Forbidden [Kim Jongin] - Part 4
Summary: What’s going to be your relationship with prince Jongin’s future wife?
Pairing: Kim Jongin x Reader
With king’s words I felt my heart sank. No. It’s just impossible. It must be some kind of joke. I couldn’t believe it. He can’t get married yet. We just started everything and I don’t want it to be ruined so fast. My dream was coming true and now it shattered like a glass.
“What?” I heard Jongin’s shaked voice
I was trying to focus on their talk, but my thoughts were running around my head. Jongin is going to have a wife and when he’ll become a king, she’s going to be his queen. And it’s not going to be me. Actually, I shouldn’t expect anything else. I was only a servant. Maybe I used to be a princess, but it doesn’t change anything now.
“What ‘what’?” king snapped “You’re twenty three and you’ll soon become a king. I won’t let you take over the throne alone. You need someone to be by your side when it’s going to happen”
“I’m not ready and you know that!” Jongin exclaimed
“You are ready!” king raised his voice “You need to be”
“At least tell me who is she…”
The one that was supposed, to wear the silver dress I was wearing at Jongin’s birthday party. I think I remember her. She had beautiful black locks, brown eyes and she was always dressed in something red. Her brother married a princess from Thulosan, but she still visited him very often. I didn’t know her very well, but she seemed really… Cold.
“Why her?” Jongin asked “She’s three years older than me”
“But she’s my friend’s daughter and I know she’ll be a good queen one day” said the king
“But I don’t want her to be my queen”
Silence filled the room. Even hiding in a wardrobe, I still could feel the tension building up in the air. I was trying to imagine what was happening there. The king and the prince eyeing each other. I thought king Doyun wasn’t used to someone disagreeing with him. Especially, not his own son.
“The decision was already made” ruler’s voice was surprisingly calm “The last thing to set is the wedding day”
“No ‘buts’! You’re going to marry lady Shin and I don’t want to hear any objection!”
I heard heavy footsteps and then the door of Jongin’s room shut with a loud thump. My whole body was shaking. I didn’t move. I just kept looking at the ground, no words escaping my lips. He is going to marry lady Shin. Jongin is going to marry lady Shin, and I could do absolutely nothing about it. I felt tears form in my eyes. I wanted to go back in time and be a princess once more.
I saw the door in front of me opening. I looked up. Jongin was standing in front of me with a guilt on his face. He was breathing heavily and his eyes were avoiding mine. I still couldn’t say anything. One of my biggest dreams has just been destroyed with five simple words. We found you a fiancé.
I took a deep breath and walked past Jongin, my legs still shaking. Before I left the wardrobe, I felt him grabbing my wrist. I didn’t turn back to him.
“Don’t go” he whispered “Please… Not now”
“How can I stay?” I quietly asked “Knowing you’ll get married soon?
“Please… Y/N, I just-”
“We should stop if we still can” my tone was serious “Before it’s too late”
I hated it. I hated the fact that I was lying. It was too late a long time ago. Even before he told me how he felt about me. I should’ve expect it all turns out like this. He’s going to become a king soon and he needs his queen. Just like king Doyun said. Servant, like me is nobody compared to the royals.
“I can’t let you go” Jongin got closer to me “Not now. Not when it all just started”
“Do you think I want it?” I looked up at him “Do you think I want it to end?”
“I know you don’t want it too, but-”
“But we have no choice” I interrupted him
I felt his piercing gaze on me. He knew I was right. I didn’t know if he felt how desperate I was to kiss his soft lips and let him embrace me. I felt the tears forming in my eyes.
“Please, don’t cry” I heard him whisper “I can’t stand seeing you cry”
“Then I’ll just go” my voice broke down
I started to walk to the door of his room. I didn’t want it and he knew it. Damn it. I didn’t want it so badly. I lifted my hand over a handle.
