serma

Nunca me senti tão plena, e tão realizada como me sinto desde que você nasceu, hoje me olho no espelho e me vejo outra pessoa, me sinto mais segura e mais firme nas minhas decisões, não enxergo apenas o meu mundo, mas hoje vejo primeiro o teu. Filho, você me faz sentir a mulher mais abençoada deste mundo, pois você é meu presente de Deus.
—  Sobre ser mãe

me assusta pensar que talvez eu nunca tenha cabido em você
mas o que me tira o sono é saber que talvez eu nunca caiba realmente
você sempre foi demais pra mim
e eu nunca me enxerguei nos teus amores
e por mais que você repita
eu não consigo me fazer caber
e vai ver não é pra ser
mas eu realmente queria que fosse

até onde você está disposto a ir para conhecer alguém verdadeiramente?
não quem nós aparentamos ser
não quem nós nos forçamos a ser
mas até que ponto você está disposto a conhecer alguém?

sabe
eu gosto de dizer que queria ser uma abelha, um mosquito ou uma mosca, só pra poder ver as pessoas quando ninguém está olhando
uma amiga me diz que um dia todos nós encontraremos alguém que queira nos conhecer como ninguém nunca quis. e eu acredito nisso.
até onde você está disposto a ir?

na primeira crise
no primeiro grito de socorro
você vai soltar a minha mão ou vai segurar mais forte?
você vai abraçar os erros
as inseguranças
ou seremos só mais um caso de amor que não ultrapassou a superficialidade?
quero que você seja um sussurro me dizendo que ficará tudo bem quando as circunstâncias gritarem o contrario
quero dançar ao som do nosso caos e fazer das nossas dificuldades melodia
essa caminhada não é só minha
você vai caminhar ao meu lado?

Pericárdio de cal

Mas, querida

Há coisa que nunca muda

Nessa vida

Como aquele muro branco

De frente à avenida


Que já não é mais tão limpo

Quanto um dia já foi

Que já não é mais tão lindo

Quanto outrora era

Mas branco como sempre foi

Branco como jamais será

Branco como nunca deixou de ser

Ainda branco


Branco como tantos 

Branco como o único

Branco como aquele dia

Branco como o teu sorriso

Que você insiste em guardar contigo.


Por que você é o cal do meu pericárdio

Como sempre foi

Como jamais será

Como nunca deixou de ser

Mas meu muro continuará pintado

Mesmo sem você

a água escorre, a janela embaça cada vez mais
por alguns segundos eu pude me enxergar de fora, por alguns segundos aquela garota se viu livre de mim
meus olhos fecharam, meus olhos abriram
estou de volta
eu me sento no chão, eu deixou que a água quente escorra cada vez mais forte por minha pele
e eu choro, eu deixo que tudo isso saia
porque amor, eu sou tóxica
eu fui o veneno que você em um momento de pura loucura ousou tomar
eu fui o álcool que percorreu tuas veias e te fez vomitar
fui a fumaça escura que invadiu teus pulmões
e te matou
eu fui aquela que te apresentou o punhal, e apesar de não te dar motivos para usá-lo, não lhe dei motivos para largá-lo também
eu fui o punhal, amor
eu não quero ser
mas eu sou
tóxica
amor

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The Kurdish calendar, the months and their meaning: note that the Kurdish calendar and year starts in spring:

1. Xakelêwe | Axlêve | Avrêl - also called Cejnan

Xakelêwe is the first month of the year/spring and is 31 days long. The month falls in between March 20-21 to April 20 according to the Gregorian calendar. Several annual agricultural ceremonies take place during this month. The name Xakelêwe/Axlêve mean “the month when the earth thaws”, as snow and ice start to melt and spring is soon to come. This also explains the name Avrêl. From Av (water) and Rêl (vegetation), the snow in the mountains start to melt, giving water to the vegetation which makes the vegetation to grow again.

The month is also called Cejnan because Kurds celebrate the arrival of spring and also Newroz, the Kurdish/Iranian New Year during this month. Cejn means feast/festival/holiday in Kurdish.

2. Gulan

Gulan is the second month of the year and is 31 days long and lasts between April 20 to May 21 according to the Gregorian calendar. The name derives from the word ‘gul’, which means flower or rose in Kurdish. During this month, colorful flowers color the mountains and landscape of Kurdistan. The Kurdish nomads begin their annual movements.

