she was a moth

Sana is now playable for the most part. Her shot type is wide to be more beginner friendly along with a bag of other tricks like a near 1 pixel hitbox.

I am debating if I should widen the angle of her shot to cover more screen but I am pretty certain if I do I will need to add a couple more lines of fire from her in order to fill in the gaps that will be made. If anyone watches the video and has any strong feelings about the matter one way or the other please do let me know!

Please try to ignore the art that is still left over from the prototype (namely the screen wide dust animation, the ‘hit explosions’, the center shot sprite and the moth balls that are hovering around her. They are temporary but rest assured they are offering Sana the ultimate in moth tactical support for now!).

I also started adding Sana’s character switch to the intro stage dialogues. She takes herself very seriously but she is also a very tiny moth.. a fact that is brought up by other characters much to her frustration. She wears those little platforms to get just a bit more height!

I need to decide on the spread of her shot type, then implement and balance her scoring mechanic and damage. After which I need to add a HUD graphic for her specific mechanics (just numbers for debugging atm). After all of that is done I will move onto finishing stage 02 with blocks and circles and the probably come back and redo all of the background art for the intro stage and move back into stage 02 for it’s art.

So much to do so back to work with me!

i had this friend. loud, vivacious, and brimming with energy and colour. her sun-bright smile drew others to her like moths to flame; and yet she could always pick me out from the crowd effortlessly. i wondered how she did that, why she’d pick me over many. 

she was the kind of person you could never look away from for long, but i saw her better from my peripherals. when she lifted her chin, her face would become awash with glowing light; and then she’d laugh about her pale skin, and the ruddy cheeks and dark freckles would appear again, as if they’d momentarily blanked out. when she grew protective, her blue eyes would spark dangerously and burn white; and then she’d blink, and the glint of her glasses would stand in with explanation. 

but i saw her best from the back. when she’d run, her fire-bright curls would flare out behind her like wings.

as flighty as she was, she always came back to me. i wondered why. 

she told me, once. 

one day, before class had started, when i was in the middle of falling asleep in the sunbeam warming my desk, she turned around in her seat to talk to me. she spoke with her whole body, from her waving hands to her bouncing shoulders. 

then she petered off, and settled into stillness. watchfulness. despite all the eyes on her, she only saw me. 

“hey,” she said. “could you look at me for a sec?” 

and when i lifted my head to look at her straight on, she smiled as if she’d found the answer. 

“look at that,” she murmured. “your eyes have halos in them too.” 

Polyphemus moth I tried to find a sunny spot for today. They were in an area with lots of activity where they could be stomped on so I moved them to a little area in the courtyard with bushes and trees. Hopefully they warmed up by lunch and were able to go on their way (i did my best to avoid touching the wings as they’re rather sensitive).

I was a little hesitant to put this up but I decided to anyway. In any case I’m a huge sucker for reverse beauty and the beast stories because monster girls are my favorite.

It’s not shaded or colored anything and it’s kind of messy but I tried. Anyway I guess in this story a bug monster girl and Karamatsu become pals… AND MAYBE MORE??? I mean, if he doesn’t, I’ll date her.

Idk if this is common knowledge or not but the nightmare in Red Belt was def. connected to the Mewberty ep in more ways than the hearts.

The music at that point sounds v. similar to the music that would play when Mewberty Star shoved a boy into a locker… Margo found their dead body in a locker… which was covered in Mewberty hearts.

It rlly looks like a representation of being gendered as a boy, in a way that is meant to look horrifying (being attacked by a giant moth? implication of death? horrifying). But they doesn’t have the words to express what is horrifying them so much and so what they comes up with is “I’m… wearing a suit?”

Tldr the nightmare scene is covered in gender-related imagery from the show & even uses music parallelling these scenes of Star literally pinning people down and shouting “BOY!” so it really is stronger evidence than I realized.

The Light shall lead her safely
Through the paths of this world, and into the next.
For she who trusts in the Maker, fire is her water.
As the moth sees light and goes toward flame,
She should see fire and go towards Light.
The Veil holds no uncertainty for her,
And she will know no fear of death, for the Maker
Shall be her beacon and her shield, her foundation and her sword.

anonymous asked:

I just read your unreliable narrators + mental illness post and I'm honestly a bit confused?? I thought unreliable narrators were unreliable bc their version of events is contrary to what's really happening, regardless of mental illness. For the Moth Diaries example, we know she's unreliable even if we don't know what the truth is, because we DO know something's up. Could you clarify this maybe?

Referring to [THIS POST]

An unreliable narrator is a character that is misleading the reader.

We’ll use The Moth Diaries as an example here.

The story of The Moth Diaries is about a young girl experiencing a confusing and traumatic incident. The narrative follows her private attempts to understand and deal with what is happening around her. It is framed through the device of the diary being divulged as a part of therapeutic treatment later in the character’s life.

