she CARES for him


kim yugyeom + his three year old son, hanbin aka henry 

when he broke the girl’s heart back in the day, he didn’t think anything would come of it. his plan of moving to la with his best friend was a dream of his, something only a handful of people could say they accomplished. going into school, graduating and just loving life. then he hit an obstacle, after three years of not seeing her, he almost didn’t recognize her. his head was full of questions, the most important being why she was even in la to begin with. then he saw the little boy and his heart broke, he had a son he didn’t even know about. she told him she was sick and that she wouldn’t be able to take care of him anymore, she was progressively getting worse. yugyeom didn’t want to have anything to do with either of them, so he distanced himself, until he got a call from the hospital, she was literally on her death bed and there wasn’t anyone could do. he felt so guilty, after getting everything sorted he got custody of little henry who still isn’t very comfortable with his dad, something that breaks yugyeom’s heart everyday. 

artielu  asked:

1/ So one of the thoughts I'm having after that amazing chapter is how excited I am to see what killian is like, how he grows. Thus is kinda incoherent but like, he finally fir the first time has his base Maslow hierarchy of needs met. He's warm, he has a safe place to sleep, he has enough food, and he's not afraid of physical or emotional violence. For the first time. And he's learning to trust someone. Learning that it's safe to have feelings and share himself instead of just being sweet/

2/ and cowering because that’s the only way he got any food and fewer beatings. But now, he can actually have a safe place to explore more if his personality, things he likes and dislikes. And I think they’ll both be surprised by that development… she cares about him and she is attracted to him and she wants to take care of him… and mold him, with his consent, into her tool and companion and toy (in a nice way). But still using him, not presently respecting his boundaries (see re /
3/ dream catcher and ps fuck you very much on that front it felt like I was there)… but she sort of… respects what he’s been through but doesn’t quite think of him having his own opinions yet. Because he doesn’t because he’s never had the luxury or safety of having opinions. She doesn’t want to hurt him or embarrass him, she wants to care for him… but she doesn’t see him as ever disagreeing with her. She likes that he never had disagreed. And part of that is that he’s agreeable and /
4/grateful for his rescue from torture and servitude but also because his opinion never was relevant to anyone before, most especially to himself. So I am really, really eager to see how this plays out… him finding out about the dream catcher invasion of privacy, him developing his own opinions and feeling safe enough to disagree or get mad or frustrated with her, and him eventually realizing that the sub is actually the one in control, that he can say no and trust that she will respect it/
5/ which she sure as hell didn’t when he said no about his memories. It will be really interesting to see how she reacts to her toy/companion finding a bit of a spine and how the darkness reacts to that weakness in her regard for him. She clearly cares but also clearly is having a hard time remembering how to show care, hence the apology for him hearing people tortured via bj (beautifully done, btw). So I’m expecting some drama in C4 as killian finds his way back to himself with his basic/
6/ needs finally met and him finally safe and watching how he reacts and she reacts when he learns about what those circle things are for and sees his feather and shells in one. This is just such a great fic with so much depth and complexity and yet also has hot smut. I am enjoying it immensely. Thank you!

Okay. Let me first start by saying. I love you. This is gonna get long and I’ll try not to be spoilery but I absolutely love this discussion.

There is nothing more gratifying to me than someone picking up EXACTLY what I’m putting down, be that the underlying themes, little snippets of detail, or just general symbols and everything you’ve described here is exactly what I was trying to convey and why I structured the story in this manner AND why I had to extend it.

I had a lot of scenes for developing both of them that I thought could be quick and dirty (not like sex dirty but you know, well not ONLY like sex dirty…) but then when I wrote them all out in a list I realized I needed a lot more room.

I wanted to see how Deckhand Hook would be in an environment where he basically has everything he wanted. Where Dark Swan has a person who didn’t want her to be anything but herself and who didn’t want to use her, and how they individually adjust to those vastly different environments. At the same time the reason it’s lite sub/dom is that there is an aspect of needed control that DS has, and a life of regimented order and being controlled that DH Hook has that taking them out of those dynamics would be pretty ruinous for them, but that worked perfectly for the characters together.

I also wanted to explore anxiety in its different manifestations. That’s something that is incredibly important and central to my life, and this fic kind of let’s me highlight the different coping mechanisms that come into play, and the different ways that they don’t necessarily help, and that just reassurance alone doesn’t even help, it’s a deeper issue than that. Emma manages hers with emotional unavailability, unhealthy outlets, and control of her environment and the people in it. Killian in contrast pretends these problems don’t exist, fills his world with mindless activity, and requires someone else to help him make decisions to prevent himself from spiraling and really focusing on what he wants. So seeing if they can work back to center will be fun.

I also really love the sexual healing aspect on both sides. Emma learning to respect someone else’s needs, work around her own desires to just take and get it out of her system, having to slow down by necessity, and healing some of Killian’s insecurities through an outlet that had been out of reach to him in the environments he had been in before but how that in turn, as is the nature of anxiety, brings up totally new fears he didn’t have to deal with before this was a part of his life.

I also wanted to kind of bring the CS dynamic from the show into it. Killian and Emma developed emotionally in regards to relationships at vastly different rates due to their underlying personalities and it took some drastic things for them to come together as a unit. I still think the show fails on allowing us to see Killian’s side of things, and that Emma doesn’t necessarily respect his emotions/boundaries/needs to the degree she should even 6 seasons in, but from a character aspect that works really well for DS. And of course this Dark Swan is based a lot of what we saw in S5, she was still very vulnerable and sweet and gentle in her interactions especially with Henry and Hook, but could be cold and terrifying like with the dwarves/Rumple/Regina when she wanted something.

