I was in a conversation with a couple other fans about Clarke and leadership in s4 and @ship-picky said, “What I love about Clarke is how she can’t quite compartmentalize her life like Lexa. Even when she tries, her big heart just bleeds over.”
(and I was saying) Yes!! Her heart is too big. On top of that, I do think there’s a strong analogy in that what Clarke did for Lexa as a function—to represent a reason for Lexa to keep her heart open, to be an anchor of humanity… That’s what Bellamy and Abby do for Clarke. Even when they aren’t there (Bellamy in 408), or when they themselves are compromised or unsure (Abby in 408) it’s like the love and lessons and life and strength that Clarke has gotten from knowing them (and beyond them, her friends) helps her stay true to herself and remember what she believes in. Clarke doesn’t just do better with the support of loved ones, she incorporates their strength into her own in ways that continue even when she feels alone or burdened. When she is on the edge of losing herself under the pressure, their love brings out the strength that’s already inside her. That’s what Clarke’s love did for Lexa and I think in a lot of ways that’s what Bellamy and Abby’s love does for Clarke. Love and connection freed Lexa from being nothing but a leader. Love and connection bolsters Clarke in being a better leader.
Samantha: Sweet Sam has always been “the good twin.” She picked out (and decorated) the home her sister and her live in now shortly after their parents passed away. Her job as a nurse doesn’t pay much, but she’s hoping to move up in her career soon. For now she has a great boyfriend, wonderful home, steady job, and potential supernatural powers in the horizon….
Kimberly: Nonconforming Kim has always been “the reason-for-my-gray-hair twin.” Some say it’s her aggression that makes her the way she is, others just think she didn’t get enough love as a baby. Kim, however, just views herself as unique, and beyond the silly matters that others take comfort in. Her job in the military is a start, but she really doesn’t see herself staying there long. While she hates the style of the home she lives in, she was eager to move to Belladonna Cove. Rumor has it one can learn spells and even become a witch here, isn’t that something?
i know that’s hard to imagine with chloe, but for a moment, imagine she says something impossibly cruel, something she doesn’t necessarily mean, perhaps as a way to keep the upper hand, to win an argument, to keep up the superiority complex she has, what have you
imagine it’s directed to marinette who’s usually up and ready to banter back with her….and marinette doesn’t take it well
maybe it’s personal. maybe it digs deep in a way that marinette didn’t expect. but it leaves her with tears welling up, or perhaps it makes her run from the room in mortification
adrien screams at chloe, asks her what she was thinking. even sabrina is edging away from her and can’t look her in the eye. imagine the entire class losing complete respect for her and completely shutting her out.
imagine chloe being alone
it’s maddening: adrien and sabrina won’t talk to her, no one will sit next to her in class, no one acknowledges her, and all she gets from the entire class is dirty stares
marinette’s are the worst. marinette stares at chloe like she’s wishing the world’s misfortune on her. marinette’s never looked at chloe like that.
and it isn’t until she sees how marinette bores holes into the back of her head during class that chloe realizes she really messed up
imagine her hastily putting together a half-assed apology so that people will start talking to her again. but marinette isn’t having it.
“you know, that’s really cold. to just apologize to me bc you want your friends back and not bc you mean it. how dare you. don’t waste my time with this again unless you mean it.”
after that, marinette isn’t mad at her anymore. she’s just done. it’s as if chloe is invisible, as if chloe isn’t at all worth her time, as if nothing chloe does can affect her anymore. sabrina still won’t speak to her. adrien acts as if he can’t recognize her.
and that’s when chloe realizes she made a huge mistake. and she feels bad.
so she actually starts apologizing. leaving apology notes in marinette’s locker and on her desk. sending her fb messages pleading with her to hear her out. approaching her desk everyday and asking her if she’ll just please speak to her and let her apologize.
but marinette throws the notes out. blocks her on fb. ignores her when she approaches her. won’t let her in.
chloe tries to do little things. orders huge commissions from the dupain-cheng bakery just to give them business. stops by in the mornings for croissants and fills their tip jar with bills. sends marinette expensive designer clothes in the mail to give her inspiration. offers to drop off her homework to her parents when marinette is sick.
it does nothing, even though marinette notices the gestures, but chloe keeps trying
because she never actually meant to hurt anyone this bad. she knows no one will believe her when she says this but this isn’t what she wanted. she didn’t want marinette to treat her like this. didn’t want anyone to treat her like this.
and deep down, she realizes that ladybug – her idol, her hero, her role model – would hate what she’s done. and disappointing ladybug is the absolute last thing she ever wanted to do.
so chloe keeps working. working to make ladybug proud. working to win back marinette’s trust. working to show adrien and sabrina that they weren’t wrong to befriend her. working to show the whole class that she’s a good person. deep down. somewhere. she is. she promises. she’ll show them.
one day after school, when there’s a torrential downpour and marinette has no umbrella, chloe catches her before she leaves, gives her an umbrella, and apologizes for probably the hundredth time. marinette doesn’t respond to the apology, but accepts the umbrella, mutters a short thanks, and heads home
chloe accepts the coldness, realizes she deserves it, and doesn’t stay angry. instead, she pulls her sweater over her head to cover herself from the rain, and waits on the steps for her car to come
she doesn’t realize that there’s an old man a few blocks from the school who watched the whole exchange
when chloe gets home, she finds a small wooden box with strange markings sitting on her desk that she doesn’t remember putting there
she opens it to find a haircomb shaped like a bumblebee
And why the Attack on Titan anime adaptation once again proves itself to be incredible.
