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anonymous asked:

tree bros prompt thing where evan is trans and is super self conscious about it and then he finds about he's ace and is freaking out about it and connor notices something's up and questions him about it, sorry if i'm bothering you

Enjoy!

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Not that Evan didn’t accept himself he did. He was a boy, not a girl, he was transgender. But he couldn’t help but feel self-conscious when others knew he was transgender. It made him very self conscious when he didn’t have his binder on especially.

But that wasn’t on his mind right now. What was on his mind was that he didn’t want to have sex with his boyfriend. He had no desire to do anything other than cuddle or kiss. He was so confused he didn’t understand.

“Hey babe, did you make sure to take off your binder today?” Connor questioned as he walked into Evan’s house. Connor knew his boyfriend had a nasty habit of leaving his binder on longer than he should due to the fact he hated his chest more than anything. 

“N-no I’ll do that soon.” Evan muttered, and quickly stood up.

“Something wrong Ev?” Connor questioned, he was worried.

“I-No.” Evan lied, not wanting to bother his boyfriend with his problems. He didn’t need Connor to worry about him more than he already did.

“Evan what’s up?” Connor asked, not buying his boyfriend’s lies one bit.

“I don’t want to have sex with you!” Evan blurted out. “I just, the idea isn’t appealing, nothing more intimate than a kiss or something. Sex just isn’t something I want to do, I’m sorry please don’t be mad.”

“Ev, are you asexual?” Connor asked, putting a hand on his boyfriend’s arm.

“A-asexual?” Evan questioned. He was already transgender, but now he had a different sexuality than bisexual? Could people have more than one sexuality?

“Asexuality is the lack of sexual attraction to anyone, or low or absent interest in or desire for sexual activity.” Connor explained.

Evan almost burst into tears, that just seemed to fit him so well. That word seemed to describe what he felt so perfectly. “I-I think I am.” Evan muttered. “Is something wrong with me?”

“Evan there is nothing wrong with you, your sexuality is perfectly valid.” Connor told him and kissed his boyfriend’s cheek. “I love you always.”

“Thank you Connor.” Evan muttered, tears in his eyes.

“Don’t mention it.” Connor smiled.

For when you see that the universe cannot be distinguished from how you act upon it, there is neither fate nor free will, self nor other. There is simply one all-inclusive Happening, in which your personal sensation of being alive occurs in just the same way as the river flowing and the stars shining far out in space. There is no question of submitting or accepting or going with it, for what happens in and as you is no different from what happens as it.
—  Alan Watts

Adding to the ‘Sonic drinks coffee’ thing..

Imagine, just after popping into existence in the other universe, he and his other self just stare awkwardly at eachother for a moment before the other one deadpans and says “You didn’t listen to Tails, did you?”

The first Sonic replies with a simple “Nope.” before passing out.

ah. i’m so overwhelmed tbh.
everywhere i look, there’s someone prettier or more successful than me and it makes me feel like utter shit.
i know i’m not supposed to compare my progress and self to other people, but i can’t help it.
i can’t help but look at someone with clear skin, good grades, happiness, etc. and feel as though i’m not good enough.

lately i’ve been feeling really down.
i’m overwhelmed with school,
i’m sad because of my acne and weight,
i’m devastated because literally anyone who i like— likes someone else and it hurts.

idk it just doesn’t help when i already feel shitty about myself and how i am.

i just want to be satisfied and happy with myself and my life;
but i’m starting to think that it’s not going to happen because every damn time something good in my life comes, it leaves before i even know it.

fuck my life tbh.
ugh.
i’m logging off now.
i need to cry or some shit.
i love you all, stay safe.
dunno when the next time i’ll long on will be but either way; stay safe and remember you’re more important than these negative thoughts that i’m giving examples of rn.
goodnight.

i realized about 3 hours ago that ive been Doing My Self For Others for so long, like i just had a flashback to one time in 11th grade when i was having a conversation with this kid named Owen Soto in AP bio about whatever the fuck but i wasnt having the conversation for any enjoyment on my part, i was doing it only so that it would be witnessed by others, and i was doing it in a way that altered the conversation to look & sound better to ppl that witnessed. what the fuck my self is so fucking fake

Me Before Power Rangers (2017): I like the Power Rangers. You know, I used to catch a few episodes as a kid. It always looked real cheesy, but I enjoyed the few I watched. But I wasn’t ever like obsessed or anything. Hell, I didn’t even know their names. I just referred to them by the color of their suit. I didn’t even know they had names. 

Me After Power Rangers (2017): ITS MOTHERFUCKING MORPHING TIME! LETS GOOOO! BILLY IS MY SON! Y’ALL CAN FIGHT ME IF YOU THINK OTHERWISE! TRINI AND KIMBERLY OWN MY ASS! JASON IS A REAL COOL DUDE! ZACK IS MY SWEET SUMMER CHILD! TOMMY OLIVER? OH MY LORD! I’M HYPED! LETS GO GREEN RANGER! I GOT HEADCANONS! I GOT SHIPS! I GOT FAVES! I JUST SPENT FORTY FUCKING DOLLARS ON COMIC BOOKS TO PREPARE MYSELF! LET’S GO! GO! GO! POWER RANGERS!

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My Twenty One Pilots themed cake for my fondant class final! In total I think I spent around 48 hours on all the details and yes, all the decorations are edible.

Killua needs more hugs!!

hes a supernatural kid who can levitate things (including himself) and has a third eye

pose.