she saw my url

do you ever just watch someone and watch their smile and their face and every little thing they do, every little thing about them, and think: holy shit i love you. i am in love with you and everything that you do. you are my entire world and i love you. i can’t stop thinking about how much i love you and i will never be able to stop. i just love you.

I REALLY wanted to put this to rest.
But there are anons in my ask box and lies are being spread. And I’m done being on the sidelines?

Gee first appeared as crossyourpath. Before it was brought to my attention that she had been copy/pasting my headcanons and saving my icons and passing them as her own, partners of mine went to her and asked her to stop. No one was rude, no one was mean. They told her what she was doing was wrong.

She ignored every one of them.

So, when I finally saw her blog, she had taken my original url (specixlprojects) and used it (including the x) as her blog description. She had also taken my then blog description (My name is Felicia. And I run O S C O R P . ) and used it as her blog title.

At the time, she wasn’t using her real name, wasn’t admitting to being underage, nothing. She allowed people to believe she was me under a different blog.

It then progressed to me going to her and asking politely for her to take my things down and not pose as me. I was never answered.

This, after MONTHS of issues, resulted in this post as I was tired of my partners being so surprised that I was still on specixlprojects. I don’t take kindly to people pretending to be me. It’s wrong and dangerous and generally creeps me out.

After that post, she added an x to her url so that it would crossedyourpxth and sent this ask that I’ve already reblogged. At this point I was furious. But I was still reasonably polite. I thought that was it and that it was over.

Her blog was deleted (due to no malicious doing of mine) and I thought that was that and I moved on with my life.

And then assistantiism popped up. From the beginning I knew it was the same person, but I kept my distance because I thought maybe she had learned. Maybe nothing was going to happen and I didn’t want to deal with it because this was my safe space.

I rebooted Felicia onto this blog. Took a hiatus. And within days of me coming back, Gee posted on jewelthieved that the Felicia that bullied her off of Tumblr was back and that she was scared I would figure out who she was in a now deleted post. The post that is still there is one about how she was “talking shit” about me with another of her partners and that I was a total bitch.

Of course, I vagued. Because I was being accused of things I’d never done. Immediately I was attacked by anons and a friend of hers that I was in the wrong and everything else. But I made it a point to never mention her by name, never mention her URL because there was no point.

Today, it was brought to my attention that she was using a tag that my girlfriend specifically uses for my character and it bothered me because it was just on top of all the other things that have been taken by her.

In response, she decided to post my url.
And I’m honestly done with her playing victim and with getting hate and having people believe things about me that were never true to begin with.

Gee has now remade her blog under stealsjewels 

I was ready to let it die. I was ready to  move on.
And I have two asks telling me that she’s mirroring my posts and still using my icons. Fact.

Someone else @’d her new url because they’re angry about her blatantly stealing and playing victim.

This post happened and was quickly deleted.

Thank you for pointing out that you’re not above lying about anything.

TASM2 was released the day I made my blog, May 2nd of 2014. 

THREE YEARS AGO. Where did you even get 6 from?
Not long after that, you started stealing my things. You were asked NUMEROUS times to stop. People were kind to you.

I hiatused, remade my blog, hiatused again, and came back to HATE because you were spreading lies. You were telling people that I had bullied you off and you were playing victim because you got caught stealing.

Literally all I have asked for is an apology that you actually mean and for you to STOP STEALING MY STUFF. STOP RIPPING MY POSTS OFF. STOP RIPPING MY HEADCANONS OFF.

People HAVE noticed.

And I’m tired of it?

Once again, don’t send Gee hate. 
It’s immature and dumb and no one deserves hate.

But, on the same front, no one deserves to have their work stolen and I’m tired of stories being made up about me. 

PS: Here are TWO screenshots of when I tried to go to her privately from my Tony Stark blog  and was blocked and ignored. I TRIED to handle this privately. And I’m tired of the lying.

okay so one time @taylorswift reblogged someone’s cool ass video and my comment was on the post (my old url was swiftshakeitoff13) and I was SO excited because I was like “well maybe she saw my URL?! like maybe she’ll follow me!” (This was 2014) so I remember being so excited while I was in school and hoping maybe she would but then she never did and that was like the height and extent of taylor *ALMOST* noticing me. @taylorswift shifty maybe we can change that this time around?


