seriously i was crying while making this

Bts reaction to you liking rough sex

Reaction:  Hi! What about BTS reacting to you wanting them to be so rough with you you’re covered in bruises and bitemarks? Thanks! I really love your blog!

I want to warn you that by bruising I don’t mean domestic violence or anything. I mean both party agree, sexual kink. 


Jin won’t be too much into this. He’ll occasionally mark your body when he haven’t been home for long or was in an angry mode. There was no way, he’ll leave bruises on your masterpiece of a body. I think he’ll be just afraid. But if his mood matches your request, girl…you are in deep trouble. You won’t be able to sit.

Originally posted by syubbie


He is Agust D with the tongue technology for a god damn reason. Boy will cover your body in hickies and bites, the moment you tell him that it excites you. He also loves to destroy you mentally while doing so phisicaly. So while he was making you, there was a significant dirty talk attached to it. “Whimper baby. Let me hear those sweet sounds. I’ll record them for a song next time.” 

Originally posted by yoongixjimin


You want to die or something? I mean he is daddy enough. Let’s leave it like this. You won’t need to ask him. He knows where to bite, where to suck and where to demolish. Like seriously. You won’t be able to say anything from the pleasure it brings you. You’ll scream and beg and cry from overhelming pleasure, but he’ll just smile and ask “Isn’t that what you wanted? Daddy only does what his princess asked him to.”

Originally posted by simondismydaddy


He’ll be hesitent at first. But you encouraged him to try suck a hickey on your neck for starters and he did. One, two,three, then he slowly started biting and you made sweet sounds he never heard before, which excites him to unbelievable extents. So he continued on and on. Kissing and sucking. Biting and growling.

Originally posted by yourpinkpill


He won’t say anything. He’ll just do it. Maybe on every three marks he’ll ask if you are alright, but seeing you with closed eyes waiting for him to touch you, will make him wanna continue his little painting on a real canvas. “Y/N, tell me if you want me to stop, because if you don’t I don’t gurantee you’ll be fine tomorrow.”

Originally posted by kookies-for-taehyung


It was his kink before it was yours.It was somehow mutual. He had no problems marking your body, because you didn’t need to go out in front of thousand cameras. And he marked you so nicely that no foundation could hide those purple marks. Yet, something excited him about you making marks on his body. The thrill if anyone is going to notice them, if the make-up stylists would be able to hide them. So, it was a game for both of you.

Originally posted by jiminiemini


He got the idea fast. When you asked him if he’ll be able to do it, Jungkook only laughed, carried you bridial and threw on the bed. Fast he attached his lips to the crook of your neck. It felt so good that you lost yourself in it. Lost you moaned your lovers name and low growling errupted his chest. “You really do enjoy this, little naughty naughty girl. And this only the first one. WHat are you going to do when Daddy is done with you.”

Originally posted by fcktaekook

Request are open for reactions and MTL’s


it’s not a big deal but my entire life when i was funny i was sassy. i think about that a lot. about how sometimes my brother would tell the same stories, same inflections, same characters - but he was clever, he was funny. i was just… sassy. my sarcasm and sharp tongue and wit were always whittled down into kind of a bitch. when he was the class clown or a riot or a great guy, i was a problem student who couldn’t shut up, a disruption, an attention whore. i talked less than him. kept the ice to a minimum. pulled the bow of my arrow voice a little shorter than he did. he could step over lines and dance between them with entire rooms laughing. but when i did that, i was kind of full of myself. i was seen as loud, overly dramatic; my humor too dark or too quick or too feminine.

there’s power in making people laugh. it draws you into them. it’s a good thing to feel you’re making someone happy. i watch boys at parties who are so funny and everyone loves him and how they cackle and howl and never worry they’re taking up too much of their audience’s attention. how when i chime in, when i’m just as funny - if not funnier than them - all hell breaks loose. how fast they get vicious to me. how fast they turn their comments onto my personality. how fast they scramble to be the center of attention again: in an instant, the funny stories become snide comments. and i’m quiet again. 

sassy girl gets told to sit down. she gets called up to the front of the class because oh, if you’re so smart, why don’t you teach the lesson. sassy girl gets cast as villain in all her musicals, because princesses don’t use the bitterness in their souls. sassy is ugly ursula, is wicked witch, is snide sidekick. sassy girl makes you laugh when you’ve been crying so much you feel sick. sassy girl listens to you while you spill your secrets, knows when to make a joke and when to take thing serious. tell the cuban girl she’s sassy, watch her eyes roll, watch her heat up, use that latin anger that whips in octopus tentacles out of her. she takes everything so seriously. she needs to calm down, practice ladylike, less swears and less blasphemy and less sassy.

my brother easily relates to “funny.” my brother and most boys i know pride themselves on their humor. they know they can throw a comment into the air and have it stick to the wall of their peers, they know even if it doesn’t land, everyone will just cover their ears. it’s not a big deal. it’s just if you have two people in equal situations, like a brother and a sister both with the same shared timing and humor and stories - some even stolen from each other word for word and with exact phrasing - and if one of those people is treated differently, usually something strange is happening. it’s not a big deal. it’s just i don’t really ever hear girls called funny. 

jeon jungkook ruined my life: a story told through gifs

wey hey what’s up guys i’m back with another collection of rude gifs

this time our subject wll be the maknae and perhaps even the rudest member of bts: jeon jungkook

ok, time for the pain to begin

would any rude jungkook gif post be complete without a gif of this moment? i think not

idk what the fuck this move is trying to achieve but idc i’m still into it

again, what the fuck

don’t even get me started on this choreography, i’m thoroughly convinced that bighit was trying to kill me off

*googles* how to be a sweater

ok but seriously what do we have to do to get this hairstyle back because fucking hell

bitch i’m sweating he looks so good all dressed up n shit

hahahahahaha i’m not okay

*takes deep breath* isweartogodjeonmotherfuckingjungkookifyoudontbuttonupyourgoddamnshirtimgonnalosemyshit

i told myself that i wasn’t going to scream while making this post but it looks like that just went ouT THE FUCKING WINDOW




hahahahahahahaha i’m not crying i just spilled a little water in my eyes

is this….. is this shit allowed

oh, you think this is bad?

well what do you think about this?

or this?

and we simply cannot ignore this

and i’m pretty sure that this is pornographic but hey it’s fine i’m FINE

that J on his jersey must be for “jerk” because that was extremely uncalled for

yup, it’s for “jerk” alright

tbh this stage was the sexiest shit ever and i’m still not over it



ok u guys are probably sick of my comments by now so i’m just gonna hit u with straight up rudeness for a sec


*raps to the beat of le hip thrusts* i. am. dead.

