sewn to the sky

Red days are when the wolves howl all night and in the morning the birds return with torn out feathers. The days are filled with ambulance sirens. My hair is on fire. Everything moves in slow motion. The flames, the heat, my body soaked in kerosene. The screams in the distance. The monster in the corner, gawking. The stripped birds. And then: the wolves. 

Blue days are heavy and I spend them speaking in spiderwebs. My reflection is clouded and the air is always too humid. The world does anything it can to make my bones weigh me down. My hands, a noose. My head, a haunted house. My heart, turned into a stress ball for when you needed it most.

Green days are spent wondering if it was painful when the sky had stars sewn into it. Wondering if the pain was worth it. Cactus spines stuck underneath skin when you try to drink the water. I am walking the precipice, one foot in the real world and one stuck in dreams. I am an inventor these days, writing fables for a childhood I can’t remember.

Purple days are murky and the owls have dangerous omens. I am on the tightrope. I am living out my childhood dream of being a ballerina. I am the circus act. I am the caged bird. I am spinning on my axis. The bystanders hold a collective breath. They are, after all, just paying for a pretty show. They don’t care about what comes after the fall.

Yellow days are a safe haze, coating my hands in syrup. My blood stays on the inside of my body. My skin actually does its job. Everything is safe and sultry. There is lemonade without sugar. There is your messy mouth again. Everything moves in reverse. There is my candy necklace. There are the sunflowers. There is the sunset we named after us.

Pink days are sunrises and fairy floss. I write about flowers and paint my face in watercolors. There are sugar angels on the counters. The spice containers are overfilling. I am happy and whole. I am kinetic energy and the explosion that comes with. I am rosy cheeked, and roses growing from my wrists. There is no pain. There is only the beauty I’ve torn myself apart to create. I am on the edge of a cliff. I have my wings. When I jump, I am a bird set free.

—  Color Coordinated Days, Angelea Lowes

tardisgrump  asked:

How about some coraline au with some platonic reader/trio and exploring stuff i guess

(THAT’S MY FAVORITE AU BECAUSE CORALINE IS MY FAVORITE MOVIE!! I hope this turns out to your liking! I can’t decide whether I like Nikki as the cat and Neil as Wyborne, or if I like QM as the cat and both Nikki and Neil in the role of Wyborne, but because you asked for the trio I’ll have it as both Nikki and Neil as Wyborne. Thanks!)

Now do you believe me?” Max asked, gesticulating exaggeratedly to the perfect mirror world before him. Neil scoffed and rolled his eyes.

“Oh please, we’re in the same forest. It’s gonna take more than a fancy tent to convince me.”

“But why would i lie to you about this?!” Max tried, clearly frustrated that Neil still wouldn’t believe him. He groaned. “C’mon, the other camp is just a little ways this way.” Nikki stifled a laugh at that name. The “Other Camp” sounded pretty fake, but she was always happy to sneak out of camp at night. She elbowed you and gestured towards Max. 

“Time to head to the ‘Other Camp’, eh (Y/N)?” She asked, raising her eyebrows and beginning to walk behind Max, who was taking strides much quicker than usual, and had his hands balled into fists at his sides. You followed beside Nikki a few steps behind Max and Neil. 

“I dunno, Nikki, Max seems pretty worked up about this..” You observed, taking note of how much more annoyed he seemed than usual.

“Nah, you know Max. He’s usually angry.”

“I guess..” The four of you walked in the chilly night air until you looked out to see lights coming into view. A triumphant smile grew on Max’s face.

“See? Look at this place! It’s amazing!” He shouted, throwing his arms up as you approached the ‘Other Camp’. A gasp escaped your lips, Neil’s crossed arms dropped to his sides and his mouth fell open, and Nikki stared ahead, slack-jawed. Twinkling lights hung all around the camp, swooping above you against the backdrop of a dazzling sky. There were no ragged, cramped tents, but instead beautiful cozy looking cabins. The mess hall and counselor’s cabin were new and refurbished, practically sparkling. Max beelined for the latter, and knocked on the door. Immediately, a tall man with a striking resemblance to David answered the door. His smile faltered for a moment upon seeing Max with others from his world, but it was such a brief change that one could easily have convinced themselves it was nothing, and a bright grin replaced it immediately. 