But this is a true story to show you just the kind of person Taylor really is. It literally could be almost out of a movie …. My story…
Ok , so she followed me back in December, and i was so happy!! right before Christmas. And i was so happy i didn’t sleep all day. And i think she followed me bc she saw my url of the art she got of mine , when i won tickets to the ellen show, she thanked me and took it from my hand. I didn’t talk to her though, or anything but i got to shake Ellen’s hand and hers at the same time , pretty cool. And we basically had a 30 mini people concert on Ellen’s stage, it was so small and intimate and cool. She was in arms reach , i didn’t even have to move for her to take it from me. Then, later on there was the IHeart awards and you could win tickets on this site online. And i got tickets to be a seat filler. You could win, pitt tickets or seat filler tickets. And a seat filler is where move around alot throughout the show and sometimes you’ll be at a celebrity’s table or sitting by them with the guests. And i thought that was pretty cool. So i stayed up posting about that i won with my friends. Like ALL nite. But they got pitt tickets. So they knew where they would be sitting and could post it. I did not. Because a Seat filler u move constantly like i mean ALOT. And so i stayed up all late and that nite before posting, drawing things, singing, etc, lol and asking if i could say hi to her. And she never liked anything about it or of my friends. But one post of mine later, that had to do with the awards. And of course i didn’t think anything of it , but now i know why, she wanted to surprise us being the sneaky and amazing girl she is. And i was so excited to go to the awards, that i didn’t even sleep, i went to the show early ,i was the very first in line. It was so hot outside i stood for hours in heels before we went in. And come to find out they slightly over booked. So alot of us stayed behind this giant black curtain , literally by the trash and food lol. And i was like missing alot of the show almost. I Was so sad. We just got to watch it on a tv in this room. They tended to only pick girls that dressed in short dresses to sit around people and the Celebs it seemed. I was so sad. The guys were so rude to me. Even this one guy just kept picking the same girls. And towards the VERY end they finally let me , out and moved me towards the front. I sat at the same table with Scott Borchetta! I wanted to say something so bad to him, but it was tv and all professional, and i didn’t want to be one of those annoying people. And i couldn’t even dance where I was like the pitt people where my friends were that she met. And then Taylor walked literally RIGHT pass me to get an award and she sat right across from me onstage. literally RIGHT across from me At the very end and her last award. She was i mean right there i was on stage with her. And i wanted to say something SOO bad. But it was tv so i couldn’t . So i just cheered her on and clapped . And i didn’t want to bug her i tried to do a little wave but she was so focused on snoop and getting her award there was no way to get her attention lol. And the show was over, i was so sad that i was behind a curtain most all of the time. And the guys were being so rude. But i tried to make the most of it because i got to see taylor! and i was so happy she won so many awards like she deserved . So i walked all the way back to my car like blocks away, alone dying in these heels and got my phone. And looked at my messages and saw my friend’s message, and my heart just dropped . shes like u met taylor right? she found u right? And i was all what?!?!. Shes all , she was looking for u!!! and i just couldn’t believe it ! I didn’t know what to think, i totally cried . And i was happy for my friends, but so sad that i blew probably my only chance like ever . And the second i kid you not! I turned my radio on , the song i just havent met u yet came on of all songs!! That day was just so ironic ! even from the girl that came five mins after me in line , that was right behind me all day , happen to be sitting at taylors table all nitee ! And she was in the only selfie taylor posted in the background! It would have been me! If i was 3 mins later. In line so crazy! And If she saw me she wouldve recognized me because she was looking at our blogs to find us all that day. so tbh i cried all the way home, not really because i was sad that i didnt meet her, but more so that she even would do something so nice. and i made a video telling taylor, sorry i missed her, but thanked her for trying to meet me it meant alot. And so i thought there went that. Then she never liked anything untill next day but it had nothing to do thanking her, or about the awards. It was totally random things. Now i know that was on purpose. Then I got an anon the following morning asking me for my concert dates. Like who would care or go on anon for that? Now i know why . And i didn’t think anything of it then. And so the whole time they had been keeping tabs on me i guess so she would be sure and know where i was and meet me later like at my concert date. But she saw i won tickets for Rock in rio in vegas and that i was there so she met me then instead . Ok for the crazy second part of my story, after all that crazy IHeart stuff . I was at the dmv only because they had told me to come back later, i wasn’t even meant to be there that day. This is how i know its meant to be now. And not knowing what the radio contest was even for i was bored at the dmv, and i just heard call right now and i did, and i won rock in rio tickets. I was so in shock when i found out they were for taylor, for one i never listen to the radio either lol. And i never have won a radio thing ever. and my friends were going that were from the iheart awards too. So i should’ve got a clue maybe this was a sign for a second chance . But I didnt wanna be too hopeful. And i didn’t expect anything from Taylor. She did enough. The crowd was going to be crazy, insane ! Like 50,000 people! no seats nothing. All floor seating. I got billboard tickets too, so i thought maybe then i could have a possible chance. So i posted about vegas, and a outfit i made just for fun. It literally was because i loved making things . Because there was no loft . I knew that it was more of a festival. But her whole show for the first time in the u.s. people didn’t really dress up too much , i was like