Whether or not the vampire is a real monster, in the sense of it being a supernatural creature, is largely irrelevant to the story. The narrative is concerned with how the protagonist deals with trauma and loss, and with how she deals with (or doesn’t deal with) the issues that arise out of her conflict with her school peers and her dawning mental health problems.

The question of the ‘truth’ of events as they are presented is not important, because the story isn’t about whether or not Ernessa was really a vampire. The story is about the internal struggle of the protagonist.

Think of it this way; this is a personal story from the perspective of an individual who has mental health problems, detailing her personal experiences at the time, and how she perceived events.

If you had the same story told from someone else’s perspective, where this hypothetical person said “No, Ernessa was completely normal, but [unnamed protagonist] was going off the rails when we were in school,” then BOTH of these narratives can be true, so far as the story is concerned. Because they are both differing perspectives on the same events.

Essentially, the story is not about Ernessa, or vampirism, it’s about the protagonist’s perception of the events. As long as the protagonist in this story is attempting honestly to convey her own experiences, in a story that is entirely about those personal experiences, then she’s a completely reliable narrator.

Let’s say that in the world of the story, that is, the ‘reality’ of the story that the protagonist inhabits, there are no vampires. Ernessa is completely normal and there are completely rational explanations for everything that the protagonist experienced or saw. 

The story is still about her personal perception of reality.

A flawed analogy would be putting an apple in front of someone who’s red-green colour blind and asking them what colour it is. They could say ‘brown’, which is correct from their perspective. They could guess, and say ‘red’ which might or might not be correct, but would NOT be an accurate account of their perception of reality. 

The colour blind protagonist who describes the apple as red is unreliable. They’re willing to guess to fill in details, or outright make them up to try and get as close as possible to a believable story. They are lying about their experience.

The colour blind protagonist who describes the apple as brown is objectively wrong – the apple is red or green, right? The reader will say “Apples aren’t brown! That apple is green!” 

But how can a colour blind protagonist know that? Unless someone else tells them what colour the apple ‘really’ is, or they guess? 

To tell the truth as they know and perceive it, the colour blind protagonist says the apple is brown.

This is something that is difficult to juggle when using a first person perspective or a very closely focalised third person perspective. Yes, as the author, you may know that the FACTS in your fictional world are XY & Z. But how much information does your focalising character have access to?

  • What if your character only knows about Y? 
  • What if they’ve never even considered X, and there’s a social taboo in their culture about even mentioning Z?
  • What if your character instead perceives AB & C? Are AB & C necessarily false? Or are they partial truths? or is B really X from a different perspective?
  • If your character KNOWS X, but they tell their audience/ the reader that they don’t, or if they mislead the audience/ reader about the nature of X, then they become unreliable.
  • If the character only knows what they’ve been told about X (and that’s ‘factually’ incorrect), or if they only have knowledge of X through their own (biased, flawed, mentally ill, etc) and they try to convey X to the extent of their own knowledge, then they’re attempting to give an honest account. The information they’ve got is flawed, but the intent is to tell the story as truthfully as they are able to.

And, of course, there are going to be characters who’s mental illness does contribute to them being unreliable. There are going to be characters who are too paranoid to tell the truth, who will invent details, who lie to make themselves look better, who lie to try to convince the reader of something. A character doing these things may or may not be doing it as a part of their mental illness, but mental illness in itself doesn’t make the character unreliable.

Especially when, as with The Moth Diaries, the point of the narrative is to show the subjective experience of that person, including whatever paranoias, delusions, false realities, etc, they experience. 

The key is: did the character experience the thing that they’re telling you they experienced, whether or not it was ‘just in their head’?

If yes, they are reliable. Reliable does not mean that what they are saying is absolutely ‘true’, it only means that the character is relating events as they experienced them.

i had the strangest ml dream last night

it was like my brain was watching the finale

i dont remember much btu i do remember that chat blanc was chat noir’s “true” form or whatever the fuck…and once they defeated hawk moth and he was rid of all of his “bad luck” the black kind of dripped out of his suit like ink, and suddenly he was all white and became some sort of powerful, happy and pure being

i dont know???

before that lb and cn defeated hawk moth and ??? lb was so relieved she gave chat a big kiss but then they like 

fell from a high building?? 

but their transformations were about to run out and they destransformed just as they splashed into a pool of water and once they resurfaced they just looked at each other and laughed and hugged and i 

dont know what to think of this


Melancholia Bird.

Melancholia Bird doesn’t have her own voice, she is an echo of people’s sorrows. A long time ago she has lost the wings;
she gave the feathers for restless sad souls who met on the way - and now at least in a dream they could fly .
She retained only one dilapidated and moth-eaten black feather with an emerald tint, in memory of the times when she was alive free bird.

Art doll for Alicja Rodzik.