“Why, Max! You’ve brought friends! What an unexpected surprise!” His gaze turned from Max and Neil to you and Nikki, and your breath hitched as you made eye contact. You found yourself staring directly at a pair of buttons. Sky blue buttons, sewn in place of his eyes. You glanced over to Nikki, who looked more or less confused, then to Neil, who seemed just as frightened as you. Max cleared his throat.

“Yeah. Is that.. All right?” Max sounded unsure of himself for a moment, but was reassured when the blonde, button-eyed doppelgänger nodded.

“Well of course! The more the merrier! You’ll always be my favorite camper, Max,” That line unsettled you, for some reason. “But your friends are more than welcome!” He smiled sweetly at all of you, then patted Max’s head. To your surprise, Max allowed it. “Jen and I will be finished with dinner soon. Why don’t you show your friends around?” He and Max’s exchange went on for just a moment longer, then the stranger left you all to your own devices.

As soon as he was gone, Max smirked.

“Told you.”

Nikki was the first to chime in. “He.. actually had BUTTON eyes?! I thought you just meant like, cute! Like how you can say people have button noses!”

“What? No, Nikki,-”

“Who the hell was that?!” Neil cried, grabbing Max by the shoulders and effectively cutting him off. He looked like he’d just seen a ghost, with a sheet white face and anxious eyes.

Max blinked. “Calm down, dude. His name is Daniel. He’s like.. He’s like David but better! Everything is better here! Just like I fucking told you, Neil!”

Neil let go of him and put a hand to his forehead. “How..How is this even possible..?”

“Who cares? Would you rather stay here-” Max gestured to the beautiful scenery around you, “Or back in Camp Campbell?”

“Yeah, this place is pretty cool!” Nikki chirped, throwing an arm around Neil. You glanced around hesitantly. It was pretty nice, you had to admit. It seemed too good to be true, and you were at least half sure it was a dream, but you ignored your creeping suspicions and joined Nikki and Neil. 

“It wouldn’t hurt to just look around a little, would it?” You asked. Neil pursed his lips and surveyed the area once more.

“I…Suppose not..”

“Yeah, that’s the spirit, Neil!” Nikki cheered loudly, then continued. “So Max, is Button guy the only one here? Do we have the whole camp to ourselves, or are there other button people?”

“No way, there are tons of other campers!” Max seemed excited. “And get this: They’re the same as the original campers. Nerris and Harrison are actually good performers here! Preston puts on bearable shows! it’s great!”

Neil scrunched up his nose. “So then.. are there other versions of us..? Of you?”

Max paused. “I.. Huh. There are other versions of you guys, but they aren’t here. Usually they’re with Daniel. And there’s never another version of me.”

You decided to pipe up. “Maybe us being here cancels out the existence of the other versions of ourselves?” You offered. Max shrugged.

“Makes sense to me.” Clearly, he didn’t feel like debating this anymore. “Look Neil, the point is, this place is infinitely better than Camp Campbell could ever be, so why question it, right? It hasn’t given me any reason to. Now will you just drop it and come with me? Harrison has a show tonight, and you’re not gonna wanna miss it. Trust me.”

Neil only tried a little longer to make sense of this, before giving in and allowing Max to take everyone to the show. You all followed Max, commenting on the place around you and talking amongst yourselves as you walked through the perfect version of Camp Campbell, seeing just how much potential the original could have, seeing all that it could be. Neil eventually warmed up to the place as he caught a glimpse of the science lab that this camp had. It took forever for Max to tear him away from it so that you could all make it to the “Better Harrison’s” show. 