Sasha reading her bow and telling the kid to keep going is an amazing moment in the manga already–Isa deserves all the credit here. In the og flashback, Sasha refuses to abandon her principles just because outsiders are in trouble, she refuses to help them; a perhaps egocentric, but also human point of view-we tend to prioritize us and those closest to us over strangers. Then, in the current time, Sasha tells the kid to run bc she’ll certainly find kind and helpful people ahead; and stays herself behind to fight; she fights knowing that proper victory cannot be achieved, to save a random stranger; a kid, further emphasising that Sasha herself has grown into a great person and abandoned that egocentric child she once was.
It’s great stuff, but the animated execution of it made me realize just how good it actually is.
In the yumikuri flashback the S1 version of counterattack mankind starts…its positive a track expressing a sense of optimism and peace, it suits the “ordinary moments” she thinks about. Then, we cut back to present time. A newer arrangement of the track, led by faint strings with hints of an organ in the background–there’s a distant but growing intensity in there.
As Sasha talks to the kid, most of it is shot from the kid’s perspective, so we get to look up to Sasha–she’s seen as the grown up here, perfectly fitting the above characterization. In the meantime, the music grows ever stronger-the organ is very present, and drums are added too. The buildup to the sequence is thus heavily emphasized. Also, listen carefully to Kobayshi Yuu (who’s performance here I loved). There’s definitely exasperation in her voice–they’ve been running for some time and are chased by a titan, not to mention that she’s afraid. Yet, you can still find a lot of tenderness in there–the kid is supposed to feel safe and secure, despite everything going on, and it just makes you love Sasha even more.
Let’s get to the real meat
I LOOOOVE this scene. Sasha spinning on her feet to stop and get into position looks really cool…but its’ the following take that I adore the most
The spin kills her entire momentum…she stands still and ready, and the camera lingers on her. But the kid didn’t do any spin, kid’s still going, not slowing down. Sasha however wants kid to keep going, seems to use her spin as a way to propel kid forward. And the moment her arm is separated from kid, the camera moves on as well–doing so, Sasha’s staying-behind-to-fight is visually translated and further emphasized without the viewer consciously realizing it. I have a hard time describing it, but there’s an incredibly powerful sense of organic dynamism in there that just sells the scene. It’s excellent visual storytelling, not only of the situation, but also of Sasha’s character–she’s strong and altruistic now, and she’ll fight against all odds to save the kid in need. Yuu’s performance here is perfect as well–there’s now definitive desperation to be heard, alongside remaining hints of kindness but also a certain intensity. Sasha is afraid–she has no equipment to protect herself, she has no weapons to eliminate the threat, but in spite of that, she still sends the kid away, she still stays behind, she still stands in the way of the titan.
And THAT shows just how brave she is–Sasha overcomes her weaknesses, she fights against all odds, she dedicates her heart–and that is what the anime manages to portray so masterfully here.
And of course, that is what the best shot of the episode does.
We get an incredibly gorgeous wide shot…starting off once again from below, keeping both the titan and Sasha in frame, reminding us of the threat ahead of her, but in one amazing panning zoom, we fly all the way to a closeup filled with nothing but fierceness. The visual alone is amazing in its own regard, but the sound is what truly rounds it up. Counterattack Mankind A reaches its climax, going all out on instruments, cue-ing the all-so-familiar melody in an immensely epic arrangement worthy of the scene it accompanies. Kobayashi Yuu 100% sells it too–her first “now-go” is still a bit feeble and unsure as mentioned above, the 2nd “run” already stronger but there are still hints of fear….and then, with the musical cue behind, after getting a full frontal close-up–the all out “get runnin’!”, filled with nothing but raw energy and determination–Sasha’s abandoned all fear and is in all out character-climax-badass mode. Her shout echoes through the woods, the kid is literally hit by a shockwave and finally starts running (sidenote–her eyes were dark and lifeless throughout the ep, but only after that do they lighten up, adding once more weight to Sasha’s moment). And of course, Sasha’s accent arc comes to full circle in the same frame as well, as she yells the command out in her native dialect she’s tried to hide for so long. Pretty much everything that could’ve come full circle did–in terms of writing, performance, sound and visuals.
It’s an amazing sequence deserving of ludicrous praise for the creative staff–they’ve proven once more that Attack on Titan is a work of art. The manga is already without a doubt amazing–most of the points above stem from it after all-but the anime is so ridiculously good at presenting I sometimes can’t believe it with my own two eyes.
In case you couldn’t tell, I fucking loved this sequence and I’m gonna yell about Sasha all week long.
Can i request a Jeff Atkins imagine where hes like a badboy but when Y/N
is the new girl at Liberty and Clay takes her under his wing, Jeff
feels the need to protect her and be good for her? And then at a party
he sees Monty and Y/N flirting so he gets wasted and Y/N ends up taking
him to her house and taking care of him and he drunkenly confesses his
softy feelings for her?
Pairing:bad boy!Jeff Atkins x fem!reader
A/N:OMG GUYS YOU’RE AMAZING!The first part got so many notes?WHoa-M
It was almost time.She checked herself in the mirror one more time before taking her phone.She send a quick message to Jessica,telling her that she was on her way.Taking a deep breath,she exited the house and started walking all the way to her friend’s house.
Emotionally,she wasn’t ready.She didn’t like dancing,she didn’t like drinking,she wasn’t just like everyone else.She would be like a fish out of water.At first she decided to not go.But after Jessica insisted on her attending the party because “it’s gonna be epic girl" she changed her mind.Not because she thought that she’d actually have fun though.She did it for Jessica. She wouldn’t like it if she told her she couldn’t go.