3. Cozerdan | Zerdan

Co/ceh means rye (read: grain) in Kurdish. Zerdan comes from the word zerd/zer meaning yellow. During this month the croplands shifts it’s colors and the seeds turn to yellow which makes the landscape look like a huge yellow carpet. Signaling that it’s time for harvest soon. Wheat (Genim) and Rye (Co) are among the most common grain and a large part of agriculture in Kurdistan. Cozerdan is 31 days long and falls between May 21 to June 22.

4. Pûşper | Puşper

The fourth month of the Kurdish calendar is called Pûşper and is 31 days long. Pûşper is the hottest month of the year and lasts from June 21 to July 22. The dry air and warm days dry up many natural greens and harvests which gave the month it’s name. Pûş is grass when it becomes dry, yellow and light as a 'per’ (feather) -> Pûşper. The agriculture communities starts cutting their harvest for the year.

5. Gelawêj | Gilavêj | Tîrmê/Tîrmeh

The fifth month is called Gelawêj. The month is 31 days long and lasts from July 23 to August 23. The name comes from the star Gelawêj (English: Sirius) that shines over the Kurdistan night sky during this month. The star is also a sign that from now on the nights will get cooler. Gelawêj is a common name for girls. The month can also be called Tîrmeh - meaning 'month of Tîr’. Tîr is another Kurdish name for the star Sirius.

6. Xermanan | Pale | Xuweşan

Xerman is a word related to harvest 'season’ in Kurdish. The collected harvest when gathered in piles is called 'xerman’. Pale means “farm worker”. The month is 31 days long, lasting from August 23 to September 23. The agricultural communities collects the cut harvest and brings it to the villages and towns to sell it.

7. Rezber | Baran/Waran

Rezber, “the month when 'trees’ bear fruit”. In some areas of Kurdistan “rez” means grape tree and in this case the month is named “the month when grapes is ripening”. Many different fruits find their way to the markets during this month and the leaves are slowly turning orange and yellow. The fall celebrations is also in this month and the sheep in the farms mate. Rezber is 30 days long and falls between September 23 to October 24. A rain season begins in Kurdistan during this period and that’s also why the month is called 'baran’ or 'waran’, meaning rain in Kurdish.

8. Gelarêzan | Xêzan | Xezelwer

Gela means “leaf” (read: trees) in Kurdish. Gela-rêzan means “the month of fallen leaves”. Xêzan, which is another name for the month, is 30 days long and lasts from October 24 to November 22. Winter is coming.

9. Sermawez | Saran | Mijdar

This month is named after the word 'serma’ or 'sar’ which means cool/cold in Kurdish. The weather in Kurdistan gets much colder during this month. Followers of the ancient Kurdish religion Kakeyî celebrates a holy day, Rojî Xawînkar, on the 9th of Sermawez. The month is 30 days long and falls between November 22 to December 22. The month is also called Mijdar from the word 'Mij’, meaning fog/mist - 'month of mist’.

10. Befranbar | Befran

Berfranbar means “the month of snowfall” and is the first month of the winter. Befr means snow in Kurdish. The month begins with the longest night of the year, the night some Kurds [and other Iranian peoples] celebrate 'Night of Yalda’. In the past, people spent those cold and dark nights during this month indoors. During Befranbar it was common for people to gathered with the family by the fireplace and tell stories of Kurdish tales and legends late into the night. The month is 30 days and lasts between December 22 to January 20.

- Snow in Kurdish: Befr, Wefr, Berf, Werf, Bewr, Vewre, Vewri, Vowri, Vor

- 'Night of Yalda’ is also called şewî zistan/zimsan, şeva zivistanê, şeva çile, şewî yelda in Kurdish.

11. Rêbendan | Bendan

Rê or rêga means road/path in Kurdish and 'bendan’ refers to the word bend, “to tie” (read: block). Heavy snowfall makes the roads in remote areas to be blocked by heavy snowfall and that’s how the month got it’s name: rê-bendan. The month is 30 days long and lasts from January 20 to February 19, Gregorian calendar.

12. Reşemê | Reşemî | Reşeme

Reşemê comes from the word reşemang - black month. Reş means black and mang/meh means month. The sky is covered by dark (black) clouds and a rainy season starts while the climate gets warmer in the end of the month. Reşemê is 29 days (depending on leap year) and lasts from February 19 to March 20, Gregorian calendar. Another explanation for the name is that the white snow melts during this name and the land/soil becomes visible again giving rise to the name Reşeme.


