I feel everything.
the way your shoulders relaxed, the tension that released when you told me..
The rooms were different, but, I saw the weight let you go.
the change on the car ride home. Part of me saw that there could be more years to come,
but that part, that something inside me felt the end hanging in the air, lingering..
the flashbacks that raced through her mind just before life left her body..
The physical ache in my heart when they told me I lost,
my mind shut off.
Once again, I’ve lost.
I can still feel..
A million kisses after falling a thousand times,
The fear that poured through my veins that night,
The anger in the room when I never came back in time,
The love when I was stuck in the dark, crying for the end because all I wanted was to see just a spec of light.
I don’t remember a lot, not much at all.
But I feel everything.