Next imagine will be Shawn being dad💓,but for now,stay with “Excuses”. Hope you all like it. Requests are open!
You finished making the dinner one hour ago,but still,no words from Shawn. This was his last week after his tour starts and you were trying to enjoy as much as possible,because you knew that during the tour,you would only be able to see him one or two times,because with college,it was hard to travel to meet him anytime you wanted. But what you didn’t expect was that Shawn would pick this last week to be at the studio,planning the last details of his next album.
“Are you coming home? Dinner is cold already!”
This was the last text you send him. If he didn’t respond you in five,you would give up on him for today.
Five minutes passed like a hour,so you throw you phone on the couch and went to the kitchen,making you plate and putting in the microwave. You open one bottle of wine you had in the fridge,fill up your glass and after a few seconds,sit at the table,eating and drinking by yourself. Finishing eating,you wash the dishes and again,fill your glass of wine and went upstairs to your room.
You woke up with the sound of glass breaking.
“Fuck! What is this thing doing in the bedroom anyway?” Shawn’s voice put on the scenario.
“What did you do?”
“Broke the fucking wine glass that you left on the table. Why did you even let here?”
“Maybe because I was drinking wine and then felt asleep and didn’t thought that my boyfriend would broke it in the middle of the night.”
“You know I always leave my bag here,you should have took it to the kitchen.” He says grabbing a little bit of paper and starting to take the pieces.
“Maybe because I didn’t expect that my boyfriend would come to my house at..” You look at the time on your phone.“ Almost 1 am”
“I told you I was coming here tonight!”
“No Shawn,you said that you were going to come have dinner with me,which in fact,you didn’t,because I waited you,I called you,I texted you,and didn’t get any news from you,so the last thing I was expecting it would be you coming to my house.”
“I forget my phone at the car,that’s why I didn’t answer you.”
“Oh,today you left you phone on the car? And yesterday? You phone died right? And before that? You forgot at home? And even before,what was it? Oh, I remembered,you couldn’t pick up because you were in a meeting with Andrew. Is this it? Or am I missing something?”
“Really? You really want to talk about the reason that I couldn’t answer you while I was at work?”
“No Shawn,I really don’t want to talk about this now,because I’m just exhausted and all I want it’s to have a good night of sleep ok? Goodnight!” You turn and close your eyes,trying to sleep while he still is trying to guess what just happened.
You didn’t know what happened after that,you just laid your head on the pillow,close your eyes and few minutes you were asleep. When your phone rings at 7am,you wake up,noticing that Shawn wasn’t there. You do what you have to do,brush your teeth,wash your face,take a shower and put some clothes on. When you get to the kitchen,there were coffee and waffles on the table,but no sigh of Shawn.
You sit on the table and start to eat. Few minutes latter,you hear the front door opening and closing,and you know it’s Shawn.
“Good morning babe!"He says when he get to the kitchen,putting his guitar down and leaning over you to give you a kiss,that you softly recline,turning your face away. "What happened?” He ask you making his weird face.
“Really Shawn? Did you even remember last night?”
“Are you still mad because I didn’t answer the phone?”
“Can you please just say the truth already? Do you have another girl? Did you get tired of me? I don’t know,just please say the fucking truth!!”
“Are you fucking out of your mind? Do I really look like a cheater? I fucking love you Y/N! I don’t get why you are jumping to this conclusion!”
“You are never home Shawn!! You promised that this last week it would be only you and me. But now you are locked up in a studio,giving me weak excuses and making me feel like I’m not enough for you!!” He stood there,in silence,trying to process all you just throw on him,you could see his brain working from his eyes.
“Did I make you feel like you are not enough for me? Did I make you feel like I don’t love you anymore? Did I? Is this true Y/N?” You simply nod,your tears stream down your face.
“I know that you love your work and that you really need to work hard sometimes,but you need to make time for me in your life Shawn,because if you don’t,I’m not gonna be here anymore. You need to make a little time for me,or love isn’t gonna be enough.”
He sat down in a chair and his hands goes all the way to his hair. Pulling it,like he always do when things don’t work out as he wanted.
“I’m…I’m so sorry! I don’t even know what to say anymore. I really sorry babe,I was so focus on work,you are totally right. I don’t want to ruin all we got. I..you really thought I was cheating on you?” You could see how sad he was.
“I know that you didn’t,that you would never do something like that,but you always had an excuse when you don’t pick up the phone. And I was so mad that a just said that without thinking.”
“You were right about the excuses!” He face down and you sat on the chair next to him.“ I saw you calling today and tomorrow,but I was so focused and trying to make everything work,that I didn’t pick up the phone,because I knew that if I did,I would come running to you.”
“I don’t care if you don’t pick me up every single time I call you,but you need to let me know where you are or if you’re coming or not. Next time,just text me,I will get it. But you need to make time for me Shawn.”
“I will babe,I promise I will! I’m sorry for being like this. I think working too much is my problem.”
“You are perfectionist Shawn,but sometime you need to realize that it’s ok to not be the best song you ever wrote. Because you are extremely good and you will write something better latter.”
“You know what?” That smile that you love show up on his face.
“What?” You smile back
“I’m lucky that you’re still here with me. I promise that I’ll make more time for us ok?” He hold your cheeks and kiss you forehead.“About that,I’m calling Andrew at lunch and tell him that we will take care of the next album on tour.”
Okay this is inspired by Lady Midnight by Cassandra Clare but this really stuck with me WARNING FLUFFINESS IS MAXED OUT HERE
When you first started going out Shawn kept drawing circles on your arm and at some point he decided to see if you could guess what letters he was drawing. It became a habit, you would wake up in his arms and he would drawn “hi love” on your arm and you would draw it back onto his hand. It becomes a ritual. You do it all the time, while watching a movie, while cuddling, when he takes you to meetings, when you are waiting for the muffins to bake.
One evening he cooked a really nice dinner, set the table up all nice and lit some candles. He is waiting for you to come home from work and he looks so fucking happy. A healthy, excited blush on his cheeks as he pulls out your chair and sits down next to you. The dinner he literally spent 3 hours on is remarkably tasty and the evening is just going really well. He takes your hand in his and just draws circles into your skin. You realise he is drawing letters on the back of your hand.