I kinda enjoyed your forever alone story. Except i'm " kinda " sad for you. And you won't be forever alone. You'll get out of there, eventually. And believe me, you don't wanna rush into boyfriends things. I've had some and and i was still too young and it broke me so much. :). As i see it, the more you wait, the more your first relationship is going to be overwhelmingly-nice. ( i probably just invented a new word, yeah ! ) The more grown up you are, the more chances your relation's gonna work.
That can be both true and false statements.
Look at it this way- I’m 19, with no real experience in life.
My childhood was taken away from me, and as a teenager I feel like a 30 year old. I have no friends, or fun events to attend, and I’m emotionally unstable sometimes, I’ve got depression and anxiety problems, and my only true supporter is 4 hours away from me. -_-
If I go into a relationship now there’s SO MUCH less I’ve learned.
My first real boyfriend vs. me being his 34786th girlfriend?
Sounds shitty to me. Inevitably I’ll be the one making mistakes and being stupid and acting like a child.
ALSO~ on a side note….
I’ve had a few really serious encouters with men that were forceful and scary and I’m kind of afraid of guys. I’m not gay, but in person, if I’m alone with a guy, I will freak the fuck out just because of past trauma in situations like that….