TT--One night stand
Cullen and I met up as a one night stand. It’s been a long one night stand!
I was leaving a really bad relationship. I had been dating/living with a coke addict and had escaped that awfulness. I moved from AZ to MS and was determined not to date anyone or have any relationships, since I was just leaving such a bad situation.
I drove straight from AZ to MS nonstop. A friend of mine begged me to come out as soon as I got into town. I’m sure I looked like shit and was a bit loopy from sleep deprivation. (Driving 35+ hours straight and no sleep can do that.) Cullen was on a lunch break from work and asked to see me soon after. Soon after might have been the next day, I can’t remember. I was reluctant to say yes. I don’t even think I said yes that night, maybe an “I’ll think about it”.
Obviously I ended up saying yes to seeing him at some point, because we did go out.
I’m always shocked that we are still together, over 18 years together now. We have both been through a lot of shit from each other. Neither of us are perfect or innocent, but we have hung in there and gotten through the hell. It hasn’t been all bad, don’t get me wrong. There have been good times too, please know I’m not trying to paint this picture all bad. I’m just surprised, I’m always surprised to see that we are still together. A good surprised.
I’m also thankful that he is here and that he has changed in so many ways through the years and I’m always shocked at how much he has changed and seems to keep improving with age.