she loves to make bad decisions

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“The only variable you can control is yourself.” You can forget who you are, or you can be who you want to be. That’s why you stay. You stay for a second chance.

Underappreciated Batfam  → Stephanie Brown

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Lee Jong-rak is the South Korean pastor who created the “Baby Box”. The idea is that mothers who do not want their babies can leave them inside the box which includes a thick towel and lights and heating to keep the baby warm. When a baby is placed inside the box, a bell rings in Lee Jon-rak’s home which the box is attached to, and he or a member of his staff will go and collect the unwanted baby and bring them inside to his orphanage. Hundreds of babies are left abandoned at the side of the road in South Korea yearly and Jong-rak knew the perfect way to save the lives of these innocent babies. There is a sign above the drop box which reads: “Please do not abandon babies (just anywhere)… Pull the handle, and leave the baby (inside)… ” He confessed that he didn’t expect the box to be as popular as it has been. On one occasion a mother dropping her baby off explained to him that she had poison to kill herself and her baby but because of this box, she had an alternative. On another occasion, a baby was left with this heart wrenching note:

“My baby! Mom is so sorry. I am so sorry to make this decision. My son! I hope you to meet great parents, and I am very, very sorry . I don’t deserve to say a word. Sorry, sorry, and I love you my son. Mom loves you more than anything else. I leave you here because I don’t know who your father is. I used to think about something bad, but I guess this box is safer for you.That’s why I decided to leave you here. My son, Please forgive me.”

Regarding the PASH Article

I’m not usually the type to make tumblr posts but I see people freaking out over this interview and honestly while I will say that Kubo’s comment WAS REALLY NOT A GOOD THING FOR HER TO SAY it wasn’t nearly as drastic as people are thinking it is in translation. 

To start off, what she originally said in Japanese was as follows:  「結婚的な意味合いよりも、部活の仲間同士で同じものを持とう、みたいなノリに近いです。」How I translated it personally was “More than the marriage-like meaning [of the rings], they have the feeling of partners representing a club.“ 

Note, the  合いよりも or “MORE THAN” aspect of this. This is not saying that it means it wasn’t also with marriage intentions. Simply, that the omamori or good luck purpose was the main intention for Yuuri. However it doesn’t change the fact that 1) he bought literal wedding rings 2) he bought them after closely looking at JJ’s engagement 3) he verbatim followed a traditional Russian style engagement 4) Victor himself referred to them as engaged.

The way I always interpreted the scene was that Yuuri himself did the engagement in a way that was reflective of his anxiety. He never explicitly asked Victor to marry him. He absolutely knew Victor knew what he was getting at, however Yuuri himself used very ambiguous language and painted it as “good luck” as a way out in case Victor rejected him. Later, when Phichit announced that they were married, Victor claimed that they were engaged. This sealed that particular meaning of the rings. I think Victor knew what he was doing, given leaked storyboards. 

Yuuri: For good luck!

Victor: (big eyed) So that’s what he means.

Victor, given his revealed thoughts and expression, always knew that Yuuri was teetering around this issue. People ignore that in the anime, he also looked kind of hurt. This is something Japanese fans picked up on, but not Western fans.

And this following smile always looked a little fake to me

That sort of reminded me of his OTHER obviously fake smile

Which still does not negate this

I actually find it kind of amusing. A lot of people have written about how this was the exact moment they got engaged, yet now the fact that it wasn’t explicitly so before is the worst thing ever.

Also I’d like to point out how so much of this series is Yuuri being indirect as hell about their relationship and giving Victor whiplash. Why must best boy suffer so much ;_;


Regarding everything else and Kubo’s ambiguity she does seem like the type that’s “if it’s not explicitly stated it’s up for interpretation” type of writer. Which is annoying and stupid, but it’s so obvious that they’re a thing. Even everything else Kubo has said such as how they’re “soulmates” in “true love”, how she talks about homophobia not existing in their world, how she positively interacts with tweets talking about how they’re a couple. The most damning thing is that she has the mentality of “let the show speak for itself.” Even though she is making some very bad wording decisions roughly half the time (the other half she pretty much outright talks about how they’re a couple) the show pretty clearly does so.

You also have Otsuka outright saying things such as how “When you show scenes that leave no room for other interpretations there’s a risk of it not sitting well with some people, but Kubo and Yamamoto always plunged forward with no hesitation” (source)   He’s the producer and where the money is, so if anyone would be big on not allowing confirmation, it would be him. But he is. He is very encouraging of Victor/Yuuri. You also have Sayo, who if anything outranks Kubo in terms of story, we just never hear from her due to her private nature. Who knows what she would say. 


TL;DR Kubo said something really dumb but it changes absolutely nothing in the grand scheme of things and wasn’t as “no-homo” as people in the western fandom believe

Edit: I answered an ask about Victor’s reactions [here]

Ok so, anti Kylo Ren people - I don’t understand them. Not in the sense that I can’t understand why someone wouldn’t like Kylo - you like what you like or not - but it’s the analysis of the character, something you can interpret on a sliding scale of better or worse accuracy, that strikes me as profoundly odd. It’s completely in defiance not in just to what we’ve been given in the material but also to the things the directors and actors have said themselves explicitly. Which is just…weird. It’s like alternative facts land. It gets especially weird when comparing him to Anakin, which antis always seem to do in a way that treats suffering as a vulgar balance beam of precisely measurable and predictable quantity and quality. 

“Unlike Anakin, Kyle Ron grew up with 2 parents who loved him”

No offense but - so?? Barring the very few wrongheaded outliers who label Han and Leia as abusive and uncaring (and to whom antis seem determined to sniff out and then cling to like a barnacle as a way of judging the wider fandom), most of us recognize the genuine parental love Han and Leia have for their son. My question is since when has love alone ever been enough to keep a young man from falling into darkness? Especially when said young man is growing up in a complicated family situation. If that were the case our world would be a less fucked up place than it is now.

Yes, Han and Leia loved Ben. But guess what? You can love your child and still be a dysfunctional family. You can care a lot for your kid and still make bad choices. You can still try to do your best and fail miserably. You can even do these things and inflict damage because you love them so much. Leia recognizes this - she thought she was doing good in sending Ben away to Luke for training. She was wrong and the decision hurt rather than helped, regardless of her intentions. She said so in the fucking movie.

I find it funny that the people who are vehemently against the idea of love, either from Leia or Rey or Luke or whoever, playing a part in Kylo’s redemption because they think love doesn’t redeem bad men and the notion is toxic are the same people who think love should have kept Ben Solo from becoming Kylo Ren in the first place. That’s some outstanding cognitive dissonance. The idea that because Han and Leia loved Ben and he grew up in a materially comfortable setting compared to his granddaddy somehow eliminates for him profound suffering and turmoil or immunizes Han or Leia from making long-lasting errors as parents and human beings is laughable to me. 

I grew up with a super critical and moody father. It often felt like he didn’t like me or my brother. It was only later that my dad confessed that he thought he was being helpful by chewing us out all the time even though it had the opposite effect on us. And my dad loved the shit out of me. But he didn’t realize the damage he was doing and it wasn’t intended but his own flaws kept him from realizing that and by then, the damage was done and there was no taking it back. Granted, I didn’t join a murderous regime, but then again I don’t live in a galaxy far, far away.