The Kurdish names for each month were designated depending on the geographical division and the lifestyle of specific Kurdish tribes, villages/towns. The name for a former tribe might be different from a nomadic or agricultural tribe in Kurdistan. Remarkable similarity exists between the names of these months, which put the natural events at the center of choice for the certain name.

The ban on Kurdish culture and language education, particularly in northern areas of Kurdistan, has diminished the significance of the role Kurdish names of the months play in the daily lives of the Kurds. Military actions forced many civilian Kurds to lose their land and property in rural areas and move to cities, a process that causes people to break ties with their generations’ long traditional lifestyles. In the case of Kurdistan, where the practice of “Kurdishness” itself is or at least was for along time considered a crime, it is clear that the Kurdish farmer, nomad and agriculturist who moved to major cities has not found it necessary to maintain the tradition of his ancient Kurdish calendar.

The Kurdish calendar that is used today in some parts of Kurdistan is a combination of non-Kurdish names of the months taken mainly from the Babylonian calendar and Kurdish names, or in some cases non-Kurdish names that have been transformed. This solution has made the names more acceptable among Kurds. For example in the case of Shabatu, which has become Shevba (“the windy nights”) in the Badînanî accent. Nisanu, has become Nîskan. Adaru has become Adar/Avdar. Or Tebetu became Tabax.

The Babylonian months are named: Nisanu, Ayaru, Simanu, Du`uzu, Abu, Ululu/Eylul, Tashritu, Arakhsamna, Kislimu, Tebetu, Shabatu, Adaru.

The Arabic names of the months usually originates from the Babylonian calendar as well, that’s why Kurds in western Kurdistan (Syria) and southern Kurdistan (Iraq) also tend to use the arabized names of the months. Though many Kurds speak of the months in terms of “first month”, “second month”, “third month” etc according to the gregorian calendar.

Summer: Hawîn, Havîn, Hamîn, Tawsan, Tawsu
Winter: Zistan, Zivistan, Zivtan, Zimsan, Zimsu
Spring: Behar, Bihar, Wehar, Wisar
Autan: Payîz, Pahîz 
Retaking of Bouzacula [closed with howlofthewolf]

@howlofthewolf

It had taken quite some time and more than a few outside favors, but the Empire finally had done it.  The Spear of Hope was finally ready.  The Solar Core was active, the countless weapon systems were online, the Star Forge was ready and already churning out war material, and all other systems were active.

Astrid had chosen not to involve any of her other allies in this campaign, as hopefully it would not be necessary.  Fleet Admiral Serma and Rebecca were both assigned to this campaign, with Serma commanding the fleet from the Spear of Hope, and Rebecca commanding Astrid’s angelic forces.

Among them were several other commanders to control other aspects of the military.  Serma had requested Wolf come aboard the Spear of Hope to at least inspect the ship, if not ride in it on the way to Bouzacula, and he was met with an Honor Guard comprised of several experienced angelic warriors and Spartan-IV Super Soldiers.

Rebecca and Serma were also present where Wolf was.  “Hello Wolf, looks like we’ll finally be taking back the empire, huh?” Rebecca commented.  “I’m glad this ship’s finally been readied in time.”

lamento pela pessoa que escolheu ser
mas não vou deixar isso me quebrar de novo
não quero que você tenha desculpas pra voltar
falando que só quer consertar as coisas pra não me ver sofrer.

necrópsia

Bela, recatada e do lar (se eu quiser)

pelo direito de escolher
ser bela, recatada e do lar
ou então não ser
mas ter a certeza que
seja comandando
um fogão, ou uma empresa
terei reconhecido em mim
meu valor
ser do lar, ou do bar
seja dona de casa
ou presidenta de um país
viver de acordo
com o que eu sempre quis
e admirar a beleza
da diversidade de mulheres
que há em mim e em tantas outras
seja no bar ou na igreja
fumando um beck
ou tomando cerveja
a mulher ideal,
seu padrão de beleza
não cabe a ninguém decidir
muito menos a veja!

M. A. Soares

Kylo Ren [starter with breakonthrough-tothedarkside]

@breakonthrough-tothedarkside

It had been a while since Astrid last met Captain Phasma.  She managed to work out that deal pretty well, and as she said, her troops were helping both the First Order and the Resistance.

