#also imo it really helps explain why Ruusaan acts the way she does
#I mean I can just see it going through her mind
#‘if I get this right then maybe my dad won’t leave again’ 'if I get this right I won’t end up abandoned and dead like mom'
g od, I didn’t even … consider that.
the tragedy of this whole thing is that Ruusan still wants a relationship with the man who didn’t even bother to try to keep it until he thought she might be dead. what kind of man is that, really? but Ruusan still sees him as someone idyllic, someone she wants, needs, that connection with that she never had a chance nor a choice to have as a child.