Just a Dream.
Dreams are a series of thoughts and visual sensations that we experience while we are asleep. We dream every single night, though we may not always remember them. What we dream about can sometimes be illustrations of what our futures may look like, giving us a feeling of wonder and thus making us wish they were a reality and not simply a manifestation of what we want.
Justin’s Point of View.
The warm, summer radiance from the sun shining brightly at its highest point in the sky, reflected down upon her tanned ivory skin; the white floral dress she was wearing made her complexion shimmer so elegantly.
She had her natural sun kissed brown hair pinned up into a loose bun, letting a few strands hang down. I admired her from afar as she stood under the glow of the mid-July sunlight, wondering how someone could be so perfect in every way imaginable.
“…Five…Six…” (Your Name)’s ringing voice echoed from across the yard as she counted to ten with her right hand covering her eyes, her left hand was gently pressed against her stomach, circling her tiny baby bump that had only recently began to show.
Standing behind the huge camphor tree that grew in the garden behind our house, I carefully peeked around the corner to avoid being spotted by her.
I hear the quietest and most adorable little giggle come from my right. Looking down, I see my four-year-old daughter, Charlotte Jade, looking up at me with a smile on her face. “Mommy isn’t going to find us, Daddy,” she said in a whisper but with so much energy as she jumped up and down.
She was just like (Your Name) in every single way; her hair was the same shade of autumn brunette; her eyes were the same unique combination of green and brown; she even had the same dimples in both of her cheeks.
She also had (Your Name)’s personality; she was very smart and very polite for her age, she was always full of energy and she always has a smile on her face. I was so happy and proud to be her dad, she was the most beautiful little angel, just like her mother.
“We have to be very quiet, baby girl, or else Mommy will find us,” I smiled at her while reminding her the rules of hide and seek, I gently brushed my fingers through her tangled curls, tucking a loose strand behind her left ear. “Okay, Daddy,” she nodded her head and moved closer to me, peeking around the side of the tree trunk just as I was doing before.
“…Nine…Ten!… Ready or not, here I come!” (Your Name) opened her eyes and carefully pushed herself off of the side of the gazebo where she had been leaning on. She began walking around the garden, checking behind the pool house, the gazebo, as well as every tree and bush.
When she turned around and looked in our direction, Charlotte and I quickly ducked behind the tree before she could see us.
With caution, I peeked around the side of the tree again and saw (Your Name) standing just a few feet away with her hands on her hips. “Mhmm” she pondered out loud. “I wonder where they could be.”
Charlotte’s high pitched squeal nearly gave away our position. I immediately looked at her with a grin and pressed my index finger against my lips, she mimicked my action before covering her mouth with her hands to keep herself from laughing.
Before I knew it, my entire body jumped as I felt a soft pair of hands grab both of my shoulders, followed by Charlotte’s cute and captivating laugh. “Mommy! You found us!” she rushed to (Your Name) and wrapped her little arms around her leg. “Of course I did, baby.” (Your Name) kissed the top of her head before smoothing her hair down with her hand. She then turned her focus to me, I couldn’t resist but to kiss her sweet lips.
My left hand rested on top of her little bump, rubbing it in circles ever so tenderly and lovingly. My lips curled into a smile as I felt a light kick against my palm, the first real connection I had to my unborn child.
“Daddy, it’s your turn to count! Mommy and I will hide now,” Charlotte cried with excitement as she tugged on the end of my shirt. For her age, she was a very energetic little girl, she definitely knew how to keep (Your Name) and I on our toes.
“Slow down, my sweet,” I said before lifting her up off the ground and held her with one arm against my hip. “Remember, Mommy is still taking care of your little brother.”
(Your Name) and I had initially agreed to wait until the baby was born to find out if it was a boy or a girl. However, my heart keeps telling me that we’re having a little boy.
It really doesn’t matter if it’s a boy or a girl; having another baby girl would make me so happy, I would then be in a house full of girls, my girls. As long as the baby’s healthy is what matters to me, but having a daughter and a son with my beautiful wife would make my life complete.
When I imagine having our second child, I imagine having a son, who is just like me. I’ll teach him how to play hockey and how to ride a skateboard. I’ll take him to every kind of sporting event and one day show him how to drive a car, but most importantly, I’ll teach him how to be a good person; how to be respectful, just as (Your Name) and I have been teaching Charlotte Jade. I’ll show him how to be a good man.
I can see my daughter having a little brother and she would be the best big sister. She would play with him and read him bedtime stories every night and they would be so close as they get older. The more I imagine it, the more joy it brings me.
“Sorry, Mommy,” Charlotte was quick to apologize and she said it so innocently. I placed her back down on the ground and she hugged (Your Name)’s waist, resting her little head against her stomach. “Sweetheart, there’s nothing to be sorry for,” (Your Name) smiled before lifting her chin up and kissing her on her forehead.
