self detonate


“I could have just left him there,” Trowa thinks, filled with regret. (x)

A hastily thrown-together apology for missing Monday’s post, and also a celebration for 100* followers. May you never take a moment to consider your life choices and cause my number to go down.

*number may be what some would consider “rounded up”

In The Heat Of The Moment

Summary: Bucky confesses his feelings for you when he’s sure he’ll never get another chance to.

Word count: 2144

Warnings: swearing, almost dying?

A/N: this is for @just-some-drabbles 4k rom-com challenge, my prompt was ‘well… this is awkward’. Hope you like it! ☺️

‘It’s a simple mission if we do it properly’ Steve’s authoritative voice pulls you from your sleepy stupor and you turn to face him. ‘(Y/N) tell me again what you have to do?’ he asks and you sigh as all talk of the coming mission slips out of your mind.

‘I don’t know Steve’ you mumble sleepily, rubbing your eyes as your mouth stretches wide in an exhausted yawn. He tuts in disappointment and your eyes drift to Bucky sat opposite you, his head in his hand, elbow on the table and his eyelids about to fall closed. You know how much trouble he’ll be in if Steve catches him sleeping in a conference so you nudge his shin with the tip of your toes, his eyes fly open and he looks up and you, grinning from ear to ear. You smile sleepily in return and look to Steve who’s eyes are flitting from you to Bucky as if waiting for an explanation. You had stayed up all the previous night talking Bucky through a nightmare and whilst he’s used to the little sleep you are most definitely not. You’re not about to tell the team this though, they already suspect you and Bucky are secretly dating and this would just fuel their teasing. You’re not of course, Bucky is your closest friend and nothing more and, no matter how much you want there to be something more, you knew he just didn’t feel the way you did.

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The Fat of the Land - Prodigy


I’m the trouble starter, punking’ instigator 
I’m the fear addicted, and danger illustrated 

I’m a firestarter, twisted firestarter 
You’re the firestarter, twisted firestarter 
I’m a firestarter, twisted firestarter 

I’m the bitch you hated, filth infactuated - yeeeaaaah
I’m the pain you tasted, fell intoxicated 

I’m a firestarter, twisted firestarter 
You’re the firestarter, twisted firestarter 

I’m the self inflicted, mind detonator - yeah 
I’m the one infected, twisted animator 

I’m a firestarter, twisted firestarter 
You’re the firestarter, twisted firestarter 
I’m a firestarter, twisted firestarter

I think it’s important to note and interesting that I can’t recall it being mentioned in discussions on Wufei that his colony, L5-A0205, was going to be the colony they dropped in the original Operation Meteor.

Let that sink in.

It was Wufei’s home they were going to drop on Earth.

I think this a wildly huge factor in understanding Wufei and his motivations/actions. So let’s get all up in this shit.

(also just an fyi, all of what I say is based off of the english dub at this time, since I’m finding it hard to find subs that don’t feel like they’re dub script subs.)

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Observatories Combine to Crack Open the Crab Nebula

Astronomers have produced a highly detailed image of the Crab Nebula, by combining data from telescopes spanning nearly the entire breadth of the electromagnetic spectrum, from radio waves seen by the Karl G. Jansky Very Large Array (VLA) to the powerful X-ray glow as seen by the orbiting Chandra X-ray Observatory. And, in between that range of wavelengths, the Hubble Space Telescope’s crisp visible-light view, and the infrared perspective of the Spitzer Space Telescope.

The Crab Nebula, the result of a bright supernova explosion seen by Chinese and other astronomers in the year 1054, is 6,500 light-years from Earth. At its center is a super-dense neutron star, rotating once every 33 milliseconds, shooting out rotating lighthouse-like beams of radio waves and light – a pulsar (the bright dot at image center). The nebula’s intricate shape is caused by a complex interplay of the pulsar, a fast-moving wind of particles coming from the pulsar, and material originally ejected by the supernova explosion and by the star itself before the explosion.