To refresh, reminder that these are canon facts: 1. Han admitted to being uncomfortable around Ben because of his powers. 2. According to both Carrie (”We neglected him a little”) and Adam Driver (”having these incredible powers and not having his parents really be around”), and supplemental material (Bloodline) that Leia and Han ran a contentious household with their work keeping them divided at times. 3. Ben didn’t even know about his true heritage and he found out not through his family but through someone outing his mother as Vader’s daughter. By then he had already been sent to Luke to learn to control himself.

And honestly, to reduce the Solo/Organa family situation as being informed above all else by the love Han and Leia had for their son is to completely erase the strength that outside forces had in tearing the family apart. 

Antis will unfavorably compare Anakin’s life to Kylo by saying “Anakin was a former slave who was then manipulated by Palpatine so it makes him more understandable” but like uh Ben was preyed upon by a dark entity since he was in the womb - since he was in the womb. Mama Leia says even says in the movie that it was Snoke who seduced their son, so I don’t get what distinguishing Palpatine’s manipulations while erasing Snoke’s does except make anti-Kylos look like hypocrites. 

And then there is this whole “Han offered Kylo redemption and he didn’t take it so that’s that!” 

Yeah. Han offered Kylo a chance to come back. It was the last thing he did. And he did it 6 years after Kylo fell. And after 29 years of constant struggle and misunderstanding that constituted Ben/Kylo’s life. He did so at Leia’s prompting. Not that he didn’t want his son back too - he did and he was sincere about it - but he also showed more doubt than his wife. This is gonna sound harsh but from an in-universe perspective and certainly from the character’s perspectives that’s not good enough. That’s not to downplay the love with which the gesture was made or the wrongness of Kylo’s decision. But what Han offered in that moment was just that - a moment. And redemption needs more than a moment, it requires a journey. Han even acknowledges his failures in the last moments of his life, hoping that Kylo will someday forgive him too.

What Han did wasn’t showing a way back, it was a more of a drop-everything-and-run-away-with-me proposition that did not resolve all the underlying issues subsequent actions that led to their estrangement in the first place. 

Again, there is a certain irony that anti-Kylo/anti-redemption folks who quip this line that Han was offering redemption and Kylo rejecting it and killing him therefore his chance are over are often the same ones who scorn the idea of Rey or Leia playing a role in Kylo’s redemption. Yet (putting aside that this is mischaracterizing how most of us envision the redemption arc going) by taking the position of the former, aren’t you contradicting yourself with the latter by acknowledging that yes, redemption can be given through love? Because that is what is being said when you say Han had the solution. 

At any rate, the way back must be something that Kylo finds on his own, not have given to him, with others serving as influences and inspirations but not as his patrons of good. This whole analysis of redemption being closed to Kylo Ren, of him being a “privileged white boy” who threw it all away or of his life being so comparatively better than Anakin’s thus rendering any parallels between them moot is just wrongheaded. There is a lot we don’t know yet and have been promised by those involved in the film to see, including Kylo’s “humanity”. If you’re one of those people with the viewpoint that I have spent this entire post taking down, my honest to god non-snarky recommendation is that you either adjust your reading of the material and change your expectations or not see Episode 8 at all. You will be profoundly confused, angered or disappointed otherwise.

That klance bodyguard au we love

I’ve been non-stop thinking about that klance bodyguard au and I wanted to write my own version but I’m not quite sure about how I want it to go, so here is just some random stuff I was thinking of including!!

-lance is the altean prince
-Keith is a member of the blade of marmora
-altea and BoM are allied in the fight against former black paladin zarkon and his galra army
-Keith is assigned to be prince lance’s bodyguard after an attempted kidnapping
-lots of langst in the beginning
-his father basically ignores him and heavily favours his sister, and he feels like he can never live up to his expectations
-basically just a sad lonely boy hiding behind a bright smile
-he is pretty close to his sister tho, and he knows for a fact that coran adores him
-lance develops a crush on his new bodyguard right away b/c Keith is a hot af badass whose actually a closet cutie pie
-Keith immediately thinks that the prince is totally cute, but he’s kinda slow to pick up on emotions so it takes him forever to figure out his own feelings
-when he does it’s mutual pining city
-Keith refuses to start anything w/lance for the longest time because he’s the prince and is definitely off limits
-but lance is super persistent, esp when Keith admits to liking him too
-eventually Keith will cave b/c he’s weak when it comes to lance
-a secret relationship begins
-lance will probably tell allura b/c she’s his best friend, and she’ll tell him it’s a bad idea but she won’t rat him out
-siblings that ride or die
-still the pressure of being prince and being in love and not able to tell anyone is slowly getting to lance
-he knows what he wants but he isn’t sure how to get it
-finally he makes a decision and tells Keith that he wants to run away together
-at first Keith will refuse (just like when they first got together)
-but we’ve already established that Keith is weak, so eventually he agrees
-he doesn’t really have any strong ties to anyone anyways
-lance will write these super long and emotional letters to coran and allura, who both cry profusely after reading them
-the letter he writes to his father is a lot more formal, but after all this time of barely even being on his radar he’s not quite sure what to say
-they leave in the dead of night is Keith’s ship
-can’t forget that he’s still the best pilot anyone’s ever seen, which means he gets the best ride
-it’s sleek and silent, has a convenient cloaking mechanism, can open wormholes and travel faster than anything else
-that things his baby
-when they first leave they don’t really have a destination in mind
-their main goal is to just get as far away as possible
-when alfor finds out his son is gone he’s beyond pissed that lance would pull something like this during a war
-but as time goes on and there’s still no sign of him he becomes worried
-eventually he realizes his mistakes and is super guilty for pushing his son away
-as Keith and lance travel they keep a low profile and try not to attract too much attention
-they eventually come across earth, a planet tucked far away on the outskirts of the known universe
-they take a stealthy look and fall in love with the blue planet
-they also think it’s the perfect place to start over
-you aren’t supposed to interfere with any planet or race that hasn’t developed enough to discover space on their own, but since they aren’t planning on standing out here they think it’s fine
-they spend their first few months on earth in a secluded desert shack, using their advanced tech to learn as much about their new home as possible
-lance uses his altean chameleon ability to look human
-for stories sake I’m headcannoning that galra can use their magic to somewhat change their appearance
-it still surprises them both when Keith is able to easily change his appearance to look completely human (first clue to half-human Keith)
-they fake their papers (gotta make it look like they’ve always lived on earth) and apply to the garrison (it’s the closest school, and they applied on a whim)
-they both make it in
-Keith is obviously top of the class (after flying super high tech alien spaceships, the ones on earth are like child’s play)
-lance is second (he isn’t nearly as good as Keith but again, super high tech alien ships are way harder to fly than earth stuff)
-lance and hunk meet when lance sneaks away one night to raid the kitchens for a midnight snack and finds hunk already there
-they hit it off right away and become best buds practically overnight
-Keith also likes hunk right away when lance introduces him the next day
-he’s easy to get along with and doesn’t mind Keith’s quietness
-hunk thinks Keith is pretty cool, and practically writes him a sonnet when Keith helps him learn to control his stomach in the simulator
-after that they become a dream team, and shiro (upperclassmen) takes notice
-at first he just introduces himself to them and gives them little pointers, but after spending some time together they all actually become pretty close
-hunk and lance cry when shiro leaves for the Cerberus mission, and laugh when he promises to bring them back some space rocks
-all three of them are worried when news travels about the missing Cerberus astronauts
-not long after this pidge joins the garrison
-they get adopted into the group almost immediately
-she and Keith bond over their shared love of conspiracies (Keith discovered them back while he and lance were still in the desert shack and quickly became obsessed)
-her and lance shoot one liners back and forth
-they get really into it, and sometimes hunk has to physically cover their mouths to get them to stop
-her and hunk talk tech for days
-the self proclaimed science bros
-the whole group becomes sort of like a makeshift family
-eventually lance and Keith agree to tell them their secret
-hunk is shook
-pidge is so excited that it gets a little creepy
-but they’re loyal so both agree to keep their secret
-not long after the reveal shiro crash lands back on earth the the group launch a rescue mission to save him from the government
-when he wakes up he tells him what little he can remember
-lance and Keith tell him about their past and use their knowledge to try and help him piece things back together
-shiro is convinced that the galra are coming to earth, so they use the tech in Keith’s ship to scan for other alien tech
-they don’t find anything galra but there is a weird signal coming from the desert
-they investigate and find the blue lion
-Keith and lance recognize it and tell the others about voltron and what happened to it
-the details are fuzzy b/c nothing was ever confirmed, but they do know that the last black paladin (zarkon) went awol and somewhere in the chaos the other paladins died and the lions were lost
-they find out that lance is the new blue paladin
-the blue lion guides them to the other lions, and eventually they form voltron
-they run into allura and Coran along they way, who left in the castle ship to try and find lance
-they are both overjoyed to find him and tell him what’s been happening while he was away
-zarkon attacked their planet while they were gone, and their father is MIA
-after this it follows a lot of the general plot of voltron with them liberating planets and fighting galra
-klance acts like an old married couple
-coran is both amused and happy for them
-pidge is so done with the both of them being all mushy and gross
-hunk thinks their story is super romantic and won’t stop teasing them about it
-allura and shiro would probably have more to say about it if they weren’t too busy making heart eyes at each other