Grabbing a hold of (Your Name)’s hand, I led them both to a soft grassy spot in the middle of the garden where the sun was shining down, I sat on the grass and held out my hand to help (Your Name) sit down.
She carefully lowered herself down and sat between my legs. Charlotte sat in front of us and placed both of her tiny hands on (Your Name)’s belly.
She was so excited for the baby to come; every night she would kiss him and tell him how much she loves him. Both myself and (Your Name) already knew she was going to be an amazing big sister.
“Hello, little brother,” she whispered with her lips pressed against (Your Name)’s stomach. I smiled and wrapped my arms around her waist, letting my hands rest over Charlotte’s as they gently pressed against her tummy. “I love you.” (Your Name) and I looked at each other and almost melted as Charlotte placed a soft kiss on her stomach.
Never in a million years would I ever imagine my life to feel so incredible. I married my best friend and the love of my life, who is more than just my wife; she’s my soulmate; she’s my heart and soul and she’s the mother of my children. We have the most beautiful and precious daughter and a little boy [hopefully] on the way. They are the two - soon to be three - loves of my life.
“I love you, so much,” I whispered to my wife, leaning in closer and resting my forehead against hers. “I love you, so much more,” (Your Name) smiled at me as she too leaned closer, bringing her lips to mine. I closed my eyes to savor the moment, my heart began racing with every beat.
If there was a time that I wished time would stand still, it would be right now.
I opened my eyes, only to see nothing but absolute darkness. Confusion immediately washed over me as I blinked my eyes several times. I slowly sat up as my eyes began wandering from left to right, trying to make sense of my surroundings.
How did I get here? One minute I was sitting in the backyard with my wife and my daughter and the next I’m sitting in the dark, trying to comprehend what was happening. I took one last glance around, trying to make out any shape or form. My senses instantly kicked in upon realizing I was in my room.
“Justin?” I heard a fatigued and modulated voice from my left side. I quickly turned my head and saw (Your Name) laying beside me. She sat up and rubbed her eyes, then she looked at me. A look of concern was written on her face. “What’s the matter?”
“I-Uh-Umm… Nothing,” I don’t know why my words came out the way that they did. From her point of view, I probably sound like I had just seen a ghost, or that I’m losing my mind. I felt her hand grab my shoulder. “Did you have a bad dream?” my eyes widened as the last word left her mouth.
A dream? Was everything I just saw nothing more than a dream? It felt so real that when I opened my eyes I almost believed that I was still dreaming. (Your Name) and I wasn’t really married and we didn’t have any children. Charlotte - my daughter - my beautiful princess - yet nothing more than just a figment of my imagination.
Did it mean anything? Was it an insight into our future and that one day it’ll come true? I hope to God it does. Seeing (Your Name) be the mother of my children strengthens my hopes of having a family with her one day.
“Justin?” (Your Name) tightened her grip on my shoulder, her voice sounded more concerning as she desperately wanted to know what was wrong. I looked in her eyes and gave her a small but reassuring smile. “No,” I said and took a deep breath, exhaling through my mouth. “It was actually a really good dream.” My smile faded.
“Then why do you seem sad?” (Your Name) moved in closer to me and laid her chin against my shoulder. Taking in another deep breath and letting the air fill my lungs, I gave her the most honest answer that I could.
“I just wanted it to be real.”
(Your Name)’s honey emerald irises became washed over by sadness as I could feel her heart aching for me. I didn’t want her to feel sad for me. Though I desperately wanted my dream to be a reality, it gave me such a wonderful feeling of love and happiness that I couldn’t begin to describe.
“Do you want to talk about it?” she asked me innocently while her hand circled my bare back. Not wanting to keep her up any longer, I shook my head and smiled softly to assure her that everything was okay. “No, it’s okay, baby. Go back to sleep,” I said and kissed her lips before resting my head against the soft, plush pillow.
(Your Name) nodded her head and laid down beside me, she turned onto her left side so that her back was facing me. I heard her say to wake her if I wanted to talk, no matter what time it was, then there was nothing but pure silence.
I laid on my back and stared obliviously at the ceiling. The images of (Your Name) carrying my unborn child and my four-year-old little girl running around were still imprinted in my mind.
I have never in my life thought so much about having a family but that dream has given me a whole new perspective and it makes me look more forward to the future.
After staring at the ceiling for about fifteen minutes, I finally closed my eyes and let myself fall into a sleep induced state. As I began to drift off, I hoped that I would once again visualize the same, beautiful illusion that I had witnessed before. An illusion, that’s all it was. Just a dream. Nothing more.
The End ♡