When still in high school, I used to cry myself to sleep every night. I felt that life was unfair, that I wasn’t worthy of happiness or good enough. The smallest thing could knock me out entirely.
I thought that I would feel like that forever. Weak, vulnerable. Those feelings didn’t last forever. I got older, let new people into my life, said good bye to the ones who treated me poorly and started to acknowledge myself. Seeing myself in a different light and understand that I do deserve happiness and love. I gradually started saying no to doing things I didn’t want to do for people who would never do the same for me.
When I look back at the girl I once used to be and the woman I am today I wish I could go back and tell that sad girl that things do get better and although life have felt unfair, tough, and pointless for years, it will get better.
But I can’t. What I can do, is sharing my story and hope that someone who feels like that sad girl reads this and start trying to change the picture they have of themselves and reevaluate how they let people treat them. You are your biggest enemy. Love yourself, see the good things in life and understand that you do deserve the best in life. We accept the love we think we deserve.