

Okay, so first of all, I really enjoyed writing this part. Second of all, this chapter is about a thousand words longer than usual. I really hope you all enjoy it, the next part will be out soon enough.

Previous parts: one | two | three | four | five | six

Amelia stared at herself in the mirror and sighed. It was just her and James catching up as friends, but she still put in as much effort as she could into looking good. With tighter fitting jeans, heels, a long sleeved burgundy blouse, her hair down, and her makeup done, she felt satisfied. She felt good, attractive. It felt god to dress up a little bit. With one final look over herself, she made her way down to the stairs towards the living room. 

Keep reading

anonymous asked:

Lol I´m sorry but I don´t get why everyones hating on Amelia. Sure she wasn´t at her best last ep. but I feel lie she definitely had a point. I like Omelia and I want them to have a child but what Amelia said was true. Owen is so obsessed with the idea of a "normal" family and fixing Amelia and constantly telling her she´d be a good mom although he clearly knows thats not the issue. I get that Amelia feels pressured by Owens history and maybe he should take a step back and rethink his motives

Amelia definitely wasn’t at her best and she had some points. People are very disappointed with Amelia not because of what she felt, but how she acted on it.

It is very understandable that she felt pressured, I get that. But the way she reacted to it, attacking Owen, using his weaknesses against him was very hard to watch because she is only like that when she really is hurting. While I do get that she felt cornered and acted out, I don’t think she had a lot of empathy trying to see Owen’s side in this situation. After all, she demanded of him if he’d stay by her side at her worst when what she did was to run. She ran, avoided him multiple times when Owen tried his very best to approach the situation gently and offered to talk and put himself available. That’s why I think people are angry, because the situation didn’t have to get to that but it did, they are both human and make mistakes, jump to conclusions, etc.

Owen was wrong to explode like that and corner her but I also get why he did it. He was desperately trying to help her and understand her and while she was hiding, he put up with it. But the minute she showed up for work, able to mantain her focus and act professionally he flipped, because Owen just couldn’t do the same. We all remember that when Derek died, Amelia acted exactly like this: drowning in work and pushing people away. But that is not necessarily everyone’s else reaction. And she wasn’t very understanding when she expected Owen to just accept her needs without explaining them. He is also a person with fears, anxiety and insecurities and he was totally lost why his wife was avoiding his comfort and his support.

Also, I don’t think it makes a lot of sense to criticise or question Owen on the reasons why he wants to have a kid. I believe his choice of word (“normal”) really hurt and set Amelia off because ultimately, her child wasn’t “normal”, so of course she felt the hit, but he had no way of knowing since Owen has never been told the details of Amelia’s loss (which also, he could have asked, why hasn’t he? Ugh). But I don’t think a person needs a motive to want kids, it’s a natural thing. And it wasn’t like Owen was grilling her every two seconds “lets have a baby now! Are you ready to have a baby now?!”. He was just trying to understand why she changed her mind on something they both seemed to want very much and agree upon when they got married.

So my point is: Owen is wrong, Amelia is wrong. Only OMELIA is right.

anonymous asked:

Does Amelia have borderline personality disorder?

Amelia is a person who has suffered like a version of Owen in the fifth season. She’s the kind of person that hides her feelings and fears both are. Amelia hides these fears until they explode and they rise, angry and painful. therefore no Anon, Amelia is not affected by borderline disorder it’s just a person knocked down by life.

Grey’s Anatomy quotes each sign needs to hear

Aries: “Have some fire. Be unstoppable. Be a force of nature. Be better than anyone here, and don’t give a damn what anyone thinks. You’re on your own. Be on your own.”  - Cristina Yang

Taurus: “If you aren’t willing to keep looking for light in the darkest of places without stopping, even when it seems impossible, you will never succeed.” - Amelia Shepherd

Gemini: “We’ll try again and we’ll fail again because that’s what progress looks like. Progress looks like a bunch of failures. And you’re going to have feelings about that because it’s sad, but you cannot fall apart.” - Meredith Grey

Cancer: “People can be broken but what’s broken can be healed and no matter how dark things can get the sun is always going to rise up again.” - Meredith Grey

Leo: “If you love someone, tell ‘em. Even if you’re scared that it’s not the right thing, even if you are scared that it will  burn your life to the ground, you say it, and say it out loud. And then you go from there.” - Mark Sloan

Virgo: “Oh, screw beautiful. I’m brilliant. If you want to appease me, compliment my brain.” - Cristina Yang

Libra: “I think you can’t wait for someone to fly underneath you and save your life. I think you have to save yourself.” - Meredith Grey

Scorpio: “Not everybody has to be happy all the time. That’s not mental health. That’s crap.” - Meredith Grey

Sagittarius: “The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.” - Meredith Grey

Capricorn: “It’s good to be scared. It means you still have something to lose.” - Richard Webber

Aquarius: “A little coffee. A little sunlight. Your troubles will get smaller.” - Richard Webber

Pisces: “Don’t let what he wants eclipse what you need. He is very dreamy, but he is not the sun. You are.” - Cristina Yang

do you ever just think about Meredith Grey’s monologues as excerpts of the diary she wrote for her kids in case Alzheimers got the worst of her

After watching Grey’s Anatomy:

  • you don’t spell gray you spell grey
  • you’re basically a doctor
  • you freak out if someone has the hiccups 
  • planes make u nervous 
  • you have a thing for ferryboats 
  • you got a problem? just push one of epi 
  • when you hear Arizona you don’t think of the state 
  • you get emotional over scrub caps 
  • you will never forgive shonda 
  • you have trust issues 
  • you can never get attached to characters ever again