*yodels* fuck my life *dabs*

ok this was longer than i expected i’m so sorry i swear i’m done now peace out

(these gifs are not mine and i give credit to the makers of them… from my grave)



ENTJ-  You scare me. You are such and incredible leader, how do you do that?? But also I hate authority and feel a need to disagree with you at every turn because you’re so bossy. You’re not as cool as you think you are, but you’re almost as cool as you think you are and that’s pretty damn cool. Be my friend.

ENTP- Fuckin’ chill out you memelord. You’re either coasting through life or putting WAY to much effort into shit. You’re a bit of a narcissistic fuck but you’re still my favourite type (*coughs*). You’re too excitable and too much of a dick and you’re personality doesn’t make sense. Stop being mean to you’re friends. Learn to be more comfortable with emotions, it’ll be important later on in life. Be the friend that can cheer others up with jokes when they don’t really wanna talk about what’s wrong.

INTJ- You’re cool, you get shit done and you’re a bit of a supervillian. What’s not to love? You’re a rare bird. There aren’t many of you out there, but you are important. If you weren’t here, who else would the ENFP’s annoy? You’re a behind the scenes leader most of the time, pulling the strings from a safe (and smart distance) but you aren’t afraid to get you’re hands dirty. You’re good at shit.But don’t forget, you’re not superhuman. Remember other people have these pesky things called emotions, be wary of them STILL i want you to be proud of you’re inherent assholeness.

INTP-  Mad scientist. I’m constantly searching for your approval because of my unresolved daddy issues and it freaks me out. Yes, you are a daddy. Some of you have your heads shoved up a little too far in you’re own arse. Just because you’re introverted and intuitive and darn cold, does not make you better than others honey. Basically, you’re a condescending shit. But hey I still put you on this weird pedestal, so we’re both guilty. You’re the genius on tv shows that isn’t diagnosed but falls on the aspergers spectrum somewhere.


ENFJ-  Baby, I worship the ground you walk on. You are so cool, calm and controlled while still being awesome, enthusiastic and excitable. Don’t be my friend, date me. But stop trying to fix everything. Think about yourself a lil okay buddy, and use logic sometimes too. Actually scratch all that, you’re perfect, I love you.

ENFP-  You are a beautiful, annoying bastard. You’re too nice and I don’t feel comfortable making mean jokes at your expense (because you’d probably take it seriously and cry yourself to sleep), but you have effortless charm. Stop thinking about the individual and start thinking about the bigger picture, you’re not realistic. Be my friend, but not like close friend, y'know.

INFP-  Hello, the human equivalent of tumblr. Fuck. People either love you or hate you. I don’t know where I fall on that scale tbh. Sometimes you’re just a little too much honey, I’m not sensitive enough for you. Other times you are too precious for this world and I just wanna wrap you up in a blanket and protect you. I am strangely attracted to you despite how awkward you probably think you are. You have a lot of knowledge in that head of yours. Be that person I have a weird co-dependant relationship with, that really isn’t healthy but I can’t exactly live without you and I’m not sure why.

INFJ- Ah INFJ, I haven’t met many of you but BOY, are the ones I know pretentious. You’re one of the least common MBTI type, and you probably know and take pride in this. You’re good at reading people, I know, but you can just talk to me instead of analyse from a distance bud. You’re ultimately very cool and creative, a little bit of a know it all but it’s justified. You’re a sweet bundle of joy and I love you. Be my best friend. You’re good at being a friend. Really good.


ESFP-  I like you a lot kid, you remind me of a younger me. We shouldn’t get along but I love/envy you. You’re caring and you have a great childlike spirit. Make some art and ramble to me some more. I seriously appreciate you so much. You bring me back down to  the ‘now’ with you’re crazy impulsive attitude and caring demeanour. Just learn to listen to me a lil more when I tell you you’re thinking with you’re heart instead of you’re brain again. You do it a lot, buddy. Be my lover.

ESTP-  You’re cool man. You’re Ferris Bueler. You’re a salesman that’s constantly selling me on your personality. Look we get it, you’re good with one liners and you’re athletic and everyone loves you, but also hey, think about others you little sociopathic flirt. Also, sometimes people really DO know more than you, I know! Crazy. Be my Idol.

ISFP-  You probably reaallly like music. Chill out buddy, I don’t know much about you but you seem stressed and too fierce for ur adorable demeanour. I know you are your own individual beautiful creative person, you don’t need to tell me. People DO care about you, i know sometimes you doubt that, but you got this life in the bad. You’ll probably never grow out of your angsty teen years tbh but it’s okay, find yourself an ISFJ and you’ll be okay.

ISTP-  So you’re just as cool but less attainable, loner ESTP. You’re in control of your own everything but also out of control and mildly self destructive? Be the mysterious kid I rarely talk to, but everytime I do I fall in love with you a little bit.


ESFJ-  Hey there soldier. In the best case scenario, you’re cutie Monica Geller, that’s a lil anal and mildly manipulative but really! very! sweet!. In the worst case scenario you are literally my worst nightmare. Your the squad’s glue tho. Sometimes you offer a cool third perspective, but you over simplify things and don’t try to understand my crazy theories and that’s annoying. Learn to get over yourself a lil, stop playing the victim buddy and compromise. Be my friend in a few years when you learn to self reflect better.

ESTJ-  You’re a manipulative bitch. You’re so judgemental, you’re Rachel McAdams in Mean Girls. You’re pretty cool. Even more of a rampant psycho than ENTJ. I don’t like you all that much (and something tells me you don’t really care) but I respect you a LOT. Stay a safe distance away from me and please don’t judge me. You’re too savage.

ISFJ-  Hey my emo saviour. You understand everybody and nobody truly understands you. You’re the reliable Colin Firth that the world of Bridget Jones’s run to after their crazy escapades with Hugh Grant. Just remember to have standards baby, and don’t accept everyone that runs into you’re arms. You’re worth more than what most people are willing to give. Be my favourite sweet emotional little kid brother (even if you are female.)

ISTJ-  You say 'interesting’ a lot. If life were a tv show, you’d be a sassy little hate muffin that tumblr idolised that everyone would remark didnt get enough screen time. You’re all business and sometimes you should let down that gaurd fam :) Think about people a little bit more bud. I respect you. I’ll be your friend! But it will probably take three years to build up our relationship and it will probably be accidental, but im here for u anyway.


Rhys is the owner and he’s pretty much the best boss anyone could ever have. Quality pay.  Good manners. Everything runs smoothly under him. 

Amren is the manager under him, but no one ever sees her do anything. She shows up to events and probably orders linen or something and she always has an opaque starbucks cup in hand that never has coffee in it. No one’s sure what she drinks but they just know that you don’t mess with Amren’s stuff. Always well dressed, usually black slacks and a pristine, pressed shirt with a statement necklace every time.  Never eats any of the food despite being around it 24/7.

