she mourns but she knows she did the right thing

I REALLY LIKED SUPERGIRL 215, A LIST OF THINGS THAT MADE ME LIKE IT – a list by me

  • kara danvers, catco magazine
    • oh, kara kara kara. you were always in danger with your supergirl quotes.
    • i love that snapper just got tired of kara using the same source, regardless of who it was. it wasn’t that supergirl was an untrustworthy source, it was that kara had made her one.
      • in a way, kara made herself useless by relying only on supergirl. (oh, i wonder where that could be headed.)
    • i love that instead of using supergirl blowing up in her face, she blew everything else up in her own face.
      • and she chose to, knowing that it was the right thing to do and that it was going to cost her. she can still mourn that it did cost her, but it wasn’t shock that it happened in the end, just sadness.
    • i hate how disappointed, but also probably a little bit proud, cat is off being somewhere right now.
    • and i haaaaaaaaaaate, in the best possible way, that the stripping away of everything kara has is continuing apace.
      • “maybe being supergirl and having you is enough.” YEAH GOOD LUCK WITH THAT NEXT WEEK.
    • “you’re at defcon 3 with the moxie.”
      • i’m going to miss snapper.
      • (assuming he’s gone. ace reporter (ep 218) might return kara to catco, but it might not. she’s had a taste of the power of using her own voice, and being able to be her own source, and that would be a very interesting way to tackle kara’s pretty heavily established biases in her reporting that they haven’t really addressed. independent blogger kara danvers better gift me with kara on her couch in her jammies and her laptop is all i’m saying.)
    • (one this i did not like one tiny little bit: “supergirl is what i can do, kara is who i am.” oh, show. you have lost your way so bad right now if that’s genuinely what you think. i don’t think you do, but we really need to start pulling these threads together, guys. i believe in you!?)
  • the adventures of alex and maggie, two law enforcement agents without their agencies 😍
    • “you owe me dinner, a bottle of scotch, and one of those flash grenade things.”
      • that’s quite a bet, and alex is sorry she made it.
    • MAGGIE PULLING A GUN ON THE GUY WHO PULLED A GUN ON ALEX.
      • be still my former procedural watching, partner shipping heart.
    • “ride or die. where do we start?”
      • WE START WITH ALEX LENDING MAGGIE HER BELOVED GUN.
    • “GO AWAY BRIAN.”
    • (and then that was it??? WHY DIDN’T YOU TAKE MAGGIE WITH YOU ALEX, JFC.)
  • all the danvers sister got fired for a bit this week
    • alex losing her shit :(((((((((((((((((
    • alex choosing to help jeremiah and betraying the DEO :(((((((((((((((((((
    • j’onn knowing alex was going to choose jeremiah :((((((((((((((((((((
    • “it was a betrayal and it was unfair and i need you to ask him to put me back on the case.”
      • alex was so, so willing to play with the team. and the team didn’t want her so she made maggie her team 😍
    • j’onn saying J’ONN IS NOT FAMILY :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
    • STOP GETTING INTO RANDOM SPACESHIPS, ALEX.
      • last time alex nudged kara back from outer space, this time kara got to return the favour.
      • 🙏
      • oh my god my heart.
    • (alex was reckless either way, so she might as well be reckless with the DEO? okay?????????????? no wonder kara never learns to have a plan, jfc.)
  • “you’re the only superman we need.”
    • (LOL, THEY COULDN’T RESIST.)
    • LILLIAN BUILT A LIGHT SPEED SPACESHIP, AND WE’RE ALL JUST COOL WITH THAT?
    • LILLIAN SENT SPIES TO INFILTRATE L-CORP AND WE’RE ALL JUST COOL WITH THAT?
      • lillian and secretary alana on the phone is the point where this episode crossed some very special threshold of mustachio twirling that i love deep in my heart. this episode was dark cheese.
    • (this plot makes zero sense, just fyi.
      • lillian’s already attempted to exterminate all aliens in national city. a spaceship to another galaxy or wherever was the backup plan? nah, that’s shady. i don’t trust you, team rocket.)
  • “LENA?” “SHE SAID WITH SURPRISE IN HER VOICE FOR SOME REASON.”
    • LENA WAS TAKING KARA ON A KOMBUCHA DATE.
    • KARA FORGOT SHE HAD A KOMBUCHA DATE WITH LENA.
    • LENA FORGOT HER MOTHER WAS INVOLVED WITH HER COMPANY??????????????????????????
      • (the possibility that lillian was involved with luthorcorp up until lena took over is like the entire basis for my pet theory that lena knew about cadmus all along. rip, theory.)
      • (does l-corp have any technology that could help locate aliens????)
    • “what are friends for?” what indeed.
    • LENA BASICALLY HAD NO PURPOSE IN THIS EPISODE BUT TO SUGGEST THINGS KARA COULD HAVE COME UP WITH HERSELF AND PROVIDE INFORMATION THAT WAS REDUNDANT TWO SECONDS AFTER SHE GAVE IT UP MAKE ME HAPPY.
      • secretary alana, DID YOU KILL OUR BELOVED JESS FOR THAT JOB? or does lena have multiple assistances like she’s miranda priestly?
      • secretary alana was in the 8th grade in 2007, which would make her about 14 then and 24 now. lena luthor, you were 14 then, too.
    • “Lena?!” kara said excitedly, thoroughly ignoring her pain in the ass manchild.
    • LENA CARRIES A TASER AROUND WITH HER AT ALL TIMES LIKE A GOOD REPEATED VICTIM OF TARGETED CRIMES.
    • LENA GOT KNOCKED OFF HER BALCONY AND KARA SAVED HER 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍
      • (i cannot believe this actually happened. i feel so trolled and i don’t even care.)
      • (i can already predict the discourse re this save vs a certain other save. i can already tell i’m gonna be tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiired.)
  • 🌏🚀
    • “it’s blobbed.”
    • those henchmen that knocked lena off the balcony are so fired right now.
    • “i was getting coffee with kara danvers.”
      • kara! you need to stop that!
    • LOIS AND HERCULES ARE HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AN ~ so I promise I haven’t abandoned people’s prompts, but I wrote some Post-Framework Fitz-Daisy brotp because I have a LOT OF FEELINGS I had to share. I hope you like it, in a bittersweet angst-hurt-comforty way. title is from Satellite Call by Sara Bareilles which is one of my favourite Fitz-Daisy songs.