the only one that made a outfit lol. And i happend to get yes ill say it i don’t care, its embarrassing, a bladder infection , right before i left. I was SUPER sick nauseous. Drove to vegas alone. Having to stop at gas stations almost constantly bc i was so sick. Bc the antibiotics take over a week to fully work. And then i broke my phone yay me! Lol . Then i Met up with my friends, one from Australia , andrea. shes so sweet. That night i added the finishing touches to my dress. I couldn’t sleep at all that night i felt so sick. and the day came, and taylor didnt come on till almost midnight! We were there at like 9 am! Like crazy so long. We were in line with some of the other kinda tumblr famous people they were so cool, i love nic. She was one of the first people there too. I already was so tired and sick from the heat. And then finally the 3 gates opened. people ran like the Friggn hunger games ! it was crazy ! u have to run literally for like a mile to get to the stage! . ts a huge outdoor concert area. I got stomped on, felt so sick. I Ran and finally got there i felt like i was going to die. Not even kidding . I usuallly can handle alot bc i was sick as a kid most of my life and spent alot of time in the hospital. So thats when u know its bad. And we got to the stage. It was only 3pm! So i had almost 8 hours or so till she came on! And i was feeling so awful, dehydrated , hungry u couldnt leave or youd loose ur spot by the stage. No chairs . And i got so sunburnt like bad i forgot sunscreen dumb me. And eventually it got so crowded you could not sit. And i got kicked in the heels. i was bleeding no joke! I seriously tried not to cry . Because after all i went thru, as bad as i felt, i wasn’t going to not see taylor. No way. And i couldn’t even get to a bathroom. Ironically of all illnesses the time i literally could not use a bathroom for hours. And no to mention basically standing for hours straight, no sit time. And not to mention its still 2 hours or more added to that because thats how long her concert lasted. And i literally was in so much pain, i couldn’t get water or sit. My phone died, even with a battery pack charger. Since i was there for so long. And the min i was about to cry and told everyone im so sad but i literally cant do it , i felt so sick and i cant stand anymore i have to go walk to first aide or lay down in the grass . I kid u not the MIN i went to go , this girl came up to me and said taylor wanted to meet me. And i was like 😦. Totally in shock like totally , like not expecting it at all. And my phone had died so i saw no messages from her or taylor nation. And i never answered them. But she still tried! Being the sweet Taylor she is. she didnt give up and had people from online she saw , that she thought might know me come find me. How cool is that? She is literally so sweet. Like in a crowd of 50,000 people no phone, taylor Friggn swift found a way to find me. I literally didn’t cry because it seemed to surreal. I didnt believe it. So they told me after ed sheeran sings to go meet in this certain spot. And i had to push thru a level crowd of like 50,000 people my outfit was literally falling apart from such a long day, and having to push through people that wouldn’t move . and no one wanted to move. But i finally got out of the crowd. And she asked our names i was with a couple of girls taylor was going to meet too . It was tree and someone else. And they started to take us backstage. I was talking to tree along the way she was so nice , all the people we passed said congrats guys! And i was so sick, and tired in shock, I honestly didnt feel all there. Like it was a dream. It was so cool because she had no meet and greet set up at all, or any loft. She literally MADE time . So then bc of this we all got a little extra time. I was so happy to sit for a few mins before i met her . It was pure heaven, if i didn’t get to sit, i don’t think i could have made it though her concert whatsoever. And the room was so small, smaller than a bedroom size. it was like her dressing room. I got to sit next to her blue shake it off shoes and some oufits. And we were there for like a half hour total. There weren’t very many of us at all. she was like Im so glad i found u guys! It was kinda hard , but I’m glad i finally found you too this time! I was so in shock right when i walked in she was like just right there. Like i just couldnt believe it . We all talked in a group but i was quiet because i was sick and in shock. And it seemed like if i tried to talk everyone just talked over me so i gave up. But i really didn’t care because i was just happy to be there. She danced around and did funny accents lol. I let everyone else go first really, and by some miracle idk how, the bag i brought with me ended up having the necklace in it that i had been saving since the i heart awards. I gave her the cat necklace i had. She said she loved it. It was even her birthstone , And Hugged me a bunch. I talked to treee while she saw the other girl. And i just didnt ask questions really or take a video, the time your actually allowed too for once , i didn’t . because my phone was dead , and i didnt have one again like the iheart awards. and i was in such shock. And i didn’t want to seem greedy, or ask people to use their phone. i was just happy to be there . she told me she loved me , and llike nuzzled her chin on my head and side hugged me again, and saw my outfit and talked about it . Her and tree loved it , unfortunately it was falling apart by then . and i was embarrassed. But she was so nice about it and said she saw it online lol, and she cant believe i do all that for her, and all i went through for her, and that im amazing and i made her so happy. i think i said i love u i hope lol. And she wrote long live for me, for my grandma, a tattoo i wanted. And then we left she said she was making sure security saved our spots and escorted us back, so we Could just hop over the front of stage so we wouldnt have to go thru the crazy crowd. So we hopped over, i danced thru all the pain and had the best night ever. So I was a mess when she saw me. I didn’t say anything i wanted to at all. But it was of course and it was still the best day of my life. And not to mention after wards being so tired and hungry and dehydrated , after all that we still had to walk back to the hotel. So i still didn’t eat or drink till the next day.and just crashed on my bed… The end