There’s a whole lot more to this but I’m literally just typing things as they come and forgot the rest 😂 also ignore the terrible spelling and punctuation, I’m on mobile rn..

anonymous asked:

What are other books/series that you'd recommend that are in the same vein as Animorphs?

Honestly, your ask inspired me to get off my butt and finally compile a list of the books that I reference with my character names in Eleutherophobia, because in a lot of ways that’s my list of recommendations right there: I deliberately chose children’s and/or sci-fi stories that deal really well with death, war, dark humor, class divides, and/or social trauma for most of my character names.  I also tend to use allusions that either comment on Animorphs or on the source work in the way that the names come up.

That said, here are The Ten Greatest Animorphs-Adjacent Works of Literature According to Sol’s Totally Arbitrary Standards: 

1. A Ring of Endless Light, Madeline L’Engle

  • This is a really good teen story that, in painfully accurate detail, captures exactly what it’s like to be too young to really understand death while forced to confront it anyway.  I read it at about the same age as the protagonist, not that long after having suffered the first major loss in my own life (a friend, also 14, killed by cancer).  It accomplished exactly what a really good novel should by putting words to the experiences that I couldn’t describe properly either then or now.  This isn’t a light read—its main plot is about terminal illness, and the story is bookended by two different unexpected deaths—but it is a powerful one. 

2. The One and Only Ivan, K.A. Applegate 

  • This prose novel (think an epic poem, sort of like The Iliad, only better) obviously has everything in it that makes K.A. Applegate one of the greatest children’s authors alive: heartbreaking tragedy, disturbing commentary on the human condition, unforgettably individuated narration, pop culture references, and poop jokes.  Although I’m mostly joking when I refer to Marco in my tags as “the one and only” (since this book is narrated by a gorilla), Ivan does remind me of Marco with his sometimes-toxic determination to see the best of every possible situation when grief and anger allow him no other outlet for his feelings and the terrifying lengths to which he will go in order to protect his found family.

3. My Teacher Flunked the Planet, Bruce Coville

  • Although the entire My Teacher is an Alien series is really well-written and powerful, this book is definitely my favorite because in many ways it’s sort of an anti-Animorphs.  Whereas Animorphs (at least in my opinion) is a story about the battle for personal freedom and privacy, with huge emphasis on one’s inner identity remaining the same even as one’s physical shape changes, My Teacher Flunked the Planet is about how maybe the answer to all our problems doesn’t come from violent struggle for personal freedoms, but from peaceful acceptance of common ground among all humans.  There’s a lot of intuitive appeal in reading about the protagonists of a war epic all shouting “Free or dead!” before going off to battle (#13) but this series actually deconstructs that message as blind and excessive, especially when options like “all you need is love” or “no man is an island” are still on the table.

4. Moon Called, Patricia Briggs

  • I think this book is the only piece of adult fiction on this whole list, and that’s no accident: the Mercy Thompson series is all about the process of adulthood and how that happens to interact with the presence of the supernatural in one’s life.  The last time I tried to make a list of my favorite fictional characters of all time, it ended up being about 75% Mercy Thompson series, 24% Animorphs, and the other 1% was Eugenides Attolis (who I’ll get back to in my rec for The Theif).  These books are about a VW mechanic, her security-administrator next door neighbor, her surgeon roommate, her retail-working best friend and his defense-lawyer boyfriend, and their cybersecurity frenemy.  The fact that half those characters are supernatural creatures only serves to inconvenience Mercy as she contemplates how she’s going to pay next month’s rent when a demon destroyed her trailer, whether to get married for the first time at age 38 when doing so would make her co-alpha of a werewolf pack, what to do about the vampires that keep asking for her mechanic services without paying, and how to be a good neighbor to the area ghosts that only she can see.  

5. The Thief, Megan Whalen Turner

  • This book (and its sequel A Conspiracy of Kings) are the ones that I return to every time I struggle with first-person writing and no Animorphs are at hand.  Turner does maybe the best of any author I’ve seen of having character-driven plots and plot-driven characters.  This book is the story of five individuals (with five slightly different agendas) traveling through an alternate version of ancient Greece and Turkey with a deceptively simple goal: they all want to work together to steal a magical stone from the gods.  However, the narrator especially is more complicated than he seems, which everyone else fails to realize at their own detriment. 

6. Homecoming, Cynthia Voight

  • Critics have compared this book to a modern, realistic reimagining of The Boxcar Children, which always made a lot of sense to me.  It’s the story of four children who must find their own way from relative to relative in an effort to find a permanent home, struggling every single day with the question of what they will eat and how they will find a safe place to sleep that night.  The main character herself is one of those unforgettable heroines that is easy to love even as she makes mistake after mistake as a 13-year-old who is forced to navigate the world of adult decisions, shouldering the burden of finding a home for her family because even though she doesn’t know what she’s doing, it’s not like she can ask an adult for help.  Too bad the Animorphs didn’t have Dicey Tillerman on the team, because this girl shepherds her family through an Odysseus-worthy journey on stubbornness alone.

7. High Wizardry, Diane Duane

  • The Young Wizards series has a lot of good books in it, but this one will forever be my favorite because it shows that weird, awkward, science- and sci-fi-loving girls can save the world just by being themselves.  Dairine Callahan was the first geek girl who ever taught me it’s not only okay to be a geek girl, but that there’s power in empiricism when properly applied.  In contrast to a lot of scientifically “smart” characters from sci-fi (who often use long words or good grades as a shorthand for conveying their expertise), Dairine applies the scientific method, programming theory, and a love of Star Wars to her problem-solving skills in a way that easily conveys that she—and Diane Duane, for that matter—love science for what it is: an adventurous way of taking apart the universe to find out how it works.  This is sci-fi at its best. 