Contains: 4x16 spoilers, & some discussion of non/dubcon themes but no depiction of this behaviour. Rated T.

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this broken earthly life

This morning, the kitchen was quiet.

The whole base was quiet, but especially the kitchen, where Jemma and Daisy made breakfast for the team and did not speak. Eggs crackled in the pan. The kettle whistled. They found themselves not looking forward to real food nearly as much as they had been last night.

“I’m worried about Fitz,” Jemma confessed, as she filled tea and coffee cups to the brim. “He’s barely said a word since we got back. He’s barely even moved. It was a struggle to get him to have a shower and when he did I’m pretty sure he just stood in the water. I’ve tried talking to him about it, but I think he feels guilty about all this. He felt pretty bad before. Now? I can only imagine. But he won’t talk to me about it. I don’t want to push, if struggling with words will make it worse, but…I’m afraid if I leave it he’s going to sink into some sort of depression.”

Daisy shovelled eggs and sausages onto plates.

“Maybe I could talk to him? Let him know I…forgive him, or whatever, for the whole…torture thing.”

Jemma nodded. “I’m sure that would help.”

She pushed two cups of tea toward Daisy, but didn’t suggest that they bring him breakfast. That, Daisy felt, was a bad sign. She felt a sour taste in her mouth as she walked through the corridors with small but purposeful steps, as reluctant as she was eager to see him.

When she finally reached his door, Daisy braced herself for no more than a second, refusing to let herself lose her nerve. She knocked, and only an indistinct mumble came from the other side, so she pushed slowly into the room.

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Grey's Anatomy's Sarah Drew Talks 'Super Weird' Table Read, Closure for 'Japril' and... Missing Matthew? | TVLine
By Michael Ausiello

This week’s change-of-pace Grey’s Anatomy will trace Jackson and April’s tortured romance over a 12-year period, but it’s not a glorified clip show, confirms Sarah Drew.

“It is all totally new information,” maintains April’s portrayer of the hour’s newly-created flashbacks, which will illuminate aspects of the couple’s relationship both familiar and surprising. Ultimately, the backstory will “inform how they would up where they are now.”

But where are they exactly? Divorced? Reunited? Somewhere in between? In the following Q&A,Drew takes us behind-the-scenes of the episode’s “super weird” table read, reflects on a road not traveled with ex Matthew, and teases imminent closure for ‘Japril’ fans.

TVLINE | Is this episode all Jackson and April?
It’s entirely Jackson and April. To the point where the other actors were exempt from coming to the table read. [Laughs] Other [characters] make small appearances, but it’s mainly just the two of them. We go back 12 years to when they were interns at Mercy West and met each other for the first time.

TVLINE | I want to go back to the table read. So it was just you, Jesse [Williams] and Shonda [Rhimes]?
[Laughs] It was the two of us and the writers and producers. It was an intimate gathering. It was super weird.

TVLINE | Were there any April revelations in the episode that surprised you?
Not really. I had already created all of those in-between spaces in my imagination in order to connect all of these dots. A lot of it was sort of in line with what I had envisioned.

TVLINE | Does the episode ultimately give us resolution about whether they decide to go through with the divorce?
There is definitely some sense of closure, yes. You get an answer about the status of their marriage by the end of the episode.

TVLINE | Was there a moment during this breakup storyline where you thought, “They may not be past the point of no return, but they’re damn near close”?
I don’t ever think there’s a point of no return. Maybe that’s just my hopeful faith in the way that I look at relationships. [Laughs] I experienced a very dark time in my marriage and we emerged in a place of much more brilliant light, so I can always see the silver lining.

TVLINE | A lot of fans blame April for the breakup, since she left Jackson to mourn on his own. Do you think she did the right thing leaving him behind?
There’s a really great scene in this week’s episode — a 10-page scene between the two of us that was like shooting a one-act play — where we really dive into all of that. I don’t think there was a right or wrong in this situation. She was kind of dying. He could not help her heal. So she went [away] and it ended up healing her. And the byproduct was that she wasn’t there for him. I don’t know what [else] she could’ve done.

TVLINE | Do you think there’s a part of her that just wished she went ahead and married Matthew?
I certainly think there would’ve been less drama! [Laughs] But the drama makes everything more exciting. Had she married Matthew, they would’ve been on the same page about a lot of stuff and been able to approach things from a similar perspective. But I think what makes Jackson and April so great is that they have different perspectives and they’re able to challenge each other. And I wouldn’t give that up for anything.