This image combines data from five different telescopes: the VLA (radio) in red; Spitzer Space Telescope (infrared) in yellow; Hubble Space Telescope (visible) in green; XMM-Newton (ultraviolet) in blue; and Chandra X-ray Observatory (X-ray) in purple.

The new VLA, Hubble, and Chandra observations all were made at nearly the same time in November of 2012. A team of scientists led by Gloria Dubner of the Institute of Astronomy and Physics (IAFE), the National Council of Scientific Research (CONICET), and the University of Buenos Aires in Argentina then made a thorough analysis of the newly revealed details in a quest to gain new insights into the complex physics of the object. They are reporting their findings in the Astrophysical Journal.

“Comparing these new images, made at different wavelengths, is providing us with a wealth of new detail about the Crab Nebula. Though the Crab has been studied extensively for years, we still have much to learn about it,” Dubner said.

The Hubble Space Telescope is a project of international cooperation between NASA and ESA (European Space Agency). NASA’s Goddard Space Flight Center in Greenbelt, Maryland, manages the telescope. The Space Telescope Science Institute (STScI) in Baltimore conducts Hubble science operations. STScI is operated for NASA by the Association of Universities for Research in Astronomy, Inc., in Washington.

NASA’s Marshall Space Flight Center in Huntsville, Alabama, manages the Chandra program for NASA’s Science Mission Directorate in Washington. The Smithsonian Astrophysical Observatory in Cambridge, Massachusetts, controls Chandra’s science and flight operations.

NASA’s Jet Propulsion Laboratory in Pasadena, California, manages the Spitzer Space Telescope for NASA’s Science Mission Directorate, Washington. Science operations are conducted at the Spitzer Science Center at Caltech in Pasadena. Spacecraft operations are based at Lockheed Martin Space Systems Company, Littleton, Colorado. Data are archived at the Infrared Science Archive housed at the Infrared Processing and Analysis Center at Caltech. Caltech manages JPL for NASA.

The National Radio Astronomy Observatory is a facility of the National Science Foundation, operated under cooperative agreement by Associated Universities, Inc.

IMAGE….In the summer of the year 1054 AD, Chinese astronomers saw a new “guest star,” that appeared six times brighter than Venus. So bright in fact, it could be seen during the daytime for several months.

This “guest star” was forgotten about until 700 years later with the advent of telescopes. Astronomers saw a tentacle-like nebula in the place of the vanished star and called it the Crab Nebula. Today we know it as the expanding gaseous remnant from a star that self-detonated as a supernova, briefly shining as brightly as 400 million suns. The explosion took place 6,500 light-years away. If the blast had instead happened 50 light-years away it would have irradiated Earth, wiping out most life forms.

In the late 1960s astronomers discovered the crushed heart of the doomed star, an ultra-dense neutron star that is a dynamo of intense magnetic field and radiation energizing the nebula. Astronomers therefore need to study the Crab Nebula across a broad range of electromagnetic radiation, from X-rays to radio waves.

This image combines data from five different telescopes: the VLA (radio) in red; Spitzer Space Telescope (infrared) in yellow; Hubble Space Telescope (visible) in green; XMM-Newton (ultraviolet) in blue; and Chandra X-ray Observatory (X-ray) in purple.

The Hubble Space Telescope is a project of international cooperation between NASA and ESA (European Space Agency). NASA’s Goddard Space Flight Center in Greenbelt, Maryland, manages the telescope. The Space Telescope Science Institute (STScI) in Baltimore conducts Hubble science operations. STScI is operated for NASA by the Association of Universities for Research in Astronomy, Inc., in Washington, D.C.

NASA’s Marshall Space Flight Center in Huntsville, Alabama, manages the Chandra program for NASA’s Science Mission Directorate in Washington, D.C. The Smithsonian Astrophysical Observatory in Cambridge, Massachusetts, controls Chandra’s science and flight operations.

NASA’s Jet Propulsion Laboratory, Pasadena, California, manages the Spitzer Space Telescope for NASA’s Science Mission Directorate, Washington. Science operations are conducted at the Spitzer Science Center at Caltech in Pasadena, California. Spacecraft operations are based at Lockheed Martin Space Systems Company, Littleton, Colorado. Data are archived at the Infrared Science Archive housed at the Infrared Processing and Analysis Center at Caltech. Caltech manages JPL for NASA.

