self loathe

anonymous asked:

What are the differences in character between bookHiccup and movieHiccup?

Ooo differences!  The similarities are easy to discuss, but yeah, differences. Those exist as well!


Movie!Hiccup has brown/auburn hair and green eyes. Book!Hiccup has red hair and blue eyes. 

While both are skinny and slow-to grow, and both end up tall, book!Hiccup starts out as 10 and a half and movie!Hiccup starts out at 15.


For one thing, Book!Hiccup is more independent. He knows he thinks differently and is less inclined to try and change himself to fit in. Even as a young boy, he felt more resentment towards others for not accepting him, not self-loathing for being unable to.

He looks at the system and knows its flaws.  

Movie!Hiccup, on the other hand, while introverted, has a desire to be accepted and fit in. It could be argued that this is because he’s a teenager. Book!Hiccup consistently seems exhausted by Vikings. For a long while, movie!Hiccup just wants to be like them.

Book!Hiccup is more reactive whereas movie!Hiccup is more proactive. Movie!Hiccup makes plans and has ideas and wants to implement them. Book!Hiccup is less about changing things and more about making it day-by-day. It isn’t until later in the books, after a series of events, that book!Hiccup takes matters into his own hands. That he realizes he has to. Granted, by this point he’s about the same age movie!Hiccup is.

Move!Hiccup is very inventive. He’s a blacksmith apprentice. Book!Hiccup is graceful and an excellent swordsman.

Movie!Hiccup wants a girlfriend. Book!Hiccup just wants to live.

Book!Hiccup has a best friend. Movie!Hiccup is more of a loner.

We get to see book!Hiccup grow mentally over each book and reach profound conclusions for why things happen the way they do, or why he made his choices. It’s something we can only see through action in the movie and even then all that growth takes place within a month or so. There are morals book!Hiccup develops through time that can easily be carried over into Hiccup of the movie verse, ideals about the sort of man he wants to become.

Both Hiccup see being chief for the burden it truly is, but, having grown up in a society that already accepts and coexists with dragons, book!Hiccup feels less reluctance over the issue.


Movie Hiccup grew up without a mother and only knew his big, over-protective father. He grew up believing his mother was dead. Killed by dragons.

Book Hiccup grew up with a mother, on and off, and was mostly raised by his big, blustery father. Valhallarama was also absent from his life, but that was because she was out questing all the time. Hiccup saw her periodically and got affectionate hugs and punches from her. He knew she loved him, but also grew a small seed of resentment for her choice in questing over family.

Book!Stoick comes off as a little less intelligent than movie!Stoick, and we see that in how book!Hiccup deals with his father. Both have good, but strained, relationships with their fathers. I love how, despite how often either Hiccup proves himself to his father, and the trusts grows a little every time, there are still times when Stoick will fall back on the ‘Viking Way’ when having to choose between that and Hiccup’s ingenuity. Their relationship continues struggles beyond each good deed.

Book!Hiccup is constantly on the lookout for his cousin, Snotlout, who is trying to kill him. Movie!Hiccup is weary of his implied cousin, Snotlout, who is simply unpleasant to him. It’s unclear if movie!Snotlout ever had a chance to take the chieftainship from Hiccup, but if he had he certainly didn’t do so by trying to kill Hiccup.

Movie!Hiccup regards Gobber as an uncle/father/master figure, having had a one-on-one relationship with the man as his apprentice. Book!Hiccup regards Gobber as the trainee instructor along with all the other boys in his class. Book!Hiccup doesn’t have the close relationship movie!Hiccup has with Gobber.


The difference in their dragons, and their relationship with their dragons, is like night and day. One is a Night Fury, the other is a “Toothless Daydream”. One can be ridden from the get-go. One rides on his human’s head.

Book!Hiccup has a friendship/parental relationship with his dragon. He’s raised Toothless from a hatchling and has coaxed and disciplined him from day one. His dragon has given him a lesson in patience and love, that’s for sure.

Movie!Hiccup is best friends with his Toothless. They’re two teens that met from opposite sides of the war only to create a wonderful bond that changed viking history. The parent in that relationship is more often than not Toothless. Rather: it’s Toothless who’s patience is tested.

End Game

Movie!Hiccup grew up in a war against dragons and ended it.

Book!Hiccup grew up in a peaceful era with dragons and started a war with them (unintentionally). Naturally, there’s a complicated history behind that peace, which acted as a temporary bandaid to a darker past as most era’s of peace do, and Hiccup started a catalytic rip-the-bandaid-off situation.

