ELDARY SELFIE DAY (/!\ WARNING Girl pretentious on these pictures /!\) Hi ! o/ I was so excited to publish it ! >w< I’m pretty proud of my self for the rendering of make up is not too bad (because we don’t see me closely xD) I wanted to cosplay Jaiden but i failed so jsut a flower crown n’ a orange tank top x) I can not wait to see all your selfies ! ^^ By the way the only object i find for my little Jai’ is a lighter for the fire but I should have taken cards too because she’s a fana of Bomb’oeuf (i’m sad that it doesn’t work at the moment :/) or i’m sure I could have found details to add. In short i’m pretty satisfied and i hope you will like it too (the pretentiouness its Jaiden not me ! x3 i’m not like that do like its not me on the pictures ;D) (I love to show off but I do not assume at all)
Authentic spirituality is revolutionary. It does not make legitimate the world, it breaks the world; it does not console the world, it shatters it. And it does not render the self content, it renders it undone.
These classical wunderkinds prove that contemporary music isn’t always spiky, melody-lite and inaccessible to the average music lover.
Hailing from the country that has more musicians per capita than any place in the world, Jóhann Jóhannsson is an Icelandic composer and electronic producer. His work draws influence from minimalism and baroque, and uses classical orchestration with electronics to build ambience. His elegant sound swells with emotion, haunting the soul and evoking feelings of melancholia.
Composer and pianist Max Richter has an immense portfolio. He’s composed countless film scores, collaborated on albums with 90s drum and bass legend Roni Size, written an opera, composed albums of his own heady blend of post-ambient soundscapes and electronic atmosphere, and most recently has Recomposed Vivaldi’s Four Seasons. Winter III is his favourite movement from the album, and we agree - have a listen.
Nils Frahm’s musical influences are diverse. He was trained in piano by the last scholar of Tchaikovsky, and grew up listening neo-classical and jazz legends like Steve Reich, Arvo Pärt and Chick Corea but was also heavily influenced by the trance sound of the 90s. Frahm’s curiosity for creating new sounds led him to apply delays and analogue synthesizers to his solo piano works, to layer and blend a unique brand of classically-infused lush, emotional soundscapes.
A multidisciplinary artist, Mira Calix’s work moves from ambient electronica and sound+art installations to classical instrumentation for small orchestras. Having released music on the Warp label since 1998, her early music tends towards electronica. Recent years have seen Mira incorporate classical orchestration into her work for installation pieces, film soundtracks, theatre and opera.
Oliver Coates plays the cello and produces electronic music. He’s collaborated with contemporary artists, bands and ensembles like London Sinfonietta, Mira Calix and Boards of Canada, Johnny Greenwood, Goldie, Massive Attack and Sigur Rós as well as more traditional composers such as Thomas Ades. His music can move from drone-like industrial sounds, toward ambient treatments of classical instrumentation, peppered with micro electronics.
Eluvium, aka Matthew Cooper, is a man of many monikers - each incarnation of his musical self renders an intricately different sound. His symphonic guitar pieces have been compared to the work of Brian Eno, with twinges of Aphex Twin-esque electronics. Working an experimentally, minimal vibe, Eluvium’s music infuses wailing guitars, emotive pianos and classical instrumentation to create ambient washes that send shivers up your spine.
Hauschka is a German experimental pianist and electronic producer who specialises in the art of the ‘prepared piano’, that is, treating the hammers and strings in order to produce a desired sound. His compositions are reminiscent of composers Erik Satie or Philip Glass, taking classical techniques and seamlessly blending them with pop and electronic sensibilities. Check out this beautifully produced video of a prepared piano in action.
Another multi-talented composing wunderkind, Nico Muhly spent six years working with Philip Glass and has collaborated with myriad popular artists from Bjork, Grizzly Bear and Antony and the Johnsons to Sufjan Stevens and, believe it or not, Usher. He’s written for a number of films and just recently composed a full opera. He commonly blends traditionally composed classical for small ensembles with electronics.
Ólafur Arnalds is a multi-instrumentalist and producer from Iceland who composes music primarily for strings and piano, mixing them with loops and beats. Often cited alongside contemporary Nils Frahm, Arnalds music is as sweeping and emotive, but he came to the neoclassical genre in a slightly more roundabout way. He was commissioned to write for strings and piano when fellow rock musicians heard his solo demo…and the rest is history. Arnalds has been writing and producing solo albums since 2008, has written for film and recently collaborated with the above-mentioned Frahms.
