she went through all that so they could all survive

So this is my personal long-ass interpretation/aggressive rant on The Last of Us’ ending, how I think Part II is going to play out, as well as where I personally think Joel and Ellie are at in the story as of right now. It’s long as hell so I apologize, lmao buckle your seatbelts. 

First off, I know everybody is excited Ellie is a more grown up woman now, I am too. But I think Ellie has always been a woman though in the sense of the word. It has nothing to do with her age. Even at 14, she wasn’t an ordinary 14 year old, but now in Part II that she’s obviously physically older, she has matured even more now and her mind has changed and has adapted to different things. Ellie’s maturity and how it continues to grow ties a lot into what i’m gonna say next. 

Now, in that Last of Us One Night Live performance, Neil Druckmann (Writer for The Last of Us), Ashley (Ellie), and Troy (Joel) did, there was this ‘alternate ending scene’ at the end where Joel tries to mend his relationship with Ellie because he knew he broke their trust a bit. Ellie seems hesitant and doesn’t really want to talk to Joel at first, but after he gives her the guitar, (I’m assuming the one we see Ellie playing in the Part II trailer,) He not only taught her how to play eventually, (Given Ellie is playing guitar in the trailer so Joel clearly taught her, as hinted to him telling her he would in the first game.) But in the moment after he gave her the guitar and sung to her as well, (Future Days by Pearl Jam.) Ellie warms up to him again a little. Joel is clearly communicating in song how much she means to him, therefore after, she seems willing to repair their relationship - it’s a joint effort. On Joel’s hand it’s him realizing the repercussions of his mistake, and wanting Ellie to understand and forgive him. On Ellie’s hand it’s her trying to understand and make amends with Joel, but still trying to show him why she wasn’t fully okay with what he did. Neil said that the One Night Live alternate ending wasn’t official or canon - but it wasn’t just written how it was for no reason, there was something more behind it.

I mean, think about it. In the Part II trailer, Joel was still with Ellie, meaning that through the five years leading up to Part II, Ellie in some way had accepted Joel’s decision and choice. A misconception is because Neil said Part II is about ‘hate’, that it automatically has something to do with Joel. But what if it doesn’t? He never said or even implied that hatred was toward Joel, and it seems like Ellie has more anger toward the people she had seemingly just killed in the house she was in. Sure at first, maybe even her being 19 now, she still doesn’t fully like that Joel lied. Fine. But there is clear indication she moved on from that, and there’s a lot of reasons why she likely did. And i’ll you why. 

I think a big reason is actually because of Riley. Allow me to explain. In Left Behind, Riley tells Ellie after they’ve been bitten that, “We fight for every second we get to spend with eachother, whether it’s two minutes, or two days, we don’t give that up.” We also see that in the cutback shot to Ellie managing to make a makeshift gurney for Joel, stitching him up, as well as going through all kinds of hell, (David and James.) just to get her hands on medicine to keep him alive. Because she was fighting for him. For what he means to her. And I think that’s one of many reasons why Ellie replaces guilt, with acceptance. It’s because Riley taught Ellie to value loyalty and friendship over what seems to be the bigger decision or the right thing to do. (Example of this is Riley giving up joining the Fireflies’ cause for Ellie, despite Riley always wanting to support the Fireflies and their cause.) 

Another reason I believe is that it’s Ellie realizing what she has with Joel is something she always wanted, because she didn’t have her father or her mother Anna to comfort her; it also helps her ease her fear of being alone, (As she told Sam, “I’m scared of ending up alone.”) She knows no matter what Joel makes her feel safe, he is a constant in her life and has never abandoned her. (”Everyone I have cared for has either died or left me, everyone fucking except for you!”) 

