she just shows up and people throw themselves at her

#76 - For anonymous

Filling the prompt “could you please do a schoolboy van wherein reader is bestfriends with him but reader is starting to fall for van but couldnt do anything bc van is dead inlove with a popular girl??”

Note: I recently did a fic with a school setting, so I’ve tried to add a lil’ something-something to make this a very different story. I hope you like it! Also, I am so profoundly hungover. Happy Sunday! 


2017

You had tried to wear the least attention-grabbing outfit possible. Blending into the crowd was the goal for the night, and you felt like you were doing a really fucking good job too. You watched Catfish play from your place against a wall. Somehow, despite the low lights and screaming fans, Benji’s eyes clocked you. You stood up straight as you watched him recognise you and almost freeze. He signalled to someone off stage, and Larry quickly ran to him. Larry looked across the room at you with the same disbelief. Maybe if you had hidden in the crowd instead of the shadows they’d not have seen you. You turned and made your way to the exit as fast as you could.

You were almost a block away when you heard Larry’s voice. You knew it, but it was deeper and older than when you last heard it. He was calling your name. He ran to catch up and he stopped in front of you, holding out his hand in a beg. “Y/N. Please. Don’t go. Gimme a sec,” he said. You didn’t know what to do, but you gave him the few seconds to catch his breath. “Fuck. Hi!” he beamed then, and pulled you into a hug. It was familiar and you wanted to cry. You held onto him harder than you wanted to. He started to talk but didn’t let you go. “What happened? Where did you go? You can’t leave now. If Van finds out you were here… Come on, you have to come back.” He broke the hug and took your hand. You pulled your arm away from him.

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Strings of Fate - Part 2

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Summary:

Soulmate AU
“Funny how I finally got what I always wanted, but it was given to you instead.”

Warnings: Swearing, violence

Word count: 1972

A/N: I finally got this chapter done! Honestly, I’m blown away by the positive reactions I got last chapter, you guys are amazing <3  I hope you enjoy this chapter too, because things are just getting started…

Originally posted by stuckwithbuck


Knock, knock, knock

The sound of someone’s fist pounding against the door is what finally makes you react. You stand up from your previous sitting position on the bathroom floor and wipe at your tear-stained face as best as you can.

“Hey (Y/N) are you in there?”

It’s Sam on the other side of the door, and you’re torn between throwing yourself into his arms and sob or staying in the bathroom and cry your eyes out for the rest of the party. “(Y/N), I know it’s you or I would’ve gotten an answer already” His voice is serious, so you just splash some water on your face and pull down your left sleeve, trying to cover up the tattoo as best as you can.

With a final look in the mirror, you step out of the door and throw Sam, who’s leaning against he wall, a smile. “Don’t worry too much about me Sam. I’m good,” you say, patting him on the shoulder.

“Really?” he says while he scans your face, obviously skeptical, “I’m sorry to break it to you sweetheart, but people don’t usually lock themselves in a bathroom when they’re okay.”

“I’m fine, bird-man. I swear I was just-“

But before you can finish that sentence, Nat shows up again with a big smile on her face.

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Creepypasta #793: I Just Realised Why I Have Been Living Multiple Lives

Length: Super long

I sat in the therapist’s waiting room, fighting my nervousness with the confidence that she couldn’t send me to the crazy house. I had done my Googles – your neighborhood therapist can’t send you to the crazy house no matter what you say. And this was fine because I was not crazy. I mean, technically I was having thoughts that were crazy, but I know myself and I was not crazy.

I walked into her office.

HER: “What’s the problem?” she asked.

ME: “Well, I know I sound crazy, but I’m really not. My problem is that I am living multiple lives. I don’t mean that I am a lawyer by day and drag queen by night, I mean that I am literally living multiple lives. Some days I wake up as a four year old boy of a loving single mother. Some days I wake up as a successful lawyer with two children and a beautiful wife. Some days I wake up as an incredibly successful black stand up comedian. Some days I wake up as a lonely old fat woman that works as a secretary in an accounting firm.”

The therapist was surprisingly non-judgmental.

HER: “Well, which one is your real life?”

ME: “I honestly don’t know. You see, I was apparently in a coma and I woke up about 2 years ago. I realized I was a lawyer with a beautiful wife and two kids. I had apparently been in a bad car accident and I lost all my memory. The doctors said it was the worst case of amnesia they had ever seen because I literally did not remember a single thing about my previous life, but I somehow still had the ability to function and do my job and be a great dad and husband. I still don’t remember anything from before the accident. I was adjusting fine to living life as a lawyer but then I started waking up in these other lives. At first I thought they were dreams but they were too vivid and I could not just wake up and make the dream end. So I don’t know. All the lives feel equally real and also not real to me.“

HER: “Well are you happy?”

Wait a fucking second, I thought. Am I happy? I just told you I probably have the most fucked up mental condition I haven’t ever heard (I researched the internet, I couldn’t find anything even remotely like it) and you ask if I’m happy? Aren’t you supposed to help me get out of this condition? What kind of weird therapist is this?