After a couple of minutes, she was there.A few people were out,drinks in their hands,enjoying the night.She quickly got inside in order to find Jessica. The music was so loud,her ears started pounding.She pushed past some “dance maniacs"as she said under he breath.
Suddenly,someone from behind grabbed her right arm and span her around.It was Jessica,thank God…
The young woman put her hands around Y/Ns neck and started swaying back and fourth.
“You’re here!“She shouted and smiled widely.Y/N snorted and shook her head in disbelief.
“It’s eleven thirty and you’re already wasted?Unpredictable!”
“What,me?Not even-” She didn’t manage to finish her sentence because she found the person she’d been searching for minutes now.Justin waved and smiled at her and she nodded.
“Well,hun,i gotta go!Have fun tonight!Jeff is around here somewhere!You better find him!” She said happily,unwrapping her hands from her.
“Hey,” Y/N shouted as she was to head to her boyfriend. “Be careful alright? ”
Jessica gave her a small kiss on the cheek. “Sure,i always am!”
Y/N shook her head once more;that party wasn’t gonna end up well.She took a look around,her hands folded to her chest,in case she found Clay.But he was nowhere to be seen.He said he would come but he probably changed his mind and stayed home.“Something that i should’ve done too…"She told herself.
Everything about the party seemed so wrong to her.She didn’t fit in there.Plus,she couldn’t find anyone to even talk to so she decided to go out and wait for Clay,in case he came later.
She sat on the front porch and that was when she saw him.No,not Clay.The other guy,the guy from the “hall incident”.He had a red cup in his hands and stood at the right of the front garden with some of his friends Y/N didn’t even know their names.
She couldn’t help but stare at his beautiful face,his beautiful eyes.Eyes that after a few seconds looked back at her.She didn’t pull away though.His expression was unreadable,vague. They stayed like that for a few moments before he looked away.
Y/N started playing with her fingers as she intently stared at the white tiles of Jessica’s porch.Why were things so complicated between her and Jeff?What the hell had she done to him?She was afraid to ask him,she couldn’t tell why.Her liking him was wrong and she knew it very well.Because such a famous boy would never want to be with the girl who “daydreams”.Besides,the rumors of him not being in long term relationships were likely true.They had to be.
“Hey,Y/N!“A male voice said.She looked to her left and saw Moty,a good friend of Bryce.He took a seat next to her as he smiled widely.
“Oh,hey Moty!“She said and forced a grin.Honestly,the last thing she wanted was Montgomery to keep her company.
“Beautiful night,isn’t it?“He asked,looking up at the dark sky which was full of stars.Y/N did the same and nodded.
“Yeah,it is indeed.”
“But not as beautiful as you though!Don’t get jealous please!”
Y/N couldn’t help but laugh at his words.Really.Had the poor guy lost all his chances with all the girls at the party and his last option was her?Was he just playing around?She didn’t know and she didn’t care.
“Honestly Moty,that’s the best thing i’ve heard all night!“She said as she wiped away some tears that had escaped her eyes.
"Honestly Y/N,that wasn’t even funny but i’m glad i made you laugh. ”
Suddenly,they both heard Zach yelling at someone.Y/N immediately looked at his direction. It was Jeff.He was yelling at Jeff.Something serious must have happened because Zach hardly made a scene.
"Dude,fuck off!It’s not my fault alright?You’re drunk as fuck and you don’t know what you’re saying!Talk to me when you sober up,i’m out…"He said angrily and not bothering looking at her or Moty,he went inside the house.
Y/N tilted her head to the left to see Montgomery’s reaction; He stood up in an instant and went to where Jeff and three other were,probably to ask of what happened.
As soon as he saw Moty,Jeff grabbed him by the collar and punched him in the face.
"You won’t ever talk to Y/N again,you understand?"He shouted and pushed him away.Moty tried to fight back but the others separated them.
"What the fuck is wrong with you Atkins?"He shouted as he touched his mouth,only to see his fingers being covered in blood.
Y/N’s mind was on fire.Many questions started crossing her mind.Was Jeff watching her the whole time?Why did he care about her and Moty talking?How the hell did he even know her name when she never told him?Indeed,what the fuck was wrong with Jeff Atkins?And that time,she wouldn’t let all these questions unanswered. Next thing she knew was that her legs were taking her to him.
If you read that tmz article, it basically implies Eleanor tried to run away whilst louis got arrested. A person held her there (ie the citizens arrest) for the police. She's being questioned, not charged in relation to it. It says it all there. Instead of staying with Louis she tried to run away and save herself !!!
i hate this situation but i’m gonna send the person that held that little swine there a fruit basket
Hm... something about Rey and the ghost of Shmi Skywalker?
Rey is 273 days on Jakku when the woman with the dark eyes and the faint lines around her eyes bends down, and helps her wash the dust and debris from a hyperspace drive port. (Two and a half portions, never let it be said that Rey doesn’t know her worth.) “There,” the woman says, and when she smiles the lines around her eyes carve even deeper. When Rey drags the brush over the drive port, no sand kicks up. “Shiny and new. Go on, now—you can’t let him run out of portions.”
“’m Rey,” Rey says, breathless, clutching the port to her chest.