Self-interest taught me to receive bad news the way hospital patients receive morphine in a syringe. It’s repulsive and it’s pitiful and it’s achingly selfish to claim that the injection of hurt running in my bloodstream is as cold as my mother’s hands, suddenly everything I do is rational because I suffer, suddenly my pain will prevail because it doesn’t matter who else is popping pills, cut up my wrist and you will see the ice spilling out of my veins. Don’t you see that my cold, my hurt is enough for us all.

I’ll bring my disease to show-n-tell, but it’s not contagious, don’t worry, only I have it. In freshman year, we learn about the Cold War in history class, and I can’t help but think that you and I are Russia and America, but instead of nuclear weapons, we rip our refrigerated chests open and compare whose explosion is bigger before we both self-destruct. We detonate into dust on Friday, but by Saturday, we’re painting each other’s toenails fuschia with arsenic and apologies.

There are planets colliding against my ribcage, made of seventy-five percent grief and twenty-five percent pride, we grip these sickening globes like trophies to our hearts because without them, there would be nothing left to hold on to. You tell me goodbye, the world doesn’t revolve around you, and I guess you took the fucking sun with you too, because everything is so dark. I’m whispering I’m sorry for making this a contest, but by then the toxins I used as justification for my constantly waning and waxing moods are leaking back into my arteries and I’m dying of pulmonary edema.

There’s a gaping black hole filled with pregnant ladies’ screams carved into my skin with a plastic spoon that I know obstructed me from seeing your own. Except maybe mine will heal with time and yours won’t. I tell you I wish I could suck your sadness out and flush it away too, you tell me you asshole, then stop pulling me apart even more.

—  I know I’m not the only one with problems but maybe we can just paint our nails again
Gundam Wing pilot kills

I’ve always been curious, just how many people did the pilots kill during the series? So I decided to rewatch and count.

The kills are in two categories: confirmed kills (’x’ pilot definitely killed that person) and estimated kills (’x’ pilot blew up a factory/ship/plane/ect. and probably killed ‘x’ number of people) Estimated kills were rounded down, so that number could probably be doubled and still be accurate.

The results:

Heero: confirmed: 90  estimated: 315    total: 405*

Duo: confirmed: 61  estimated: 160    total: 221

Trowa: confirmed: 115   estimated: 170    total: 285

Quatre: confirmed: 61   estimated: 125     total: 186

Wufei: confirmed: 41   estimated:195      total: 236

So here are some charts that break down kills per episode (open in a new tab to see it bigger) (also, sorry for any spelling mistakes)

You will noticed that after episode 17 there is a drop in kills. Episode 17 is when Colonal Une threatens to destroy the colonies and then Heero self detonates, so all the pilots take a few episodes to figure out what they are going to do. After they go to space the kills go back up.

Also keep in mind that after they go back to space they are mostly fighting mobile dolls, so there are lots of battles but they don’t really kill that many people. Btw, EW = Endless Waltz

Heero didn’t do a lot of on screen killing in the beginning. In fact for a while he was in last place, but to be fair he was in coma and then recovering from said coma for several episodes. It was the battle at the Sanc Kingdom that pushed his numbers up. And he definitely did the most killing during Endless Waltz. His attack on Mariemaia’s bunker killed quite a few people.

*the reason this number is so high is because I counted 40 estimated kills during Heero’s flashback to when he killed the little girl. If you take away that number, his total is 365. I decided to count them because the event was a pivotal moment in Heero’s life.

Duo killed a lot during the beginning of the series; mostly by blowing stuff up. After he ended up back in space, he spent most of his time sneaking around or captured so he didn’t have many kills. Interesting note:He and Heero are the only two pilots that have on screen kills during Endless Waltz.

For the longest time Trowa was in first place. He loses his memory in episode 25 and doesn’t return to the battlefield until episode 39. So there is a big gap in his kills. In episode 39 he is protecting Quatre and Noin. In episode 43 he borrows Wing Zero to go save Cathy and in episode 48 he’s on Libra destroying stuff/looking for Quatre.

