So much has happened the past few days. It was a roller coaster of emotions. Each day has been filled with different sorts of feeling. The euphoria only lasted for two days. And then, followed by a sudden turn of melancholic feeling.
I’m still trying to recover from all the things that has happened. Things at home are getting worse. I’m not there but I am aware of what’s happening. I feel sorry for my mom. I admit that there are times I don’t want to go home. I find it too chaotic there. I hated her nagging. It was annoying. But I do understand where she’s coming from. She sent me a message last Sunday and it broke my heart. She was telling me how tired she is with all that’s happening and how fed up she is with my dad and brother. At that moment, I felt a deep remorse. I felt like I haven’t been such a good daughter myself. I wish I could’ve done better.
I wanted to run into my mom’s arms, cry and ask for her forgiveness. I wanted to say sorry for being insensitive and selfish. For ignoring her feelings and just thinking about myself. I know it’s not yet late to make up for my past acts. I wish I could make her feel better. She has done nothing but goodness. She always think and care about us that she forgot herself. And now its my turn to take care of her. She has done more than enough. To my mom, I love you with all my heart and soul.