I also still don’t think that Joel is evil. Sorry I just don’t. Evil is and always has been a point of view. And that was a big theme in The Last of Us. Evil is a perspective, everything isn’t black and white, it’s only grey. Hence why Neil Druckmann left everything up to interpretation, like the ending, or even how you viewed David in the Winter chapter. Because to everybody else, how they view Joel, what he did to Marlene at the end, how you view David or the Hunters, it varies depending on each person and their ideals of morality and moral obligations to do what seems to be the right thing, and going against what seems wrong. It’s about finding what your limits are and where you as the player, personally draw the line. To Joel, it isn’t wrong. To anybody who has a child or a family, they agree with Joel. They would do the same thing. To the Fireflies, killing a young girl for a potential chance for a vaccine, as well as putting her under without her knowledge first was absolutely necessary. And that what Joel did by taking Ellie from them was horrible, as he doomed a potential chance for mankind - even if mankind might’ve been beyond repair at that point. To David and the cannibals, they didn’t see how they were much different than Ellie and Joel, they both “Kill to survive.” As David said, and had to do what was necessary so their group could live. But to Ellie she saw them as terrible people for eating human beings. 

All-in-all it wraps up into what you are willing to accept, and what you are not. I think after everything Ellie saw, she couldn’t just morph it all together into a simple answer of just, “Well Joel lied to me, he’s clearly a terrible person for robbing me of what I wanted and now I hate him, despite everything we went through together.” After David, everything Ellie had seen with Henry killing himself after seeing Sam turn, along with all the other horrific things - that’s exactly what caused Ellie to level with Joel. And Ellie knew full-well Joel was lying, and even Ashley Johnson, (Ellie’s actor), agrees with the fact that Ellie knew Joel was lying. Ellie is smart, she knew he was full of shit. But she embraced it anyway and said, “Okay.” Because this was something she was willing to understand. Looking back on all the moments, you can see Ellie’s unwillingness herself to let Joel go. Like the scene at the ranch house, how happy she was when Joel changed his mind on handing her over to Tommy, how she fell into his arms crying after killing David, and many other moments throughout the game. However, her saying, “Okay.”, doesn’t mean that she’s necessarily okay with him lying, it’s saying, “Okay. I understand why you’re doing this and why you’re saying this.” And it’s going from there. It seems like the whole journey was for nothing. But maybe it wasn’t, because in the end, Ellie and Joel figured out what they needed - and that was eachother. And, again, it was Ellie being able to replace guilt with acceptance. 

That’s also why I don’t agree with the whole Joel is dead theory in the trailer and him being a hallucination. Not only does it not make sense from a game design standpoint, but also a narrative standpoint. Neil said so himself, the story of The Last of Us is about Joel and Ellie and their relationship, it doesn’t feel right any other way. Besides, there’s only so much you can do if Joel is dead. I think playing out all what I just explained in Part II would be much more interesting and much more catering to how the first game went, and would allow us to become more attached to their characters and more involved in how we interpret decisions, character, and ideas of morals.

I Could See The Way You Look At Her~ Sammy Wilk (PART 3)

a:n/// very sorry for the delay. I couldn’t get the inspiration until today and I’m very proud of how it came out.
as always, enjoy :)

Why the hell was Stass calling me? What could she possibly want? Still, I answered.


“Y/N! I’m so happy to hear from you! I need your help"she said. What help did she need from me, besides drifting apart me and Sam.

“Uh- I’m sor-”

“Please Y/N"she begged. I sighed.

"What is it?"I asked. If it was something with Sam I was gonna flip.

"Well, it’s kind of about Sam"we started.

"Well, I don’t think you’ll need my help. He seems pretty content with you"I shot at her. I’m not sure where this wave of confidence came from but I sure was liking it.

"Y/N it’s not like that. I promise"she practically whispered.

"Then why’d you call me about Sam?"I asked, now confused.

"Well, I’m not sure what happened since he didn’t tell us. All I know is that you two aren’t together anymore. But Y/N, he’s so desperate for you"she said. I snorted.

"Stass, open your eyes. The reason we broke up is because he doesn’t love me anymore"I said.

"That’s not true. He’s only had eyes for you and only you. I’m begging you, just come over and see him. He’s at a low right now and really needs you"she begged.