Quatre came in last, which wasn’t that big of a surprise as he is the most peaceful of the boys, plus he had the Maganac Corps with him so they did a lot of killing for him. Most of Quatre kills came right after his father dies and he goes crazy for a bit. He does blow up a colony but it was evacuated at the time, so at most he kills a few soldiers. His last on screen kill was episode 39, were he kills a solider to stop Trowa from damaging a colony and helps to break him out of Zero’s control.

Most of Wufei’s kills came from blowing up bases/ships or large battles. He didn’t have many up close kills, so most of his kills are in the ‘estimated’ category. He probably killed more people than I have here, but it was hard to tell sometimes.

*in episode 48 Wufei kills Trieze. This is a big deal but it still only counts as one.

Pilot kills from most to least are Heero, Trowa, Wufei, Duo, and Quatre.

This was really fun project. There were a few surprises, like how little Heero killed in the beginning but he made up for it in the end. And how few people Duo killed over all; for the ‘God of Death’ he sure didn’t kill a lot of people. He was in last place for quite a while. Over all the numbers ended up being lower than I thought they would be.

When I do my next rewatch I’ll have to count something else. Maybe how much screen time characters spend together. I was noticing that Heero and Trowa are together a lot more than I thought and Wufei spends most of his time alone.

Feel free to comment, ask questions or add your own Gundam Wing statistics

@gwepisode50, @greenriderglen, @ ebihoshii

Headcanon - J’s Claw and Heero’s CFR:

During his training, Dr. J had planted a Conditioned Fear Response (CFR) in Heero, conditioning the boy to respond to the sound and/or sight of his metal-claw hand with paralyzing fear, which elicits his utmost attention and total obedience.

When the old man contacted Heero prior to his self-detonation in Siberia (ep. 10), he had already planted the suggestions that Heero must make the ultimate sacrifice should the mission go wrong. He left him no other choice.

Later on, when J appeared on his screen during the battle, all he had to do was give the word, repeating the mantra: “I surrender, but I will not hand over the Gundams!” (note the emphasis on “I” in “I surrender”) and Heero self-destructed Wing, along with himself. He surrendered, but he didn’t hand over the Gundam, following J’s order blindly and to the letter: The CFR at work.

Originally posted by mecha-gifs

This CFR haunts Heero into adulthood, triggering his PTSD episodes at the mere sound of a similar creaking noise. Heero is aware of this conditioning and does his best to deal with it should the need arises. Sadly, he’s had little luck ridding himself of it completely. It would take years of therapy to help extinct J’s CFR programming, and in the meanwhile, anything might set him off, endangering not only himself, but also others.

Duo is the only one who knows about it. This crippling information is classified as TOP SECRET in his Preventer file, since no one wants to find out what might happen if this sensitive information fell into the wrong hands…

SNK Xmen!AU: everybody is born mutan.

madhattressdelux and me came up with thison skype. I didn’t drew everyone because i didn’t know how to exactly  depict their powers. 
thanks to hachidorikun and yolownly for helping me with Marco.

Eren: Steam Mimicry + Self-detonation / reformation. 
He was very annoyed with his powers at first, steam morphing? how lame is that? - until someone made him furious and he simply…exploted.
Mikasa: Power mimicry 
Copy another’s powers or skills after toucing them.
Armin: Life absortion + telekinesis
He has the same effect that Rouge has with non-mutans, with everyone. that’s why his telekinesis comes in handy. 
Sasha: All types of visions (telescopic,xray, night vision, heat, freeze vision,etc) + Superhuman senses.
(Avoiding absortion powers like a pro because Sasha is much more than a potato girl)
Jean: Echolocation + healing powers.
He’s the war medic. Most of the time he’s not sure if he can do really heavy-duty healing, so hi panics and doubts himself. 
Connie: Wallcrawling + teleportation.
Reiner: Ability to partially or fully turn into steel. 
Berthold: Invisibility + Force field generation. 
When he’s nervous the force field get’s weaker. 
Marco: Pyrokinesis & Cold/Ice manipulation. 
Marco has complete control over his ice powers but completely lacks control over fire control. 
Ymir: Animal morphing + Zoolingualism
Annie: Intangibility
Christa: Weather manipulation

