“Apparently the Nest Messes with the Victim’s Head, Shows Them Things They Love. Parts of Their Soul in Distress. It Keeps the Victim’s Soul Vulnerable” - Or: Have Some Meta Relating to S12 That Will Never Happen on the Show, But I Keep Writing about Anyway
I initally hadn’t wanted to write about this at all as I feel it kind of useless since it’s not going to be in any way featured in S12 I am 100% certain, but what can I say? Sometimes you hold onto hopes that you know will not be answered. ;) Point being: The newst promo pictures for S12 immediately had me thinking of the episode captured above and especially this particular moment due to the green/blue tint we have in the picture as well as the small, but important word “fear” placed atop Dean in this picture. Now, it seems it’s a cap from a clip, if you ask me, so the “fear” could be part of various sentences that make “fear” as a word itself not as relevant, but for now I’ll just treat it as a standalone word, because it makes it apply so nicely to 5x16 “Dark Side of the Moon”.
“Dark Side of the Moon” written by no other than new showrunner Andrew Dabb of course follows the Winchesters’ quest to escape Zachariah while in Heaven and stumbling across all kinds of “best of”-memories that soon turn sour especially for Dean since Sam’s “best of”-moments are mostly moments in which none of his family is featured. Now, whether Zach maybe chose certain memories in order to cause tension between Sam and Dean or not is really not relevant, but the fact that Dean feels like he had no “special place” within his brother’s Heaven surely relates perfectly to this moment coming along later in which Zachariah uses Dean memory of his mother to twist it around to his liking and to torture Dean in probably the most horrific ways as not only has he Mary tell Dean that she never loved him and considered him a burden, but also that it’s Dean’s own fault that people leave him behind, which directly connects to the experiences leading up to this moment where Dean has felt that Sam enjoyed the time away from him (it’s this fact that makes me wonder how much of those “greatest hits” of the boys were true “greatest hits” or how much those were manipulated by the angels too possibly) much more than those with him.
The show has gone out of its way on multiple ocassions to showcase that one of Dean’s biggest fears is to end up alone. So Zach having Mary tells exactly that to her son as well as that she never loved Dean is about the most painful and disgusting thing Zachariah could have done.
Now, the reason I had to think of this moment when seeing the S12 promo picture is due to how the greenish-blue tint in the episode indicated that something was not right, but that something went “toxic”. You can feel the emotions of fear, anger and hurt radiating off of Dean here due to what he is told - so to me it perfectly fits to the picture of Dean for S12 with the word “fear” atop of him. I think given that the connecting piece between S12 and this episode is Mary Winchester and the fact it was written by Andrew Dabb who, I suppose, shapes S12 as heavily as no other writer, I would not be surprised if he sort of “played” with this memory of Mary in Heaven in S12.
We already know from what Jensen said, that Mary will make the brothers more vulnerable and also someone Dean feels the need to protect and likely sacrifice himself for. And it’s this aspect of vulnerability overlapping with the emotion of fear that brings me back to S11 and the episodes that felt heavily important for myth arc things that seem to have been thrown overboard in the last few episodes and in so far are left hanging mid air imo.
I have talked about this before while S11 was still airing, but I am too lazy to find a link right now (sorry, I am being an even shittier person today than I already am in general I suppose lol), but basically 11x16 “Safe House” to me was one of the most important episodes in terms of foreshadowing (that sadly went nowhere in the end) and connection to the myth arc. The soul eater and the nest imo could be very well analyzed as parallels for the Empty and Amara.
While the reunion bit of God and Amara has been foreshadowed seasons in advance and didn’t exactly come as a surprise, the complete dropping and forgetting about the Empty was a little disheartening (at least for me). I am very much thinking that Mary is back completely and that Dean is well and alive in S12, but still I would like to offer a “theory” - though this is certainly too much of a word for these loose thoughts - on what could also have happened in the finale. I know it’s not where the show is going, but there’s room for possibility to headcanon into a different direction and have fun with crazily speculating anyway.