8. Dr. Franklin’s Island, Gwyneth Jones

  • If you love Animorphs’ body horror, personal tragedy, and portrayal of teens struggling to cope with unimaginable circumstances, then this the book for you!  I’m only being about 80% facetious, because this story has all that and a huge dose of teen angst besides.  It’s a loose retelling of H.G. Wells’s classic The Island of Doctor Moreau, but really goes beyond that story by showing how the identity struggles of adolescence interact with the identity struggles of being kidnapped by a mad scientist and forcibly transformed into a different animal.  It’s a survival story with a huge dose of nightmare fuel (seriously: this book is not for the faint of heart, the weak of stomach, or anyone who skips the descriptions of skin melting and bones realigning in Animorphs) but it’s also one about how three kids with a ton of personal differences and no particular reason to like each other become fast friends over the process of surviving hell by relying on each other.  

9. Sideways Stories from Wayside School, Louis Sachar

  • Louis Sachar is the only author I’ve ever seen who can match K.A. Applegate for nihilistic humor and absurdist horror layered on top of an awesome story that’s actually fun for kids to read.  Where he beats K.A. Applegate out is in terms of his ability to generate dream-like surrealism in these short stories, each one of which starts out hilariously bizarre and gradually devolves into becoming nightmare-inducingly bizarre.  Generally, each one ends with an unsettling abruptness that never quite relieves the tension evoked by the horror of the previous pages, leaving the reader wondering what the hell just happened, and whether one just wet one’s pants from laughing too hard or from sheer existential terror.  The fact that so much of this effect is achieved through meta-humor and wordplay is, in my opinion, just a testament to Sachar’s huge skill as a writer. 

10. Magyk, Angie Sage

  • As I mentioned, the Septimus Heap series is probably the second most powerful portrayal of the effect of war on children that I’ve ever encountered; the fact that the books are so funny on top of their subtle horror is a huge bonus as well.  There are a lot of excellent moments throughout the series where the one protagonist’s history as a child soldier (throughout this novel he’s simply known as “Boy 412″) will interact with his stepsister’s (and co-protagonist’s) comparatively privileged upbringing.  Probably my favorite is the moment when the two main characters end up working together to kill a man in self-defense, and the girl raised as a princess makes the horrified comment that she never thought she’d actually have to kill someone, to which her stepbrother calmly responds that that’s a privilege he never had; the ensuing conversation strongly implies that his psyche has been permanently damaged by the fact that he was raised to kill pretty much from infancy, but all in a way that is both child-friendly and respectful of real trauma.  

The Venus signs as singles looking for a partner

As an independent sign Aries does not mind being single. She likes to do things her own way. She might date people just for the fun, because she enjoys making new acquitances. It is not unusual that she has many dating partners at the same time, because she likes to keep her life active. When she falls in love, it happens like a lightning strike and she does not hesitate to leave her single life. Although she demands to have some sort of independency in a relationship too.

Taurus does not really enjoy being single, but either she does not jump into relationships on a whim. When she meets some potential candidate she dates them a while to be certain if they are right for her. She makes only measured decisions and that is why she sometimes acts too slow and the potential partners finds already someone else. Although those partners may not be for Taurus any case.

When there is Gemini there is always laughter. This sign loves to have fun and she especially likes to be around people. She might have short relationships, but because she gets easily bored, she usually ends up single again. All sorts of dating events are for her, because she does not like routines in her single life either. She needs some one who keeps up with her and likes variation as much as she does.

Being a single is a nightmare for Cancer, who prefers to live with someone rather than alone. She may stick up with her ex someway until she finds someone else to be with. She does not really do one night stands, because she wants to know her partner. Although she is cautious she trusts her instincts when picking up a partner. That is why she may end up with someone quite fast if it feels right.

Leo is the official dating queen. She loves to meet new people and draw the potential partners attention to herself. Usually she is not long single, because she attracts a lot of suitors around her. Though as a proud and self-assertive sign she would not accept just anyone to be her partner. That is why she might date many persons at the same time to find the best one for her.

They say that Virgo is the picky one and they are not wrong. She may have high standards for her partner, but that is because she will devote to him or her completely. It takes a long time for her to recover from failed relationships, so she makes sure she makes the right decision. Being single is fine for Virgo, because she would rather be alone than in bad relationship.

A single Libra is quite rare thing, because they live to be in a relationship. Libra is one of those who attracts people around her just by doing nothing. So in Libras case she might just live from one relationship to another. If she is single, she is constantly looking for love and has many potential suitors on hand. It won’t take long when she finds the right one and leaves single days behind.

With Scorpio things are always intense. She wants all or nothing. When it is nothing it might be meaningless flings she forgets next day or even total celibate. Scorpio will not show right away if she is interest in someone. Instead she snoops awhile for information before she acts. The possible partner will then see her interest and either wants to know her better or runs away. Not all can handle her intensity, but the weak ones are not for her anyway.

Sagittarius loves her freedom and she wants to go as she pleases. That is why she likes to be single and prefers relationships with loose rules. If someone tries to own her, she will not hang around long. Because she is fun to be with many would like to have her as a partner. But it is always up to Sagittarius will she accept anyone. That is why it takes awhile before she starts a relationship with anyone.

Capricorn does not show anything. Even if she is completely in love, the target of her love might not know anything about it. She wants to be absolutely sure about other persons feelings before she makes any moves. That is why Capricorn might be single for awhile, but she can wait, because she does not want a meaningless relationship.

Usually Aquarius likes more to hang with her friends than date. That is why she might end up with someone who she has known awhile as a friend. She does not jump into relationships easily and even if the attraction is there she waits until she is absolutely sure about it. If someone tries to push her to the relationship, it will be doomed before it even started.

Pisces is the ultimate daydreamer who has created many scenarios for that how she will meet the one. Most likely Pisces is the one who believes in soulmates and she surely tries to find the one whom with everything instantly clicks. Propably she will end up with someone who has good vibes, but she also might see them better than they are.

Why we enjoy Sarah J Maas’s books:

Alright! So I finally got through all of the survey responses. I got over 300! However, I did have to throw out over 50 as many people decided to check more than 5 for likes or dislikes. And I don’t think google forms lets you limit the number they can check? Anyways, it’s fine because I still have 254 usable responses and tons of lovely quotes/thoughts/rants from all of you!!

I’ll put the data charts up top and then the long answer responses below, divided into sections.

So clearly, we are overwhelmingly here for the female characters, the character growth, and the romance. But we also like the morally grey characters, the world building, and the representation of PTSD, abuse, and mental health issues. 

I’m sorry that is so tiny, but basically, we overwhelmingly dislike the lack of diversity in terms of PoC and LGBTQ character and we also have some issues with world building, magic, and seeing our favs do problematic things. 

Also 18 of your hate Celaena lol (I love her and I know that putting that answer in there as a selection was petty af but I cannot help myself. It was all for a good laugh)


Alright, so most of us feel negatively and positively about the fandom. But a solid chunk, 34%, feels positively most-all of the time. Which is great. We are doin okay friends. Only 5.5%, 14 people, felt like the fandom affected them only negatively. 

So we clearly are here for enjoyment and escapism. And pain. 