“Go!” the woman says, and Rey runs. She gets in line just in time to get the last three portions from Unkar. But when tries to find the woman after—
The sand is empty of sentients, and no one seems to know the human woman with dark hair, darker eyes, not even when Rey wanders among the camps and asks for her. Rey is only 273 days, and hungry, and so she eats there, squatted down in the sand outside someone’s tent—scarfing down half-mixed portions because she’s dizzy with starving, and she can’t wait. If the dark-haired woman wanted some, she should have been easier to find.
Rey sleeps that night full—or, at least, what she thinks is full—and dreams of a wattle-and-daub hut, and a woman with dark hair, dark eyes, laughing. The woman’s son sits with sun-bleached hair, his mouth is skewed as he works on a droid to help his mother with the customers that come. Rey helps too, and when he smiles at her, it feels like coming-home.
They are so happy, and Rey wakes crying, even though that is water she cannot afford to lose.
“No, not that one,” the woman says, and Rey drops the part like it burns her hand to touch. She whirls around, and there is the woman with the dark eyes, dark hair. She’s smiling, a little bemusedly, at Rey, at the specific part Rey was trying to extract from the mess of decay and rust.
“What’s wrong with it?” Rey demands. She is six hundred and seven days now, and she thought—
“Navigation systems are fiddly,” the woman says, stepping towards her, and then she is there, close enough for Rey to touch, to—“Biologic growth damages them first, interferes with the electro-magnetic signaling. This has—” she grunts, and the part comes away in her hand. “This has overgrown. It’s not worth installing again, it’ll just send the ship off-course trying to follow all those awful fractals.”
“What good does that do me?” Rey asks, thinking of all the portion she’s lost, if this stranger is right. She’d just wanted—
But the stranger smiles, and her eyes crinkle at the corners. “Come on,” she says, lowering herself to sit on the durasteel floor of the mighty star destroyer. “I’ll show you a trick my unscrupulous master showed me, on how to make it look as though tech has never been damaged.”
Rey spends the whole afternoon with her chin hooked over the woman’s soft shoulder, watching as she shows Rey how to reroute, undo, lay down new electric pathways. She smells like something sharp, the way Rey has always imagined ozone would smell if Rey had ever found the courage to leave the atmosphere. Her eyes are older than her face, that much Rey knows for sure.
“There you go,” the woman finally says, pressing the piece into Rey’s hand. “Good as new. Plutt won’t even be able to tell the difference, so you shouldn’t accept less than five and a quarter portions—”
“What about you?” Rey asks. The woman is warm, and alive, and human, and Rey finds herself hoping she’s her mother. Just to have something, someone. And especially her, with her crinkled eyes, the way she rests a hand against Rey’s cheek like—
“Oh, I’m fine,” the woman says, and Rey’s heart falters. “You will be full, on five and a quarter portions. That’s enough.”
Rey eats alone, eats until she is sick on constituted bread and meat, and she lies in her own bed biting down on her fist to keep herself from crying.
Sometimes, Rey looks out of the corner of her eye, and there she is, the woman with the dark hair and the dark eyes. “Hello, Mother,” Rey begins greeting her at some point, muttered in between breaths as she extracts another part, as she wakes from her midday nap in the shadowy berth of a star destroyer, as she forces herself to stay longer, work harder.
Sometimes, she hears someone murmur, hello, daughter, but she’s not sure. She’s not.
Poor affection-starved Rey, longing for a family, any family, even a ghost. Even the vague shape, even a shadow. Even the hint of a mother, whispering in her ear, droids have always been harbingers of good news, of better things ahead. Strangers may be angels. You are more. Run, go. I will follow you there.
Rey isn’t sure, really, but in the barracks of D’Qar, Rey tosses and turns, until a cool hand comes to rest on her forehead, her neck. Shhh, a voice that is not quite the Force but might be something similar, whispers. It strokes its cool knuckles over the rabbit-pulse of her jugular. Shh, rest. You have a war to fight in the morning.
Luke has holos of his family—Padmé Amidala and Anakin Skywalker, Uncle Owen and Aunt Beru Whitesun-Lars. But it’s the holo of their their step-mother, Shmi, that stops Rey in her tracks, stops her breathing at all. Anakin’s mother, Luke says, but Rey is holding onto he lightsaber too tightly to hear.
I know her, she says, and Luke goes still, blinks.
She used to—sing me lullabies, Rey says, because that’s all she can remember just now, the dark-haired-dark-eyed woman—Shmi Skywalker, chosen to be Mother of the Living Force, blessed, holy—humming in Rey’s darkened AT-AT. Shmi singing in Huttese; warm and calloused hands, a rough voice singing of how much she loved, would protect—
Luke catches Rey before she hits her knees, gathers her up to his chest. Shh, Luke murmurs, stroking her hair as Rey sobs. Shhh, it’s all right. Everything will—it’ll turn out right. It’ll be—it’ll be right.
Rey feels a cool touch at her forehead (impossible, Luke’s hands are hot at her waist, and—) and she sobs again, feeling hollow, feeling like she’s come home, somehow, impossibly. It is a war, she shouldn’t feel….
Shh, Luke and his grandmother whisper together, cradling Rey against the bulwark of light they represent. Shh.
When we first meet Maggie, we learned three basic things about the character: she’s an out and proud lesbian, she’s a cocky little shit, she cares a lot about people. For a while, this is all we had to hold on to. Maggie’s layers were added painstakingly slowly, and you had to pay attention to see what they were. Looking back, the traits that made Maggie Sawyer the woman we love, were always there, we just didn’t know it.