There are probably a thousand other differences, but there’s a start :)

anonymous asked:

Hi, I'm 16 and going on holiday to florida. I've bought a swimming costume but I'm too embarrassed to wear it because my thighs and arms are really fat. I hate the way I look in it and I just hate my body. I don't know what to do...

Hi darling. :) xx

I understand where you’re coming from. It can take some time to feel comfortable in your own skin. It takes time to build up confidence. But its not impossible to do so. I also understand where you’re coming from because I struggle with poor body image and I can tell you first hand, the longer you hate on your body, the less time you have to love it. I can PROMISE you that you’re beautiful/handsome, Now honey, I don’t make promises I can’t keep ;)

I think the best advice I can give you is the advice that helped me when I was struggling.

When you’re having a bad body image day, don’t stress. Tomorrow is a new day and a clean slate. Often times, bad days don’t last forever, something good comes out of everyday and if you’re having a hard time thinking of something good that happened though out your day, then maybe take some time to think about the things you did today and the things you saw.

When you’re feeling self conscious about your body, try and remember these steps:

  • Smile (even when it hurts.)
  • Take a step back and think
  • Listen (to the sounds, voices of the people/things around you
  • Breathe. Take some deep breathes.
  • Move forward with your life.

I’m going to be honest with you, when you’re being negative about your body image, that’s not helping you in any possible way. Its actually harming you because the more you self loath, the more you’re going to feel comfortable doing so- and that’s just not fun and it shouldn’t be something that people feel comfortable doing.

20 Ways to Love Your Body

  1. Think of your body as the vehicle to your dreams.  Honor it.  Respect it.  Fuel it.
  2. Create a list of all the things your body lets you do.  Read it and add to it often.
  3. Become aware of what your body can do each day.  Remember it is the instrument of your life, not just an ornament.
  4. Create a list of people you admire:  people who have contributed to your life, your community, or the world.  Consider whether their appearance was important to their success and accomplishments.
  5. Walk with your head held high, supported by pride and confidence in yourself as a person.
  6. Don’t let your weight or shape keep you from activities that you enjoy.
  7. Wear comfortable clothes that you like, that express your personal style, and that feel good to your body.
  8. Count your blessings, not your blemishes.
  9. Think about all the things you could accomplish with the time and energy you currently spend worrying about your body and appearance.  Try one!
  10. Be your body’s friend and supporter, not its enemy.
  11. Consider this:  your skin replaces itself once a month, your stomach lining every five days, your liver every six weeks, and your skeleton every three months.  Your body is extraordinary—begin to respect and appreciate it.
  12. Every morning when you wake up, thank your body for resting and rejuvenating itself so you can enjoy the day.
  13. Every evening when you go to bed, tell your body how much you appreciate what it has allowed you to do throughout the day.
  14. Find a method of exercise that you enjoy and do it regularly. Don’t exercise to lose weight or to fight your body. Do it to make your body healthy and strong and because it makes you feel good.  Exercise for the Three F’s: Fun, Fitness, and Friendship.
  15. Think back to a time in your life when you felt good about your body.  Loving your body means you get to feel like that again, even in this body, at this age.
  16. Keep a list of 10 positive things about yourself—without mentioning your appearance.  Add to it daily!
  17. Put a sign on each of your mirrors saying, “I’m beautiful inside and out.”
  18. Search for the beauty in the world and in yourself.
  19. Consider that, “Life is too short to waste my time hating my body this way.”
  20. Eat when you are hungry.  Rest when you are tired.  Surround yourself with people that remind you of your inner strength and beauty.


10 Steps to Positive Body Image

One list cannot automatically tell you how to turn negative body thoughts into positive body image, but it can introduce you to healthier ways of looking at yourself and your body.  The more you practice these new thought patterns, the better you will feel about who you are and the body you naturally have.

