she said that she has never seen me this happy

So I'm going to tell you a story

I am a nanny for an 11 year old girl and an 8 year old girl. They go to separate schools.
Well, every day I go to pick up the 8 year old from elementary school. I’ve been doing this for about 3 months now. Every SINGLE DAY I see these 2 little boys walking home. Every day one of them has his arm around the other, or they’re holding hands. Sometimes I catch them kissing one another on the cheek. I see them as I enter the parking lot and on my way out of the neighborhood on the way back to the little girls house.
I’ve seen them every day for 3 months. They look so happy. So finally today I asked Jaiden if she knew them. I pointed and I said “JJ, who are those little boys?” She told me this story:
“Oh! I never told you what happened!?” I told her no, she did not.
So she says
“That’s Aleck and James. They’re boyfriend and boyfriend. A lot of parents are mad about it”
I asked her how she felt she says
“What do you mean? They’re boyfriends and love each other. They do everything normal boyfriends do. They kiss and hold hands and they share their Oreos. I used to have a crush on James but he likes Aleck but we are still friends and sometimes they play tag with me at recess”
Just like that. Simple as that. From an 8yr old.
I asked her how old the boys are and she told me that Aleck is in 4th grade and James is in her grade.
I proceeded to then ask what she meant by the parents being upset.
She explained to me that some parents heard about the boys and said that it was unnatural, that they should be suspended or have different recesses and that their children shouldn’t have to see that stuff at school.
Most of the kids weren’t even phased.

So when you say “how will I explain homosexuality to my child?”
Maybe someone needs to explain it to you.

“I have severe anxiety and depression, and have had them since I was a kid. I also grew up with Disney movies, and going to Disney World has become very therapeutic for me. I feel like it’s the only place in the world I can let go of my problems and just be myself. I’m always the happiest when I go there. Last February I took my best friend with me and she said that she has never seen me happier. I hope I can take my boyfriend one day so he can see it, too.”

They say the Mona Lisa
Is one of the most magnificent works
Of all time,
That her smile
Is the most beautiful art.

They say the girl with the pearl earring,
Has some of the most
Capturing eyes,
That her profile
Stops all
Who see it.

They say Aphrodite riding in
On her seashell
Is the most fantastic
Art ever painted.

They say some people are so stunned
By Caravaggio
That they fall to their knees.

But let me tell you
That when I turn-
Lights off,
She’s asleep…
That all I can think
Is the Mona Lisa can’t touch her smile.

That the girl with the pearl earring,
Has never seen her eyes,
That Aphrodite herself would be happy,
To see the woman I get to sleep next to.
That the Seraphs from Da Vinci’s ceiling,
Would gladly bask in our love.

She took my breath away,
And I don’t think I ever got it back.
She said “I love you.”
And all I could see was Van Gogh’s
Starry Night in her eyes.

What kills me the most is that Lexa had the biggest smile on her face when she said “we bring them peace” Lexa never smiles so you know she was genuinely happy and smiling just before she finds her army dead all because pike was upset and Bellamy lost his gf like Lexa went out of her way to kill the ice queen and to take her body to skikru and like they started a war she had just ended only to decide she will not attack risking her people and her leadership skills which were already in question and like that gets me mad because Lexa has never seen a day without war and when she ends them all people go starting shit I am sorry I am just a little bit upset about the whole thing. Poor Lexa and Clarke they tried so hard to make things rights.

I pick our new daughter up tomorrow. I will meet with her grandmother and sign the papers at noon. I’m so excited and nervous at once. This is a picture of her. I love the bracelet that she is wearing. It says courage. It gives me courage because I want her to love this family and know that she doesn’t have to be alone anymore. She has choices and people who love her and have faith in her. I want to be a good parent. Her grandmother (Who has heart failure and heart problems- she 72 years old) said she’s been crying with happiness because somebody is going to take care of her that she trust. I think her grandmother is going to get the peace that she was looking for since her daughter died in that terrible car accident. Her daughter was my best friend from high school. Isn’t it funny how things work? I remember the day my best friend from high school told me she was pregnant with G. She said she’s never seen G so happy and walking around seeing excited about her new family. I just hope she likes it when she gets here. This will be kid number six that I am not a biological parent of but I am a parent to these wonderful kids. I might not have ever had a biological child but I do have that mother instinct when it comes to taking care of a child. Especially a child in need who has lost hope and her parents in a tragic way.

today is probably the most significant day in my life… today I came out as trans to my mom!!! I was shaking and crying so much. I’ve never been that scared before in my life. She started sobbing so much… I don’t think I’ve ever seen her cry like that. She called me Vivian for the first time today and I couldn’t be more happy… She was accepting and said she would support me no matter what. I can still hardly believe that this is all real and truly happening I just can’t believe it… 

Thank you everyone who has been supportive of me on here, all my friends and followers and just everyone !!! thank you so much I love all of you so much I couldn’t have done this without the support of my online friends ^_^ thank you!