Not long after, you came upon a large, magnificent outdoor stage, complete with high tech lights and props, and four empty seats up front. You all sat down and immediately, a light shone on the red curtains covering the stage. They parted, revealing a button-eyed Harrison (who welcomed you all warmly), and the show began.

Ask and ye shall receive.

O brother mine, I love thee so
On Fereldan lands, your crops were sewn
On farm and field, your days were spent
Under burning sky, your back was bent

The bright-hot sun shone down above
And kissed you tenderly with rays of love
Each one it laid left its mark in gold,
but beneath your clothes, your skin stayed cold

Now your neck and visage, reliably bare
And magnificent arms, all covered in hair
Are darkened and tanned, understandably so
But the rest of you is not. Wtf, bro.

–The cool Hawke

anonymous asked:

BTS reaction to y/n having an obsession with sewing her skin?

💌 — I did some research on skin sewing and I think it looks really relaxing if you know what you’re doing! Here’s some information for anyone who is curious to know exactly what this is. (Please be safe, sterile, and do your research before trying at home!) Thank you for requesting and enjoy!

Seokjin walks back from the kitchen to the living room, sighing as he sits down on the couch next to you without giving you an initial glance. He’s skimming through the list of shows playing when he notices you humming absentmindedly beside him. “Do you have something to say, honey?,” he teases as he turns to face you, his eyes widening instantly when he notices you expertly weaving a needle in and out of your skin as if it’s nothing. Jin tries to stop himself from yelling so loudly, but that doesn’t last long before he’s shouting, “Y/N! What the hell are you doing to yourself?” You glance up at him and motion to the star sewn into your skin as if it’s the most obvious thing in the world. “I’m bored and I had some extra thread lying around, so I figured I’d start sewing again.” You’ll definitely need to pause your artwork for a few minutes to assure Jin that you’re not completely insane and that it’s perfectly safe to do. But after some reassurance that you’re not going to lose your hand via sewing and you’ll keep the needle away from him, Jin will find it to be just another odd quirk of yours.

Yoongi is very apologetic to the fact that he doesn’t have many opportunities to spend time with you one-on-one. However, he enjoys the fact that you both are quiet souls together. With that fact in mind, he often invites you to stay in the studio with him on nights when he knows he won’t make it back home. A lot of that time is spent enjoying each other’s silent company, Yoongi busy producing on his computer and you watching movies on your phone or scrolling through your Tumblr feed. Tonight, however, you decided to pick up some sewing thread on your way to the studio since you were running low and wanted to do something different for a change. You give Yoongi a quick kiss after you arrive and make your way to your designated seat on the plush couch in the corner of the room. You fix the needle soon after and slowly start sewing meaningless lines into your hands, no clear pattern in mind. A half hour passes and you hear Yoongi groan as he stretches out of his seat. “I’m gonna go get something to drink. Do you wa-,” Yoongi pauses in the middle of his sentence and you look up to find him concentrated on the needle sticking between your fingers. “Um, would you care to explain what you’re doing?” You laugh at his confused expression and explain the concept to him, his only response being a short “hmm, okay then,” before he leaves you to finish what you started.

Hoseok is hard to keep up with sometimes. He isn’t necessarily bothersome - but he has a lot of energy that you can’t always compete with. And sometimes he needs to tire himself out before he can even think about curling up on the couch and relaxing with you. It’s times like this when you pull out your little sewing kit hidden beneath your bed and start to doodle into your delicate skin, little stars and hearts - and smiley faces when you miss Hoseok too much - taking up the space of your palm. You’re in the midst of switching out the thread with a different color when you hear your boyfriend walking through the bedroom door. “Hey babe,” you murmur out to him, hands still busy searching for the color that seems to have disappeared from your kit. Hoseok’s feet approach you slowly and you look up to see him holding the roll of thread in front of your face, eyes warily glancing down at the thread sewn into your skin. “Um… are you looking for this, babe?” You smile up at his worried face and take the thread from his hands, thanking him and explaining to him what you’re doing since he seems too nervous to ask himself. He reaches out to take your hand in his, facing your palm upwards and chuckling as he points at the brightly colored sun while saying, “Hey, this one looks like me!”

