she felt loved

Idk, Tumblr Trans™ folks can be pretty scary but I’ve met so many genuinely dysphoric people just trying to get by. Hell the first time I even heard about the so-called “Cotton Ceiling” was my gender fluid ex mocking it with one of my other friends, a trans girl. This same trans girl confided in me how lonely she felt loving women whilst she was undergoing transition but said that she wouldn’t expect a lesbian to be comfortable having sex with her, saying she hoped to find and “understanding bi girl.” I know trans people who denounce the lesbophobia and rape rhetoric coming from a small, but vocal part of their community. And whilst we should critique Transactivism, we must recognize that as GNC people they do face a substantial amount of oppression, and criticism should be constructive and not hateful for the sake of it, much like we can critique Zionism as a political movement without being antisemitic. This has been a kind of rant/ ramble but there’s gotta be a way of engaging with these people without being like “sorry about your dick bro” as well as letting people with dysphoria live.

Bechloe Week Day 1: Coincidence

Summary: Beca and Chloe lost touch after college but reconnect again at an unexpected place.

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Beca’s least favorite place in the world is the most crowded Walmart in Atlanta, but that also happens to be the closest grocery store to her apartment that she shared with her four year old daughter Maggie.

She had gotten pregnant straight out of college and the baby was unfortunately not Jesse’s, and he ended up leaving her after not being able to wrap her head around it. After seeing her baby on the monitor during her first ultrasound, she felt in love and decided to keep it, which was the best decision of her life. Unfortunately, she was pretty tight on money, but they got by just fine.

After a particularly shitty day at work, she picked Maggie up from her Dad’s and they headed to Walmart to get something for dinner. “How was preschool?” Beca asked as she pulled into the parking lot.

“Good! I made you a painting but it’s still drying,” Maggie said promptly.

“That’s awesome kiddo!” Beca smiled. She glanced up just in time to see a woman cut her off and take the spot she wanted. “You fucking asshole,” she muttered as she stuck up her middle finger at the woman before pulling into a spot a few spaces down. “Do you want to ride in the cart or walk?” Beca wondered as she unbuckled the 4 year old from her car seat.

“Ride!” Maggie said excitedly. “Can we go in the race car cart?”

“Sure,” Beca smiled as they walked inside. “Is that the girl I got upse- shi…shoot,” she whispered as she lifted her daughter into the cart.

“What’s wrong Mama?” Maggie wondered.

“I know her,” Beca said quickly as she caught up with the woman. “Chloe!” She smiled as the redhead turned around.

“Beca!” Chloe said excitedly as she pulled the woman in for a hug. “Who’s this?” She asked with a grin, motioning towards the little girl.

“This is my daughter,” Beca said proudly.

“Hi honey, I’m Chloe!” The woman smiled at the girl.

“I’m Maggie,” the small brunette said hesitantly as she looked at her Mom. “How do you know my mom?”

“We went to college together,” Chloe said. “Beca Mitchell is the only girl I know who’d name her kid after a Supergirl character,” she laughed.

“Maggie Sawyer is a badass and my kid is too,” Beca shrugged, laughing at the redhead. “Anyway, I’m sorry I flipped you off in the parking lot.”

“It’s okay,” Chloe said with a laugh. “So how are things?”

“Good! I got into vet school a few years ago and I’m graduating next month.”

“That’s awesome!” The brunette smiled.

“How are things with Jesse?” Chloe wondered.

“Oh…she isn’t Jesse’s,” she said, motioning towards her daughter. “But we’re not together anymore anyway.”

“Aw I’m sorry Becs,” Chloe said sympathetically. “She looks just like you.”

“Mommy said we could be twins!” Maggie said excitedly. “Except mommy has blue eyes and I have brown.”

“I love brown eyes!” Chloe said excitedly. “Listen Becs, I have to go get some cleaning supplies but we’ll catch up soon, alright?”

“Yeah, of course. See you around!” Beca smiled as the redhead walked away. She was snapped out of her daze when Maggie excitedly tapped her on the arm. “Can we get popsicles?”

“Yeah,” Beca said as she pushed the cart forward, still smiling.

“Do you like Chloe?” Maggie wondered.

“Yeah, she was one of my best friends,” Beca replied.