So this post isn’t to brag, in anyway. I just want to show how amazing and kind of a person taylor is . She met my friends. She has 80 million fans. She didn’t have to try and meet me again, but she kept trying and did. And the point of this story is also to show you that anything is possible. And never give up on meeting taylor because it does happen when you least expect it, and when its meant to be it will. So don’t get discouraged , and never give up. Because i know why it wasn’t meant to be then. My other grandma died a week after i met her. And that helped get me through. And i wouldn’t be able to tell this crazy long story , that might inspire you guys to never give up, if i met her at the awards now could i?! That is just what is so special about Taylor , she makes you believe and never loose hope … ( don’t expect any reblogs at all . Because this is just to show who taylor truly is…. @taylorswift @swiftdownunder @swiftiesparkleshine

anonymous asked:

is it ever awkward meeting fans in public? what has been your weirdest experience so far?

ive only ever had one weird experience and basically a chick saw me in the mall, was talking to me about cosplay (because i was in blatant cosplay due to a nearby con) but didnt actually know it was me, and when she asked for my URL she saw who i was and that i was friends with another tumblr user she allegedly hated, and she went off on me in public lmfao. but also wouldnt let me leave?? and kept talking to me about stuff? and when i finally left she made her rainbow dash plushie kiss me (she was 23) so HONJSTLY it was just a WEIRD UNCOMFORTABLE TIME LMAO 

i had been waiting for someone to finish their shift at the mall so i was just wondering alone, which is why i couldn’t just……escape lmfao and im A NICE GUY believe it or not and didnt actually want her to know how horrifying she was. This was also like a year ago, so if u see this now gurl please dont do that to anyone else lmfao.