Namjoon enjoys learning new things and venturing into different hobbies that other people may avoid for whatever reason. So when he comes home to find you concentrated intensely on the multiple loose-ended threads hanging from your skin, he doesn’t freak out like you may have expected others too. He sets down his things and walks over to your seat, head quirking to the side as he examines the unfinished portrait of a night sky sewn beautifully into your arm. He notices the way your eyebrows are scrunched up in frustration, huffing in annoyance and sending a few stray hairs flying away from your face. “Ah, don’t get so upset, baby,” he whispers soothingly while leaning down to kiss your puffed out cheeks. “I think you should add some magenta to this side,” he notes while gently pointing and careful to not mess up what you’ve already done, “and fade it out to blue over to this side.” He purses his lips as he holds up the different colors, though his face instantly relaxes when you smile at him in agreement and finally return his kiss from earlier. “I think you’re right,” you answer before going back to trim the loose strings and begin threading another needle. Namjoon sighs and shrugs nonchalantly, “When am I not?”  

Jimin quite nearly drops his phone when he walks into your room and sees you poking at your skin without a single care in the world. The choked noise he makes and the way he knocks into different things trying to catch his phone before it shatters brings you out of your concentration immediately. You look at him bewildered and he returns the same expression to you for a completely different reason. “What are you doing?,” you both ask at the same time, pausing for a moment until Jimin decides his question deserves an answer a bit more urgently. “Why are you stabbing yourself like that?,” he asks like it’s the most horrific thing he’s ever seen. You roll your eyes at him and giggle at his reaction while telling him, “I’m not stabbing myself, silly. It’s called skin sewing. It’s totally safe.” You hold up your palm to him and have to fight back another laugh when he slowly approaches you like you have a bomb in your hand. He glances down at your palm, up at your face, then back down to your palm again before muttering out, “Well, I guess it kinda looks cool.”

Taehyung doesn’t know whether to be fascinated or terrified when he comes over for a surprise visit and finds you going to town on your hand with a needle and thread. You don’t seem to be in pain as you casually greet him with a simple “Hey babe” before focusing back on your work. However, everything in his mind is telling him that he should be panicking right now. Cautiously, he walks over and slowly sits down next to you on the couch, staring at your face until you direct your attention his way and sigh in defeat. You were hoping that you could finish the design you were working on without interuption, but Taehyung’s surprise arrival and heavy stare immediately shoots down that idea. “It’s called skin sewing,” you inform him before he can ask - his jaw closing shut as you interrupt him mid-question. “It’s completely harmless. Look, no blood involved,” you insist as you hold your hand up close to Tae’s face, his eyes widening in shock for a few moments as he admires the thread woven through the thin upper layer of your skin. However, he sees that you’re right about it not hurting you and he slowly pushes your hand down. It takes him a couple of moments to find his voice again, but once he does he smiles shyly and holds his hand out towards you as he asks, “Will you try it on me next?”

Jungkook is a simple boy. A simple boy who is going to be extremely bewildered when he comes home to see his very adorable girlfriend sticking a needle and thread through her skin while she watches her favorite drama as if it’s just a regular pastime. You don’t notice his presence for a few moments because he’s been shocked into silence. However, he’ll soon find his own voice and relearn how to walk and quickly approach you with a million questions on his mind. “Um, hello. This morning I left my very normal and not crazy girlfriend here and I wanted to know if you could help me find her?,” he blabbers to you while motioning to what you’re doing as if that’s proof of your insanity. You glare up at him jokingly and wave the needle in his face as if threatening to get to him next. He quickly dodges your swipe and stares at you wide-eyed and bunny gazed. You decide to stop teasing the poor boy and quickly inform him that your sanity is still there and what you’re doing is completely normal. He’ll definitely continue to tease you throughout the night and takes jabs at you every time he can, but he’ll quickly shut up every time you threaten to start sewing him next - at least for a couple minutes.

