9 anni, 8 stagioni: The vampire diaries.
Okay, ci siamo, è finita. Finita davvero.
Di solito non scrivo mai queste cose, non l'ho fatto quando è finito lost, scrubs o himym e potrei continuare all'infinito perché ho seguito e seguo tantissime serie tv. Ma con tvd mi sento in dovere di farlo, non lo so perché ma c'è questa cosa che mi spinge, che sento di doverlo fare. Tvd è stata una delle prime serie che ho iniziato a guardare dall'inizio, dalla prima puntata, dal primo “Hello Brother.”
A volte mi chiedo come sia possibile legarsi così tanto a delle storie inventate, a dei personaggi, fino a piangere tantissime lacrime quando tutto questo finisce.
Tvd non è stata solo una serie tv, è stato qualcosa di molto di più.
Mi ha insegnato quanto la famiglia sia importante anche se a volte la odiamo, anche se si fanno cose orribili, ci sarà sempre un fratello o una sorella pronto a sostenerti, ad esserci e a condividere dolori e gioie con te.
Mi ha insegnato che in alcuni casi perdonare è necessario. E per quanto una persona ci faccia soffrire, prenda delle scelte sbagliate in primis per se stessa e poi per gli altri, a volte, bisogna vedere il buono, bisogna capire il perché di tutte quelle dannate scelte sbagliate e ripartire da lì.
Mi ha fatto capire quanto il dolore e la perdita delle persone a noi care faccia parte della vita e per quanto doloroso possa essere, è così e nulla può cambiare ciò. Quindi non possiamo fare altro che piangere, sfogarci e continuare a vivere la nostra vita ricordando col sorriso chi non c'è più.
Mi ha fatto capire quanto è bella, vera e importante l'amicizia. Ma no quella che sembra perfetta, dove non si sbaglia mai e si finge di volersi bene, no. Quella in cui si commettono errori, in cui si litiga, si piange, ci si arrabbia. Quell'amicizia che nonostante tutto c'è e ci sarà sempre, quegli amici che ci saranno nei momenti bui ma soprattutto nei momenti felici, quella in cui potete separarvi per settimane, mesi, anni ma non cambierà nulla, sarete solo un po’ cresciuti quando rivedrete il vostro amico/a.
Mi ha insegnato che non bisogna mai prendere la ‘strada più facile’ se si ama qualcuno ma bisogna sempre inseguire il cuore anche se abbiamo paura, anche se ci sembra sbagliato, anche se ci fa soffrire, bisogna sempre rischiare e combattere per noi e per la nostra felicità.
Mi ha insegnato che la felicità, la serenità, arrivano, basta aspettare. E che una vita felice non è sinonimo di tranquillità ma di lotta e sacrificio.
Sono tante altre le cose che ho capito grazie a questo show per cui non posso fare altro che ringraziarli per tutto quanto: per le bestemmie in primis, per i pianti, per tutte le volte in cui l'ho odiata, le altre invece in cui l'ho amata, per avermi fatto coinvolgere, urlare, ridere.
Grazie per tutto Julie.
E grazie al fantastico cast che mi ha accompagnato in questi lunghi anni.
Con the vampire diaries oltre a finire una era, finisce anche la mia adolescenza.
Con affetto la bambina dodicenne diventata ormai ventenne, che nonostante tutto non ha mai smesso di seguirvi neanche una volta.
“That’s not a question you are supposed to answer with another question.”
“Then, what do you expect me to say? That there’s a red liquid coming out of your bloody head?” You replied sarcastically.
But little did you know, Pan was genuinely asking.
Fear that what you said was true, he placed his hand on his head. As he pulled it back to the front of his face, his eyes widened at the sight of red goo that now covered his palm.
Not long after, you saw Pan’s face turned white-wash and his lips turning blue. A sense of worry started to kick in. “Pan, are you alright?”
Instinctively, you walked over to his side and tapped on his shoulder. “Pan, can you hear me? Are you alright?”