  1. Appreciate all that your body can do.  Every day your body carries you closer to your dreams.  Celebrate all of the amazing things your body does for you—running, dancing, breathing, laughing, dreaming, etc.
  2. Keep a top-ten list of things you like about yourself—things that aren’t related to how much you weigh or what you look like.  Read your list often.  Add to it as you become aware of more things to like about yourself.
  3. Remind yourself that “true beauty” is not simply skin deep.  When you feel good about yourself and who you are, you carry yourself with a sense of confidence, self-acceptance, and openness that makes you beautiful regardless of whether you physically look like a supermodel.   Beauty is a state of mind, not a state of your body.
  4. Look at yourself as a whole person.  When you see yourself in a mirror or in your mind, choose not to focus on specific body parts.  See yourself as you want others to see you–as a whole person.
  5. Surround yourself with positive people.  It is easier to feel good about yourself and your body when you are around others who are supportive and who recognize the importance of liking yourself just as you naturally are.
  6. Shut down those voices in your head that tell you your body is not “right” or that you are a “bad” person.  You can overpower those negative thoughts with positive ones.  The next time you start to tear yourself down, build yourself back up with a few quick affirmations that work for you.
  7. Wear clothes that are comfortable and that make you feel good about your body.  Work with your body, not against it.
  8. Become a critical viewer of social and media messages.  Pay attention to images, slogans, or attitudes that make you feel bad about yourself or your body.  Protest these messages:  write a letter to the advertiser or talk back to the image or message
  9. Do something nice for yourself—something that lets your body know you appreciate it.  Take a bubble bath, make time for a nap, find a peaceful place outside to relax.
  10. Use the time and energy that you might have spent worrying about food, calories, and your weight to do something to help others.   Sometimes reaching out to other people can help you feel better about yourself and can make a positive change in our world.

Steps to improve self esteem:

  1. Focus on your strengths – figure out what you are good at! There are plenty of things that you are wonderful at and use those to build your confidence! No one is good at everything so do not fret if you are bad at something! Instead focus on what you are good at and enjoy them!
  2. Learn from your mistakes - you don’t have to be good at everything like mentioned above but use your mistakes to your advantage! Don’t worry about them- live and learn!
  3. Do what you love – make time everyday to do something you enjoy! Do something that makes you happy to improve your mood!
  4. Tell yourself you are beautiful - stand in front of a mirror and tell yourself how beautiful you are ! Keep telling yourself and fake it until you make it! Really mean what you are saying a realize all of the beautiful things about you - including any flaws ( they make you unique!)
  5. Turn your negative thoughts into positive ones – instead of thinking your legs are big or whatever your problem is, be thankful you have working legs that you can run marathons with if you wanted! Try to stay optimistic and see the positive side of everything! It will greatly improve your mood and outlook on life!
  6. Realize that beauty has no measure on your life. Okay even if someone is not beautiful that has no relevance to one’s life ! Everyone has worth and is amazing! I am sure you are the prettiest person ever but even if you are not then who really cares? What does it really matter? All that matters is that you are happy and love your life- and that should not be dependent upon whether or not you are pretty.
  7. Weight has no relevance to beauty! Whether you are 100 or 300 pounds you can be beautiful! Please do not relate the two to one another! See this post (:
  8. Spend time with people you love and who love you! It is important to spend time with loved ones! They will boost your mood and confidence! If people have a negative impact on your life then you don’t have to spend time with them! Don’t feel like you must stick around for everyone! You have to put yourself first and make sure you are happy! Don’t let others drag you down!
  9. Remember that life is simple - the sun rises and the sun sets, we just tend to complicate the process. Remember the simplicity in life and let it help you to stay calm and stay focused on the important things! Love yourself and love your life! Enjoy it while you can and don’t let everything stress you out so much!
  10. Be generous! Help others, be kind to others, and give when you can. It will spread love and make you feel better as a person.

Now, lets work on changing your thought process. Changing the way you think about things for example, when you have negative thoughts. Try these thoughts instead:

  • I am ugly - I am beautiful
  • I am worthless - I have worth
  • I am sick - I will heal
  • I hate myself - I will learn to love myself
  • I am weak - I am strong, or I wouldn’t be here today
  • I am moody - I have profound emotional depth
  • I am lost - I will find myself
  • I am scared - I have courage
  • I am crazy - It is normal to struggle
  • I am in pain - It’s okay to hurt
  • I am tired - I will not give up
  • I’m not good enough - I am better than “good enough”
  • I can’t change - I can change

Once you’ve tried changing your thought process, the next set of advice I have for you is some awesome links that I think you could benefit from looking into”

Helpful Links:

Hope this helps! :)

Please let me know if you’re ever in the need of some more help, advice, support etc. I’m always here and only an ask away. Take care & don’t forget to smile because you’re amazing. :) xx

There are a lot of young girls that do creative things, and skaters are like the athletes for those girls. If a regular girl wants to bang the quarterback, a hip girl wants to bang the hot skater. Skaters are filthy, so there’s a self-loathing kind of thing with them.
—  Andrew Brown on dating as a skateboarder x

For the record, I am completely aware that Solas has faults.

The way he speaks about things can be hurtful and damaging to sensitive people, and keeping his secrets isn’t good for his relationship with Lavellan, which I know and he knows. He focuses too much on the past, and even though his ruthlessness can sometimes be to his advantage, it does end up causing him a lot of problems. 