“No, like do you want her to be your girlfriend?” The small brunette clarified. Yes, Maggie did know her mother is bisexual and she completely understood it. Beca had taught her from the time that she was a baby that love is love and when Maggie was old enough to understand, Beca explained that she likes girls and boys.

“I don’t know,” Beca shrugged. The truth was, she really did have feelings for Chloe, which was part of the reason she distanced herself from the redhead after college. Chloe liked her back and they couldn’t be together because Beca was still with Jesse. Eventually, they stopped talking because it hurt them too much.

She put the popsicles in the cart and turned towards the cleaning section. She knew what she was about to do was really dumb, but she had been wanting to do this for years. “Hey Chlo?” She asked hesitantly.

“Yeah?” The redhead asked as she turned around.

“I’ve missed you, so much,” the shorter girl said genuinely.

“I have too,” Chloe smiled, wrapping Beca in a hug. She pulled away a few seconds later and Beca pulled her back and gave her a gentle kiss on the lips. “I’ve wanted to do that for so long,” she whispered.

“Me too,” Chloe admitted, cupping Beca’s face in her hands and kissing her again.

“I know we’re probably rushing into things but I’ve been single for so long, I need you,” Beca admitted softly.

“Me too,” Chloe smiled. “We’ll figure things out, I’m just so happy you’re back in my life.”

Beca nodded as she wrapped her arms around Chloe. She was so happy a funny coincidence led them back into each other’s arms.

Also, today is my parents’ anniversary!  They’ve been married for thirty-eight years, and together for forty.

I don’t want to preach, but if you are ever afraid because you are asexual.  If you have a relationship that isn’t based on romantic love.  Mom is asexual.  She also said no to my dad’s proposals three times because she wasn’t in love with him, and she was and still is repulsed by sex.

When Dad asked the fourth time, my mom broke down in tears.  Because she didn’t want to break his heart, because she still cared about him so damn much even if what she felt wasn’t romantic love.  Because the only reason she would have sex with him or anyone was because she wanted to have biological children.  And you know what?

Dad still wanted to be with her, from the time he was eighteen until they both were ready for the grave.  Because he didn’t want to ever be without his best friend in the whole damn world.  Mom meant that much to him.

I can count on one hand how many times my parents have ever kissed in front of me, and every time was on the cheek.  But their hugs are the most heartfelt you’ll ever see.  When they laugh together, you know there’s a deep love between them.  They truly are each other’s best friends.

So congrats, Mom and Dad!  For always being there for each other, for me and my brother, and for my husband and our friends.  You are both amazing, wonderful people, and I am so glad that you found one another.

can you believe everyone fell in love with Finn the minute they saw him? like wow. He’s truly an iconic hero.

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some holly doodles to wind down for the night…..she would 100% be a hippie