Imagine being mute and Daryl saving you from Shane's advances
WARNING : MENTIONS OF ASSAULT/ NEAR RAPE EXPERIENCE
(Wooo Daryl :3 and shame on you Shane -_- lol sorry I made Shane an ass but that’s the request XD so hope it is as requested and you all like it :D Gif not mine/found it on google/credit to the original owner.)
From the start of the outbreak, you found yourself being part of a group that had bonded over while stuck in the traffic.
Despite having difficulty communicating with them, as you were born mute, they had welcomed you and had found different ways to talk to you.
Over the time, you had grown close to Daryl, as he would often offer you help with whatever it is that you needed and just felt like he oddly got along with you a lot.
When he first met you, he was clueless about you being mute and simply thought you were quiet and someone who liked to keep to yourself.
He didn’t want to bother you with what might be some rude questions, so he just kept it to himself until one night by the campfire, he finally figured it out.
He notice how he had made you laugh but as no sound would come out, he forgot himself and asked you honestly, only to get an answer from the others around.
Since, he felt even more attached to you and would do all sorts of thing to keep you safe. He had even taken the habit of learning sign language from you just to be able to understand you even more.
Although, he would be confused and just straight up be clumsy, it all made you smile to see his efforts and just as him you felt like you wanted to be closer to him.
You had even taught him something you had never had the habit to do for anyone else but your older brother, the sign you had both made up for “I trust you”.
You put your hand to his chest to feel his heartbeat and with your finger simply crossed an x on him and tapped three times for each of the words.
After explaining to him in your way how special it was, he caught onto it’s meaning and teared up with a big smile.
“You’re silly…Trusting me? You really feel that way?”
You let out a smile and nodded at him. Putting your hand to his, you did it one more time, making him grab your wrist to truly understand the meaning.
He pulled your hand away and reached over to do the same.
It didn’t make you feel uncomfortable whatsoever and neither did it him as to you both, it was the meaning behind the gesture that mattered.
“And I trust you as well…Y/N…”
He looked into your eyes after it and suddenly realized how he had been holding your other hand and got embarrassed about it.
You noticed how he changed and simply shook your head at him. It made him ruffle your hair jokingly and say, “Don’t shake your head at me…You get embarrassed too sometimes…I see you…”
As your smile came back, he laughed along with you and you both stayed by the fire for a little while before heading to your tents.
As you sat there, smiling, someone else has had his eyes on you for a while. From his tent, Shane had witness everything and seemed to be particularly interested into seeing you being so casual about a man putting his hand to your chest.
It didn’t matter that it wasn’t sexual, he only saw it as an opportunity that he himself could have.
After Rick has introduced himself to all of you, Lori had dumped and pushed him away from her life and it just devastated him. He needed someone for a while and seeing you so comfortable around a man, gave him ideas.
With what had happened at the CDC and to most of your cars, you all traveled along the road to find a better place to keep you safe for the moment.
The weather was hot and the sun was starting to set, making Daryl move out to go get something to eat.
He quietly parted away from all of you and although you would want to follow him, he signaled you that he’d be back soon enough.
You nodded and with that, you were left with the others to help set up the camp. Suddenly, you felt Lori tapping your shoulder and as you turned to her, she kindly signaled you to help find some mushroom for the late dinner.
She explained herself that she had to stay by Carl’s side for the while as he had gotten sick. You nodded, understanding her reason and took the bucket she handed.
You walked further away from the camp and carefully searched for whatever was edible, really.
You touched the ground to feel whatever you could in the grass and eventually got on your hands and knees to pick up the goods you found.
Without noticing, you strayed further from the camp, wanting to completely fill up your bucket. You heard some rusting and crackling of leaves here and there but simply didn’t put too much thought into it.
At some point, the noise grew closer and made you turn your head to check around. Nothing. You kept searching for a moment and heard it all again. You felt like leaving but as you turned around, Shane appeared in front of you.
It made you jumped but only served to make him chuckle. Taking a few deep breaths, you managed to “ask” him, as to what he is doing here.
He simply shrugged and titled his head to the side as it still made him laugh to see you. You were wearing shorts, your shirt inside your flannel was tight enough to give him an idea of your body and the fact that you were mute, made it perfect for what he had thought of doing to you.
Far away, from any prying eye, he knew he could finally make you his and probably even hurt Lori while at it.
With you signalling him your question, he decided to not understand anymore and just hinted at you as to what will come to you.
“I’m sorry, Y/N…I don’t get what you mean…”
He got closer as he said those words and made you back away from him. You knew something was off and strange about him and couldn’t let yourself down.
You responded in a more aggressive way and completely forgot about the bucket, as you let it drop to the ground, in order to use both your hands.
He kept walking towards you and claiming that he really didn’t understand your meaning. You shook your head at him and kept trying to push him away with your “words”, only to suddenly feel yourself being grabbed by the arms.
He hold you closely to him and you knew of his intentions. You panicked and tried to fight him off but it came to no use as he pinned you down to the ground.
He gripped your wrists to have more control over you and with a cocky smile, he said “Don’t fight it…I saw you with Daryl the other night…You like being touched by men, don’t you…”
He proceeded to slide his hand down your chest and instantly you tried to get him away from you.
You moved your arms as much as you could but nothing would seem to make him stop. Quite the opposite, he took it as a sign of to start kissing your neck thinking that it’ll calm you down.
You hated each instant of it and tried to butt your head against his but swiftly he’d move to the other side of your neck. His grip on you tighten when you would try to kick him off and and his lips would only suck on you harder.
You wanted to scream out but nothing but your faint strangled groan would come out. You heard him chuckle and he just had to taunt you.