Mor manages the staff and is ON HER GAME. She sends out a prompt, color coordinated schedule every week and everyone’s times are always perfect. She knows what she’s about. She’s pretty hands on with running everything, and always makes an effort to check in on every event and help run them. She’s also the only one to show up at a 6 am shift on a saturday morning still in her club dress from the night before with heels in hand (she always keeps a change of clothes in her office for nights like those). Always keeps things fun, especially on long days and always brings in snacks for everyone in the mornings and organizes a work party for every excuse she can. (They definitely have monthly parties to celebrate everyone’s birthday in that month)

Cassian, oh Cassian… is the chef. The kitchen is loud and he’s usually laughing and he always, always keeps his hair in a bun and fills out his jacket very nicely (Nesta approves). His food is to die for and he’s always throwing in a few extra things he whips up for the staff. He comes with them to events to help plate food and will check up on the crowd to make sure they like everything. Could probably take a rack out of an oven and not feel a thing. Fingertips are probably burned off at this point, it’s a running joke that if anything is too hot to carry, Cass can just handle it for you. (he always jokes that he can carry all the burning hot things because he’s equally as hot and Nesta is just -_- even though she’s basically in agreement)  

Azriel is the baker, and he makes all the breads and desserts they serve. He and Cass work hand in hand a lot to get everything done and they’re always asking each other to try their thing to make sure it tastes good. Az prefers being in the back of house because he doesn’t particularly enjoy the interacting part of the job and it’s usually chaotic in front of everyone. And every once in a while, when Mor is having a bad day, he makes sure there are “extra” slices of her favorite triple chocolate cake on her desk that he definitely didn’t make just for her, not at all. 

Nesta is a server who’s relatively new, but still gets it done. She sets tables like a beast and everything she does is precise, clean, and even if she’s just pushed that one disturbingly massive hotbox half a mile to a venue, she’s never sweaty or has a hair out of place, it’s truly astonishing. She also definitely doesn’t have a thing for the chef. Not at all. It’s not like she stares at his forearms when he rolls up the sleeves of his white uniform or always casually suggests that she can be the one to go pick up the food from the kitchen. 

Elain is another server who pretty much always ends up working the bars. She can be a little slow setting things up sometimes, but she’s still a hard worker and everyone loves her enough that she could take fifty years to set a beverage station and everyone would still smile at her. She enjoys the jobs that involve interacting with people and can somehow magically pour red wine over a white tablecloth and keep them absolutely pristine.

Feyre is a server too, so she does everything, but they usually leave the design elements up to her. She’ll help Cass plate the food sometimes, or arrange a board of fruit into cool shapes.  She and Rhys are shamelessly dating even though everyone is ??? “wait ur dating ur boss?” No one cares though, and its usually never a problem except that one time Mor walked into Rhys’s office without knocking and found them making out with her sitting in his lap. 

Lucien (you can thank @highfaelucien​ for this idea) runs the flower shop that supplies centerpieces/decorations, and he always hangs around after a delivery to talk with everyone… aka flirt with the pretty server who blushes when he hands her a flower. He has his usual beautifully long hair and will mostly keep it up for work so it doesn’t get in the way. He’s always casually, immaculately dressed and smells ridiculously good (not that Elain has noticed). He has his cartilage pierced too, and Elain definitely doesn’t drool over his earrings when he has his hair pulled back out of the way. Their interactions are mainly Lucien being >:) and ;) while Elain blushes beet red.

Other assorted pieces:  

Sometimes when they’re just finishing cleaning up, Mor and Cass will have a drink after (no one knows how they aren’t tired). Mor supplies the alcohol. Cassian supplies the dessert. They’ll sit in the empty kitchen and share a slice of cake and trade stories about all the weird stuff that happened that day. 

Nesta and Mor definitely make out at the Christmas party one year. Mor is in this little red dress with black tights and heels and they end up with red lipstick smeared all over their faces, stumbling out of the linen closet.

Cass tries to woo Nesta with food and it works better than he thought it might. At first he thinks he’ll make some big, fancy dessert, but then he’s like… nah STEAK.  Az walks by Cassian’s station and is confused at first because there’s nothing they need that for that night? But he turns it over in the pan and casually says that Nesta is hungry…. “You’re trying to romance her…. with meat???” “Steaks are sexy Azriel.” Luckily though, Cass is very :))) when he brings Nesta’s plate to her and her eyes go a little wide because he really didn’t have to do that, really he didn’t. But since its there…. She digs into it and probably lets out this moan that has Cass grinning wider and he goes down to brag to Az about her liking it. 

Az feeds the cats behind the building every night and Mor thinks its adorable. One is looking particularly worse for wear, though, and he ends up taking it home and basically adopting it. Mor proudly calls herself the kitty’s “co parent” and goes around bragging about their child to everyone while Az blushes in the background.

Nesta has been forever banned from driving the truck because her road rage + a giant truck is really not a good idea. She’s thiiiiis close to being banned from the truck whenever Cassian is in it too because they inevitably end up fucking in the back of it while he lifts her onto a cart. 

Smut bonus: 

when Nessian are finally together, he brings back homemade whipped cream and chocolate sauce for them to use ~that night~ but it just devolves into Nesta laughing so hard she’s crying because she can’t take Cassian seriously when he’s spraying whipped cream onto her boobs. 

I work as a bartender/person who brings the drinks. I don’t take orders (especially not food orders), but if I’m bringing your drinks and you or someone at your table asks to get another drink (especially when it’s busy), I’ll take the order and put it up. No problem. I do explain that technically I’m not a waitress and don’t have to take orders since it’s not my job, but I don’t mind that much.


One time there was this group of somewhere between 20-25 girls (that all looked the same with blond hair and blue eyes, it was creepy) and they were. Horrible. Customers.

Apart from these girls it was a pretty busy night, so if someone asked if take their order instead of directing them to one of the waiters. And these girls (obviously) were drinking a lot.

But they had a system. When I would bring one of them their drink, the next one would ask if the could get another drink as well. And then, when I’d bring the next drink, the next girl would order. And they would do this every. Single. Time.

This meant I was constantly running around getting their drinks, like seriously for a while all I was doing was run between them and the bar bringing one drink at a time, and it was getting so stressful because in the mean time I didn’t have the time to make and bring my other orders and I wouldn’t have any help for another hour and then I just collapsed.

I broke down crying because every time I asked if someone else on that table wanted another drink they’d say no, but when I’d bring a drink then all of a sudden one of them wanted a drink and they were just being rude and I couldn’t take it anymore.

Now the place I work is owned by four brothers, and there are pretty much always two of them around somewhere talking with regulars. This particular night, one of them was sat at the bar and watched me run around doing more than my job, and watched me break down. He then took over my bar and sent me to the kitchen to get myself together.

To get to the kitchen, I had to pass the girls. And would ya know it, when I passed, one of them asked for a drink. Keep in mind, I had tears running down my face at this point, and she didn’t care at all. In fact, they were pointing at me and giggling. And my boss watched this happen, walked up to them, and (incredibly calmly) told them to pack up, pay, and leave.