He’s combative, a contrarian, who doesn’t understand valuing tradition or the comfort that some people find in security and conformity and is quick to judge people for being more emotionally or socially conscious than he is. 

Solas can be arrogant, and he certainly thinks he’s right more often than not, and he has issues communicating so that even when his ideas are good, he doesn’t always say them in a way that everyone is going understand.

Solas is self-loathing and second guesses himself, and is terrible at following his own advice. He throws away his own happiness for the sake of duty, enjoys arguing and being right, and as a result tends to alienate himself from other people despite truly having a heart of gold.

Just because I don’t think Solas is the big bad wolf, just because I fight against the all-too-common perceptions that his romance is “rapey” and that he’s a terrible, manipulative liar, doesn’t mean I refuse to acknowledge that he has flaws, issues, and prejudices.

I know I’m not going to change your mind therealdragonnerd, since this is directed toward you and the passive aggressive posts you keep making in response toward me and others. I’m not seeking to change your mind, but force you to think critically about the fact that your behavior is not acceptable for the public sphere.

Edit: Also, I have like the least black and white thinking of anyone ever. I don’t think Vivienne is evil, for example, even though I personally do not like her and think she is not a very good person. Her manipulation doesn’t make her a bad person, nor does the fact that she sometimes lies through her teeth or tries to be nice to people she hates to get favors from them. Hell, I think even Corypheus’ motivations are somewhat understandable even though he’s an egomaniac who wants to become a god. 

It’s a matter of understanding the nuances of a character, of understanding their motivations and the shades of grey that comprise their being.

Not a matter of my personal morality.

This is going to be a scattered post but I am seeking clarity and this is the best way I know how; 

Don’t reblog.

a) I’ve been feeling very….self loathing lately. I want to tear off my skin with my hands, I want to violently shed this body, and I have never felt more….viciously inclined to disappear. I feel inherently ugly. Being at home makes it worse. I know Mama means well but her comments/suggestions hurt in places I have not recovered from and I am exhausted at constantly being triggered, I avoid her because I do not want to lash out because there is a ceaseless anger bubbling inside of me and the results of my anger isn’t something I can ever control, if it’s only been a little over a week - what will I do over the summer? I get it, it isn’t Mama’s fault, it isn’t any woman’s fault, we’ve been brought into a world and groomed in it to believe we do not belong here unless we achieve a certain standard, so we wax and pluck and chemical our way into attaining something that is unattainable. When does it end? I am tired for a woman’s sole existence to be one of beauty. I am tired and I want to tear the skin off of my face and remove the fat with my own hands from beneath my stomach, my thighs, my ass, my arms, and no longer have my worth or lack of tied to it. Am I not more than this flesh? I know all of this and still I want to die and because of that on top of it all - I am deeply ashamed. 

2) Finals are not good for my mental health. My exams are divided into four; one theory in the morning, one lab in the afternoon, four times until June 17 based on six subjects on the material we’ve taken over the entire course of the year. The high level of stress involved in preparing for these exams are something I cannot exactly put into words and something no one could understand anyway, I am so glad for Yussef because I complain to him and he complains to me and we uplift each other and we comfort each other and we believe in each other and his existence in my life is so important because if it weren’t him I would have no environment to unravel like that. It’s always ‘you’re blessed’ and yes I am, 'you signed up for it’, yes I did, 'you can handle it’, and yes I can, but that doesn’t make it any less agonizing. Yussef said earlier that 'med school destroys students and expects them to heal others’ and that is exactly what it is. Finals are causing me to rapidly fluctuate between euphoria and depression, and these constant switching between moods (more than usual) is really affecting my health both physically and mentally, and with my medical knowledge it’s impossible to ignore. I am sure I have bpd. I want to get diagnosed and then treatment in the summer, but my family doesn’t believe in mental illness so I will have to do everything behind their back, just like I do everything behind their back, just like I carry all of my sorrow behind their back, just like I shield major parts of my identity behind their back, how long do I have to live in secret? I am tired of the silence. Sometimes I think all of this sickness isn’t real, that I am imagining it, or I belittle it and tell myself it isn’t a big deal, and that is an injustice to my own self. I’m sick and I’m under a lot of stress right now and everything is a struggle. I’m terrified of the implications of diagnosis; what if there is no diagnosis and there was never anything wrong? Am I crazy? And if there is a diagnosis how will I take the steps to take care of myself without emotional or financial support from the people I am dependent on? Will a diagnosis make concrete what I think is already real, that I cannot hold onto anything or anyone I love, and how will the solidifying of that belief affect the rest of my relationships? I can never keep them. I love too hard and too much and I think it suffocates, so I keep my distance, but the distance is a lie and it eats away at me and will I ever be allowed to love as much as I need and be loved in return despite? I don’t believe I have ever been seen. 