Pan started to sway for a moment. Knowing well what would happen next, you swiftly stood behind him and caught him just in time before his body could slam the ground. Unable to hold his weight, you slowly sat down and placed his head on your lap. You shook his body, trying to pull him out of his fainting spell.
“Pan! Pan! Wake up!” You heaved a sigh of relief as Pan gradually opened his eyes.
“Why the bloody hell did you push me out of the way?” From your tone of voice, Pan could not determine whether you were scolding him or just merely your way of showing concern.
“Seriously?” Pan spoke faintly. “You are… blaming me… after… I saved you…?”
Watching Pan in terrible pain, a sense of guilt seeped in your heart. If it were not for his actions, you would be the one lying on the ground with an arrow in your heart, literally. Who fire that arrow anyway? You pushed away that thought for a moment as you turned your attention back to the major problem in your hand, literally.
“Can you use your magic to heal yourself?” You suggested after recalling seeing him treating the boys’ injuries time and time again.
Pan tried to reach out for his head, trying to heal himself with his magic as you suggested. However, the pain was draining his energy away. Feeling obligated to help the guy who had saved you from a terrible fate, you quickly came up with an alternative plan to heal Pan.
You reached out for your walkie-talkie that was strapped to your belt and pressed a small button. After allowing the static sound to clear, you spoke into the black rectangular box which has an antenna protruding out of it. “Felix. Felix. Do you copy?”
Moments later, which felt like centuries in emergency like this, a roughed voice was heard from the other end. “Yes, y/n. What’s wrong?”
“There’s been an emergency. Pan is…” Before you could continue, Pan shook his head and looked at you with furrowed eyebrows. Understood his facial expression, you nodded.
“Y/n. Y/n. What happened to Pan?”
“Err… Pan and I are backing out from the game.”
“Why? What’s wrong? Where’s Pan? Should I call the boys in?”
“No!” You blurted out. “Don’t. Just continue with the game and act as per normal.”
You looked into Pan’s eyes, telepathically asking him if Felix should be told. Despite no words being exchanged, it was as if you knew what you were going to say to one another. Knowing that Pan has given his consent, you continued. “Once you are done, come to Pan’s treehouse. I’ll tell you more then. Just don’t say anything to boys, aites?”
Felix took a moment to think. “Alright, I trust you. If you need me, please call me out immediately and I’ll come right over. Got it?”
With that, you switched off the device and turned your attention back to Pan who was starting to drift away. “Pan.” You gently shook his body. “I need you to stay with me, alright? I’ll fly us back to your treehouse. I think I know how fix that head of yours.” Pan slowly nodded, agreeing with your plan.
“Great. Now, I need you to stand up. Can you do that?”
He nodded again. You placed your hand behind his neck and the other in his hand.
“Good. On the count of three. 1… 2… 3.” On three, you pulled him up, helping him back on his feet.
Pan leaned on you for support, placing almost all his weight on you. You struggled to get a stable position to hold up his weight. In these moments, you could only be grateful for the creation of pixie dust. If there is no way for you to fly, it would be almost impossible for you to bring Pan back to camp alone.
You grabbed a handful of green, sparkling dust from the bottom pocket of your shirt. I believe, you closed your eyes as you affirmed that believe in your heart. With that, you threw the dust over yourself and Pan. The next moment, you found yourself flying towards Pan’s treehouse.
Throughout the journey, there were not much exchange of words between yourself and Pan; just once in a while to make sure that he stays awake; perhaps mostly because of the anxiety that was consuming you by the minute. What’s worse, you were not certain whether your plan is going to succeed. All these while, it was Pan who healed the injured using his magic. Now, it was him who were badly wounded and none of us have the powers to heal him. You could only pray hard that you will succeed.
Halfway through the fly, a sudden realization hits you.
No… It can’t be…
But how’s that possible…?
Urgh! Why so many questions today? Oh… I’m so going to kill the person who fired that arrow?