An American chamber music group, Rachel’s is heavily influenced by the sound of 20th century classical composition including, most notably, the work of British composer and film scorer, Michael Nyman. The result is a dark fusion of classical and experimental sounds. Sadly, Rachel’s founding member, Jason Noble, passed away in 2012 of a rare form of cancer.
On the Marinette/Ladybug disassociation and Marinette being a nervous wreck
I was having a conversation with another lovely Miraculer when I noticed just how far Marinette’s character to the fandom has gone away from who Marinette actually is. Kind of like how Winry Rockbell of Fullmetal Alchemist was in the original anime v. the brotherhood. Or how Elizabeth differed between the anime and the manga of Black Butler.
I want to say this now, but there’s nothing wrong with taking some artistic liberties with a character. I’m just trying to get people back to the cannon before we get to the Christmas Special and everyone’s so confused where determined and somewhat hotheaded Marinette came from when they’re used to seeing her as a highly confused and conflicted teenager who somehow becomes indestructible in everything except her heart when she turns into Ladybug.
As I, a sleepless husk of my former self am rendered incapable of holding a normal conversation with anyone who doesn’t want to talk about Harry Styles, lose hours to Tumblr while Harry bathes his dramatic ass in a pink bath strewn with petals and contemplate buying vinyl I can’t afford for a record player I don’t own.
What comes after for the kid who almost dies on his first day on Earth? For me, Jasper is a fascinating study of what happens to a person when they are wrenched away from their natural state of being. Jasper was always meant to be the happy go lucky kid, the life of the party kid. That’s who Jasper Jordan was all his young life right up until the moment he swung on a vine across a river and then jumped around whooping to his friends. Right up until he was hit by that spear. His injury may not have ended Jasper’s life, but it still shattered his sense
of identity. The happy kid became the “dying
kid”. He became the scream of pain in the camp that nobody wanted to
hear. And he has remained in that role of the dying kid, the too-broke-to-fix kid, ever since - never getting a chance to recover. He would have never chosen to be a fighter, but Jasper has repeatedly been forced into fighting for survival, a soldier conscripted by circumstance. He may not be cut out for war, but war just has a way of finding him.
Goggles were always the perfect prop for Jasper. He’s a character who often
fails to see the bigger picture but what he does see, he sees in a tight
focus. He sees life through his own lens and he often perceives things that
other people miss. He’s the first to spot the river snake that attacks Octavia
and he finds the knife that murdered Wells. We get a sense of Jasper’s intensely concentrated perception when he eats the Jobi nuts and hallucinates Grounders invading their camp, the specter of death still reaching
for him and his friends. These paranoid visions may come from the too
many drugs he’s inflicted on his tender teen brain and the PTSD
condition sprung from his spearing ordeal, but even if it wasn’t for his
substance abuse and near-death experience, Jasper is a kid who is just too sensitive for the harsh planet he’s been landed on. A kid who wears his
heart on his sleeve, who makes friends fast and falls hard for any
girl that smiles at him. He warns his first crush, Octavia, that she
shouldn’t sit too close to him because he thinks he might be cursed. A day later Octavia gets abducted by a Grounder and Jasper insists on being on her rescue party, despite being terrified to leave the camp. “I need to do this” he tells Clarke, because he tends to feel a distorted sense of responsibility over his own bad luck.
For Jasper, the Grounder war becomes his own lonely battle to fight, his demon to slay, his fear to overcome. For a kid who’d never have chosen to be a warrior, he ends up playing a more pivotal role in the war than any other delinquent. He was its very first casualty, he enables them to take Lincoln
prisoner, he fires the first shot at the peace talks, he blows up
the bridge to save the camp, he cooks up their gunpowder for the battle and he fires the rockets that finish it all. Many have blamed Jasper for escalating the conflict when he shot the Grounders that his sharp eyes spotted in the trees. But in that moment, Jasper couldn’t see the bigger picture. He could only see a spear being aimed at Clarke, the girl who’d saved his life from a spear and all he could think was ‘Save Clarke! Save Clarke now!’ Sometimes Jasper’s intense focus is an advantage in battle (he’s the only one to see that the Grounders are making them waste bullets in the camp siege) but it also leads to him stressing out, acting on impulse and screwing things up.
When Jasper is playing the folk hero, full of false bravado, it is only the flimsiest mask he wears to cover his insecurity. Twice it falls to Jasper to save the whole camp from certain death and both times he knows he’s been enlisted as ‘Plan B’ - to shoot the bomb on the bridge in place of Bellamy and to fire the rockets in place of Raven. Both times Jasper messes up on his first attempt. For a second, he feels the full horror of being responsible for the deaths of all his friends. The next second, he focuses and he fights. And somehow he pulls it off. Somehow this dying kid keeps managing to pull through.