"I don’t know"I sighed.

"Please Y/N"she said.

"Fine. When should I go?"I asked. Please don’t be today, please don’t be today I begged silently in my head.

"Um, right now is actually good, since he hasn’t disappeared"she said. Ugh. I really didn’t want to go there right now.

"Ok, I’ll be there soon"I said and hung up. I mentally cursed myself for being so nice as I flew through the grocery store, getting things I absolutely needed for tonight, like eggs, milk, cereal, bread, just simple stuff I could survive on for a night.

I quickly rushed to a line and payed. I grabbed all the bags and power walked to my car. Originally I would’ve just went right to Sam’s house, but I had to put all the stuff in the refrigerator. So I didn’t even bother taking the bags off, I just shoved most of the food into the fridge and left.

On the way to Sam’s house, I couldn’t help but wonder why the hell Stass would call me. Sam wanted to be with Stass, he didn’t disagree when I said he did, but now Stass can’t even help him.

Sam was probably in a huge grieving session. Although I only made myself have 2 days of grieving, Sam never seems to let go of things, especially the things that he cares about the most.

So, of course I was skeptical that I would help one bit. He needed some more time to grieve, and he’d soon be over it. The fact that everyone wanted to push him out of his grieving state was probably the reason why he felt so miserable. I may not be with Sam, but I still know way to much about him to know what’s wrong with him.

Still, I parked in the driveway and got out. I didn’t even knock on the door, Stass opened it up right before I was about to.

"Hey"she said, embracing me in a hug.

"Hi, where is he?"I asked, releasing from the hug.

"He’s upstairs in his room. It’s the second one to the left. I’m gonna leave now, so you’ll be all alone. Just try to get him out"she said. I nodded and she left.

"Stupid bitch thinks she knows what’s wrong with him"I muttered to myself. I went up the stairs quietly and went to the second door to the left. I couldn’t hear anything, but still I knocked on the door.

"Go away"he said.

"Let me in"I said.

"Y/N?"he asked.

"Sam, let me in"I said again.

"No, I just, I can’t I’m not-”

“Sam, please"I begged.

"Fine"he said. I slowly opened the door and found a surprise. His room was perfectly clean. Actually, it really wasn’t much of a surprise. Sam would always clean stuff up when something went wrong, that way he didn’t have "negative vibes” coming in and adding more stress. But my eyes darted away from the clean room to Sam.

He was shirtless, and I really wish he had a shirt on. He definitely lost weight; you were able to see it in his ribs but also his defined cheekbones. His face was red and puffy, a sign of crying. His eyes looked brown, not the usual green I always saw in his eyes.

I closed the door and stood there, waiting for him to look at me. A minute later he finally looked up at me and I wanted to bolt out and leave. I couldn’t take the pain, seeing his face so hurt.

“Why are you here?"he asked finally.

"Well, originally, Stass wanted me to come over to help you ‘get you out of the house’-”

“Of course"he scoffed.

"But,"I said loudly, making him look at me again, "I don’t need Stass to tell me what’s wrong with you. I already know"I said.

"How would you know? You haven’t been here for the past 3 days"he practically scoffed as he sat down on the bed. I sat down on his desk chair, right across from Sam.

"Well, that is true. But did you also forget that I’ve been with you for 2 years? Sam, I can say that I know you more then you know your own self. So I’m not going to tell you to get out of the house and get some fresh air. Or to get over the fact that we’re not together anymore. Instead, I’m gonna sit here and tell you to keep doing what you’re doing. Take all the time in the world you need to grief. Because no one knows why you’re going through and how much pain you’re going through besides you.” I put my elbows on my knees and leaned forward.

“Sam, I know you more then anyone in this house. And I know it’s hard for you to get over thing so quickly. You just need to take time. Everyone keeps telling you to get over it and that you need to man up or whatever bullshit they’re saying, but it’s only making you feel worse. You feel even more depressed then before, because you feel like everyone can get over things quickly besides you. But you’re just you Sam. That’s how you work. I know this is hard, fucking believe me, but I know it’s gonna work out for you"I finally finished.