At this point I had reached the kitchen, so I don’t know first hand what happened, but my colleague said that the girls were trying to argue to get their drinks for free because “service had been so slow and not at all nice” but my boss wouldn’t have any of it.

I’ve never had to manage the bar on my own after that, and as far as I know those girls haven’t been back. Oh, and now when a big group comes in my bosses make it very clear that orders go to the waiters and that it is not appreciated if they order separately every single time.

Since tomorrow dragon cry comes out in Japan, and like the entitled american that I am, Im going to be complaining about our late release date in my head for a while… but seriously, I just want to make it clear to anyone that it is perfectly fucking ok to spoil everything for me

rant to me about shit you liked and/or didn’t like,I wanna know everything.
especially especially especially any scenes involving gajeel, levy, and lily

being spoiled will probably hype me up for the movie more and will make me feel like i need to spend my money on the movie but that will be based on what the spoilers entail so it will most likely be beneficial for me to be spoiled

anonymous asked:

What would the Sakamaki bros and the Mukami bros do if their s/o was dabbing all the time while they despised dabbing? (Please do it for the meme)

Shuu : *dabs once to have you in shock for the rest of your life*

Reiji : “I promise that if you dab one more ti-….” *gets the whip out*

Ayato : “Chichinashi, I’m the only one who gets to dab here!” 

Kanato : *starts crying cuz does not know what to do to make you stop*

Laito : “Did Bitch-chan seriously just dab when having an orgasm?” 


Ruki : “Livestock, I’ll tie your arms behind your back to prevent you from doing such a pathetic thing”

Kou : “Moh…M Neko-chan, it’s not sexy at all…”

Yuuma : “Sow…if ya don’t want me to rip ya arms off, stop now.”

Azusa : “Does…Eve…want me to get….angry?”

So I’ve just been sitting here thinking about Bart/Dirk parallels, and maybe I’m the last person to realise this, but I had to get some opinions. (This is really maudlin I’m sorry)

In episode 1, Dirk and Bart give Todd and Ken almost identical spiels about the “holistic” nature of the universe, and the fundamental interconnectedness of all things. It could be a coincidence, or a “universe thing” (thank you Todd Brotzman, wordsmith) that they used almost the exact same wording, but I don’t think so. Given that they apparently never met before but were part of the same programme, and given Riggins’ speech about patterns by Dirk’s hospital bed in episode 8, I think it’s far more likely that they got this wording from Riggins himself. It’s how he explained their abilities to them as kids. It’s the Blackwing elevator pitch.

This has made me sad, because this is Dirk’s entire MO, and a huge part of how he defines himself, both to himself and to others. The fact that he tried so hard to resist the labels Blackwing put on him (like “psychic”, for instance), but still had to ultimately acknowledge the basic truth of what they saw in him must be a bitter pill. 

When he defied Riggins in episode 3, he never called him out for experimenting on him when he was a tiny kid, or even for breaking his promises. It was for promising something in the first place that he later couldn’t deliver. In some ways, I think Dirk sees Riggins’ failure as his own. Whatever Riggins told him he was capable of, Dirk wishes he was right. 

Instead, he salvages whatever good he can from whatever they tried to make him into, and uses it to try and help people, all the while aware that for better or worse, the most traumatic period of his life is a huge part of who he’s chosen to make himself into. And in many ways his self-worth still hinges on being useful to other people, rather than letting himself be loved.

Sorry. I am cry.

anonymous asked:

Can you imagine how sweet Harry would be after him having to wake you up from a night terror? He would probably hold you so tight to him letting you cry softly about whatever wouldn't let you sleep peaceful that night. It probably kills him to see you like that and not be able to protect you. I bet he rubs your back while you drift off sniffling. He wouldn't dare fall back to sleep with out knowing you were. He's keep you pressed to his chest all night long making sure you felt safe.

That seriously would be so amazing. You wake up from him shaking you and you just instantly wrap your arms around him and he pulls your face into his chest. “It’s okay baby, I’m here, I’m right here. You aren’t alone I got you” Harry whispers and kisses the top of your head. “I couldn’t move my body, it felt like someone else was in the room with us and they were holding me down, it was horrible.” Y/n say crying into his chest and holding on for dear life. “It’s okay baby, I know and no one is here and you are here in my arms. You are safe” harry says rocking my body and holding me close. Harry rubs the top of your head and kisses and holds his lips to your forehead trying to comfort you so you can fall back to sleep peacefully. He starts to whisper and hum along to cherry wine by hozier trying to calm down your nerves. Your blood pleasure starts to go down and you start to feel sleepier and drift further and further. “Goodnight my sweet angel” ❤️

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things marcus cries over when drunk

also known as: marcus flint is a goddamn lightweight and gets tipsy after two jello shots:

  • sad “protect the animals" commercials
  • on top of that, the sarah mclachlan song that plays in said commercials
  • “look at this skinny panda! look at it, someone needs to feed it - hic - some motherfucking bamboo”
  • the amount of calories in his favorite trail mix when he’s in season
  • when other ppl start crying, he cries too. sue him. he’s a sympathy crier.
  • the weird part in Oliver’s hair bc “I don’t LIKE it like that god everything’s CHANGING”
  • gets a lil misty eyed when his fave team makes it onto the ESPN “top ten plays” list
  • suddenly gets reminded of when he made Oliver mad –> blubbering mess of an apology while Oliver tries to explain that he’s not mad anymore because “marcus, seriously, that was five months ago"
  • the ending to titanic, and thats not even when he’s drunk on hard alcohol
  • puppies like in that one buzzfeed video
  • laugh-crying when his friends do smthing stupid
  • those inspiring commercials about family and sacrifice and shit from the olympics
  • god forbid u get sentimental with him (adrian’s learned from experience) bc he will hug you for a v long time
  • Oliver’s face, probably

- Taeyong is really shy in expressing his emotions

- like he rarely says “I love you” but when he does, it’s only in private and it’s enough to drive you crazy

- he expresses his love for you through hugs and kisses



- He’s also possessive

- like when he sees some guy talking to you or trying to flirt with you he gets really clingy until it leads into a fight with you and the guy

- you guys argue about this in some cases

- he’s just afraid to lose you

- but you still don’t get it why he has to be possessive

- “Dude, you have to trust her.” - Taeil

- “Trust is one of the key factors of a relationship.” - Johnny

- “Trusting is loving. Loving is trusting.” - Jaehyun

- “Hyung, she’s a keeper. Don’t lose her just because of your trust issues.” - Mark

- “Omg hyung, stop. She’s your girl. Case closed.” - Haechan

- he could be a beast when he gets mad… and also in bed. :>>>>

- one time, your ex bf came back and he’s asking you to get back together with him

- Taeyong found out about this in the most unconvinient time –> the time when his scamming and fat-shaming scandal got out and he’s being attacked by hate from the public

- his confidence went even more downhill

- and he got mad ofc because you didn’t tell him about the fact that your ex-bf wants you back

- “I didn’t wanna tell you because you’re gonna be like this!”