Also, I apologize for the wet dreams one but THIS FANDOM LOVES SMUT I HAD TO PUT IT ON THERE OKAY

So 70% of the ppl reading to enjoy things and find it easy to ignore the things we dislike. 


And the long answers:

Enjoyment:

Some of us really enjoy the way she writes characters—she really makes us really care with backstory and character development:

“When I finally decide to shut the book, it takes me a minute to forget that the characters aren’t real. I’ve fallen in love with almost every single one of her characters because they’re so authentic; they go through hardships, they love, they fall out of love, they get angry, they grieve deeply, but most importantly, they GROW. I’m so impressed with who Feyre and Aelin have come to be as women over the years. The familial love that bonds the characters together is also something that I really connect to. They really would do ANYTHING to protect each other.” anonymous

“She delivers types of characters and points of view that other YA writers haven’t done. She pulls of tropes without making them boring. She isn’t afraid of calling characters out for doing the wrong thing.”- @the-heir-of-terrasen

“I think SJM’s character development is her biggest strength. I haven’t connected to so many characters in a series since Harry Potter. She is good at showing rather than telling when it comes to several moments of key character building, especially for . That I am so emotionally invested in such a wide variety of characters across two series is a testament to her gift.” -anonymous

“Her use of description and narrative really is eye-opening to the world of the characters in the most subtle of ways. She knows how to wield a character’s experiences and history to cleave new paths in their personalities, and thus makes ever-changing, ever-growing characters that are so much more relatable than most other fantasy books. Not to mention that her villains are just as mysterious and wicked as her protagonists, making even the antagonists realistic to the point of you *screaming* at the book for whatever the character has done this time.“ - @cynical-minds-for-cynical-times

“The Connection to the characters. I don’t relate so much as I do just care very, very deeply about them. I LIKE them, even if they aren’t likable people?” @squaddreamcourt

We also really enjoy how morally complex the characters are:

“What I love about SJM is that she doesn’t make things prettier than they are. She has not created a perfect world, with those perfect good characters finding a perfect happy ending. Instead she created a world that has loads of problems we’re also facing in our world and she shows us how layered and well thought out characters are dealing with them. Her characters grow and the emotional impact of their deeds is not shrugged off. I love it how everything they do has consequences and how the heroes make mistakes and bad decisions and how the villains do good things sometimes. What I love is that it’s a fascinating world with fascinating characters that gives me an unique view on our world.” @acourtofhopeanddreams

“The characters are very well-rounded and dynamic. Almost every character has a motivation for what and why they’re doing what they’re doing, which is something some villains lack in other stories. You find yourself hating the characters, but still enjoying the parts that they’re in because they are so realistic in their mannerisms and motivations.” anonymous

Her books help us deal with personal issues, and we also seem to enjoy how relatable or realistic the personal relationships between the characters are:

“I feel like her books help me a lot, for one thing because they make me feel excited and enthusiastic about something which I think everyone needs more of in their life. I also love the platonic and romantic relationships between the characters because they educate me about abusive relationships, healthy relationships, and the complications of friendships etc. I love this because I feel like it helps me understand myself and the people around me better emotionally, and puts my own personal experiences with other people in perspective. I also find a lot of the things that go down between the characters help me feel more secure about my personal life, and they help me accept myself for feeling the way I do about certain things. Also, I love just love reading them because I find them really fun and enjoyable.“ - @ashryverblue

“I enjoyed the way she wove my favorite fairy tales together and wrote compelling romance. I also connected to the characters and appreciated how she prioritized female pleasure in sex.“ - @sarahviehmann

“The representation of mentally ill and abused characters and their arcs that deals with their past and their issues that isnt “love fixes everything” -anonymous

“also like how they don’t have the common ‘no body likes me because I’m ugly I’m so sad boo ho’ because I never really related to those characters. I want to read about someone who is confident in their body and with their skills, and not someone who is whiny and needs someone to hold their hand through everything.” @a-book-love

“Feyre’s struggle with abuse and PTSD in ACOMAF was relatable and her growth is inspiring. I love her relationship with Rhys and the understanding and respect they have for one another. I love Rhys and his Inner Circle - they’re funny, kind, intelligent, strong, witty etc. I like that Rhys, Mor, Az, and Cassian are abuse survivors - it gives me hope. I love how supportive they are of one another. Of course, I love the magic and world-building in the series but the characters and their relationships are what stand out to me the most in this series.” @pencilsfulloflead

And some of us are here for the drama (myself included):

“Honestly these are the most dramatic books I’ve read, which I love. My favorite thing about fanfiction is how character focused they are, all the big sweeping emotional gestures, all the angst and drama. Give me all that shit. SJM’s books give me that but with original characters/a new world/etc. which allows me new content with those same tropey, dramatic things that I love, with good writing. “ anonymous

“GOD I WISH I KNEW, I HAVE ALWAYS CONSIDERED MYSELF BEING HELD IN THIS FANDOM AGAINST MY WILL AND BETTER JUDGEMENT. I guess I’d say the characters– while I wouldn’t call them “relatable” necessarily– are engaging, and the light fantasy trappings, digestible (though not refined) prose, fast pace, exciting-if-not-necessarily-logically-sound plot twists, and heightened drama create an exciting tableau/ fertile ground for indulgent romance narratives/ heavy interpersonal dramas, which SJM does well. There’s also lots of side characters/ unexplored plot or world-related threads prime for creative exploration that make the world fun to explore as a fic writer.“ @valamerys

“The books have an element of wonder to them; my jaw was wide open during the scene in HOF when all the witches drummed for Abraxos and during the Weaver scene in ACOMAF. Aelin never fails to make me laugh, and on the flip side, her story in HOF is my absolute favorite.” @screaming-at-billiards

And finally, this little snippet that I thought explained why most of us read for the female characters:

“that the women don’t need men to be powerful”


Dislike:

So we clearly have some issues with the diversity…

“Two black girls died for white pain (Dorian/Sorscha and Aelin/Nehemia) in back to back books.”

“I would like to see more POC and LGBT characters because I feel like with the powerful messages and arcs these characters go through it would be beneficial not only to the storyline (with experiences like racism and LGBT discrimination to add to their issues and how they deal with them) but to how people read the book.”

“She messed up big time with ACOWAR and how poorly she treated Mor’s trauma.”- anonymous

“I can’t think of a general thing I dislike about Sarah’s books. I know lack of/poorly handled diversity is an issue but as a straight white female I tend to let others speak on this as I don’t feel like it’s my place to say whether or not POC/LGBTQ+ characters are represented well/enough. Other than that there are plot points, conversations, small things, etc. that I wish had gone differently but that’s my nitpicking and personal preference.” anonymous
“Primarily it’s the lack of representation and understanding of diversity, but recently with acowar I felt she became too busy and it was a bit rushed and unfinished.” @fcyrearcherxn

“Eh I wish it [descriptions of skin color] was clearer so ppl would stop drawing illiryans white” @acourtoffeyreandaelin

And some of us have issues with world building…

“Sjm seems to think about a lot of things while writing, but she doesn’t think them all the way through. For example, the magic system, the references to mythological characters/creatures from multiple cultures and smashed together, etc. I get the sense that even if she has to outline for her publisher, there is still so much that just isn’t thought about with enough attention to detail.“ @abookandacoffee


How dislike affects our reading:

Some of us are not affected by the things we dislike:

“Not at all really, if anything it just fuels fanfiction.” anonymous

“Literally not at all. Even if there are things I dislike, I still love the characters and their stories.” anonymous

“they mildly irritate me until i get over it about 4 minutes later” anonymous

“not much tbh, I just skipped that shit lol” @squaddreamcourt

Some of us were disappointed by acowar and the world building issues it raised affected our enjoyment:

“It makes me cringe when I read it, and honestly all the issues in ACOWAR made it harder for me to get into. Some illogical (even with magic in place) things in the end battle made it impossible for me to focus on the end of the book, cause I still couldn’t get over how little sense what had just happened made. Which was the opposite of ACOMAF, I couldn’t get enough of that book.” - @nightinsurgent

Some of us are negatively affected by the way SJM has handled certain issues:

It [ Mor’s trauma in acowar] honestly ruined the entire book for me and I try to pretend like the third book isn’t even canon.” -anonymous

“Sometimes it can put a downer as I’m a POC I can sometime realise I can’t fully relate to all characters but usually i brush it off as I realise that all books have faults.”-anonymous

And some of us feel guilty for enjoying these books despite the issues:

“I have at times (particularly after major online discussions) felt guilty for taking pleasure from something that hurt another person’s feelings.“- anonymous 


How the fandom affects our enjoyment:

Some of us love the fandom and how it leads to deeper understandings of the story:

“I LOVE fandom. It makes me feel like I’m part of something and that I have people who are there for me. It also gives me new ways of obsessing about the series, and I love seeing other people’s interpretations and feelings about the books, especially when they point out things that I haven’t noticed before. It just gives me a deeper, richer reading experience and it’s like I’m always partly in the world of the books, because I’m always thinking about them and in that sense they never really leave me and are always a part of me.“ @ashryverblue

“WE RIDE AND DIE TOGETHER SO NOTHING IS TOO PAINFUL WHEN YOU HAVE EACH OTHER” -anonymous

For some of us, fandom really affects how we enjoy the books and how we think about certain aspects and characters:

“I’ve always been a critical reader but I wonder if I didn’t have a medium to see, read, and interact with my criticisms that I would let them go easier.”- anonymous

“I can mostly ignore it but sometimes it makes me feel shame for liking the books as much as I do. I also can get past it because I think some people are way to harsh and expect perfect characters which is not what I’m here for. Also, even if improvement in terms of representation is slow at least sjm has made some changes which is something most authors would never do.”-anonymous

“I get to see both sides of all the arguments and my own opinions are sometimes changed based on an argument someone might present considering any topic, which expands my horizons and makes it more enjoyable for me.” @angrydinosauryouth

“I don’t think I would care about Suriel’s death so much if it wasn’t for this fandom who made him a drama loving queen. Things like that” @jmaas-books-lover

We are disappointed with the fandom recently:

“At first I loved how we were all interacting, but the fandom has grown so negative and condemning of any differing opinions. I don’t mean people being called out others for saying abusive characters are not abusive, but people seem to go to war over inconsequential opinions that don’t harm anyone.” @nightinsurgent

“The ACOTAR fandom in particular used to be really lovely and amazing, and there are still groups with whom that is still true. Everyone let people think about and enjoy what they wanted as long as we weren’t perpetuating or justifying abuse, and it was a very supportive environment. It’s less so, now, and people are defending the text just to defend it, which is frustrating to me both as a fic writer AND a reader.” @sarahviehmann

“What gets at me is the clouds of negativity… And it seems really  hard to avoid sometimes, especially in such a small fandom. And when a few vocal members, who otherwise make good stuff, get very negative it gets worse…”

Some of us love the books despite what the fandom has to say:

“The fandom itself doesn’t affect my love of the books, I make my own opinions about them. But the fandom is severely affecting my enjoyment of being a part of the fandom.” @miladyaelin

Some of us enjoy parts of the fandom, but have serious issues with how the fandom reacts negatively to certain aspects of the books:

“Parts of the fandom really make me happy and allow me to discuss my thoughts and feelings about the books. There’s an amazing community of people. But there is a huge part of the fandom which really, really negatively affects my experience through heavy, harsh, and often unnecessary criticism. That’s not to say that we shouldn’t be critical and shouldn’t discuss the issues in her books, but there’s almost a frenzy about it now to the point where those of us who enjoy her books are made to feel bad about it. Yes, she has problems. But there has been significant improvements that no one seems to want to acknowledge. The second something new is released it’s torn into shreds and if you have a different opinion then you’re wrong. (For example, how Morrigan’s coming out was handled. Everyone has been saying how bad it was and how Sarah really messed it up, but I’m bisexual and I now really relate to Mor and the way she came out and her reasoning for not doing so before was incredibly real and believable to me. It seems that a lot of the people (though obviously not all) who criticise the lack of diversity in SJM’s books aren’t actually diverse themselves and are just on some sort of crusade to make themselves look like better people.) Why can’t some of us just enjoy a book for what it’s worth?” anonymous

To Be Human (Alec x Reader)

A/N: I know I said that next would be Jace but I came up with this idea.

Word Count: 1,354

 “So you are telling me that Shadowhunters and Human-” Clary started but you cut her off

“Mundances. That’s what we call humans”

“Okay then Mundanes and Shadowhunters don’t have much in common by the seems of it” She said as she thought about everything you have been trying to teach her for the last few hours.

“Well no really we have many things in common but we just have more power over the things we control” You explained hoping that she was starting to catch on. Clary was a stubborn kid and like to think that everything was so simple in this world when she really had no idea.

“Not one thing we don’t” Isabelle said as she walked into your bedroom, she was smiling like always but held a more seriousness to her face and tone.

“What’s that?” Clary asked with excitement in her voice, she wanted something to help her feel like her old self again. Isabelle looked at you then to Clary and let out

“Love”

“Love?”

“It’s what makes us Mundanes” You crossed your arms, you were hoping that Isabelle wasn’t going to say anything about love as it was such a cruel part of being a shadowhunter.

“What’s so bad about being in love?” Clary was confused and her face showed it. She didn’t get why being in love with someone was so bad. Human craved it, she did once with a cute boy at a coffee shop but that didn’t matter right now.

“Like I said it brings out our Mundane side. It makes us weak for battle and lets us show our true emotions to everyone. It’s useless” You explain to her. Love was a battle in this world because you risked your life everyday for something you were born to do and love always seemed to get in the way of that. It helps you shape decisions that aren’t always good.

“Useless!” Clary shouted, she was shocked that someone could even say that. “How could you say that? I bet you haven’t even been in love before if you could say something like this” Her face seemed to show anger at you and all you could do was grin. Isabelle laughed as Clary stared you down not wanting to be rude but she couldn’t help it.

“Am I missing something?” Clary asked as she looked back and forth between you two. She didn’t know what was so funny about her outburst. Her eyes finally landed on Isabelle but she wasn’t looking at Clary but down at your hand. Clary’s eyes followed it until she was also met with your hand but the ring on your finger made her stop. How did she not notice this in the hours that you two had been together. She knew what was so funny now.

“So you’re in love?” Clary said bringing her eyes back up to your face. You nodded at the girl, you couldn’t help but blush at the thought of Alec. He was your weakness.

“How do you think I know everything?” You laughed, you had to lived it to really know how it all went down. “I love him with everything I have. I know he makes me weak, he makes me forget about my duty as a shadowhunter and I couldn’t love him anymore for that but that’s the problem. He interfered with my job but at the end of the day it doesn’t matter because I have him”

“Show me”

“What?”