He didn’t say anything for a while, and I let him enjoy this silence and think for a little. Then he spoke up.

"Y/N"he said, waiting for me to look at him.
"I’m in love with you right now more then I’ve ever been"he said. I almost choked on my own saliva.

"Sam-"I tried to say.

"No Y/N. Listen to me. You never got to listen to my side. I know that I’ve been distant, and I’m so fucking sorry. But I, I just wanted to make some more money for us. I wanted to get more popular, so that way I could do something for us. I wanted us to go on our own little vacation together. So I figured that once I started hanging out with Kylie and all her friends, I could gain some popularity. And more people would listen to my music and buy my songs. But fucking Stass always has to make it look like a different story. I don’t know how she does it, but she made it look like she was having the time of her life next to me whenever there was a phone or camera, but anytime after she wouldn’t even talk to me. I just wanted us to be alone, in our own little island or something, with no one bothering us. I, I just wanted to have a life with you. And you can damn well know that you are not leaving this house until you’re back with me. We both know that we love each other way to much to just let go of each other this easily."he said, staring me right in my eyes. He was waiting for a response from me, playing with his fingers, a sign he was nervous for what I was going to say.

I didn’t know what to say, or how to put it in words. But actions speak louder then words, so I stood up and so did Sam. And then I kissed him.

And I kissed him, hard. I had no reason not to. And he kissed back. I wrapped my arms around his neck as his hands traveled to my sides stopping at my waist, pulling us closer, if that was possible. He picked me up and laid me on the bed gently. He hovered over me, but not before telling me he loved me more then I could explain.

But I could explain it. We needed this. We needed to have this little break, this little separation. Because this is what made us come back stronger. I’m sure you know what happened after this, but I’m not sure you know what happened much after this. Sam ended up coming back to my apartment and bringing his stuff back, but not before telling everyone he was happily back with me and didn’t want to be with anyone else. (He may have also told Stass to fuck off.)

That night, Sam told me something I could never forget.

"Of all the 7 billion people in the world, I chose you. And I’m never letting go"he said, tracing letters on my back as we were ready to go to bed.

Although I don’t know what will happen to us in the future, I can guarantee we will always be together. And I can also guarantee that our love will never fade away.

But right now, as I lay next to Sam, who is almost asleep, I snuggle closer to him and peck his forehead, knowing that I more then happy where I am right now in life.

hope u guys enjoyed the whole series. probably one of my best pieces of work. I love you guys, thank you for all the support and patience.
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anonymous asked:

what are your favourite kabby moments and why?

Thank you nonnie, well, I’ve been going through another aggressive Kabby cycle of late so you either have very good timing or very bad, I’m not entirely sure which. You also didn’t specify a number of scenes…Which may have been a very bad thing as well because I’m unlikely ever to shut up…But I think you all expect this of me now anyway so without further ado:

1)- 1x05 ‘Thank You’ or that moment where Marcus isn’t as much of a dick as we first thought (and also look at the way he looks at her)

This one is actually quite early on (shipping from the start people) but I think it’s really important for both Kabby and Marcus as well because it’s that sort of, it’s not that he doesn’t want her play with Raven to fail out of spite and he definitely doesn’t want to proceed with this culling; he does want her plan to work, he wants Earth to be survivable, he wants that option and he’s taken steps to ensure that, if by some miracle it does work, he’s got people to report to him the second she gets through so they can stop this.

And I think this is a really big moment for Marcus in season 1, for the audience as well because it’s hard to get out of the knowledge that you have. You know as an audience that the ground is survivable, you know that Raven made it, you know that Abby’s right and Marcus is wrong which makes what he’s doing seriously hard to swallow but from his point of view he doesn’t know that. Abby is very much best case hope and Marcus is very much worst case planning here; he’s not a lunatic on a power trip, he’s just trying to do the best that he can for his people.