I recently reached the 500 follower milestone!!! so to celebrate, here are my favorite blogs (honestly if u love urself follow all of them theyre all beautiful and so nice and smart ok). ((I’m keeping the header as my usual URL instead of my festive one))
key: mutuals are bolded, absolute favorites are italicized
Hello ꒰♡ˊ͈ ु꒳ ूˋ͈꒱.⑅*♡ Happy Valentine’s Day! Whether I talk to you constantly or admire you from afar, all of you have done your part in making my dash beautiful and my time here on Tumblr absolutely wonderful. I’ve also recently reached 1.5k followers too (wow), and that just gives me all the more reason to make this as well! So to all you fantabulous people, thank you so much, stay amazing and I (⑅ ॣ•͈ᴗ•͈ ॣ)∟ᵒᵛᵉ૫૦∪
I’ve seen quite a few of these floating around and decided why not join in, lol. And of course my brilliant mind wanted to make a brand new graphic for it…..with all SEVEN muses. I am very lucky any sanity survived the Photoshop ordeal. Oh wait, I would have needed to have sanity in the first place, don’t I? Lol.
(Also, tad pissed that the only decent graphic of Seifer I seem to have is KH verse……-sigh-)
Anyways, this is first of all a Merry Christmas/Happy Holiday/Happy New Years to everyone!
Second of all, it is a HUGE thank you to everyone for making this year such a blast for me. When I shyly decided to enter the RPing scene back in February I never thought I would make much of an impact, nor had I expected to make so many friends. I had made a belated start into fandoms in general, and a very belated start into RPing, age wise and felt that I wouldn’t fit in all that well. And yet I was welcomed with open arms!
What started off as two blogs, well mostly one…..with the other being kinda in the background, turned into seven current muses along with two inactives and one that still hasn’t gotten off the ground! (Of those, one of the inactives will likely never come to life again and the last will likely be active soon!)
And despite three of my muses being outside of that fandom, this list will be FFVIII themed, to no one’s surprise. Also, yes. I am including lovely people from ALL my blogs in here! Not just Squall’s! The main reason I am posting here is simply because he happens to be my most active of the muses.
But yes, this is just a small thank you to those who have impacted my life on here, no matter how small!
And so we start! Be prepared for a loooooong list!
– S e e D s –
(those that I have become super SUPER close to over the year! I tend to talk extensively OOC with them and basically consider these guys some of my closest friends ^.^)
Also a shout out to my two groups! Squall’s – @iter-amicitia, and Laguna’s – @visfati. My time in these groups has been absolutely amazing! Even if I have sadly been kinda inactive on Laguna lately…..
I know there are ones missing, there was no way to list all my followers…..it would have taken way too long and would have ended up like a mile long post XD Especially taking into account that Squall is slowly but surely closing in on 400 followers….to my ever present shock. Laguna isn’t far behind and I think every muse but Rinoa and Firion are over 100. So that’s a lot to list, but that doesn’t mean that each and every one of you don’t mean anything to me! I love ALL my followers, to death and want to interact with ALL OF YOU.
To be honest it’s hard to think that it hasn’t even been a full year yet that I’ve been here….it feels like a dozen, lol. I hope I can be here a dozen years though…..seriously. My blogs, my friends, my followers, have all come to mean so goddamned much over the course of the year and I am so grateful for it.
I actually thought this list would end up longer, lol. But I’m kinda glad I was able to keep myself in check for the most part….especially considering it’s like nearly 5 in the morning by me. So yea, if most of this is incoherent, BLAME THAT.
Anyways, thank you again. All of you. And here’s to a new year and hopefully new friends, and old. And tons of new interactions and stories!
After the greatness that was Sunday night and seeing some of you peek out from hiding I decided to write this…. I was you. I was minding my business blogging and then one day kaylor hit me and I realized how real it is. I decided this was something I wanted to blog about so I started reblogging posts but then received mean messages and lost followers. That’s when I learned about how Taylor’s fans act towards the kaylor fandom. So I went into hiding and only liked posts instead of reblogging anything kaylor related. I also sent anon questions to remain anonymous. But then one day I was tired of hiding, so I unfollowed A LOT of blogs to clean up my dash which is now, for the most part, beautifully filled with kaylor and karlie. Then I made this side blog so I can express how I truly feel about kaylor. Creating this side blog was the BEST DECISION EVER. This kaylor fandom is more of a family and sticks up for each other, which is so refreshing and totally awesome! Plus we all get to die together when we get kaylor action. I also met people that I can talk about kaylor with, which I didn’t have before. So if any of you need someone to talk to, I’m here. If you just want someone to type to in ALL CAPS about kaylor, well that’s something I do on a daily basis. All the people behind the kaylor blogs are SUPER nice and welcoming, so don’t be afraid. And if you want to stay hidden, then that’s okay. There is nothing wrong with just observing. I just wanted to let yall know that I used to be a hidden kaylor shipper, but now I’m kaylor trash and proud of it.