He talked about her like she held the moon in her hands. She alone had sewn the stars into the sky.

I watched as he mumbled, staring not at me, but through me, and I felt the enormity of my loneliness – bone-crushing since the moment I saw his truck pulling away from my doorstep, headlights vanishing into the horizon.

He said her name like a prayer; it was heavy with silence and hushed, a confession from which he needed to be absolved.

He held onto her name the same way I held onto us. He recalled his pain the same way I remembered how it felt to snap a door shut behind another person’s retreating back – like waving a white flag, like falling apart.

It made me wonder how – even after all of the years we spent together, running in circles, running out of breath, chasing some elusive sense that we were meant for more – I have still managed to care about him more than he could care about me.

—  After that, I was too drunk to ask the questions I should have (I hate myself)

happy valentine’s day, loves.

Gabriel stands in front of the mirror, frowning at his reflection. His hair’s a little messy and he’s nicked himself while shaving, but overall, he thinks he looks nice in his black suit. 

He’s not used to the feeling of the taut fabric; it feels like it’s creasing as he fixes his tie and as he picks up the bouquet of red roses. Gabriel knows that he could just transport himself to the spot, but it doesn’t feel right–he wants to do this the human way. The way Sam always did.

So, he walks outside and gets in the car–a turquoise Beetle; it’s a cute little number, which is why he chose it–shoving the key in the ignition as he sets the flowers in the passenger seat. The Beetle lets out a little huff as the engine starts up, as if reluctantly waking from a deep sleep. 

The drive takes around twenty minutes; by the time Gabriel arrives at the base of the little hill, the sun has already dipped below the horizon.

Gabriel pauses a moment to admire the scene when he gets out the car: the entire hill itself looks ethereal, washed in silvery starlight. The moon is bright enough that he can see miles into the distance with ease as he trudges up the hill. 

Once he reaches the top, he slowly lowers himself down to sit cross-legged on the ground. He fiddles with the bouquet for a bit before setting it in front of himself, where Sam would’ve sat. Gabriel shuts his eyes for a moment before lifting his gaze to admire the French-knot stars sewn into the deep indigo sky.

“So, Samsquatch,” he starts quietly after a minute. “Been almost a decade now. I dunno how, but the years’ve gone by quickly and slowly at the same time. I guess it’s an archangel thing. Centuries going by in a blink, and all that.” Gabriel has to pause for a couple moments, steadying the wobble in his voice. “I still miss you, you know. I don’t think I’ll ever stop missing you. And, hell, if you hadn’t asked me not to, I would’ve brought you back ages ago." 

Gabriel leans back, lying on the tufty grass with his arms folded behind his head. "So. What can I tell you that’s new? Dean and Cas’ little girl got married a while ago. The kid she tied the knot with is decent. I like him. Hey, if you get the chance, d'you mind trying to sneak into Dean’s Heaven to tell him how beautiful she grew up? I know she’s adopted, but she reminds me of him. And you, too, Sammy. You would’ve liked her." 

There’s a hot prickling behind Gabriel’s eyes; his vision’s blurring. He swallows dryly, reaching up to wipe his cheek. "I should probably get the point, now, huh? Right. Always had a problem with rambling, didn’t I.”  Gabriel laughs quietly. “I remember it used to drive you nuts, though you still put up with it… Anyway. Point is.” He sits up again, studying the sky for a moment. “Sammy, will you be my Valentine?" 

“Did you ever love him?”

“Of course,” she replies easily, eyes to the sky, a twisted smile sewn on her lips, “but our love wasn’t two pieces of a jigsaw puzzle that could perfectly fit together, and our patience wasn’t a strong enough glue to keep us from falling apart.”

—  hanavmaki

For chiapeto​ with all my love and thank you on behalf of everyone who squees over your route posts and appreciates all the translations and things you do for the fandom.  I really hope I didn’t murder your husband (Nomura Tadanobu from Metro PD) too badly, I didn’t have and couldn’t find a lilac as pale as his shirt and well…  he caused me to mutter a few obscenities!  I hope the little story makes you smile.