And of course there is the self preservation aspect of the darkness, since it is its own cognitive being in a sense, to work with as well that colors some of Emma’s interactions. Even DH Hook’s moral ambiguity is pretty central just because of how he was brought up, and his struggles with that and learning how he wants to feel about it now that he has a choice in how he feels.

And to a degree, the audience’s own inherent moral compass, the fact that you don’t really sympathize with the “villains” at all, or feel sorry for them, and can kind of feel free to root for Emma despite how ehhh her actions are.

And those things are A LOT of fun to explore.

I hope the pacing is okay with the remaining two chapters, I didn’t want to rush their development, that was really critical to me since this is a character driven rather than a plot driven adventure story, but I also didn’t want to drag on with little interactions that weren’t necessarily meaningful (as fun as little head canon scenes can be) so I chose scenes that were both critical for them and for the plot overall. Ch4 is furthering them and their relationship and how they react to actually being in one, and Ch5 kind of brings everything together if that makes sense.

Ch3 and Ch4 are really one central theme split into two parts because holy chapter length batman. So I hope people aren’t put off by the lack of adventurey plotty plot, that has been my fear from the beginning, since this is more subtle emotional and relationship development through interactions type story and any drama is based more on their character flaws and internal darknesses rather than outside events.

I just really love that you and others have kind of just gotten what I wanted to say immediately. It’s a really different fic for me to write in that they aren’t going off on some adventure and learning each other through external strife, and I love it and I’m so happy it seems to be working like I intended and will always hope it doesn’t come across as boring or dragging.

Your support it for has seriously just made me so very happy, and the recent weeks have been some of the best I’ve had in fandom.

anonymous asked:

It should be a bigger deal, I agree. It doesn't help that he seemed like he'd sobered up tho. I'd be on my arse if I drunk that much whisky. That whole scene was just weird. Cos she was all about leaving but then she took off her coat and started faffing with furniture.

The thing is she could see he was upset and had drank almost a full bottle of whisky, she should have been a friend and taken care of him. The fact she said he took advantage of her is a fucking joke.

anonymous asked:

I still think you're giving the writers too much credit; not that what you're saying isn't well-reasoned and logical, it's that it is being portrayed that way. Len never expresses any sort of fear of dying in Doomworld, never articulates motives that are deeper, just comes off as awful... and I think that's intentional. He's the only LoD member we don't see recruited, has the least screentime & most tellingly- no Legend seems to give a shit about him. Sara- his other closest Legend besides Mick

never expresses that she misses him all season until the ep he’s back & casually mentions he’s alive & no one on the team is shown to care. All she’s said to him is “you bastard, I’ll kill you [all]” since he’s been back. Amaya calls him a psychopath & no one says anything. I think the writers are trying to have us forget about Len’s sympathetic qualities & purposely showed him unsympathetically and very one dimensional. Wentworth’s acting shows something but not the script/plot. 

He’s written like the writers want us to hate him. No articulated motivation/hesitation/reminders from the team that he used to be one of them and that’s pretty much all season- sure Mick should have cared the most about his death but no one else seemed to care AT ALL. We heard about Carter’s death more! Carter reincarnates & they knew him for 2 seconds. Looking at Sara+the team’s reactions, it’s clear the writers don’t want us to like/look for deeper meaning with Len. They want us to forget we liked him.

I mean, you’ve gotta remember that there’s a 6-month time period between the end of S1 and the start of S2 so the team has likely undergone a lot of it’s grieving and talking about Len, all of them except Mick. But you’re right, they really didn’t talk about him except Mick, and what they did say wasn’t always kind (Martin pointing out that Mick’s partner is dead now when Mick is trying to give him advice about Jax, like shut up dude).

And I agree that Len not articulating his motives makes it all a little frustrating and hard to disentangle. It’s clear he cares about Mick and wants to keep him by his side but also clear that as much as Mick is his partner, Len expects Mick’s loyalty and for Mick to not question him, to not contradict him. Which, by the end of the episode, definitely starts to look abusive and shitty.

So… maybe you’re right? 

That’s a cynical reading to take, but I do agree wholeheartedly that they didn’t give us any sympathetic reminders of Len at all, nor did they show us his recruitment into the Legion or give us even any real comedy from him to soften him at all. 

In that case, I’d say: what’s the motive? Why are they trying to make him so unsympathetic to the viewer, and working so hard to distance who he is now from who he was before? 

Is it just to create a contrast to show Mick’s development, using Len as a prop in his story? Is it because they plan to kill Len again and don’t want us to get too attached? Or, hopefully(?), would it because he’s being setup to go back to Central City for next season somehow and they want to (re)establish him as being a cold bastard and a killer so he comes off as a true villain?

Hard to say. 

gypsylobo  asked:

Giant Jack and Tiny Wiishuu :3


- If your name’s not Sean and you don’t go by Jack, you are not allowed to touch the Woosh. It’s just science.

- He makes tiny cups of tea for her probably.

- And buys her the cacti. They’re about the same size as her but they’re cute so who cares?

- ‘Tiner One’ and ‘Tiny Anger Ball’ have never been more accurate. She doesn’t care, so long as she’s with Jack. Her bravery scares him sometimes because then he has to be in the middle of it.

- If Jack was scared by something, he’d probably find Signe and pet her hair to calm himself down.

- She does the same for him (and she knows about the weak point)

- She probably attempts to massage his hands every once in a while.

- He makes tiny food for anniversaries and stuff. She loves it.

- He bought her a tiny laptop and drawing tablet. It’s adorable and she can make tiny art.

- Sometimes they get into tickle wars. Weirdly, Jack always loses.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.