My sister is going through the same thing (she broke up with a guy and stopped going to his church, and everyone is acting like she's crazy for leaving and trying to get her to come back) and I know it's hard and I'm sorry it's happening. But you have to remember that it's your life, your relationship and your happiness. No one, and I mean no one, tells you what to do with your life. Anon is proud of you, hope you feel better soon.
i’ll do my best, thank you… rn it’s just been particularly difficult. i’m not very good at standing up for myself so every time someone implies i’m in the wrong or bad for blocking her my resolve gets a little weaker