3) My iman is very low, very weak, barely there. I don’t believe in anything. I feel very empty. Sometimes I feel like I’m not real. I think about death constantly. I stare longingly at knives. I’m a great actress. No one would ever know what goes on inside my head. This is not an accomplishment, it means I am very alone. I just want to be held. I want to be seen.

anonymous asked:

Is it wrong that i just kind of avoid sera at this point? Like shes the victim of bad writing but has good moments but is a hypocrite and won't change her ways but she's relatable and human and yet frustrating and working out how i feel about her is exhausting so i just dont and stay apathetic which sucks cause id much rather love a character than feel apathy but she was written so poorly from what had so much potential and im too weak to get worked up over it anymore

of course not, like i know a lot of people who find her frustrating to deal with because she mirrors their exact experiences with self loathing but the game doesn’t help her grow past them and it’s a painful thing to see. some react by avoiding her, some by producing fanwork - both are valid responses and like it’s entirely up to you which characters you chose to emotionally engage with. you aren’t obligated to do so if it’s taking a toll on you mentally as long as you’re not being an ass to the people who do like her/tagging your hate/ etc etc. 

anonymous asked:

while i do love to headcanon javert as romani, i think some people prefer white javert cause in the brick him being romani is treated in a really racist way: a whole race of people is generalized as a race of criminals (i mean, in hugo's view romani=bohemiens=thieves), and javert is shown to be ashamed of his origins (so him being romani and being portraied as hating his culture is. kinda gross and racist, tbh). so yeah i know of a lot of people who prefer white javert simply cause of this. bye!

yeah hugo’s portrayal of romani wasn’t exactly problem-free… i guess i understand this pov though, since i know a lot of people who are white and write/draw romani javert concentrate a lot from his pov about his self-loathing related to his ethnicity and culture, which i feel is pretty bad tbh because it just… the way it’s dealt with. it’s kind of gross yes. 

i think though, as a modern fan, one has a choice to take this character, with these origins, and treat him and his ethnicity as it should be treated, with resect and dignity.

anonymous asked:

Please stop the self loathing. It's exhausting that you don't realize that you are so much better than the majority of society. I don't even know you but your morals and what you stand for are in good intentions, not many people have that.

its my parents.. they’re treating me terribly. im about to go to the hospital and beg to be inpatient just to get away from them. that’s the sad part huh? I dont know if you think im choosing to hate myself but im not. i want to be happy. its just hard with absolutely no support. 

anonymous asked:

Actually, Emma's appearance might not change as drastically as Rumple's did. When he first met Zoso, his predecessor looked like any ordinary old beggar. Zoso had used magic to glamourize himself, and Rumple could have too. However, his self-loathing (especially after he lost Bae) made him not want to hide the monster. He also started speaking in that high-pitched, impish, giggle that was reminiscent of his father's laugh.

Emma’s not gonna look like Rumple.

It feels like there is a meeting going on inside my head. It goes on all day and very often into the night and it’s full of people who believe they should be in charge. Depression thinks it. Anxiety does too. And so does Self Loathing and the Diet Culture and the Body Shamer and the One that thinks I should just end it all. They all believe they know what I should do and they are telling me so every second of every day. 

I’ve been trying to shut it out for so long but it has never worked. I guess now what I’m trying is not just shutting them out of the meeting but taking control back of the whole damn company.

—  things from therapy i want to remember (k.s.)

There’s about 8000 cookies (you know the big soft ones, not the hard biscuit ones) in the kitchen for someones birthday or something and there is so many different ones and we all know I LOVE cookies of all types so usually I would eat like 7. But for some reason my self loathing has really peaked today and I hate my stomach and my thighs and my arms a lot and it turns out losing weight actually IS really hard and not fairly easy like I clearly thought because I’ve been eating better (read: making better choices. I still have off times and I do drink too much wine but Im generally eating a lot better than I was) for a while and I go to at least 2 exercise classes a week and for the occasional run but if anything I’ve put on a tiny bit of weight.
So I’m sitting here with my tuna pasta and side snack of carrot and tomato and not thinking about the smartie cookies. Or the rolo ones. OR the triple chocolate ones.

My moods

1. Deep self loathing to the core of the awful wretch i am

2. Not since the first creature climbed out of the ocean to establish life on Earth has there been so important a living thing as me