And I think that very genuine little ‘thank you’ that she gives him (and the way that she looks at him, mustn’t forget that, never going to be over that) is her sort of realising that fact at the same point we do and looking at him a little bit differently and I think it’s just really nice to see that these two, who are so often at loggerheads, so often opposed and arguing and fighting because they have such different viewpoints and ideals on how to get things done, are literally standing side-by-side in this scene and  I think it just really reinforces that they do have this common ground; they both want the same thing. He’s not bad and she’s not good so to speak, they just have different ways of going about things, but they’re united by this common goal and that becomes a really strong tie for them in later seasons so I enjoy this foundation work.

2)- I don’t care if the world is literally crumbling around my ears I am going to crawl through this tiny cramped little tunnel and save your stupid self Take 1 Marcus edition 1x11

Also known as that one scene that catapulted me from hmm, I like this, to otp fuck me and send help.

There are many things that I enjoy in this world, I am a person with simple pleasures, tea, a good book, a big slab of chocolate, and the smile that lights up Marcus Kane’s face when he holds Abby Griffin in his arms in that one scene in 1x11 and realises that she’s not dead. I don’t know if it was scripted for him to look like he’d just seen the damn sun after ten years encased underground or if it was an acting choice by Ian (goddammit Ian) but whatever it was, it delighted the life out of me so here we are.  

The physical contact in that scene is also really interesting as well, I think pretty much from the moment that his torch lights upon her and he runs to her and turns her over to wake her up, there really isn’t a moment at all where he’s not touching her in some way, either cupping her cheeks in his hands or helping guiding her down towards him or just flat out snuggling (I love that, I really do, the world is falling apart around them but we must take time out for Abby recovery cuddles, it’s wonderful) and I just really love the way she just slumps down with her head on his chest and it’s just a real sense of safety that she gets from him, he’s found her, he’s there with her, everything’s going to be alright now and she knows that there with him and it just, yeah there’s a lot there, it’s a fairly small little beat but damn if it didn’t ruin my life and make me into what I am today.

3)- ‘There has to be another way’ Take 1 - 1x13 

There is /so much/ to unpack in this scene and so much that I love about it and you know, you’re never getting an abridged version of anything with me so on we go.

The possessive little arm seatbelt of hers just ruins me okay, it really ruins me, just, he hasn’t even managed to untangle himself or stand up yet but she already knows exactly what he’s thinking and she also already knows that it’s not something she’s just willing to sit back and meekly watch happen and so the arm comes out and he gets glowered at and yes Marcus but what exactly do you think that you’re doing here? Because it’s not happening.

And I think that one of the more interesting things about this is that she never actually takes her hand away? If you watch that scene, all the way through his line about someone having to stay behind and all through her next line she shoots at Sinclair, the arm stays very, very firmly in place, reaching across his body and trying to keep him there and stop him rising. The only time that she actually takes it away is when he makes her? It’s hard to see (dammit) but I think it’s pretty obvious that just before his ‘salvation comes at a price’ line you can see him curl his fingers around the hand that’s still outstretched to him and just sort of, it’s a very nice physical way of telling her to let go of this, she can’t win every fight, there isn’t always another way, sometimes someone has to sacrifice themselves/suffer so that everyone else can get what they need.

Then we come to that little line that ‘there has to be another way’ which is just, incredibly important in this scene and spoken by Abby. It’s been her mantra the whole season, wanting to find another way around the culling, she has half a hundred suggestions at one point, she’s desperate for them to give the 100 more time to make contact and stop them going through with this and it’s a sentiment that carries into the next season but most interestingly it’s Marcus who really carries it through. That little beat in 2x03 with the grounder ‘there’s got to be a better way’ definitely echoes her and he repeats those very words of hers in the season 2 finale (but I’ll sob more about this later I just want to draw attention to another point of this meta to come, namely parallels between these two)

But yes, the point there was that this has been Abby’s mantra all season; but a lot of the time it’s been directed /against/ him. He has been the one she has been saying find another way to, but now they’ve come to the point that he wants to sacrifice himself but she’s saying this for him now, to try and save him. And this time, he’s right, someone does have to stay behind, and he’s decided that it has to be him and just, there isn’t another line of dialogue exchanged between them in that scene after that and the silent communication that we get between the two of them is amazing.

