Please stop doing that slow smirk into a smile, you're making me melt and I can't handle it. I can't escape you either as you are all over my dashboard. Someone send help, I'm getting lightheaded from all this blushing.
I dunno, it's 2:30am here and maybe this is a bad idea but I can't sleep so hell I'll send a message. Hi Wil Wheaton, what's a depressed guy to do when he needs to apply to jobs but is scared that he can't handle the rejections that will happen, or the inevitable chipping away of his self esteem, that is only made worse by being trans and not passing very well. (I know you can't help with that last part, but again, it's 2:30am, and my brain is not working very well.)
I can’t help you with that last part, but I want you to know that I see you and I love you for who you are. My friend, Robyn, is the co-founder of mytranshealth, and maybe that’s a good starting point to connect with a support network? I’m so sorry if it’s massively inappropriate for me to suggest that.
But the first part? Maybe I can help a little bit? Being rejected sucks, and it hurts. In my life and work (I’ve tried and not always succeeded to separate the two) I’ve worked very hard to remind myself that it’s never personal when I don’t get a job. It sure feels like it, though, and getting up to try again after I’ve been rejected is always hard.
In The Nerdist Way, Hardwick tells us that our brains try to protect us, and they try to stop us from taking chances because if we don’t take the chance, we can’t be disappointed or hurt. Our brains are trying to do us a kindness, but they actually aren’t helping, so we have to make the deliberate choice to tell our brains to back off and take care of other stuff.
That is so much easier said than done, but the only way we can get used to it is by practicing it.
Also, 2:30 in the morning is one of those parts of the day when everything feels much worse or much better than it actually is. I’ve reblogged a thing here a few times that reminds us to go for a walk, to get into a change of clothes, to eat a good meal, to do things that we maybe aren’t doing, because doing those things breaks the cycle of depression. You can’t do that at 2:30 in the morning, really, but if you feel like you’re not going to go to sleep anyway, maybe take a nice hot shower? Make a cup of tea and sit down with a book you like, or an episode of a show that you like? I’ve been listening to audiobooks on Spotify when I need my brain to fuck off and let me sleep. I’ve heard the first chapter of The Metamorphosis for like five days in a row, and that guy’s voice is great at soothing me to sleep. The recordings come from LibreVox, so maybe you can find something there?
I feel like I’m not being as helpful as I’d like to be. I want to reveal a great secret that makes it all so much easier, but the truth is that everything worth doing is hard, and You from the Future will be so grateful to You From Now because You From Now faced the fear and accepted the challenge of risking the rejection so you could find employment for Future You.
I really hope some of this helps. Maybe someone else on Tumblr has better words of comfort or wisdom to share? I’d love it if you’d check in with me, and let me know how you’re doing, whenever you’re ready.
Sure thing sweetie! I think the idea of the diaboys having kids is adorable, so I’m gonna jump on that train. I hope you like it! As always, if you want to see the Mukamis just tell me.~Mun M
Shu: His little one always takes their afternoon nap on his chest. He likes to rub their tiny head until they both fall asleep. Once they’re a little toddler, he puts one of his earbuds next to their ear and plays lullabies.
Reiji: The curiosity his little one posseses may be dangerous, but he is very careful with them. He never leaves their side. Both of their favorite things to do is sit in his arm chair and read bedtime stories together.
Ayato: From the moment they can walk, he’s teaching his little one how to play basketball. When they get tired he carries them inside and shares a milkshake with them.
Kanato: Luckily, his little one loves dress up and tea parties. Unfortunately, they like dressing him up in princess outfits. He doesn’t argue, though. He enjoys sharing his tea with them.
Laito: He loves to sit his little one on his lap while he plays the piano. They love to hear his songs, and are eager to learn how to play just like him. He’s surprisingly patient, and will happily answer all of their questions.
Subaru: Believe it or not, his little one loves his coffin. Their favorite place to sleep is on top of his chest in the coffin. Their favorite game to play with him is hide and seek, though they always hid in his coffin, where their giggles echo.
I woke up this morning to about 50 tweets from…all over the country, saying did you know this is the anniversary of George Washington’s death? To still more tweets from high schoolers with the handle @johnlaurens or, you know, @madisonismyboss, saying did you know this is the 250th anniversary of Alexander and Eliza’s wedding? Which is also true. I could never have anticipated being schooled on history from random high schoolers being one of the legacies of this show.
honestly he honestly starts to cry he loves you guys so much i
I've had this girl in my ethics class for the last 5 weeks who's always really irritated me for some unknown irrational reason and this week she came in wearing a camo bomber jacket and red lipstick and it hit me like a punch in the gut. im so attracted to her. that's why im on edge every time she speaks she's so beautiful I can't physically handle it and the only response im capable of is anger. now that I've figured it out I can't stop staring please send help how do I tell someone I love them