“Don’t call for me or don’t ask me to serve you anything” I said without looking at him “Let’s just don’t complicate this even more”
I went out of his room. I still had a small hope that he’ll go after me. But he didn’t. I shouldn’t be upset because that’s what I wanted. I just had to leave. Tears started to stream down my face. I wanted them to stop. I didn’t want to cry after Jongin. We barely knew each other. At least that’s what I thought. He was a prince and I was a servant. That’s all. How ridiculous the whole situation was? Last night prince Kim Jongin, the guy I fell for, confessed to me. We talked, shared a few kisses and not only. Now, the day after that happened, it all was ruined.
I wiped tears off my face. I didn’t want anyone to see them.
All of sudden, I started to quietly hum the song I grew up with. The anthem of Southerlands.
For the next few days I was working with Miyoung. I didn’t serve at any of royal’s meals. Jongin also didn’t call for me even once. I couldn’t sleep at nights. Since the moment I discovered he’s going to get married soon I couldn’t stop thinking about it. In my mind I saw pictures of him and lady Shin together. Both happy. Both in love. I was wondering is that ever going to happen. From what I’ve heard that evening, I could say he didn’t like the idea of her becoming his queen. But this was the decision king Doyun and queen Eunji made. There was nothing to do about it now.
I was helping Miyoung with the dresses for the ladies. She had so many orders it was impossible for her to do them on her own. I haven’t seen her in three days, so now I had to tell her the whole story. She was the one who encouraged me to go to the party, so I had to reveal what exactly happened. How he confessed, how he kissed me and how he promised to meet me again. Everything we’ve done in his room and the talk I listened too.
“I can’t believe it” she sighed “I can’t believe he’s going to get married!”
“I know…” I put another needle in the material
“He can’t do that!” Miyoung shouted “Not after what he has done with you! It’s just unfair!”
“Please, don’t shout. I don’t want anyone to hear about this:”
“I’m sorry” she stood next to me “I’m just… I’m just mad at him!”
I smiled. She was so young and inexperienced, but I loved it. She was always making me happier, even when I was sad. Just like now. The whole whole situation with Jongin was overwhelming me.
“Let’s change the topic” I suggested with a weak smile on my face “Whose dress it will be?”
“Um…” she bit her bottom lip “It’s lady Shin’s”
I froze. I should’ve known. It was red, just every single dress that belonged to her. She was coming back to the kingdom this evening, so that’s the gown she’s going to get as a welcoming gift. I was wondering if I should stop working on the dress. But I didn’t want to show that I care, so I just sat on the chair and sew on another ribbon to the material.
“You’re pretending you don’t care, right?” Miyoung asked
“Yes” I said “And I’ll tell Jongin I sewn this one”
“You’re going to talk to him?”
“No” I laughed “At least not now. We’re both not ready”
I was trying to joke about it, but the truth was that I still cared. He wasn’t leaving my thoughts. Memories of us together in the garden and his room made me blush so easily. His hands on my body, our lips connected. It all didn’t want to leave my mind.
“What’s going on?” I asked with confusion when I saw Yeun getting up from her bed
“You don’t know?” she raised her eyebrow at me
I gently shook my head. No one told me about anything.
“We need to help with lady Shin’s arrival” she said
I clenched my hands into fists under a blanket. Why do we need to do that? Weren’t here hundreds of servants who could do it instead of us? The worse thing about it, was that Jongin will be there for sure. She was his fiancé after all.
“Come on” Yeun broke the short silence “We need to hurry. She can come in any minute”
I got up from my bed with a loud sigh. I didn’t want anyone to know that something happened between Jongin and me. Because no one in the palace, or anywhere else, would think that prince could fall for a servant. If this ever would happened, it was doomed for failure from the beginning.
We walked out of our room. I was wondering how Jongin is going to react. We haven’t seen each other in a few days. Maybe he was trying to forget, just like me? I didn’t want to remember our few moments together, but every time I closed my eyes, I saw us kissing.
Together with Yeun, I walked through a long corridor, which led to palace’s gate. I saw king Doyun, queen Eunji and some servants. Of course, Jongin was standing next to his parents. I couldn’t help, but stare at him. Surprisingly, he wasn’t smiling. The usual joy and happiness were replaced by seriousness. I’ve never seen him like this before.
I stood next to Yeun, on the left side of the royals. With a corner of my eye, I saw Jongin noticing me. I didn’t turn to face him, but I still could feel his gaze on me. I took a deep shaky breath.