With Pan’s treehouse coming to view, you ignored your worry for a moment and checked on Pan once again who seemed to be awake, but only just. You landed in his balcony and walked Pan over to his bed. Carefully, you laid him down on his bed. You hurriedly walked over to a shelf that stood by the wall across his bed.
“Now… where did you put it?” You rummaged through his stuffs in the shelf, looking for a small glass bottle. You could have sworn you saw it somewhere on the shelf the last time you were there.
“What are you looking for, honey?” He spoke with his little energy left.
“The water from Neverland’s spring. Where did you put it?”
“Wait… How did you kn-?”
“Never mind that. I’ll explain it to you once you are well. Quick. Tell me.”
“It’s in the white box, top row.” He said as he pointed at the top shelf.
Instantaneously, you reached out for a white box with a red cross on it right at the place where Pan mentioned. “Why would you even keep it in a first-aid box? Ah nevermind that.”
You opened the lid and found the glass bottle that you were looking for. Yes! The waters from Neverland’s spring! This should help him. With no time to lose, you placed the box back on the shelf and ran back to Pan.
You lifted Pan’s head anxiously and placed it over your lap, raising his head a tad higher. “Drink up.” You whispered while unscrewing the lid with one hand. You poured the glistening clear liquid into Pan’s mouth. Drinking it all in one gulp, you placed his head back down on the fluffy pillow.
Soon after, you could see Pan’s lips lifted upwards and his dimples faintly showing through his cheek, telling you that the waters did its magic. For the first time in years, never had you felt contented to see the sweet, charming smile on his face. Without realising it, he infected you with his smile as you grinned.
“I never knew you cared so much about me.”
“Huh?” You stared down at Pan, who was looking at you with a gaze you could not quite comprehend. But yet, this look invited a warm fuzzy feeling in your stomach.
“I thought you hate me.” Pan repeated.
“Who said I hate you?”
“Well, let’s see. First, you don’t like to follow whatever I’ve instructed you to do. Always love to do the opposite of everything that I said. Second, you could tell all the grandmother stories to the boys that they had to stop you from talking more. But when it comes to me, you only gave me a one-word answer. Also, you were so kind to the boys. But when I asked for your help, you treated me like I’m a tosser.”
“You are actually.”
Pan stared at you with widened eyes, surprised by your bluntness. Throughout the hundreds of years that he became the king of Neverland, never had any of his lost boys talked back at him. But instead of anger, he was intrigued to know you even better.
“Alright, fine. I’m a tosser.”
“You are! Only a tosser like you save others instead of himself.” You paused. “Why did you even push me out of the way? If I was the one injured, you could have healed me with your magic. Instead, you got hurt and no one here have even the slightest power to heal you. Imagine if I hadn’t spot your stash of Neverland’s spring. How am I going to save you then?”
“Sorry, honey.” Yes, you felt outraged at him for caring about you more than himself. But his guilty eyes charmed you, making it hard for you to stay mad.
“It’s alright.” You responded while brushing through his hair, looking for any open wound. You let out a short breath, glad there wasn’t any. “Try and get some rest. We’ll talk more once you are well.”
“Can I put you and Felix in charge of the boys for now?”
“Don’t worry about them. They’ll be in good hands.” Assured by your words, he closed his eyes and soon fell into a deep slumber.
Watching Pan recovering fast, you heaved a sigh of relief, glad that the worst was over. Quietly, you walked away from Pan and head for the door, trying your best to avoid even the slightest creak of the wooden floor that you were standing on.
As you stepped outside, you could see Felix running towards you.
“What… was… the… emergency…? Are… you… guys… okay?” Felix queried, breathing heavily in between his words.
“Yeah. We’re both fine.” You replied briefly, still in deep thoughts. Despite the worst being over, there’s another worry that you can’t seem to stop thinking about.
After mustering up enough courage, you finally spoke to Felix with regards to your concern. “Felix. I need to talk to you. It’s about Pan.”
After inhaling a final deep breath, his breathing finally stabilized. “Yeah? What about him?”