self reflection

When I graduated high school, I thought I had a pretty solid idea of what I wanted to do with my life - I was going to graduate college after 4 years, get a good job, make a lot of money, see the world, and so on and so forth. Then I got to college and all I’ve been learning so far is that 18 is an awfully young age to think I know what I want to do with the rest of my life. And 18 year old me would have been so scared about not having an exact plan, but 20 year old me is pretty at peace with just taking life one day at a time.
—  January 20, 2015
Intimacy is not who you let touch you. Intimacy is who you text at 3am about your dreams and fears. Intimacy is giving someone your attention, when 10 other people are asking for it. Intimacy is the person who’s always in the back of your mind, no matter how distracted you are.
I’ve always wanted to be the one to light someone’s fire.
The one who made someone become acquainted with the night, overloading thoughts, teasing calm moon and all.
The one who made someone dread seeing the sunrise or sunset alone.
The one that made someone want to be more, do more, say more.
The one that made someone smile as wide as the Red Sea.
I’ve always wanted to be a person someone couldn’t live without.
But nowadays, I’m becoming more and more content with being a person that makes life a little bit of an easier weight to lift.
—  maxwelldpoetry, “Is this settling, or better than what I wanted before?”

What made you so bitter and cruel little scorpio. When did you turn off your humanity, looking down upon those classified weaker than yourself. It was never supposed to be this way. So filled with anger and frustrated with everything, wanting to tear apart what is left. Slowly losing control, slipping away through my fingers.

Where did this come from. No longer distracted with other commitments, all the running away, has finally caught up again. 

-A Scorpio Woman

I feel like the bridge between my mind and my mouth is always somewhat burning.
Some thoughts make it across but the words I really need to say, the thoughts that really need to be heard, they die in the fire or are held back by the flames.
And sometimes, nothing makes it across and I just burn in the silence.
—  maxwelldpoetry, “I wonder what it’s like, being able to say what’s really on your mind?”
20 Things I've Learnt in 20 Years

1. If you work consistently at something you will become good at it - no exceptions.

2. If you want something to happen or change, no one’s going to do it for you - you’re it.

3. When you complain, people will a) get off on your unhappiness, or b) not actually care.

4. Listen to inspiring speeches, music, movies and surround yourself w/ inspiring people to develop your perspective on things.

5. COMMUNICATION IN RELATIONSHIPS IS SO IMPORTANT

6. Don’t always rely on willpower - try to actually cater to your laziness sometimes.

7. Try to learn to do basic things, ie. cooking / cleaning / being an adult

8. STICK TO YO VALUES / HAVE INTEGRITY

9. When people don’t believe in you, just use it as fuel and tell them to suck it later.

10. You aren’t responsible for educating stupid / ignorant people.

11. Work on your self awareness! It’s literally the key to personal development.

12. The times that you’re mean to people you will remember vividly, forever. Try not to be mean to people.

13. Make sure you enjoy the moment before taking photos.

14. Don’t buy clothes that don’t fit

15. There will always be a cuter person that’ll dig you, dw.

16. Don’t trust people w/ strong opinions about how crap pop music is

17. Don’t trust people w/ strong opinions about how crap indie music is

18. Evaluate yo relationships before you get in too deep.

19. Remind people that they’re great as much as you can.

20. Realise that EVERYONE makes mistakes, it’s not just you.

sum-up of my 20 Things I’ve Learnt video, hit it up if you dig xo

If you focus too much on other people’s faults, you’ll forget yours and that’s why you’re still not moving on.
One day you’ll notice that they’ll be far ahead of you because they worked on themselves and you don’t even know where to start.