Map of the World
Molly can’t understand it.
The bigger her belly gets, the more fascinated Sherlock becomes with it.
The baby was a shock, not something she thought he’d want. When she first told him he’d stared at her for a full five minutes- screen-saver mode, John calls it- and then this beautiful, wide, delighted smile had split his face.
It had almost made him look a different man.
He’d picked her up and spun her around, demented, it seemed, with joy at the thought of her having his child.
He’d dropped to his knees and pressed his ear to her stomach. Listening. Kissing. Crooning. Grinning.
He’d splayed his fingers around her still-flat belly and a love affair had begun. A love affair which grew deeper and more passionate the larger, the rounder she became.
It seems he loves her bump; the bigger it grows the more it fascinates him.
His devotion is single-minded and ardent- Something which for Molly is both bemusing and surprising in equal measure.
She asks him one night, when she’s sore and tired, and feels the size of a whale, what the big deal is? Why he’s so taken with it, when she often feels it embarrassing and unsightly. When she has to waddle, and she can no longer see her feet, and using the toilet has become a gymnastic event.
For once, he looks at her like she’s mad.
“Your body’s so lovely, Molly,” he tells her. “And now it’s changing, and I get to watch.
What man with sense wouldn’t want to witness that?”
And he leans down, kisses her bare, rounded stomach. Runs his tongue and fingers along the grooves and callouses of her pregnant skin. He calls them rivers and ravines, his tone hushed. Worshipful. They are proof of topography, he says, and of a life lived well. They’re proof that she’s, well, her, and that she’s chosen him.
“My world is here now,” he tells her. “Never doubt it.” He kisses her belly, breathes in her scent. “And you in there, little bean, you never doubt it either.”
Though she feels the size of a planet, Molly can’t help but smile.
So she winds her fingers through his curls and lets his voice lull her to sleep.