ME: “Well, I guess I am. I go through the highs and lows just like anybody else. I am generally happy, but recently I’ve been getting more and more depressed. Shit has just been going wrong in the lives and I just kind of don’t care because none of them feel real to me. None of my lives are terrible, and none of them are particularly satisfying either. My one concern is that none of it feels real. Like, I can’t articulate why it isn’t real, but it just doesn’t feel real. I just feel disconnected. So I see shitty things happening and my life is spiraling out of control, but I don’t care.”

HER: “Why isn’t your life as a successful black stand up comedian satisfying?”

Jesus Christ, I thought. I finally gathered the courage to go to a therapist and ask about my mental problems, and she wants to know what it’s like to be a black stand up comedian? What?

ME: “To be completely honest, I am racist. I don’t like being around black people, especially at comedy shows. Black women throw themselves at me, but I don’t find them attractive. In that life I am popular in the ‘black’ world but the mainstream ignores black comedians. I deal with a lot of shady promoters and fucked up people. I also don’t really like my comedy. Even that life is going shitty. I am getting less calls to do shows, etc..”

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Just been watching Orange is the New Black through again (for about the 10th time) in preparation for season 2. I haven’t watched it for a while and it reminded me of how much I adore the way the show and the actresses handle the Alex and Piper dynamic/relationship. 

There are many shows now that have ‘lesbian’ couples or ships, some of these shows have steady couples with supposedly warm and loving relationships. However I can’t think of any other show that has achieved such a level of realism and honest affection in the way the characters are portrayed together. It’s quite ironic that in Alex and Piper you do not have a 'steady couple’ but a tumultuous and complex relationship. If you tried to explain them to someone who watched the show you may leave them with the impression that there is a lot of heat and passion but little of anything else.

However anyone watching the show can see that even though it is rarely voiced there is a hell of a lot of affection between the two and that is why most of the fan base falls firmly on their side and not on Larry and Pipers even though it is clearly the more logical of the two.

Some of this is down to strong writing and no doubt strong directing from the show’s hierarchy but if they should be complimented for one thing and one thing alone then it would be their casting choices. Taylor Schilling and Laura Prepon were not the most obvious names to call on for a dark satirical lesbian prison drama but in hindsight they are perfectly cast.

I don’t just mean they fit the roles perfectly, although obviously they do. What I am trying to get at is that the combination of the two makes the Piper and Alex relationship fly far more than it would of with another combination. They have a lot of trust in each other, something that had been apparent in interviews when discussing the characters more heated moments. In one interview Laura talks about how she had talked Taylor through where she was going to put her hands during a scene and Taylor said that she trusted her and she could put her hands wherever. I mean, how many actresses feel comfortable having someone run their hands over them like in the scene below? In any other show Alex would have just looped her arms around Piper’s waist.

This trust has very much freed the two of them (and their expressive hands) up whist acting. When watching other shows you get the impression that every touch is directed and in fact they only touch when directed too (I love Calzona but they are a prime example of this). When watching OITNB you get the impression that both actresses touch in a way that feels natural to the situation they are in during the scene. It gives the interactions a more organic feel and draws the audience in to their story. 

The example below is from episode 11. The attention of this scene was not on Piper and Alex but their bond is still ever present when Alex puts her arm around Piper’s shoulders. On any other show the arm would have simply stayed in place over the shoulder for as long as required but here we have Piper reaching up to caress and hold the hand that is draped across her. There is also a subtle movement of Alex’s finger brushing across the top of Piper’s breast. It’s a moment of tenderness done purely for the sake of reality and not to drive their story on anywhere. It’s a little detail and in relationships the little details count.

To highlight this point I’ve added a couple of hand holding gifs. In all three there is not only the act of hand holding which was obviously scripted but light caresses between the two of them.

It’s not just something that is present in the way they hold hands. There are two hugs scenes (one in the chapel and one in the corridor) where rather than just putting their arms around each other and gripping on their is a tenderness about the way they hold each other. On both occasions they slide their hands into a position of comfort, in a way that makes the hug fit and therefore they fit against each other. The fact that their hand movements and positioning in both hugs is the same gives a feel of familiarity to the act. It looks like something they do all the time and lacks the awkwardness that can be seen in other pairings.

 

To add to the intimacy of the way they hug in the Chapel there is an affectionate and comforting kiss by Alex to Piper’s temple and in the corridor (where people are watching) she settles for burying her head in Piper’s neck. In the Chapel scene Taylor Schilling uses her facial expression to convey how much comfort this act is giving her character by visibly looking soothed. This affection continues into the Chapel scene when they are both seated and pressed against each other. Alex soothes Piper by reaching out and caressing her face whilst they look each other in the eyes. It’s an example of where other shows would rely on words to express feelings OITNB is confident enough in its own delivery and the intelligence of its audience for the simplest of gestures to express all the emotion required.

 

So far I have only talked about scenes that involve minimal ‘sexual’ physical intimacy. The scenes where they kiss etc highlight even further the uniqueness of the Alex and Piper dynamic on our TV/laptop screens. Now it can be argued that OITNB does have an advantage here because being on Netflix and not terrestrial TV it allows them some creative luxuries and freedom when it comes to how they portray sex and sexual encounters. However, I am not referring to the fact that they allow them to get naked in a shower or the fact that there is a brief flash of Alex going down on Piper. I am still talking about gestures and touches.