Of course, not everyone would take kindly to Astrid’s decision to play both sides.  A certain Dark Side User would no doubt want Astrid to completely support the First Order over the Resistance, and here he was arriving at Terra Hope to do just that.

The planet was extremely well-defended, as always, though unlike the time when Phasma went there, there was a new flagship present, and this one was on a scale never before seen by the First Order.

This flagship measured over 74 and a half kilometers long in size, and was armed to the teeth with weapons systems, some of which were unknown to Kylo.  There were also a few new ships patrolling the system of an unknown design, likely new allies of the Empire.

The massive flagship contacted Kylo’s ship.  “This is Fleet Admiral Serma of the Spear of Hope.  Please transmit your identity codes.  We are standing by,” was the message transmitted.  It’s apparent that they’re going to give Kylo a chance to enter the planet peacefully.

SONETO DE SENTIDO

Andei sem direção, sem um caminho
Por muito tempo andei na contramão
Olhava os fatos, mas não via a razão
Até que mudei da água para o vinho.

Por muito tempo estive só, perdido
Não sabia o que, na vida, eu iria ser
Mas hoje eu sei: Ser tudo pra você
Pois no amor encontrei, enfim, o sentido.

O tempo que perdi não vai voltar
Foi se, ao sopro do vento, ver o mar
Na verdade, não sei se foi perder

Creio que é, a evolução, contrapartida
Mas tudo isso passou e volto a dizer
Que só o amor é o sentido desta vida.

- Jean Carlo Barusso.

Updating the Eldar [closed with farseersaeralyhn]

@farseersaeralyhn

It had been a while since Astrid last met that Eldar Farseer who dropped by.  A lot had happened to Terra Hope in the time past then, most notably them becoming their own galactic power.

When the Farseer had returned, she was witness to a surprisingly large fleet of highly advanced warships, of designs not before seen in the galaxy, and of sizes of surprising bulk.  One of the larger warships was 19 kilometers in length, a size far greater than even the largest Battleships employed by the others in the galaxy.

One of these massive warships hailed the Farseer.  “This is Fleet Admiral Serma of the Empress’ Wrath,” came the message.  “Welcome to Terra Hope.  Your ship seems to be registered in our files, though you haven’t returned here for some time.  Do you require an update on what has transpired here, or shall I simply grant you passage to the planet?”

anonymous asked:

"Fleet Admiral Serma, I request a meeting with you ASAP due to recent events in Phoenix City," General Lestat transmits.

“Understood, I’m on my way,” Serma replied, arriving not long after over Phoenix City in her Dreadnought.  “Fleet Admiral Serma here, I’m ready to land wherever you need me.”

eu estou aqui
neste quarto cheio de papéis amassados,
sozinha,
esperando que alguma
luz divina
invada minha vida e me faça
flutuar.
já tomei 7 dramins
mas os demônios da minha cabeça
não param.
não param.
não param.
eles estão fazendo uma festa enorme e eu queria saber
quem toca a música que eles
dançam.
há, na minha opinião,
um abismo entre viver e existir.
há também um outro abismo
entre saber ou não
em que momento se está.
estou tentando me consertar.
você até pode dizer que
não há leveza insustentável nenhuma no ser
mas,
agora,
eu não estou conseguindo lidar comigo.
e você não consegue
explicar isso,
nem chegar ao meu
diagnóstico.
eu corro por aí
todas as noites,
procurando alguma coisa que eu nunca soube o que era.
que eu nunca soube se existia.
neste mundo, acredite:
você é a única coisa que não me deixa desmoronar.
e eu estou calculando o tempo
que minha graça salvadora permanecerá
dentro de mim.
eu te sinto. eu te sinto. eu te sinto.
a flor no meio do caos.

palavrejos.

Project Hope [closed with ashipfullofmisfits]

@ashipfullofmisfits

Fleet Admiral Serma was busy working on the design of her new ship, and she knew that it was going to require external aid to succeed.  Serma decided to enlist the Feros Clan to aid in its creation.

Serma met with Arashi on Port Hope, the admiral in her full setup, making her look pretty official and whatnot.  Her outfit accentuated her muscularity quite well.

“Arashi, good to see you,” Serma declared.  “I have a project that I’m working on that requires some components that are difficult to acquire.  I need the Feros Clan’s support in this project, because it’s going to be the single most difficult project in Imperial History, potentially for quite some time.”