self ish

i gotchu. also, there’s a lot of self-projection going on here


  • just kidding
  • if he’s feeling freaky he’ll play ‘Tainted Love’ by Marilyn Manson, or ‘Closer’ by Nine Inch Nails
  • to slow things down, ‘I Don’t Wanna Close My Eyes’ by Aerosmith is his top choice
  • he’ll indulge all your Texan Keef jokes by playing ‘Bad Things’ by Jace Everett
  • he’ll use his sultriest Southern accent to try and seduce you
  • it works everytime


  • He likes using music that has bachata undertones
  • it gets him going and it’s something familiar
  • he’ll play Romeo Santos bc of the bachata and loves making out with you as ‘Bella y Sensual’ plays in the background. he also loves ‘Odio’ bc of the message
  • will indulge you and play ‘Chantaje’ as he gyrates his hips suggestively, throwing you a wink
  • he sometimes goes old school like Maroon 5′s ‘Harder to Breathe’ or Britney Spears ‘Toxic’ or ‘I’m a Slave 4 U’


  • is second to Shiro on the cheesy-o-metre
  • Disney songs are his jam and he’s made out with you as ‘So Close’ by Jon McLoughlin played in the background
  • he’s also put on ‘Never Knew I Needed’ and ‘Can You Feel The Love Tonight’ to set the mood
  • spoiler alert: it always does


  • so cheesy it will hurt if you weren’t so in love with him
  • he’s pretty old school (and a secret memer) that he’ll play ‘Baby Come Back’ by Player and ‘Have I Told You Lately’ by Van Morrison
  • he’s wanted to slow dance to you to Frank Sinatra’s ‘The Way You Look Tonight’ as he dips you low and kisses the breath out of you
  • otherwise he keeps things light with some R’n’B like Alicia Keys or Jordin Sparks 

No but listen. Sam holds it together until they knock back a few drinks at the bar and get back to the motel room with bags full of convenience-store pie (”Can’t believe I forgot I love pie,” Dean laments, and settles on the bed, arms crossed loosely, because there’s a cable marathon of Jackie Chan flicks), and then Sam heads out to get some air because the weight of what he almost lost just hits him.

He just walks in the bitter cold until he’s in the middle of nowhere and leans against this tree and cries his eyes out because there’s no way in hell he could continue if Dean died, but he’d have to because Lucifer is still out there and he has to stop him, and then he just slides down to the ground in the damp grass and tries to pull himself together.

And then there is the Bunny™. Sam hugs the fluffy bunny and it wiggles its nose at him and is very soft, and then Sam gets up and runs until he figures his eyes aren’t too red and heads back to the motel (but Dean notices, and throws him a piece of pie, which is Dean for I love you but can we please not talk about Feelings.)

That is all. 

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Do you ever just feel down on yourself but you’re not too anxious really or sad or depressed or anything and just kinda lay there and do nothing? Like you don’t feel anything but you just kinda feel. Empty. I guess. Is there a name for this? It happens once in a while.

I just sit there listening to music like “Huh..I’m kinda a shitty person.”