- “So it’s my fault now huh?”


- oppa don’t be like that

- it’s so scary

- you can’t read what he’s thinking of doing next

- he’s just staring at you with those intense eyes




- you don’t know whether you’ll melt in warmth or quiver in fear because of his INTENSE STARING

- like dude, staring too much is rude; just say what you wanna say ffs

- “Stop talking to him!“

- “I already did but he just wouldn’t leave me alone!”

- “Liar. You still love him, don’t you?”

- with that, you felt offended

- not because you still love your ex but because Taeyong thinks of it like that - you realized that you and your love for him was never enough

- “Seriously? After all we’ve been through together, you’re gonna tell me that?”

- “After all the sacrifices I’ve made just to be with you… oh god Taeyong… am I not enough?!”

- “Jagiya, that’s not what I meant.”

- You broke down in tears as you look away from him

- you just can’t take seeing him right in front of you

- “Jagiya, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it that way.”


- you finally look at him

- you tell him: “Let’s just end this Lee Taeyong.”

- and Taeyong’s left eye would just twitch in shock and annoyance

- have you seen his facial expression when he’s annoyed?

- he looks like one of those annoyed anime characters

- well he actually looks like a living anime like wth dude what are your genes made out of? Seriously?

- “What? You’re breaking up with me?”

- then he would laugh sarcastically

- “Fine. I don’t want to see your face ever again. Get the hell out of my face and my life!”

- he would be pointing to the door of their dorm and you get out while crying just as the other members go back into their dorm

- “You guys had a fight again?” - Ten

- “Well what’s new? They are always like that.” - Johnny

- “What happened?” - Jaehyun

- “I was actually expecting them to be making out on the couch as soon as we get here.” - Yuta

- Taeyong would just grumble: “We broke up.”

- “Seriously? Why do all my hyungs get into this kind of situation?” - Mark

- “This is why I don’t want to have a commitment just yet.” - Haechan

- “Yeah shut up Haechan. You’re not helping.” - Mark

- they were a little bit shocked but since they already know that you guys are having a tough time in your relationship, they kind of have expected that something like this would happen.

- 3 months passed but you’re still not over Taeyong

- you still cry about him and your break-up

- you thought that Taeyong had moved on because you can see him smiling and laughing on tv

- but nope

- it’s actually the opposite when he’s off-cam

- he rarely talks to his members except when it’s really important like rehearsals and dates for their performances/fansigns/photoshoots etc.

- when he’s back at the dorms w/ his members he just stays in his room

- when he’s out practicing with them, he would stay behind after their rehearsal

- he dances and dances until his body gives up just like you guys have both given up on your relationship

- even though he doesn’t admit it completely to himself, he knew that the break-up had taken its toll on him

- imagine, you guys had kept your relationship a secret for almost 3 years and then this happens

- yeah ikr it sucks

- you felt guilty for breaking up with him lol even I would feel guilty for breaking the heart of the poor leader of NCT

- Taeyong is life

- Taeyong is ❤

- Taeyong is everything!

- how can you give up on him??????????

- you wanted to talk to him but you’re afraid that he might reject you

- but little did you know that Taeyong wants to do the same too

- he also feels guilty for agreeing with the break-up

- he realized that he could’ve fought for your relationship better


- you guys are so dumb BUT CUTE

- you wanted him back so bad that you just cried

- Taeyong wanted you back as well that he wasn’t able to cook for the past 3 months because he remembers those times when he’d cook for you if you’re hungyry, sad, happy or just simply bored

- Eating different kinds of dishes was yours and Taeyong’s thing

- the other members didn’t have to worry about the food though because Jaehyun’s there to cook for them

- but they were worried for Taeyong because he rarely eats

- then one time, the thing that they have always been afraid off actually happened

- Taeyong collapsed in the middle of their performance

- like his fall was so bad

- he fell right off the stage and lost his consciousness

- they have to stop their performance and rush him to the hospital

- it was due to stress, mainly from his work and lack of proper nutrition like someone feed this child oh god

- and yeah, he broke his leg so the company decided to postpone their promotions

- Ten told you about this

- blinded by your tears, you immediately went to visit him

- but as soon as you got there, he’s sleeping - you kissed his forehead and mumbled, “I love you” to him

- it’s so cute that it broke the other member’s hearts

- they think that their leader deserves to have a healthy and strong relationship with his special someone

- Taeyong opens his beautiful eyes and was like “Oh, you’re here”

- The other guys left, allowing you to have some privacy

- Ten and Yuta were about to eavesdrop but Taeil caught them and pulled them away by their ears

- “You sneaky lil kids! Don’t eavesdrop on them!”

- But also eavesdrops along with them

- Really Taeil?

- Taeyong sits up and you just burst into tears and he’s just like wtf????? stop crying!!!!!!! the members might think i did something to you!!!!!!!! oml!!!!!!!!!!

- you apologize but Taeyong won’t let it go and even put you on a guilt-trip

-you felt even more bad


- but then he just laughs it off and pulls you in for a slow and passionate kiss

- it’s been only 3 months since you guys called it off

- but for both of you, it felt like 3 decades

- and when your lips are clashed against each other, everything just felt right

- “can we try again?”

- “which one? The kiss or our relationship?”

- he smiles cheekily

- “Both.”



hisbelovedphoto  asked:

On my drive into work yesterday I saw a boat named Loki! Would you want a boat if you could have one and where would be your dream home port? Do you think Tom would want one? (I assume it would have a fully stocked kitchen so he can make his favorite breakfasts on board 😉)

Oh, what a fun sighting!

I would want a boat if I had a Captain for it.  *winkwink*  And he’d have to serenade me with “True Love” like Bing Crosby does for Grace Kelly in High Society.

I think I would prefer to keep it in either San Diego or San Francisco.  Maybe a spare somewhere in the Med.  In all seriousness, I would love to go on one of those fancy river cruises in Europe, the Danube of the Rhine.  *sigh*

In this extremely problematic interview with Randy Goat Avengers era Tom, who can’t stop touching himself and fidgeting, he says that if he had an infinite amount of money, he would get a boat, “a nice thirty foot yacht” to be exact, to sail around the Greek islands.  

And if we are going to talk about him making breakfast on his boat, I’m going to need to end this conversation and go cry for a while.  Bye.

anonymous asked:

You and Bucky have been trying to have a baby for awhile with no luck so you and Bucky decide to stop trying and don't bring up the topic. While you guys are on a mission one day you get seriously injured and are rushed to the hospital. The doctors do an ultrasound to make sure you don't have internal bleeding when they pick up a heartbeat. Yours and Bucky's head snap to the screen to see your unborn baby. Bucky starts crying and cups your cheeks telling you how much he loves you and the baby<3

I wanna write this!!

