I beg of you
When you look at your wrist
With the urge to split it in two
Please consider the stars.
Those blueish viens that you so
contain four iron atoms
iron is only naturally occurring in
the core of dying stars.
The stars died for you, don’t let that be in vain.
The worst is when your throat burns because you want to drink until you are numb, your skin itches because you want to ruin it with a blade, and your heart aches because you want nothing more than to disappear.
I am addicted to food, the way it fills me up and sometimes I eat so quickly I can’t taste the food and then, it starts. I run to the closest toilet, wet my hand in the sink, open up the toilet lid, and stick my middle three fingers down my throat.
I am never satisfied, I am an athlete and I eat healthily, I eat too much and then purge again!
I complain so much about my body and wanting to change it in a positive way but this ‘curse’ with food won’t let me, I won’t let myself help myself.
Max - Anxiety
Rex - Anorexia
Dan - Depression
Pat - Paranoia
These are my four best friend. Max tells me it’s all my fault in every situation. Rex tells me I’m too big, and to put down the food; don’t eat it, don’t eat anything. Dan tells me that I’m not okay, even in the smallest situations. Pat whispers along with Max. it’s all my fault . every thing that had ever happened was me. He tells me all the people looking at me, are judging me. He says they all hate me and I’m not worth it along with Dan. Pat tells me they are all thinking I’m fat, along with Rex. They work together, to bring me down.