In the interview I mentioned above with Laura Prepon the scene she was referring too was the flashback scene where Alex persuades Piper to travel with her. You can’t forget it… Alex looks like a sexy librarian, Piper partly strips to music and then they start feeling each other up and kissing. Yup, that one. Most shows could get away with this scene if you cut out the ‘I want you to cum’ part but few would dare venture here and if they do…well it’s just not the same. You see most actresses just aren’t comfortable roaming their hands freely around another actress whilst a film crew of thirty people watch on. They can throw themselves at each other for a much shorter scene or talk intimately whilst keeping their hands in safe places for a longer scene. Taylor and Laura trust each other enough for it not to be an issue. In this scene you can clearly see Alex’s hands go walkies all over Piper’s face, shoulders, breasts, abbs (yes and lower too I know) and although her hand drops out of shot you can clearly see Piper’s hand heading down to wander the same path on Alex’s body.

 

Their hands reflect and express the desire the two are meant to be feeling towards each other. In what other show or pairing do you see a couple kiss and their hands move anywhere other than face or shoulders? I should also mention again here that the two actresses are also excellent at portraying emotion with their eyes. Even as Taylor is portraying Piper’s desire for Alex when the brunette’s hand does go south she keeps eye contact. That conveys a lot of love right there in that second because people who are just enjoying having sex with one another rather than an intimate relationship do not hold eye contact at intimate moments.  

Whilst I am on the topic of kisses that show desire I cannot possibly miss the kiss from the Chapel after Piper is released from the slot. She’s been fighting her desires for Alex since incarceration and gives up in spectacular style. So to sum it up this is a kiss borne from a lot of pent up emotion after being in a challenging and emotionally draining situation. I can think of another example of this type of kiss borne out of the same emotions. Anyone who watches Grey’s Anatomy will remember the season 6 finale with the gun man (it was the peak of Grey’s powers before it started sliding rapidly downhill). Callie and Arizona have been split up but have just shared a life or death situation and realised life is too short and they should be together. Cue this kiss…

It’s kind of good right? I mean they look at each other in the right way and launch at each other but then it remains static before the quick cutaway. So let’s compare that with the same desperate kiss Alex and Piper style.   

 

There is the look. Alex is wondering is what she thinks is about to happen is actually what is going to happen and then boom Piper grasps her face. Alex has a hell yeah moment and doesn’t need a second invitation before grasping Piper’s cheek too and kissing her back. Except unlike Grey’s attempt it’s not remotely static. They grasp at each other and run their hands all over each other and Alex even catches Piper’s lower lip between her teeth which is totally different from the usual ‘press your lips against each other’ act from other shows.

 

Okey dokey. Now you’re all hot and bothered let’s move on to the naked shower scene…. Now two naked women kissing in a shower sounds like it is another ‘desire kiss’ but it is actually portrayed in a more intimate and dare I say loving way than one would expect. It’s a slow and sensual kiss but again it’s Alex’s hands that are my main point of interest. Earlier to the gif below she runs it over Pipers breast but in the gif you can see her caressing the blonde’s arm and shoulder.

She runs a path from the shoulder and down the upper arm, back up piper’s forearm, over her shoulders and down her back. That is an incredibly intimate act. Other show’s (for example the American version of Mistresses had a steamy shower scene that was designed to be sexy over sensual).

 

The final kiss we see between them in season 1 is an affectionate and sweet kiss that takes place on Alex’s bunk. It’s my favourite scene from the first season. There may be a reluctance to actually say the words ‘I love you’ in the scene but actions speak louder than words. For example watch the way Alex tenderly cups Piper’s cheek during the kiss. Her hand isn’t just placed there its glides there and lightly caresses. It’s all the small details again.

It’s easy to get caught up in the hands and the kiss but if you watch Piper’s face closely during this seen both before and after this kiss you see more emotion than any ‘I love you’ or ‘I heart you’ could ever express.

There will be a few Doccubus fans ready to defend their ship and tell me that Bo and Lauren do get very physically intimate with each other. I agree to an extent. In scenes were the two really kiss or have sex scenes (and there was a really raunchy one in season 3) they have got more and more realistic. However Lost Girl still lacks the little touches and moments that OITNB allowed its characters. I am also going to say that I see some potential in Rookie Blue pairing Holly and Gail to have some of these more impromptu intimate moments because it’s clear both actresses are actually very keen to portray the relationship.

What I am trying to say in this post (probably very poorly) is that although we have many great f/f ships and couples OITNB has stepped the game up for me. I will always have affection for Callie and Arizona especially because Grey’s pushed boundaries with the wedding but they do look rather stiff and awkward in comparison. I don’t mean to sound like I am bashing them in this post but they are a well known and highly publicised example to compare Alex and Piper too.

I know we are going to be sans Alex for a chunk of season 2 but I hope that in the flashbacks and when she returns the two actresses carry on where they left off and it remains so wonderfully organic. If it does I am convinced 90% of the fandom will be rooting for them and not Larry.