🌼🌿🌸I hope everyone is having a wonderful day! If you’re not (and even if you are!), please remember to take a moment for yourself. Light a candle, pet a dog, drink some water, listen to a song that makes you feel okay, or do something small that will make you smile! 🌸 🌿🌼
You’re entitled to your anger. You’re entitled to your bitterness. It doesn’t make you as bad as the people who hurt you. It doesn’t make you abusive to finally lash out and snap at your abusers. It’s a recognized and common tactic for abusers to accuse their victims of being the perpetrator of the toxicity and abuse. It’s not your fault though. You aren’t as bad as them just because they finally pushed you to the breaking point.
You aren’t a bad person or a “bad victim” for your justified anger. You don’t have to carry any guilt if the final straw ended in you telling someone how they hurt you. You aren’t the bad guy for resenting the way you were treated. You aren’t deserving of it because you raised your voice or said harsh words.
I am learning
yet I’m learning
it’s okay to enjoy something I’ve created
even if you don’t
it’s okay to deliver a kindness
even when you won’t
it’s okay to smile in my silence
as you rave and rant
and lastly and most importantly
it’s okay to love you, it’s okay to love me
even if you can’t
I’m so insecure that if you call me and say “hey I’m off tonight let’s go for a drink? ” I’ll think “wow he wants to see me as soon as he gets free time! ” but a second later a voice in my head will start whispering that you probably called all of the contacts in your phone before calling me, that none of them was free tonight and that you just didn’t want to be on your own.
That’s what fucked up past relationships leave you with