Daddy Wednesday™

Couples challenge Part 1

You were a Youtuber before you met Josh and Tyler. Your channel was a little bit of a lot. You did makeup, DIYs, challenges, and covers of your favorite songs. One of the songs being Truce by twenty one pilots.
3 years ago just after posting the video your twitter blew up with your fans saying that Tyler Joseph tweeted a link to your video. You looked in your twitter inbox to see that Tyler and you guys became friends.
Fast forward 3 years to where you are now. In your apartment with your boyfriend Josh of 2 and ½ years and your best friends Jenna and Tyler. You were setting up your camera in your living room to make a couples tag with them.
Earlier that day you tweeted you fans asking them to ask you guys some questions. You each chose 3 to answer.
You: “What’s up guys. It’s me Y/N and as you can tell I’m not in my normal filming area. Yes that’s because today I’ll be making the very requested video. The couples challenge.” with that Josh, Tyler, and Jenna sat down with you on the big couch. “Thanks for doing this guys, my viewer really wanted to see this.”
Josh: “No problem Y/N anything for you.”
You: “I was saying thanks to Jenna and Tyler babe. You were doing this with me no matter what.” Tyler and Jenna laughed at you sass while Josh put on an offended face and them kissed you.
You: “Okay so here’s what we’re doing. Everyone has 3 questions they picked off of twitter that you guys wanted to know about our friendships and relationships. Once this video is up I’ll be posting a twitter poll and you can go and vote on who’s your favorite couple. If Josh and I win then Tyler and Jenna have to get a tattoo of Josh and I’s choice and vise versa. So what do you say we get started? Jenna let’s start with you question first.”
Jenna: “Okay so my question is were Jenna and Y/N fans of twenty one pilots before meeting them or did they not know who they were? Well I can say for myself that I didn’t know who they were but once I heard them they were amazing and I fell in love with the music and Tyler.”
You: “Well I heard of a few of their songs through a friend, but I wasn’t a fan at first. Don’t get me wrong the music was and is great I just wasn’t into it right away. But then I did the cover to Truce and Tyler reached out to me saying he wanted to meet me, now look where we are.” You answered the question with a huge smile on your face thinking back to how your friendship with the 3 of them was the best thing ever.
Tyler: “Well I couldn’t help but meet you. Your voice was so amazing, plus Josh couldn’t get his eyes off of the video of you. I even caught him in his bunk watching all of your videos. He was your biggest fan.” Josh began to blush slightly.
Tyler: “Okay my question was how do all of you get along on such a small bus for months at a time? Honestly we’re like best friends. We only ever really fight about if we should get Taco Bell or Chipotle.”
We all laughed realizing how true it was.
Josh: “this question was interesting. What is your favorite song of twenty one pilots’ does live? Mine is probably trees because I love getting to interact with the people in the pit at our shows. Y/N has never told me what her favorite one is so that’s why I chose this question.”
You: “I honestly can’t really choose but I really like Holding on to you because i know every word to that one.”
Tyler: “She’s not kidding, I think she knows it better than me. My favorite is constantly changing but I’m not really looking to get a tattoo that Y/N and Josh pick out so I’m going to say Tear in my Heart because I wrote if for Jenna. Because we’re the better couple. Vote for us.”
Jenna: “My favorite is truce because it reminds me of what brought Y/N here in the first place.” You smiled towards her. She was so sweet and you guys were like sisters.
You: “Next question is when are Josh and Y/N getting married?” You looked at Josh who smiled and then looked into the camera again.
Josh: “Well since everyone is asking I think it’s time we tell them…… we’re not getting married yet. Not until Tyler and Jenna have a baby.”
Jenna: “Woah slow down there Josh we just got married not even 3 months ago. My next question is kind of personal but I couldn’t stop laughing at it. Y/N and Jenna what were your thoughts when you saw your your men pantless in front of people at the Grammy’s. I didn’t know it was even happening until I heard Tyler unzipping his pants as nominations were being called and when they were up there Y/N and I kept laughing at them and people’s reaction to them”
You: “yeah I had no idea about it until Josh was stumbling to get the pants off in the aisle. Jenna and I were trying so hard to pay attention to the speech but it was way to hard to focus on the words when all I could see what Tyler’s name on my boyfriend’s leg.”
Josh: “I kept looking at Y/N and she was practically falling out of her seat ad later her grandmother called to congratulate us and asked about my tattoo.”
You all laughed looking back on that night. It was the best night you had in a long time with the 3 of them.
Tyler: “Who has Josh and I met that has made you jealous?”
You: “Easy Brendon Urie. I’ve love him for so long and when me and Josh started dating he sent me pictures of them hanging out to rub it in my face and I’ve hated Josh ever since then.” You lightly punched Josh in the arm while you joked around.
Jenna: “Tyler met Y/N before I got to meet her, that made me kind of jealous because I watched her before they even knew about her.”
Josh: “Have you ever read any fanfiction about twenty one pilots? I mean since me and Tyler write most of it yes.” Josh and Tyler joked “No seriously I haven’t, because it scares me what fans actually think were like when we’re not performing.”
Tyler: “I agree some people can go pretty crazy while writing them and some people have a talent for writing so I’m not judging them but seriously calm down guys.”
Jenna: “Oh yeah you guys definitely don’t want to read it. It gets pretty intense sometimes. Y/N and I read it sometimes while we’re at home and you’re on tour. Some of them make you want to cry and others are just psychotic.”
You: “What is one thing you hate that me and Jenna do while we’re on tour with you?”
Josh: “Not that I hate that you two get along so well but you guys hang out more than you hang out with us sometimes.”
Tyler: “True. Sometimes I think you stole my girl from me Y/N.”
You: “Well it’s out now me and Jenna are leaving you for each other bye.” You and Jenna both stood from the couch for a second before sitting back down and laughing with Tyler and Josh.
Jenna: “If you had to describe your girlfriend/boyfriend in one word what would it be?”
Tyler: “Dime-piece wife.”
Jenna: “Tyler that’s more than one word.”
Tyler: “Not if you say it fast.”
You laughed at the two quietly as you thought about how to describe Josh.
Jenna: “Tyler is adorable, he’s like a little kid. That’s another reason we can’t have kids right now. I have to raise Tyler first. Y/N what about Josh?”
You: “Oh god, in one word i have to describe this man.This is tough. How do you describe something you love so much in just one word. I guess Josh is Jishwa. It’s a term not many know the definition to. It means hot, kind, loving, funny, and you have to be Joshua William Dun in order to be called a Jishwa.”
Josh: “Well Y/N is hilarious. She just exaggerated her response to try to persuade you guys in picking us as the better couple.”
Tyler: “So my last question is would you ever have Y/N join you to sing on stage? I’ve offered once before but she said if I ever made her do it she would skin me alive. That’s gone side of her you guys never see. She can be really intimidating, I know she was kidding but still she scares me sometimes.” Josh and Jenna were laughing and you glared at Tyler.
Josh: “It’s good to know that my girlfriend scares people. Okay this question was good if your house was on fire and you could only grab 3 things what would they be? I would grab Y/N, because she’s always with me, Tyler if he’s in my house, and Jenna if she was there too. But if they weren’t there it would be Y/N, Y/N’s camera, and her tripod. She couldn’t live without making videos.”
You: “Good choices. I would grab my blanket, Josh’s drums which would be unrealistic but I’m still trying to win you guys over for that vote, and probably a box of cereal because Josh and I are always hungry.”
Jenna: “I would grab realistic stuff like my phone, shoes, and a jacket.”
Tyler: “my ukulele, Jenna, and my piano.”
You: “This is the last question for this video are you ready? What is your favorite thing on tour to do with everyone? After concerts we get food a lot of the times from these amazing places that fans recommended to us.”
Tyler: “I like the show.”
Josh: “Wow Tyler. I like being able to hang out with Y/N all the time. Especially when she gets hyper and just wants to be like a kid and run around.”
Jenna: “She gets that way sometimes. It’s like someone give her too much sugar and she can run a marathon. I like when Y/N and I get to go shopping and have time away from these annoying people.” She gestured towards Josh and Tyler.
You: “Okay that’s it for today. I’ll post the poll on twitter for you to vote once I post this video. Thanks for watching and don’t forget to like, subscribe, and leave a comment down below. I’ll see you all next time. BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.” With that you stopped the camera from filming.
“Well who do you think is going to win?”Jenna asked.
“I don’t know. I mean they love you and Tyler but then everyone love Josh. I guess we’ll have to see. I’m going to start editing the video tonight so it will be up tomorrow. May the best couple win.”