“Poor you, Y/N…No one can hear you here…You’re stuck here with me…And after this…you’ll just want to be mine…”
He kept at it and you slowly felt yourself growing tired from the fight you put out and your grunts only made you breathless.
You felt his finger slide to your pants and into your panties, you were losing hope and thought of how much of a mistake you made, going so far off the tracks.
You thought as to what the others might say and think and knew he had you in the palm of his hand. With Rick being his friend and how close the others were, you didn’t think anyone would believe your side of the story and that made you tear up.
You thought it over and over and tried to forget as to what was happening. Closing your eyes, you denied it until suddenly you heard some leaves rustling again and a familiar and angry voice behind Shane.
“What the fuck are you doing?”
In that instant, you felt Shane being lifted up and saw him being pushed to the ground.
It was Daryl and you couldn’t be any happier to see him. Daryl had straddled Shane and with no hesitation he started to punch him.
He didn’t had to witness all of it to know in his heart you wouldn’t have ever agreed to this. It angered him to see you being taken advantage that way and he couldn’t believe it would’ve been someone in the group.
He started to yell at him in anger and didn’t even wait for any explanation to keep going. Blood spewed out onto him but it didn’t matter to him.
He wanted to protect you and make sure that this kind of behavior never ever happens again.
“You think you can just take advantage of her like that? What the fuck is wrong with you!Don’t! You! Ever! Fucking! Touch! Her! Again! You fucking piece of shit! Do you understand!”
He yelled and kept striking him, making sure his message was understood. He didn’t feel his cuts stinging him so much he cared more to make you feel safe.
You closed your flannel to cover yourself and backed away from him. You didn’t want to stop him at all and just let Daryl take care of it.
Relief, was the only thing you felt to see him and couldn’t had hope for better.
Finally, after Shane had passed out from all of the pain, Daryl stopped. He took some deep breaths and tried to wipe the blood away from his face, only to actually smear it all over with his hand.
He looked for you with his eyes and just felt the need to go comfort you in that moment. He knew what it felt to be that scared, to think that you’re alone in the world and no one could hear you.
He got up and opened his arms as he slowly made his way to you.
“Y/N…you’re alright? Are you okay?”
You could hear and see the concern he had for you and it just made you weak. You couldn’t deny that you weren’t alright and just shook your head.
He finally got close enough to pull you in a tight embrace and you held onto his neck and shoulders.
You felt him stroke your hair and he reassured you that it’ll be okay.
MC finds out she's pregnant right around when RFA++ leaves the country for about a year
Yoosung gets a scholarship to go overseas and learn
If it wasn’t for MC’s two jobs (she works in an office and as the RFA party planner), he would have brought her along
He made sure to propose and get her a ring before he left so that no guys would try to horn in on his territory
Once MC found out she was pregnant, she had to hide it to make sure Yoosung would focus on his studies
Of course, the RFA gradually found out, but MC convinced them to keep it a secret to make sure he didn’t get too distracted
Except, Yoosung came home on a holiday break and found her pregnant and flipped
On the way hand, yay! Baby!
On the other hand… well the emoji explains it best 😱
Of course MC explains, and he just…
He states then and there that he is going to go back, finish school ahead of time, and they are going to get married ASAP
He loves her too much and wants to be with her and their child as soon as he can
Sure enough, in three months, Yoosung finished his program, gets home, marries MC (on paper, they plan an actual ceremony for when the baby is born) and MC has the baby
A few months later, they have an official ceremony (his little sister has been paid to take care of the baby during the ceremony)
It’s all very sweet
After their coffee shop got popular, Jaehee wanted to go to Italy and learn more about coffee there
MC and Jaehee had been trying IV treatments with little success, so Jaehee figured it was a good, safe time to leave
But MC found out she was pregnant not too long after
She was going to tell Jaehee, except when Jaehee called and started raving about all the fun she was having, MC couldn’t bring herself to take it away by telling her
Of course, it accidentally came out when MC was around seven months along because Yoosung, well….
He was in a convo with Jaehee in the Messenger, and she was scolding him for gaming too much
“You’re going to make a great mom, Jaehee”
“;;;; why are you saying that now?”
“Well, you’ve seen how big MC is getting! She’s swelling up like a balloon!”
Zen pops into the convo, “Yoosung! Don’t say that about women! They’re feelings are delicate!”
MC pops in, “hey guys, what’s going on?”
“Are you gaining weight, MC?” Jaehee asks “are you okay? Are you eating right?”
“Wait, does she not know?” Zen asks
“Of course she’s gaining weight! She’s having baby!” Yoosung tacks on before anyone can stop him
“IM GOING BACK TO KOREA!!!”