“Are you alright?” Yeun’s voice made me snap out of my thoughts “You seem a bit out of here”
“It’s just a headache” I lied “It’ll pass”
Suddenly, I heard clatter of wheels. I saw two dark horses and a big black carriage going through palace’s gates. My eyes were following it, until it stopped a few meters away, sending a cloud of dust. I coughed quietly.
Carriage’s door opened and when I looked up, I saw a tall figure. Lady Shin was standing in front of the royal family. She bowed quickly and her long red dress twirled around her feet. I just stared at the whole situation. Jongin just kept looking at her with no emotions on his face.
“Your majesty” lady Shin’s voice was really high and somehow unpleasant
“My dear Jihee” king Doyun smiled “We are so happy that you finally came back to us”
“I am honored that you chose me to be your son’s future wife” she said
“You are no idea how happy we are, to announce your marriage” queen Eunji clapped her hands “We know that you lived in our castle for a long time, but it’s going to be a little bit different from now on”
“In a few minutes, Jongin will show you where your new room is” the king looked at his son with warning in his eyes “But now, as you’re almost the part of our family, choose one girl. She’s going to be your private servant”
Now I realized that there weren’t any man here. Lady Shin glanced at our small group of servants. She came closer and looked carefully at each of us. I didn’t want my eyes to met her’s. They were so dark and cold. I felt her presence in front of me. No. Please, no. She can’t choose me. There are at least ten six more girls here. I shut my eyes, hoping she won’t say the words I was expecting.
“I want her” she said and breath caught in my throat
“No” Jongin’s voice was strong and sudden
“Why?” lady Shin turned to face him
“Because she’s a seamstress” he snapped “They have a lot of work, so we can’t give them even more”
When I looked up, I saw Jongin staring at me. On the contrary to his voice, in his eyes there was care and gentleness. I couldn’t believe he said ‘no’ to his future wife. Maybe he didn’t want to forget? Maybe he still wanted me as much as I wanted him?
“You’re Y/N, right?” queen Eunji came closer to me with a smile on her face
“So, are you a seamstress, Y/N?”
I took a deep breath and looked at Jongin. I hoped he realised what I wanted to tell him.
“No, your highness” my voice was really quiet “Your son must have mistaken me for someone else because I sometimes help with sewing the gowns, but… As I said before, I am not a seamstress”
“Good” king Doyun eyed Jongin “Y/N, from now on you’re a private servant of lady Shin. You are going to have more duties, but I’ll make sure it will be well rewarded. Start from helping her with the luggage”
“Yes, your highness” I bowed and quickly went closer to the carriage
I had to stand on the tiptoes to take the smallest bag. It was pretty heavy. When the coachmen saw I had problem with the rest, he got up from his seat and helped me. I didn’t know if he was allowed to do that, but no one complained. When he finished, I smiled gently and mouthed ‘thank you’. Now, I had three big and one small bag in front of me and I had to take them all to lady Shin’s new room. I hoped it wasn’t somewhere deep in the castle.
“Jongin, you will show lady Shin her new chamber?” king Doyun wasn’t asking his son a question
The prince just shrugged and let out a sigh, leaving everyone shocked. Me included. I was expecting that he’ll say ‘with pleasure’ or something like that, but instead of it I just heard:
He started walking to the castle. King Doyun furrowed his eyebrows. I could see how mad he was. He whispered something to his wife and looked at me. I immediately took the smaller bag and one of the bigger ones. I knew I’ll have to go back here and take the rest. Lady Shin pretended nothing happened and started to follow Jongin. When she was about to enter the palace, she stopped and turned to face me. In that exact moment, I tripped over something and dropped the smaller bag. I quietly hissed from sudden pain. I looked around and I noticed everyone was staring at me. Jongin clearly struggled with the desire to approach and help me. Brushing the dust off, I got up and joined lady Shin.
When I was close enough, she leaned in and whispered with a devilish smile on her face that only I could see:
“You drop something once more, you sleep in the dungeon”
Author’s note: I can’t believe that previous parts have over 80 notes! Thank you!