Her desperate, pleading look towards him just before he stands up and his half-placating, half-insistent and impatient look back as she silently says don’t do this, don’t leave him, and him just, this is his choice, he has to do this and god her face when he stands up and makes it absolutely clear that he’s going through with it is soul destroying.

And then, to cap it all, we have the final nail in the coffin of every Kabby shipper barely keeping it together and the hand hoooolding which is just, okay who decided this was an okay thing to do to me I mean really. But I think there’s a lot of symbolism in that, I think it’s both, something of a resolution for their earlier arc, a certain coming together (made more poignant when they become the first two to step out onto the ground together and an idea of coming at this a little more united than they were before) but I think it’s also a lot about acceptance? She’s accepting his choice here, his decision, she doesn’t want him to do this, in fact she’s jus actively tried to prevent him from doing so, but he has to.

And there’s a certain feeling of their earlier arcs all wrapped up in this because he wants to make the sacrifice play, a clear echo to the culling, put the needs of the many before the needs of the few (in this case himself) and she wants to find another way, a way that they can all survive, a way that they can all get through this but someone has to stay behind. He listened to her, he waited to see if Sinclair could give them other options this time, but there weren’t any, so he went on ahead with this and I think that hand holding is a nicely little way of binding up their arc and yes, they have their differences, but I think there is that sense that they can come together, they can work together, they can present a united front, and ironic as it is when he’s about to stay behind, it’s the idea that they can get through this together, with a little bit of both of their mentalities and just, I don’t know, I’ve gone on too long about this already.

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oh my god. I’ve just watched the promo for 3x09 -

they’re on a Ward hunt. Remember what happened with their last mission? All of their top agents were in the field, and the only people left at the base were red shirts and FitzSimmons. So Ward is using himself as bait, pretending he wants to kill Coulson, and once everybody is out he’ll sneak in and KIDNAP FITZSIMMONS. This makes so much sense, guys. 

Malick said nobody has ever come back - but hear me out. Hydra has had the technology to open the portal, at will, and for however long they needed, since at least the 1940′s (tbh that castle equipment actually looked even older) and they have a mini-monolith. Are you telling me nobody has ever tried to go in and then back out with a wire or a cord? And if the problem was bringing people back, couldn’t they re-open the portal after a few minutes and let them through? Yes it moves location, but in a short time period it doesn’t go that far (as proved by Jemma’s rescue). So what is the deal exactly? I think the portal never let anybody go through in the opposite direction, I think they’ve always believed it was a one way street. The first person who went in and brought something back with him was Fitz. The bringing something back bit is fundamental, because they need to bring back Big Baddie. So I think Malick wants Fitz, because he did what nobody else ever could, and maybe even Simmons, because she survived

One more thing - we’ve all assumed the Sandstorm and the hooded figure Jemma saw were a manifestation of Evil. We are now thinking it was the Ultimate Inhuman, but it’s almost all too obvious, isn’t it? So far, nothing has been what it seemed. What if the Sandstorm Figure is the jailer? What if it’s neither good nor bad, what if it just wants to make sure Ultimate Inhuman doesn’t leave? It’s like the Planet’s security system. What is the ONE thing the Sandstorm did? It stopped Will from going through. It didn’t stop Jemma, didn’t even go after her (if it’s oh so powerful, would it let a 40something normal human astronaut stop him with one bullet?), it just wanted Will to stay. Ideally, I think it wouldn’t have let anyone leave the Planet at all, but its main object wasn’t Simmons. And this time, I really hope all of our theories won’t be swept off by a picture on a broken sim card.