Levi: Ink manipulation. ( manipulate body art)
Aka. Badass body tattoos that Levi can manifest in physical form (weapons). Needles/fingers, daggers/ wirst etc.
Hanji:Technopathy (physical interaction with machines and mental interface with data)
Erwin: Superhuman longevity and memory manipulation


Reaper husks concept designs 1


Reaper Salarian. Goblin:

The Goblin,named after the mischievous entity from folklore,is physically weaker than even basic human Husks. However,it makes up for it in tactical planning,surpassing even a Marauder or Collector. These Reaper units have built-in cloaks that allow them to traverse the battlefield in safety until they can strike their enemies from behind whilst they least expect it. In addition to this deadly ability,Goblins can shoot super-heated plasma at their opponents in a similar fashion to Alliance combat engineers to burn their enemies,as well as drain the kinetic barriers of their enemies to restore their own.

Reaper Asari/Salarian Hybrid. Gorgon:

Taking inspiration from the Greek myth,the Gorgon is a mix of Salarian and Asari that have been enhanced with Reaper nano-tech. As it’s namesake implies,the Gorgon is capable of stopping enemies in their tracks,though this effect is achieved through biotic Stasis fields cast from its claws. However,this isn’t all that the Gorgon is capable of. In addition to Stasis fields,Gorgons can throw out Reaper-made proximity bombs that explodes into a biotic wave that drains an opponent’s kinetic barriers and stamina whilst also increasing the Gorgons’ durability. As well,if allied forces come in too close,the Gorgon can either deter them with their claws or send out a wave of overloading electrical energy that can easily take out kinetic barriers and stun enemies.

Reaper Quarian. Witch:

Named after the famed cult entity,the Witch is the result of the unfortunate capture and conversion of certain Quarians by the Reapers. Designed with a support role in mind,Witches are equipped with bio-mechanical tools designed to repair sustained damage of nearby husks. It will generally avoid direct combat,but if given no other option,a Witch can lash out with its claws and send out two Reaper drones to assault its enemies with their miniature GARDIAN lasers.

Reaper Elcor. Behemoth:

The Behemoth is a Reaper creation,formed from an Elcor. Like Ravagers,Behemoths are artillery units,designed to thin out crowds and pierce defenses. However,instead of twin launchers,a Behemoth has a single large mass accelerator cannon attached to its back that fires off an extremely powerful round that can decimate even heavy vehicles such as a Mako tank. Unlike the species they are created from,Behemoths aren’t afraid to get in close to their enemies,raising their upper body to a degree almost never seen in regular Elcor in order to slam their forearms onto the opposition below.

Reaper Elcor/Volus Unit. Battlewagon:

An evolution of the Behemoth and Bloat husk variants,the Battlewagon is a never-before-seen Reaper creation that differs from nearly all others. The most intriguing difference to normal Reaper forces is the non-grafted connection between the Reaperfied Elcor and Volus. Like the Behemoth,the Elcor in this unit serves as a heavy weapons-fire platform. However,unlike the Behemoth,instead of a single large cannon,there is a platform mounted on the husk’s back,which houses two built-in mass-accelerator machine guns taken up by less heavily Reaperfied variations of Bloats. The Elcor platform is used as a means of movement across the battlefield to allow the Volus to fire at enemy forces from the platform’s back with ease. With the 180 degree field of view of each gun and these weapon emplacements being positioned back-to-back,the Battlewagon is a force to be reckoned with.

Reaper Volus. Bloat:

The Bloat is a Reaper husk created from a Volus. Due to their unstable physiological structure and lack of any real physical prowess,Reaper nano-tech compensates by grafting a set of tripod legs to the base of the husk,allowing it to be mobile enough to pursue enemies. However,due to the instability of the internal organ systems with the process,Bloats are naturally primed to self-detonate upon close contact with opponents,making these units out as little more than suicide bombers for the Reapers. However,due to the powerful explosive radius of these detonations,it is advised to maintain a distance.