Jasper is so far the only person who has ever managed to talk Clarke out of pulling a lever she wanted to pull. When they wake up after the Grounder war to find themselves in Mount Weather, Clarke is desperate to get outside to find out if Finn and
Bellamy are alive while Jasper is desperate to stay inside because if he finds out that he’s killed his
friends he won’t be able to live with it.
He reminds Clarke that he’s the one who fired the rockets and he tearfully asks “Should I not have done that?” Here’s where the Clarke and Jasper rift starts to open up. For Clarke, this was never a question. There was a Grounder army surrounding the Dropship. It was a kill or be killed situation, a fight or die situation. She would say they had no choice.
And yet Jasper is still asking “Should I not have done that?”
There are lines that Jasper doesn’t want to cross, not even if it is the only way to survive. He doesn’t want to see any more death and he’s already desperate to save the nice mountain people he’s only just met who gave him his first taste of chocolate cake. Jasper cherishes the seeming safety of the underground and it’s here he makes his first futile attempt to return to his former happy nature. Again Jasper fails to see the bigger picture, unlike Clarke who focuses on a map of the facility, giving her an overview of the bunker and leading her to suspect its secret corruption. Jasper meanwhile sees the mountain folk up close and personally. He’s the only one who instinctively trusts Maya and his instincts are not wrong as Maya turns out to be their most essential ally.
After Maya reveals the mountain’s dark secret, Jasper finds himself dragged into a new war just when he thought he’d found a place to live in peace. It has been said that Jasper wasn’t suited to assuming leadership, but the fact is he was the only one with enough crazy courage to take the job. They were in a desperate situation and he was the one who cared enough to take responsibility for survival when Miller suggested they’d be better off going out in a blaze of glory. Jasper was also the only one to willing to volunteer blood, not only to buy them time for an escape plan, but because he liked the Mt Weather world and its people. He took responsibility for their survival too, took on more than he could cope with, setting himself up for a failure he couldn’t live with.
It’s the impossible task of saving everyone that keeps Jasper fighting. Even if he can only “do something stupid”, he’s still going to do something. And yes, a lot of the time Jasper screws up. Bellamy smuggles him a gun and Jasper uses it to shoot a guard in his bulletproof armor because the only thing he could see in that moment was ‘Guard grabbing Monty! Save Monty now!’ Jasper rallies the kids through their battle at the barricades, but their victory instantly becomes a failure to him when he sees the guards dragging off Fox and he impulsively tries to chase them because he must ‘Save Fox now!’ When the kids find allies who will hide them, Jasper takes responsibility for those allies too, recklessly giving himself up when the guards threaten to shoot the resistance couple, only to have to watch them being executed anyway, his self-sacrifice rendered worthless. His attempt to ‘Save everyone!’ by killing Cage was similarly short-sighted and futile, more useless heroics that would’ve only got him killed. If Jasper couldn’t save everyone then he was prepared to die trying. What he wasn’t prepared for was what happened instead. Clarke, Bellamy and Monty had the overview of the Mt Weather conflict from the command center. They saw the bigger picture and they knew that everyone couldn’t be rescued. After pulling the lever they watched the irradiation of Level 5 unfolding on a TV monitor, on a cold sterile screen. Jasper sees the genocide up close and personal. He experiences it in a room filled with hundreds of melting bodies. He hears all of their last breaths and he smells their burning flesh. These were people who gave Jasper shelter, gave him cake and clean clothes, gave him Thank You gifts after he saved a mountain girl with his magical blood. Jasper gives his focus to Maya, the girl who he fell for so fast and hard. She’s the only one who he could hold in his arms but her death carries the weight of an entire civilization. That’s why it weighs so heavy on Jasper. This is what pushes him beyond what can live with.
Three months after Mt Weather and Jasper can’t sleep at night because of the choice his friends made. His mass murdering friends who took the responsibility of who could and couldn’t be saved out of his hands. But they relieved none of his burden. His belief that he could’ve saved everyone may seem delusional but during the Grounder war, Jasper
did successfully save everyone. Twice. He’s so sure he could have done it again, another Plan B fluke. But he was too late. And now he’s left drowning in alcoholism, survivor’s guilt and suicidal tendencies. He is back in his early S1 role of the
dying kid and once again his friends can’t stand to listen to his pain. “Those belonged to people,” Jasper rants at the Arcadians who are happily grave-robbing clothes from Mt Weather’s corpse. Nobody else seems to see it this way. Only Jasper sees it this way through his lonely trauma goggles. A drunken ghost haunting their camp, he becomes morbidly obsessed and seems to feel a greater sense of communion with the dead. He would rather hang out with Maya’s iPod or Finn’s ashes. He would rather visit his old friends who died at the Dropship than be consoled by any of his still breathing friends.
