she'd amazing

Darcy Lewis has her own fandom and I think that’s beautiful.

I’ve gotten so used to my internet cutting off occasionally that I don’t even get upset about it anymore, what upsets me more is when it connects again and cuts off my fine run in Chrome’s dinosaur game…

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his dark materials fan month: week one

favourite character: Marisa Coulter

“The pitiless agent of the Church, the fanatical persecutor of children, the inventor of hideous machines to slice them apart and look in their terrified little beings for any evidence of sin —and along comes a foul-mouthed, ignorant little brat with dirty fingernails, and you cluck and settle your feathers over her like a hen.”

Cultural pessimism is always fashionable, and, since we are human, there are always grounds for it. It has the negative consequence of depressing the level of aspiration, the sense of the possible. And from time to time it has the extremely negative consequence of encouraging a kind of somber panic, a collective dream-state in which recourse to terrible remedies is inspired by delusions of mortal threat. If there is anything in the life of any culture or period that gives good ground for alarm, it is the rise of cultural pessimism, whose major passion is bitter hostility toward many or most of the people within the very culture the pessimists always feel that they are intent on rescuing. When panic on one side is creating alarm on the other, it is easy to forget that there are always as good ground for optimism as for pessimism - exactly the same grounds, in fact - that is, because we are human. We still have every potential for good we have ever had, and the same presumptive claim to respect, our own respect and one another’s. We are still creatures of singular interest and value, agile of soul as we have always been and as we will continue to be even despite our errors and depredations, for as long as we abide on this earth. To value one another is our greatest safety, and to indulge in fear and contempt is our gravest error.
—  Marilynne Robinson, ‘Reformation’. From The Givenness of Things.
  • me every week after a new game of thrones episode: *CRIES THE TRIDENT, THE NARROW SEA AND THE SUNSET SEA OVER ALFIE ALLEN'S ACTING SKILLS AS THEON GREYJOY*
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DAMMIT SHOW

I INTENTIONALLY DID NOT GO THERE EARLIER

AFTER LIKE FIVE EPISODES WHERE I THOUGHT YOU WERE DROPPING ALL THESE ANGST NUGGETS ONLY TO BE ANGST-FREE (or differently-angsted) I MADE A DECISION TO STOP

SO YOU HAVE THIS EARLIER

AND INSTANTLY MY BRAIN SEIZES IT AND TRIES TO RUN AWAY WITH IT

BUT NO I MADE THE CHOICE TO TELL MY BRAIN TO CALM ITS SHIT SO I DIDN’T DO THIS AGAIN

AND WHAT DO YOU

WHAT DO YOU FUCKING DO

BUT EXACTLY WHAT I THOUGHT YOU WERE GOING TO DO

AFTER I TALKED MYSELF OUT OF YOU DOING IT

THIS IS SOME FUCKING IOCANE POWDER BULLSHIT

Just a random thought when I think about this week’s rewatch episode Melinda. 

If Bahrain hadn’t happened then Melinda would have continued working with Phil and he wanted her in the Avengers Initiative and so she woud’ve said yes. 

Sound wonderful till here doesn’t it ? 

Now .. If Bahrain hadn’t happened Melinda May would’ve been there with the rest when New York happened and Loki wrecked havoc, she’s been fighting with Avengers and that seems great ..

BUT 

this also means that she’d have been on the helicarrier when Loki would’ve ‘killed’ Coulson. She might have been able to try stop Loki when he attacked but she might’ve been there like the rest of the Avengers protecting the others and she would’ve been on the helicarrier when Coulson would’ve been killed. 

She would have heard Fury saying *Coulson’s down* the way Maria or Nat heard. She would’ve been trying to save people when she’d hear this and she can’t halt or stop because she needs to protect the rest. 

She would have been THERE when Coulson died. Maybe Coulson would’ve wanted to see May one last time before he breathed his last. Maybe if Bahrain hadn’t happened, THIS would be Melinda May’s Bahrain. Being there and not being able to save the guy who ‘means a lot to her, a lot’

*wow .. I just made myself sad* 

Originally posted by cinematears