It was dark, rain pounded the pavement  and the window as the Dolly Maker threw the door open to her secret cave causing her cape to billow in the back draft.  Sitting down heavily flipping the light on and casting a small pool of light onto the desk, “Oh, she shall pay for this,” the Dolly Maker muttered darkly as she wiped the blood away from her nose.  The mental images Chia had implanted into her head only too vivid and lucid of Eisuke in handcuffs and being all big brother over Rion…  Suddenly she knew what to do, swishing her cape out behind the chair she called out to her little dolly helpers who had been hiding the corner, “Fetch me,” she paused for dramatic effect possibly too long as the dollies exchanged looks with each other as one tried to shrug his little dolly shoulders, “my tools!”

“Yes master!” the little dolls shouted and toddled about collecting her materials, paper, threads and needles

Thunder and lightening suddenly crashed out from the sky as the Dolly Maker threw her head back and laughed manically as she began to feverishly sew.

“Revenge they say, is a dish best served cold…  I say, it’s best sewn.” yet more lightening burst from the sky as the little dollies wondered if the Dolly Maker was making her own, “BEHOLD MY PRECIOUS, DOLLY NOM NOM!” she stood up and held him up into the light.

Trying to think of a logical reason of why Pitchfork gave Sewn To The Sky by Smog an 8.0, since that album seems pure noise, it’s almost unlistenable, too much lo-fi.. TOO much lo-fi. Anyway, if you are a fan of experimental music and your favorite Beck album is Mellow Gold and your favorite Sigur Rós album is Von, then you’ll probably like this. There are some songs which are listenable, but others that don’t  even have a melody. Still, I’m glad I am listening to it, since it shows clearly how much Smog’s music has developed throughout the years. Oh, and also because I finally finished listening to the eight albums Smog released in the 90’s! Who releases eight album in only ten years?!

“melanin is memory.
is the blue weight of the ocean. sewn into the red dusk of sky. living in the soil of your body.
it is alive.
leaping and sweeping you. against. into the sun.
your skin was the first astronaut. the first in space.
you touch. and talk. are intimate with the sun. everyday. and do not perish.

is the world. before this world.
before the word. slave.
during the word. slave.
after the word. slave.
it is the books. written into yourself.
wild math in the pads of your feet.
soft science in your hair.
language down your back. invention in your mouth.

melanin is why you are still alive after. the torching.
it is a second lung. the next heart. and the next heart. and the next.
a never ending. regenerative. breathing thing.
a ceremony of life. while you are asleep.
a cosmos. in conversation.

melanin is a wisdom that knew.
hate would be the anti-light come to devour. defile.
a wisdom that did not flinch.
a wisdom that is not bothered by such things.
melanin is memory.
your memory.”

nayyirah waheed (via @nayyirahwaheed)

photo by: me

You were a broken glass mosaic made with shades of laughter
painted across bodies sewn into bed sheets like constellations in the sky

You said every edge of your body was useless
so I connected them together with frayed heart strings and ripped threads
and I turned you into a masterpiece

We were barefoot trapeze artists
caffeinated lovers and hopeful cynics,
digging our graves with every second glance we gave each other 

me, with my color coded sadness wrung across my neck, and how we have talk about dipping our toes in the sand-i called you ocean, and maybe you didn’t understand what that meant; all you ever do is smile, and all i ever did was to keep quiet. i am sorry i didn’t explain. i am sorry that i can’t; i’ve never had the words, or the understanding for this. i am broken world / shattered sky / the sun sewn into one; skin of a person. i am strong front / strong front / and more strong front- i am an uprooted palm tree- in a storm; drowning myself in seemingly unfamiliar waters, with the grittiness of salt in my teeth, and a pair of damaged lungs yet again. i could plead for you to save me, as the moon- but is that what we want, standing on the edge of a bridge ready to jump- with a harness and everything; this is how it feels to let go for the weak.