When Monty says that he misses him, Jasper can only answer that the friend Monty once had, the boy he once was…he’s dead too.
Again, Jasper tries to stop fighting. Bellamy won’t give him a gun on their field mission and Jasper “don’t want one”. He smiles at a knife pressing against his throat. He no longer fears death because the worst has already happened. Or at least he thinks it has. Because even as Jasper withdraws onto the sidelines and refuses to take part in the latest Grounder war, a new war finds him instead. The real battle of S3, the battle against the City of Light invading the camp and soon Jasper finds himself the last person left to defend it. And this is when we learn that for all his anger and his blame, Jasper still loves his friends. He sees Raven hurt and bleeding and he thinks ‘Save Raven now!’ He sees Clarke walking into gunfire and thinks ‘Save Clarke now!’ No matter how much resentment now lies between them, Jasper’s way of seeing still remains the same. He’s the one who thinks to speak to ALIE personally and he begs her to let Raven go. Clarke takes Jasper’s method and makes demands, not pleas. It’s Clarke who comes up with the bigger picture plan to save Raven and Jasper confesses to her “I couldn’t do what you did”. Jasper can’t cross the lines Clarke crosses, he couldn’t pull her levers. So he can’t be the one who saves people either.
Jasper gets another glimpse of how nice it would be to stop fighting when they visit the pacifist community on Luna’s rig. Jasper is the only one of Sky crew who voices no objection to Luna
saying ‘no’ to the flame. Taking his gun away seems like a relief and Bellamy notes that he’s actually smiling again, at
peace. Jasper is exactly the kind of person who Luna’s rig was made for, a
person who doesn’t believe in the wars they’ve been
dragged into. Shay invites Jasper to come back but he tells her he’s cursed and he’d only mess it up. And then bang on cue, she is shot right in front of him and he’s dragged off to a torture chamber. We do not see the moment Jasper takes the chip. The last thing we see is him resisting it and warning Luna to do the same. But what we do know is that Jasper breaks easily under pressure. It’s not simply that Jasper wants his own pain to stop. He wants the pain
and suffering around him to stop too. With renewed belief in his curse, Jasper feels that it’s his people who are causing this pain, who need to be
stopped. It’s interesting that after taking the chip, Jasper doesn’t lose any of his bad memories. Maybe he keeps his grief like Emori keeps her mutilated hand - because he doesn’t see his grief as a flaw. He remembers every one of the 100 who they’ve lost. He recounts their deaths one by one and he accepts that the ground has beaten them. They were never meant to survive it and he doesn’t seem to have changed his mind when he’s freed from the City of Light. Jasper still loves his friends and it’s his horror over hurting Monty that finally allows him to show that love again. When Monty promises “We will be happy again” we see a hint of Jasper regaining purpose, a purpose that he looks to be taking into S4. Jasper is still a dying kid in a dying world, but he can choose to stop fighting. For whatever time he has left, he can choose to live.
Opinions on Atton run the gamut in this fandom: either he’s an adorable emo doof on a crash course with atonement, or he’s a disgusting scumbag who won’t stop hitting on the Exile, or he’s the trashbag combination of both. I have issues with all of these portrayals, but one of the things that annoys me the most is the notion of Atton being someone with a traditional atonement storyline.
So here. Have a ridiculous blast of Atton meta, focusing specifically on his Sith-to-Jedi arc. God help me.
Full disclosure here: I’ve played Atton in an online RPG before, so I have maybe spent too much time thinking about this character specifically.
I love Atton. I think he’s fascinating. I also think he remains a gray area character even when he’s a maxed-out Light Side Jedi.
I wish I could say I’ve transcended The Discourse and reached a state of happiness and lesbian self-love that would render it no longer necessary. In truth I just became too busy to keep up with consistently posting every day about it, but the simmering frustration and grief and helplessness wrt how much everyone fucking hates gay people still remains, so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Authentic spirituality is revolutionary. It does not legitimate the world, it breaks the world; it does not console the world, it shatters it. And it does not render the self content, it renders it undone.