Things Aren't Always What They Seem
Yeah yeah… So I’ve been to Japan and I speak Japanese and I’m interested in their culture…but those things aren’t enough to accept me in this org that I’m applying for. I didn’t make it. :( I don’t have hard feelings though because at some point, I felt that I’m not gonna make it. There came a point in my app process when I thought that it didn’t matter to me if I pass or not.
I also contemplated on my reason for applying. I wanted an org that could jive with my interests. That org definitely met with my interests. But then, I realized that maybe I wanted to join the org to have close Japanese friends. Definitely, I will meet Japanese people when I join that org but I can never have that very in depth relationship with them because usually, they would come and go. I’m not sure really. I think I won’t have the kind of relationship Natsumi and I have.
Natsumi and I met outside the org. We were classmates in one of my GE classes. Since then we have hung out as often as we could– she even hangs out with my high school batch mates!
Anyway, I’m still thinking of whether re-applying or not. I have other plans for the next semester. I’m planning to join a college org. Hopefully, this time I’ll be able to make it. :D