“Show me you are really in love with someone, I need to see it to know it’s true and not just take yours or Isabelle word for it.”

“Okay” You nodded your head then smile at Isabelle. She knew that you were happy that you had a real excused to go see what Alec was up too. Clary was helping you in a way she couldn’t even understand.


 As you three enter the lobby, your eyes glanced around the room looking for the tall brunette boy. He always seemed to stick out when in a crowded room. Maybe it was his height or it was that he just always tended to be the person you needed to feel alright. Your eyes finally landed on him by a tracker screen with Jace. Jace caught your eye and smiled. You made your way over with Clary and Isabelle following closely behind.

“Hey guys” You greeted as you stood by the two boys.

“Hey” Jace replied as his eyes wander over to met Clary’s. Alec didn’t even look up from the screen just reached out his arm and pulled you close to him. You wrapped your arms around his waist and leaned into him.

“Busy day?” You asked just loud enough for you two to hear. Alec just nodded finally moving his face so he could met your eye. He was taller than you but Alec loved that he could fit you right into his arms. He smile at the sight of your face, man did he ever love you.

“I wanted you to meet Clary” You said as you turned you guys so you face the others.

“I’m Alec” Alec reached out a hand so she could shake it but still not moving from holding you.

“Clary” Alec stay neutral as he scanned Clary up and down obviously trying to get a read on her.

“So what brings you here? Aren’t you guys suppose to be studying?” Alec asked, he was confused but he didn’t mind as he got to see your face.

“Clary here wa-” You went to explain but Clary cut you off before you had a chance.

“It was nothing. I just needed a break for a moment” You look at Clary puzzled with her answer but you let it be. “We will be going then” And without another word Clary grabbed Isabelle and started to make their way to the back of the room.

“What is all this about?” Alec asked as he turned to face you.

“She wanted to see my lover”

“And here I was thinking it was because she wanted to meet the head”

“Sorry babe but it was for your handsome good looks” You teased with a smirk. Alec rolled his eyes at your words but still held a grin on his face. “She really wanted to see what makes us like Mundanes. Love was the only thing she curious in and you know how I am” Alec nodded knowing that you always had a few coloured words when it came to being in love but at the end of the day he knew you wouldn’t trade in for anything. Alec brought one hand up to your cheek, slowly rubbing it as his eyes showed passion.

“Alec were in public” You whispered. You guys weren’t the type for PDA.

“Don’t care, I’m going to show Clary you are truly in love” With that Alec’s lips met yours for a slow and gentle kiss. It was only for a moment because someone cleared their throat. Jace.

“Sorry lovebirds but we need to get back to this”

“You ruin everything Jace” You said pulling your own eyeroll. “I’ll see you after Alec” You made your way over to the two girls standing in the back. Alec never took his eyes off of you until Jace nudge him to get back to work.

“Why do you talk so badly about it?” Clary asked when you stopped by them.

“Like I said earlier it bring out my mundane or human side.I don’t like it overpowering me like it does.”

Clary nodded but she still didn’t fully get it. She knew with time she would because if she fell in love when doing this job it could only mean trouble as did everything else. You guys didn’t say anymore just made your way back to your room but you lingered for a moment. You took one last look at Alec and smiled. Your heart flutter and you knew then, that maybe just maybe feeling like a mundane for a period of time was okay. After all what would life be without love

Dolly wrote “I Will Always Love You” in 1973 and big old bad Elvis loved the song so much (duh) he wanted to record a version of it. BUT part of that agreement included Dolly having to sign over her publishing rights on the song which she refused to do, so he never recorded it and she was told by many this was a very poor business decision. Well the song went on the make millions for her over the decades through royalties and when Whitney Houston wanted to cover it for The Bodyguard, Dolly gladly gifted the song over to her, because she knew Whitney would do it justice. It’s the only song in country music that has hit #1 two times by the same artist (1974, 1982) and then covered by a pop singer to hit #1 again twenty years later.

I really think Dolly is exemplary in trusting her gut and creative senses, which is something all artists can admire and hope to be as steadfast in doing. She rose to the top of an industry that was not friendly towards women, and was unapologetically the best version of herself. The song, though billed as a romantic love song, is actually about her decision to leave her performing and business partner, Porter Wagoner and pursue her own career. So the greatest love song of all time is actually about a woman deciding to chase her own dreams. It’s a love song to herself. Okay thank you goodnight, long live the Queen of Country Music!

I always find it funny when people don’t like a character because he or she doesn’t do the right thing, or they should have done something else that wouldn’t cause pain to the protagonist. If all characters always did the right thing there would be no story. Period. And for some characters, they would have no redemption arc if they didn’t start from a place of negativity. 

Today’s case in point: Laura Moon from American Gods

In life, Laura is a deeply unhappy woman who generally feels nothing all the time. She exists. She does things to try to feel anything—huffs bug spray, marries Shadow, sleeps with Robbie, tries to rob the casino where she works. Every awful and good thing she does is to feel something. Anything. Should she have done those super shitty things? Nope. And she knows this. She cops to it, even. It isn’t until she dies and comes back that she finally has the chance to live and to love in an extraordinary way that makes her feel something and she does everything in her power to pursue it. Her journey from there on out is to atone for her first life, to make amends with Shadow because she actually does love him, and now she feels it. She feels so intensely, it makes her strong. Crazy, physically, strong. Strong enough to save Shadow, which she couldn’t have done before. 

We aren’t really supposed to like her in the beginning. If we did, the rest of her story would be flat, and her relationship with Shadow would be clichéd and we’d all be yawning. 

Don’t like her, but don’t dismiss her either. 

When he left
I didn’t want to accept it.
I fought tooth and nail
for him and it wasn’t enough.
“I don’t want this
to be over.” I cried to my friend.
“But this isn’t about you.”
She said
“This isn’t about
what you want,
it’s about what he wants.
I know it hurts
and it sucks so bad,
but this is his choice
and you suffocating him
isn’t going to
make him come back.
You need to leave it be.”
I knew she was right,
maybe it was just hearing
someone else say it
that made it click in my head.
It didn’t matter
how much I loved him.
He was making the decision
and there wasn’t a damn thing
I could do to change his mind.
—  This situation destroyed me || melindacarolinee

Lucretia, my angel, my beautiful, brave, exceptional, intelligent, darling… you can’t just take away people’s free will. It might seem like it will make them happier but you can’t make that choice for them. That’s not right. Sweetie, you can’t do that. It’s a Bad Thing. You did it for so many good reasons but it was still terrible and it hurt so many people so, so much. 

We make choices to live with the consequences. That is what we do as adults. You can’t take that away from other people. You’re not their mother, you’re their teammate.You all made this terrible decision, you all deserved a chance to unmake it together. This was a joint choice and it needed to be a joint un-choice. At the very least, if you were going to throw a coup for the greater good you could have tried to do it with less lobotomies. It might have seemed less “kind” but it probably would have been more right. 

This was a venture of equals, and you turned it into Lucretia And Her Many Clueless Hurting Associates and that really hurt them, and it will continue to hurt them. It hurt you as well, because it put all that weight on your shoulders, when there should have been people there to share it with you. 