Yoosung is properly scolded by Zen and MC, but Jaehee comes back within a week
Jaehee ends up saying that she will only return to Italy to complete her research once their daughter is six months old
Which she does, but as soon as she’s done, she comes home and is the best mom ever
Zen got his big break
He was going to act in a movie overseas
But he was going to be gone for a year
MC found out she was pregnant three days before he had to leave, so she told him nothing
She knew him
Knew that he would stay and give up this opportunity, so she decided not to tell him because she didn’t want him to give this role up
She promised to video chat with him everyday, and talk on the Messenger as much as possible
The only problem was the other RFA members
As the pregnancy progressed, she had to tell the other members about the pregnancy and swear them to secrecy
Zen remained ignorant of it for six months, the whole time, the rest of the RFA feeling super guilty about keeping this from him
More than once, Yoosung almost spills the beans
Meanwhile, MC takes a picture of herself everyday that she’s pregnant so that Zen will be able to see it when he gets back
She hangs every ultrasound on the fridge
A few times, Zen asks if she’s gaining weight, at first she claims just not to be motivated to work out without her hubby around, but then she starts pretending to be offended
She lowers the chair of her desk so he can’t see her expanding tummy
He also notices her boobs get bigger (he likes)
After six months, Zen gets a few weeks off work because shooting is ahead of schedule, so he flies home
When he arrives, it’s night, and he didn’t tell her because he wants things to be a surprise
He gets home, sneaks through the apartment, and gets into their bedroom…. and is shocked when he sees her
Immediately he wakes her up and asks what the hell is going on
She’s frantic and embarrassed and has no idea how to explain, but she does
He confirms that he would have stayed if she had just told him, but she says that exactly why she didn’t
She didn’t want him to pass up this opportunity he was so excited about
And it’s too late for him to back out now
MC also admits that the RFA knew
He’s furious, but Yoosung acting weird and avoiding him suddenly makes sense
Zen, of course, spends the next two weeks catching up on everything, feeling the baby, and doting on his beloved wife
He’s angry that there’s a high chance of him not being around for the birth, though, given the due date
He doesn’t post anything on social media, either, because he doesn’t want to anyone to notice how sudden this is
He says he’ll post updates only after the baby is born
When Zen finally has to leave, he’s super unhappy, but MC assures him that she’ll hold down the fort and let him know if anything else happens
Once Zen is back on set, he talks to his bosses and works out with them being able to go home for the week that the baby is due
Of course, MC goes into labor just hours before his flight lands
- He meets her at the hospital, and once the baby is born, he takes a picture of MC holding the baby and posts it
His fans explode, but like, 75% are happy for him (the other 25% are just envious of MC and wish they were in her place)
And while he has to go back on set only a week later, she constantly sends him pictures, which he then posts and/or shows off to all his cast mates
When he finally gets home, he just dotes on their little boy, the pictures online increase, and he just shows him off whenever he can
Although the little one turns out to be remarkably shy ☺️
Like, Zen brings him to a meet and greet with his fans, and the one to two year old whines and buries his face into his daddy’s chest because all these women are big, scary, and unfamiliar to him
Within a year of being married, Chairman Han needs Jumin to go overseas and oversee the opening of a new branch office
He doesn’t like leaving his bride and beloved cat at home, but he does so because he must
Besides that, he trusts MC to take his place and run his division until she gets back
Of course, MC finds out days after Jumin left that she’s carrying his baby
She arranges to stay in the apartment as much as possible in her later pregnancy, not telling the RFA and definitely making sure that the media doesn’t find out
Of course, MC gets hella antsy by herself, so she tries to stay active, she has staff that know, and they have all signed a contract to keep it a secret (breach of said contract would result in immediate termination and legal action)
She arranges for doctors to come to her, and the Chairman only finds out because he comes to visit her one day and she’s starting to show
After she explains things, including how she didn’t want Jumin to worry or not focus on his job, Mr. Chairman apologizes to her for putting her in this position, but thanks her for being so considerate
He also agrees to keep the secret
When Jumin returns to Korea at long last, Mr. Chairman and MC are waiting for him at the airport… with his three month old son
He’s shocked and confused, and of course they apologize for keeping this from him, but he immediately hugs MC and takes the baby in his arms
He also promises to “punish” MC a little for keeping this from him
When the RFA find out, they flip they’re collective shit
Saeyoung’s is the hardest
He had to leave on a mission, he had no idea how long he’d be gone
All he could do was promise to come home to her as fast as possible
- MC merely kissed him goodbye
Two weeks later, MC found out
She was very open about the whole thing, but there was no word from Saeyoung
He had no idea because he was so deep into work he couldn’t even get on his phone and contact her
In the Messenger, MC posted pictures of the ultrasounds, some of the maternity clothes she bought
Jumin helped her find the best doctors
Jaehee would take her shopping and make sure she was eating right
Yoosung helped her learn more about babies by studying baby books with her (and also being subsequently horrified and disgusted by some of the things that would happen during the pregnancy)
Zen… well, Zen was pretty useless, but at least he made her laugh while she was lonely (and after they hung out over lunch, they almost started a scandal by accident)
When the baby was three or four months old, MC went to the park with the baby, just for a walk and some fresh air
“As much as I love you’re daddy, you can’t be too much like him, okay? You need sunshine! ^^”
When she gets home, MC finds Saeyoung sitting on the floor, surrounded by the baby’s things, crying
She immediately pulls him into a hug and he begs her forgiveness for leaving her when she was pregnant
MC forgives him easily, holds him as he cries, and introduces him to his little girl
First thing their daughter does upon seeing Saeyoung is grab his hair (which hasn’t been cut since MC last saw him) and pulls while giggling
When he realizes the baby has his hair, he starts blubbering and laughing and the same time
That night, he stays up the whole time, reading all the messages from the last year and watching over their daughter in her crib
After that, he holds their baby as much as possible, cuddles her, and coos
He even suggests they do a ton of family outings (i.e. park, amusement park, waterpark), some of which MC vetoes because the baby is too young
After getting his sight back, V wanted to go travel the world for a little while and create his next exhibit
MC sends him off with her blessing
He promises to keep in touch, and kisses her goodbye
When she finds out, she just carries on
She doesn’t really tell anyone or make a fuss, and since she only talks with V over the phone, he doesn’t see her growing
When he finally returns home, an engagement ring in his pocket for her, he discovers her holding a child
Immediately he’s wracked with guilt, but she assures him that it’s fine
She just hands him the baby and tells him as long as he’s there for their children, everything is fine
When he realizes she said children, she goes into the other room and pulls out their other baby
Now he feels twice as bad, because she had twins alone, but their son and daughter are happy and healthy, so she tells him it’s fine
V proposes to her a few days later, showing her the ring he bought overseas
She, of course, accepts
The next two exhibitions he makes are focusing on her and their children respectively
Actually…. I lied Saeran’s is the hardest
MC told him she was pregnant
He didn’t take it well
He didn’t take as badly as she thought, but he was super terrified and didn’t think he was up to the task
So he ran away
Yeah, he left MC alone to give birth to and raise their child
He didn’t say anything before he left, just disappeared into the night the day he found out and… she didn’t hear from him again
Truth be told, he left because he wanted to insure their child’s future and safety, and the best way to do that was to remove any major threats against them
Also, he left because he needed to get better and be in a place where he could be a father to this child
Of course, when he returned things weren’t exactly… easy.