“secretly we all love angst” Sentence Starters

dont deny it DONT DENY IT 

  • “It never works for us, and it never will.”
  • “I’m done. I’m done trying so hard only for you to never even look in my direction.”
  • “I can’t fall in love with you.  I don’t want all the pain that comes with it.”
  • “My roommate had to go into my room and throw the sheets away because I haven’t been able to sleep in that bed since you left.”
  • “I keep asking myself “why isn’t the sun bright anymore” but then I remember you’re not in my life anymore and realize it’s just my own eyes.”
  • “I regret it all.  I really do, I swear.  Please, please– let’s fix this, please.”
  • “Remember when you promised we’d always be together?  Because I remember when I thought you meant it.”
  • “I can’t move on from something that wasn’t supposed to end!”
  • “The phone calls aren’t the same… I can hear in your voice that it’s not the same anymore.”
  • “I’m trying to avoid talking because I know what it’ll lead to, and I don’t want that to come.”
  • “Don’t you think you can fall back in love with me?”
  • “This whole time I’ve been using you to make me feel better, and you never caught on.  You never caught on.  I want you to hate me now, but I don’t think you’re even able to.”
  • “Kissing me breaks the promise… remember?”
  • “Every time we fix things something else ends up breaking.”
  • “Why don’t we stop pretending we’re not on a road to destruction?”
  • “It wasn’t even fun at first, honestly.  It was just like… Morphine.”
  • “You’re just not enough anymore.”
  • “It’s been too long since you’ve really smiled.”
  • “Ah, it was all my fault.  Wasn’t it?”
  • “To think, we thought just the sex would be enough to keep us in love.”
  • “Back then, I lied when I told you I didn’t love you.  You needed to move on from me– I needed to protect you from me.”
  • “You never had that shine in your eyes when you were with me.”
  • “Quit trying to fix me when you need to just fix yourself.”
  • “I’m so tired of everything about us, and about how we thought we were in love, and how we think forcing it can make us be in love– I’m so tired of it.”
  • “This whole time you’ve still been in love with him/her… Not me.”
  • “I couldn’t make you fall in love with me.  I thought I could do it, I really did, but… But I know you… And this isn’t love.”
  • “Did you really think I needed that kiss back then when all that you conveyed in it was pity?”
  • “To think I’ve changed so much to get you to like me, and you still never really look my way.”
  • “I know I deserve better than you.  I realize that, but you were so broken… I didn’t want to be the one that made you shatter.”
  • “All of this was to protect myself.”
  • “I feel like I’ve been looking for who you used to be… Back when you were actually happy.”
  • “I never want to even hear your name during my life anymore.”
  • “Your lips used to be sanctuary, but now I just feel trapped.”
  • “Isn’t it time we both stopped pretending we make each other happy?”
  • “The thing I regret the most is giving you so much hope by agreeing to this date.”
  • “We have the kind of history anyone would never want to think about again, and you’re hear asking me on a date?”
  • “What makes you think I’ll be any different this time?”
  • “I’ll let you down.  I will always let you down.  I’m not enough for you to be satisfied.”
  • “Are you satisfied with the mess you’ve created out of me?”
  • “I should have listened to everyone who told me this was a bad idea.”
  • “I’ve never met someone who can so gently destroy me the way you do.”
  • “I can’t forget about him/her!  It’s not in my power to forget how he/she felt when they loved me.”
  • “The saddest thing is that when I told him/her I loved him/her, he/she thought I was lying.  He/she never believed someone could fall in love with him/her.”
  • “Listen…  You’re his/her best friend… and I completely fucked up– it’s over between us, but… please, punch me, or punish me, or do something to me because he/she just… cried.  He/she wasn’t even angry, they were just so sad– Please, be angry at me, please.  Give me what I deserve.”
  • “It would have been better if we never met.”
  • “You’re my regret.”
  • “I’m not angry at you, just at myself… Because I knew this would happen, but I let myself fall in love with you anyways.”
  • “Don’t tell me to give up like everything is meaningless.”
  • “This is why I don’t let myself fall in love.”
  • “Somewhere deep inside me, I still have hope that you’ll fall in love.  How pathetic.”

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8 reasons why we love Regina Mills (insp)

happy birthday @freifraufischer​!

fic aesthetic (1/?): my favorite fics
name: I Was Made for Loving You
author: LHStylinson
summary:  “Daddy… Daddy that’s Peter Pan.”
“Nate, love, don’t point,” Harry said softly, gently pushing his son’s hand down and offering the man sitting across from them at the table an apologetic smile. “That’s not Peter, he just-“
“How did you know I was Peter?” the man interrupted him, whispering to Nate as if it was a secret just between them. “Are you one of my lost boys?”
or
Harry is on a cruise with his son, and meets a blue eyed man who happens to be a famous voice actor and singer for children’s animated movies.

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I’m gonna make it a series, it’ll be called People Who’ve Barely Said A Word In Canon And Yet I Love So Very Much Anyway

okay but tbh, i have a theory that Daenerys will end up being the Mad Queen. like the fact there are warnings or worrisome signs which show she’s losing touch of her emotions. like that conversation she had with Tyrion about how she “felt nothing” despite her loving Daario and making him leave.. like true that she might be getting tougher but the Mad King was lovely and noble before he became mad.. and Dany is of pure Targaryen blood after all. like i feel that all these seasons where she’s being hyped as getting the iron throne and getting stronger and stronger by the season could be her progression to becoming the ultimate antagonist after Cersei and the White Walker King are dead.. like she has dragons and a huge army, anything could happen if she ends up going mad and we dont really know what could trigger that. it could be the final sucker punch plot twist then it will be a battle between Jon and Dany. of course, i could be wrong soo.. but yeah this is my guess

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