Okay so there’s probably more because jfc I read a lot of fics but as these are the ones that come mind straight away I’m p sure they’re my favourites so yeaahhhh seriously though read/follow them all you will not regret it
I’m sure a huge majority of people know Nana by now (aka samwinchester, theongreyjoy, nickigrants, ect) but within the last week her blog was hacked and deleted as well as her url was stolen from her. You can imagine what a heartbreaking experience that was to lose all of her artwork, posts, notes and any new friends she has made just by knowing their url. She is looking to get back some of what she has lost in followers and I am here to help her.
Nana is an incredibly talented graphic designer, never fails to be hilariously funny, she’s passionate about anything and everything she can get her hands on, always honest and kind to anyone who comes her way, she is also an amazing writer even though she doesn’t think she is, she inspires people constantly by just being herself and she will change the way you see characters/watch television with her meta. Nana is like a real life disney princess gone evil with satanic qualities who collects friends and makes you watch or want to watch more tv. She is the coolest person that as ever been born and deserves the nicest most wonderful loving things to happen to her.
What I am saying is everyone should go follow her again on her new blog to experience more life changing posts on brothers, chicken, incest, america, minor characters, olive garden, theon greyjoy, dennis reynolds, horror and so much more.
A huge thank you to anyone who decided to follow this mess of a blog!!!! I swear all it ever is is me crying over kbieksa, manny, sid, hot dads or french-canadians. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
A little bit of mushy gushy always has to come along with a ff, so here it is. Some of the people I’ve met on this website have changed my life. This past year has been one of the roughest out of my 19 years of existence, and I don’t know where I would be without the love and support some of the amazing friends I made here gave me. There’s been alot of ups and downs, learning & growth with me the past few years and I truly want to let every single person who stuck around, follows me, interacts with me, talks to me, or even just reblogs my posts that I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart!!! You’re all beautiful humans to your very core and I’m blessed to know each and every one of you. ♥
So stopping the rambling now, here is my 3000 follower + 3-year follow forever:
Since I’m officially looking for jobs graduated in archaeology, I have been reunited with my cat after 6 long months, it is summer, I have almost reached a quarter of a century, and I have the most amazing followers ever, I figured it would be time to give a big shout out to some people that have given me the greatest blogging experience in that rough half year I’ve been on Tumblr, pulling me through my thesis with awesome posts, and the best messages and conversations. THANK YOU! And love you all!
OMG! I cannot believe that there are now over 800 of you. I just celebrated 700 followers just 5 days ago! You guys are multiplying like rabbits. It’s amazing to me and I love it! Thank you all so much for following and supporting me! As my to do list is pretty long right now and that I still have other celebrations to finish up, I’m not going to add anything new onto my plate right now. Keep an eye out for the new fics I will have coming out this week as well as a few other little surprises along the way. :)
I want to give a giant shout out to some of the blogs who have helped me get this far…whether they realize it or not…these are amazing blogs and if you are not following them you should go check them out right now!
Hey Steph! I'd just like to say that its really admirable how you always respond to your asks with such a welcoming attitude. For a lot of us who aren't as brilliant as you fic or meta writers, we feel like our words or feelings aren't really important. And sometimes the popular blogs don't notice us because we're just another one of their followers. But with you it's totally different. You genuinely make us feel like we're a part of the tjlc community. So thank you. <3
Lovely!!! What a very kind thing for you to say! This means a lot to me, truly, and I kinda teared up a little at reading it.
I operate on the principle that “we were all new fans once, and the fandom is absolutely overwhelming, someone please make it not be!”. There are a TONNE of super nice people here – like 99% of them – and I just really enjoy the interaction of the community as a whole. I love the creativity of everyone here, and everyone should be celebrated for their cleverness, regardless if they’re “popular” or not. Perhaps my own terrible self esteem keeps me thinking I’m really not a big blog at all. *shrugs*
Honestly, I just REALLY GET A STUPID HIGH OFF OF MAKING PEOPLE HAPPY, and when they are happy, then I am happy. This blog makes me happy, and other people are happy, and holy shit happiness all around :D