You can’t shield a world but cutting it off from the universe. You can’t protect someone by locking them in a box for the rest of eternity. And you can’t help your friends by taking away their very sense of self just for the sake of erasing their short term pain. 

im tired of everyone screaming lapis is abusive to peri, like, have you watched the damn episode? Lapis is emotionally distraught, almost everyone in the show is rn, tensions are high and Lapis clearly can’t make good decisions while under pressure, especially with everything in her being telling her to get the fuck off earth.

Relationships aren’t all happy and fluffy all the time, people get hurt, they take things differently, they get misunderstood. But you work through it, even if it takes awhile. Lapis didn’t intentionally hurt Peridot, not like she did with Jasper, she doesn’t treat peri like how some of y’all say she does. She’s selfish, she’s flawed. Character’s aren’t one-dimensional and fuck stuff up, this isn’t new.

Peridot isn’t afraid of Lapis; she sees how emotionally conflicted she is. She wants to help, and went too far with always putting Lapis in front of herself. They need to talk it out, Lapis wasn’t okay with Peridot repressing her thoughts and emotions in the last moments before she left. It was ill-timed, Lapis felt she had no choice but to run. 

Sometimes people fuck up, sometimes they make ill-thought out decisions that hurt people they love. If they’re willing to make amends, to apologize and communicate with the people they’ve hurt, that shows they care. It doesn’t make them inherently bad or cruel. 

hhhhh

Special Instructions (1/?)

Summary: Drunk Emma really likes pizza. She also really happens to like the cute delivery guy who seems content to carry out all of her wishes via the “Special Instructions” box on the website.  (AO3)
Rating: M (eventually)
Word Count: ~1700

This has been burning a hole on my desktop for a couple months now and I just really felt like if I didn’t start posting it would probably never get finished… I’m a couple chapters in with the writing but I think this is going to end up being like between 10 and 15 chapters, all roughly the same length if I can pull it. We’ll see how that goes. Anyway, this was gonna just be like a cheesy smut fic originally but I apparently like to overthink things and it became slightly cuter of an idea…

@stubble-sandwich THANKS FOR LETTING ME GUSH ABOUT THIS STUPID IDEA WITH YOU. Look at me, finally posting the fuckin pizza guy au… christ…

Special instructions: pls make smiley face with pepperoni, i could use something happy right now

She’d typically have left the box blank but Emma was currently full of self-pity and a little too drunk to really care how she appeared to the rest of the world.

Two years she’d spent with Walsh. Two years of warm embraces and whispered I love you’s and sweet kisses and integrating him into her close-knit group of friends despite some heavy resistance – especially from David; she reminded herself to give her brother a hug later for trying – and for what? 

For him to just “reconnect” with his ex at what was supposed to be their engagement party?

“I’m so sorry, Em. I never meant to hurt you like this. It just… happened. I can’t help how I feel.”

She scoffed in disgust. What an asshole. A total prick.

She finished off her fifth – sixth? – bottle of beer and popped open another. Maybe after another few she’d forget the sight of him with his tongue down that other woman’s throat. Maybe she’d forget the shock and guilt on his face when she’d dropped her glass of champagne at seeing them together, stunned to see her betrothed blatantly cheating on her by the bathrooms while their party guests mulled about in the main room, completely clueless.

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Maura Sargent appreciation post

  • Talent for bad decision-making
  • Straight up regifted an illegal switchblade from a hitman to her teenage daughter. That is zero fucks given. That is negative fucks. She actually took some of your fucks away from you
  • Selflessly saved the lives of two innocent tree frogs
  • Didn’t Think Any Of This Through
  • “Private school boys? Using random pieces of fabric as apparel? That seems like exactly what you stand for these days” damn, woman, save some shade for the rest of us to throw
  • Knows the value of a good therapeutic fully-dressed group bathtub cry sesh
  • A++ dramatic last-words note-leaving skills
  • No hesitation risking her own life when her daughter’s dumbass friends are in danger
  • Orchestrated her life to have little/no male presence #lifegoals
  • Jacks up her prices when the customers are teenage douchebags
  • Made it through 17 years of friendship with Calla and Persphone calling her ex “Butternut” and didn’t strangle either of them; clearly knows patience beyond the bounds of mortal women
  • Boned a tree
stress fracture

pairing: harry potter x pansy parkinson

setting: modern, non-magical, getting back together au


Honestly, it’s–

It’s a series of bad decisions. Just. All around. Start to fucking finish. 

It’s a bad decision when she stumbles through her parents’ front door at fuck o’clock in the morning–her parents’, god, she’s twenty-five years old–reeking of firmly middle-shelf vodka and the menthols she used to chain smoke in high school; and it’s a bad decision when she can’t quite twist the cap off a miniature bottle of Fiji water because her hands are sticky with sweat and lip gloss and grenadine and so she digs through her mom’s meticulously organized kitchen drawers to unearth the can opener and it doesn’t even fucking work; and it’s a bad decision when she trudges upstairs to her childhood bedroom, steeling herself for the onslaught of baby pink walls and leopard print bedding and a frankly morbid desk collection of expired designer perfume samples; and it’s a bad decision when she goes to brush the lingering metallic taste of canned pineapple slices out of her mouth and reaches unsteadily for the tube of Aquafresh and catches sight of the jagged fucking Robbins Brothers tan line she still has on her ring finger–

A sad, lonely little chirp echoes from the pocket of the hoodie she’d stolen from one of the wide-eyed, too-eager frat boys outside the bar, and she blearily fishes her phone out. She has one (1) unread message from ***DO NOT CALL*** Harry Potter ***DO NOT CALL***:

(2:11) u up

Pansy squints at her reflection in the obnoxiously sparkling bathroom mirror. It smells like Windex. Everything in this house smells like fucking Windex. She types out her response as she strips out of the dress she technically eats way too many carbs to ever properly fit into again and turns on the shower:

(2:14) i’ll come over if you promise not to talk

It’s a bad decision.

She knows that.

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The Parable of Sisyphus

King Sisyphus was known from Homer onward as the craftiest of men. He betrayed one of Zeus’ secrets by revealing the whereabouts of Aegina, in return for causing a spring to flow on the Corinthian acropolis. 

In return, Zeus then ordered Thanatos, Death, to chain King Sisyphus down below in Tartarus. Sisyphus was curious as to why Hermes, whose job it was to guide souls to the Underworld had not appeared on this occasion. He slyly asked Thanatos to demonstrate how the chains worked. As Thanatos was granting him his wish, Sisyphus sezied the opportunity and trapped Thenatos in the chains instead. Once Thanatos was bound by the strong chains, no one died on earth. 

Before Sisyphus died he told his wife to throw his naked body in the middle of the bpulic square. This caused King Sisyphus to end up on the shores of the river Styx. Then, complaining to Persephone that this was a sign of his wife’s disrespect for him, he persuaded her to allow him to return to the upper world. Eventually he was dragged back down for his trickery. 

As a punishment for this, he was made to endlessly roll a boulder up his steep hill. The maddening nature of the punishment was reserved for King Sisyphus due to his hubristic belief that his cleverness surpassed the gods. Zeus accordingly displayed his own cleverness by enchanting the boulder into rolling away from King Sisyphus before he reached the top, which ended up cosigning Sisyphus to an eternity of useless efforts and unending frustration. 

Therefore I find it impossible for a chapter where Kanou dies, without facing any kind of justice at all and way too easily, and one where he namedrops Sisyphus himself and take it at face value.

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