He wasn’t welcomed back with open arms.
His brother and the RFA all but shunned him, and MC refused to talk to him or let him see the baby
The only reason Saeran got to see the baby and prove he was ready to be there and be a father and make up for leaving was MC had to go to work and Saeyoung was her emergency baby sitter
And Saeran was staying with Saeyoung at the time, and Saeyoung had an emergency he suddenly had to take care of, so he ended up leaving the baby alone with him
Saeran did his best, got out the teething toys when the baby started crying, and kept the baby as calm as possible until Saeyoung could come back
Truth be told, Saeyoung recorded the whole thing so that when MC showed up to pick up the baby, he could show that Saeran deserved a chance to make it up to her
A few emergency babysitting sessions later and MC allowed Saeran into their babies life
a belated birthday fic for the love of my life james potter <3
a lil throwback to his 18th birthday when he got so smashed he had to crash at lily’s and then they just had to share a bed.
The mirror keeps buzzing in her bag and she’s sure it’s Sirius, calling to see if they made it back alright. Lily can’t answer it though, because she has her arms full with James. A very mashed and wobbly James.
“Where are we?” He says into her neck, too loudly for Lily’s liking. If a light goes on in the house, they’re screwed.
“Almost there.” She tells him as they reach the gate and she has to hold him up with one hand to push it open. For a second he leans too far forward, but then somehow uprights himself and stumbles forward.
“Where are we?” He repeats, stepping closer so his breath fans all over her throat again. It would be nice if it didn’t smell of a mixture of jaeger and sick.
“My house.” Lily watches as realisation dawns on James’ face, mouth dropping open, shoulders going limp.
“Wow. You have a house?”
“Where did you think all your owls were coming to last summer?” She shakes him until his shoulders regain some structure and tries to walk forwards again. James is stuck though, feet planted firmly on the ground as he takes in her house.
There’s not much to take in and Lily blushes, not having really thought about this part of him crashing at hers. Of course, she’d thought about him staying one day, just not under these circumstances. In her imagination they hadn’t been sneaking in at 4 am because James got kicked out of the hotel the Marauders were staying at.
Luci has previously gone by the urls “terfs”, “makinishiqino”, “butterflymask”, “aetheir”, and most likely several others that I’m forgetting. Luci has had several callouts in the past, however most were over stuff like kin drama, with the last real valid callout being from over a year ago.
To start, I’d like to give a brief run down of my history with Luci. I’ve been mutuals with her since around summer 2015, however I knew nothing about her and only started talking to her in December. We spoke a few times, but didn’t become too close. Around the start of 2016 she left Tumblr and moved to twitter. In April, she came back, and after talking to her for only a few days, we rushed into a relationship. We dated from early April to mid December, with a temporary breakup in the middle of November. After we broke up, we stayed friends until I started dating someone else, just before new years, at which point things started going downhill. On January 14th I had decided it was best for me to cut all contact with Luci, so I did.
Because there’s a lot of stuff to go over, I will be posting screenshots that have several parts to a second blog, @lucicourse, to prevent this from getting overly cluttered. The link to a set of screenshots will be posted where it is relevant.
For reference, I would like to state that I’m referred to by 3 separate names throughout this, being Severa, Nico, and Weiss, as well as the nickname Sevvy. Me and Luci occasionally refer to Nowi as Ruby as well.
Before we begin I feel that a few disclaimers are in place. To start, There are already several callout posts floating around for Luci. I do not want to be approached about those. Most attack her for petty stuff like kin drama, and I do not want people trying to compare stuff like that to the actual gross shit she’s done. I will not be addressing anything that has already been discussed in those callout posts.
As for the second disclaimer, I would like to note that I didn’t have any desire to stay in a relationship with Luci, or even really be friends with her, from around July onward. Any replies to her messages that I include in this callout are purely me trying to diffuse a situation with her, as admittedly having seen the way she acted towards others, she frightened me, and I also feared she would do serious harm to herself, so I felt obligated to stay with her.
The third disclaimer is that I do not want anyone making any jokes about the stuff Luci says in the sexual harassment section. I’m unsure whether Wander’s victims are alright with jokes about his stuff, because I’ve seen conflicting information. However. I do not want anyone turning the sexual things Luci has said to me into a joke. If I see you doing so, you will be blocked.
The final disclaimer is that, in the spirit of being entirely honest, I will be including the things that might put Nowi and I in a bad light. I want everyone to form a well developed, informed, opinion, and I don’t intend to bias this information.