Mystic Messenger RFA domestic life HC

~chores edition~


•Loves to cook for you guys

‘Hey, babe! Try this soup I just made.’ He says while putting the spoon gently to your lips.

‘This is delicious Yoo!’ you say while kissing his cheek.

•And then you glance around the kitchen


•It’s a goddamn mess

'Hehe, but dinner will be good right?’ He says turning you away from the kitchen

•You generally take care of the aftermath

•At least your food will always be good


•jams are always blasting when you two clean

'What’s the worse thing I could saaaay? Things are better off this waaayy!’ Zen belts out while vacuuming

'So long and good night! Sooo long and goodnightttt~’ you harmonize while dusting

•You two love to duet

Zen then dramatically grabs you and finishes the song with a dip.

•It’s always quite the performance


•Militant isn’t quite the right word for it

'Okay! So you take the bathroom and kitchen, and I’ll take the bedroom and living room!

•Planning and precision

'I’ve brought these new supplies to make sure we get every single piece of god forsaken c-hair out of our house.’ Jaehee said with a glint in her eye

•It was search and destroy

•Why did you offer to watch Elizabeth for a day???

Heaving the heavy buckets and bottles you get to your battle station


'Don’t we have…people for this?’ He said as you hand him a wet plate

'We certainly don’t have to call someone to wash two plates Juju.’ You tease

•What will be a learning experience for him….

You pass him a drying towel.

'Jumin what are you doing?’

'I’m waiting for the drying towel to dry.’ He said in all seriousness

You see that he just placed the towel on top of the dishes

With a slight sigh you take his hand and place it on the towel and slowly move his hand in circles

'You’ll be the one drying Jumin.’

'I have so much to learn about the commoners way.’ He said fascinated

•….Will be a test in patience for you


'Can’t we just stay in bed all day?’ He whined in your ear

•The master distractor

'Saeyoung, the house is a complete mess. I don’t even know what the floor looks like anymore.’ You protest

'Mess? What mess? The only mess I wanna make is in your pants..’ he says trying to kiss your neck

•Sex distraction

'Oh no, mister, do you even know, seriously?’ You say while pushing him off

'It’s wood….or is it tile?’ He says while pondering with a dumb look on his face

•Comedy Distraction

'It’s not funny! I haven’t seen your brother in days! Do you even know where he is?’

•You counter with a joke and guilt move

When you say that you both hear a muffled cry from the living room.

'What the fuck?! Why are there Honey Buddha chip bags all on the floor in the bathroom?!’ Saeran screamed

'Let’s go rescue him! I’m coming Saeran!’ He leaps out of bed

•The bond of brotherhood wins


Some of my headcanons for the RFA!

I would fight anyone who doesn’t think Zen would be a former emo kid. He’s so fucking theatrical for heavens sake?! And how can you not imagine him in skinny jeans and awesome Revenge era Gerard Way eye makeup with his cherry reds?!

:deep breath:

I feel very passionate about it lol

Send me some of your HCs! Let’s dish~

Originally posted by sevenloveselly

Joker Imagine - Used & Tortured

Depressive thoughts, violence, bad words, cruelty, sex etc MIGHT TRIGGER YOU; DO NOT READ! Please stay safe Pumpkins <3 X.

Anonymous said:Hi. I know that this is a veeeery sensitive topic and all, but could you write a Joker x reader story where she has been used sexually and tortured because Joker’s enemy kidnapped her. Then Joker could find her or something, idk..Thanks

(Is it just me or does it look like there’s tears in his eyes in this GIF?)

Originally posted by handsome-hunka-hunka

Originally posted by liljegr-n

Your P.O.V.

My body was trembling from every hit I had gotten, every word that made me so scared and also the wet and cold weather. I was lying on the grass in a park here in Gotham, probably close to death soon. It was late and night so this area was very isolated. Everything hurt. The rain water hit my nearly naked body, making me cold and my breath turned into fog.I was only wearing a ripped shirt that covered my back, my bum a little bit and my shoulders. My wounds stung so bad and I couldn’t help myself. I just lied on the dirty ground in agony. My kidnapper had dumped my body here after holding me in a dirty cellar for many days straight.

‘’No..’’ I whimpered and gagged as I remembered everything he had done to me. it would haunt me for the rest of my life -if I’d even survive from this anymore. I bet that I’d be literally dead within the next hour or two if I wouldn’t get help. But who would want to help me? I was Joker’s girlfriend, a maniac, a murderer and a very bad criminal.

I inhaled a sharp breath as I felt a sudden sting in my abdomen. I was grossed out, simply disgusted after being humiliated like that. It made me cry out the rest of the tears I had. My kidnapper had used me to fulfill his sexual desires. My eyes shut and I tried to wipe that memory out of my head. I had been so scared, so vulnerable, so alone. The worst part was that his house had a weird thing that blocked all signals from outside. J predicted that something like this could happen so I had a tracker under my skin. But it didn’t help much there.

