Hey Steph! So m, after reading your Mary metas, I completely agree with you that she's a villain and that hers and John's relationship is toxic. However, I'm jw, in your opinion, do you think John genuinely love(d) her? Thanks!
Hey Nonny! Thank you! I’m glad you enjoyed the majority of my Mary Meta! I have a tonne more, I just need to pile them together, LOL.
As I mention in this post here, I think John chose Mary initially because he thought she was the safer of the two options he was presented. He loved the IDEA of Mary – soft, innocent, sweet, seemingly loved John despite his obsession with Sherlock – but once he married her he was bored out of his skull. In the end, though, John went back with Mary because Sherlock told him to, because Sherlock knew John was safer with her because she was obsessive about keeping him, and Sherlock didn’t want John dead because he really thought she would stoop to killing him so Sherlock couldn’t have him or to burn out his heart… essentially what I believe was her original mission.
And vice versa, Mary was using John for protection. That’s why she was so adamant about keeping him.
There’s also an interesting theory here that Mary had been drugging John post S3 to make him think he loved her as well. It’s a bit far fetched but it’s fun all the same.