How could he even love me after this?

I tried to push myself up from the muddy grass, but my arms were too weak. My left arm had a shooting pain that made me whimper and fall down on the ground, face first. It was probably broken. That’s it. I gave up trying to save myself. All my hope had washed away with the pouring rain. Joker had probably thought that I had dug out the tracker and left him for good. He had probably given up looking for me, meaning that I was all alone. I never thought I would die like this.

‘’Y/N?’’ A familiar voice called out my name. My eyes opened and I stared at the ground, seeing a pair of legs a few feet away from me, but I couldn’t find energy to look up. It sounded like Frost, Joker’s most trusted henchman and also a friend. ‘’Y/N are you there?’’ He asked me worriedly and got down. That’s when I saw his face, looking tired yet hopeful. The rain had wetted his brown hair. Suddenly I felt ashamed. I was covered in ugly bruises, cuts and overall I was full of wounds. I was supposed to be stronger, not a weak little woman. J must be so disappointed in me.

‘’Boss! She’s here!’’ Frost yelled loudly and looked to his left. Then he looked at me again. ‘’It’s okay Y/N, you’re safe now.’’ Frost told me reassuringly, but I heard his voice like an echo. I was too weak to even answer him. I heard someone running over after a while and then I knew that Joker saw me. ‘’ Dr. Quinzel’’ I heard his raspy voice full of worry. Then he kneeled down and picked me up in his strong arms. It hurt a little, but we both knew he couldn’t just leave me on the dirty ground.

My head was resting against his chest and my arms were hanging my by side. I was too weak to move my muscles. I looked up to his face and saw that he and gotten little sleep as well. His scent made me feel safe, but that just made me want to cry more. I didn’t want him to touch me..I didn’t want to be here. I was a disappointment! 

‘’S..Sor..ry’’ I mumbled weakly, feeling how my throat ached as I tried to speak. J clenched his jaw and I could almost see how red his eyes were. It’s like he was crying or holding back tears, but I couldn’t tell because of the rain. Suddenly my breath hitched in my throat and my vision got blurry. J tried to say something, but I couldn’t focus on his words that were a mess in my ears. Before I knew it, everything turned black like the night sky without stars. My body gave up trying to stay awake and so I blacked out in Joker’s arms..


A much softer surface was keeping me safe. It was the first thing I noticed when I woke up. I fluttered my eyes open slowly and saw a big window on the opposite of the room I was in. It showed Gotham city probably in the morning, a very familiar view. It was the same as in Joker and my bedroom. Wait..

I looked around and saw that I was in fact in our bedroom. The grey purple walls were the exact same as before, the white door, the door to the walk-in closet, the paintings on the wall, simply everything. Where was J?

Suddenly all the memories flashed back to my mind, reminding me of the awful truth. I pulled the blanket away with my right arm because I could barely move my left arm. Then I sat up and felt pain everywhere in my body. I knew very well why. I wanted to find J. He was the only one I felt like I could trust now. So I stood up, feeling lightheaded as I got on my feet. I held onto the nightstand and took a few deep breaths. Damn I was dizzy.

A groan left my dry lips and I forced myself to walk out of the room. Our penthouse was big, but I knew that if J was home, he was in his office or in the living room. So I tried to get myself to his office, hoping that he was there. As I walked through the penthouse, I held onto the wall because my legs were weak. Finally after nearly stumbling with each step I took, I reached his office. I touched the door handle and then opened the door carefully. That’s when i saw something shocking.

J was sitting on the middle of the floor, surrounded by knives, guns, champagne, clothes and weird shit, everything put in a spiral. The things were pointing at him and I saw that he was holding a gun. ‘’J?’’ I called out his name quietly, a little scared to startle him. It was obvious that he was losing his mind. He didn’t hear me. Then I saw him throwing an empty bottle of something away, making me flinch. ‘’Oh I’m gonna kill ya..’’ He growled with a low voice, talking by himself angrily. I gulped and tried to keep myself strong. I couldn’t start crying again, I just couldn’t. I had been weak enough for a long time now.

‘’J..’’ I said a little louder and walked inside the room. I couldn’t find support from the walls anymore as I tried to walk closer to him. Also I had to watch my every step. He turned around and looked at me quietly before standing up. His red lips were parted and his breathing was raspy. Silently he walked over to me and wrapped his arms around me gently. I took one breath and it was enough to make me close to crying. I held my breath and held back the dumb weak tears as I wrapped my right arm around his waist. My left arm was broken and someone had put a gypsum on it.

‘’I thought I lost you’’ He whispered while touching my hair softly. His words just pushed my tears closer to the edge. I nuzzled my face in the crook of his neck and tried to stay calm. ‘’You gotta tell me who it was.. Okay?’’ He told me seriously, blood-thirst obvious in his voice. A whimper left my mouth and I started crying in his arms. He tried to shush me and he gently rocked me on the spot. All the pain, both physical and mental was too much for me to handle.

‘’I-It hurt so much’’ I admitted quietly while sobbing into his chest. J’s muscles were tense and I knew he was stressed as well. ‘’It’s over now baby..’’ He reminded me softly. I just nodded but the tears kept flowing down my face. I coughed a few times because my throat was full of shit and I had broken ribs which made breathing harder. ‘’I c-can still feel him’’, I whispered and wanted to shower so bad. I wanted all of his traces out of me forever. I wanted to rinse my skin with acid (again since I had done that once) to get rid of his fingerprints. I wanted to claw every part of my body that he had touched just to make him untouch me. ‘’He..J he..’’ I started, but it was like the words were stuck in my throat. Of course it was obvious that the guy had beaten me up, but did he know about the other part? 

‘’He raped me’’ I whimpered quietly, afraid I would be less important for J now. But I couldn’t live without him knowing so I just had to tell him even tho it made me feel so dirty.

‘’I’m going to kill him Y/N. I’m going to make him pay for everything he did to you. Okay? Does that sound good? We can fucking torture him together if that’s what you want’’ He started with a strong voice, but it cracked a little and it sounded like he was holding back tears. I nodded again, letting him understand that I wanted that. But could I face that guy again? ‘’I just need you to help me to find him’’ He whispered and then pressed a kiss on my head.

‘’I will’’ I promised and then sniffled. J would keep me safe. What surprised me the most was that he didn’t laugh at me, nor call me weak. He was actually hurt by this and I was shocked. J was rarely even sad, sometimes upset but that’s it. It just proved once again that he cared about me.

(Part 2)

Originally posted by breakthedisttance

New ref for horse mom~ 

Been desperately wanting a new cutie mark and I’m beside myself over this one made by @sirenibe ?? It’s seriously so perfect for me I actually wanna cry every time I see it pffbt, I tweaked my ponysona’s design to match it a little more and to reflect my shift towards liking purple a lot while still making her look like me so she doesn’t become her own oc pffbt