Reaper Drell. Shade:

When the Reapers began harvesting various species throughout the galaxy to use as ground forces,the war-torn and resource scarce Rakhana provided an excellent site for the conversion of Drell into Shades. With these Reaper nano-tech enhancements,Shades are stronger and more agile than the species they reigned from,allowing them to be very flexible and acrobatic in physical combat. This agility is made even deadlier by the additional grafting of blade gauntlets onto their forearms,which they use to slash at enemies as well as focus pulses of biotic energyfor ranged combat. In addition to this already deadly arsenal,Shades are capable of ejecting an enhanced version of their original dermal neurotoxin in a gaseous form if opponents manage to get the jump on them in close-quarters,disorienting them with its hallucinogenic effects,allowing for an easy escape or ambush.

Reaper Hanar. Ceph:

The Ceph is the product of Reaperfied Hanar. Due to the aquatic nature of Hanar resulting in required technological assistance,Reaper nano-tech improvises by using precise mass effect fields to allow these husks to hover above the ground,freeing up their movement. Naturally weak-bodied like the species they’re created from,Cephs rely more on getting up close and personal to their enemies to either strangle them with their tentacles or sedate them with powerful toxins to either be killed,harvested,or turned into husks without resistance.

Reaper Drell/Hanar hybrid. Chimera:

The Chimera,as the name implies,is a mix of species,specifically a Drell and Hanar,that have been converted by the Reapers. This particular creation has the lower limbs of a Drell and the upper body of both Drell and Hanar,bar the limbs of the Drell. With this configuration,this hybrid bypasses a Hanar’s natural inability to move on land by giving the creature the agile limbs of a Drell,allowing quicker movement. However,the added weight hinders this abomination’s ability to effectively leap and jump,limiting it to accessible ramps and walkways. Due to the lack of the Drell’s arms,the tentacles of the Hanar are used instead for grappling with oppnents or spraying them with a neurotoxin that surpasses even that of a Shade or Ceph.

001. A Masterlist Of Superpowers

Under the cut you will find 125 powers and abilities that I deem appropriate for any superpower roleplay group, 1x1 roleplay or indie roleplayer. Some of them are originally thought of by myself. Most originate from the Marvel/DC Comics universes. Many of these can be expanded upon depending the nature of the player and power. Please message me if you have suggestions for the list. A like or reblog is always appreciated!

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inuzukahana  asked:

Why are people quicker to forgive Hidan and Sasori for killing a lot of innocent people with no remorse than to forgive Sasuke for doing things a lot less bad than that (:

The thing about Sasuke though is that he’s greatly misunderstood. I believe the people who dislike/hate/call him a villain him have the following reasons:
1. Misunderstand him.
2. Didn’t actually read manga / watch the anime.
3. Don’t like those who don’t stick to the norm (even if said norm is flawed).
4. Hate him because he didn’t meet the expectations they wanted for their ships.
5. Dislike him because he wanted to kill Naruto/ posed a threat to Naruto (the protagonist and a fan favorite).

They see him as a villain when he’s actually a victim. .
Sasuke is both an excellent character with deep development and an excellent person, while his methods may not always be the best (example: wanting to kill Naruto) he always wanted justice. Always fought for it.

Another thing, is Sasuke never actually killed an innocent person, as @bahare-uzuchiha once said in a post. Deidara killed himself during the battle, Itachi had a previous illness that killed him, the samurais (although I don’t know if he knocked them out or actually killed them) were attacking him first, he also warned them before hand, Danzo was the person who ordered the mass genocide of his clan, he also died from self detonation like Deidara, etc. None of these people were innocent to begin with, wether killed by Sasuke or not.

Edit: anyone who wants to share their opinion on this can do it, I’m interested in knowing how people view this.
Trowa’s Questionable Medevac

It has always bothered me how Trowa treated Heero’s evacuation in episode 10, after 01′s self-detonation, ignoring most basic medevac procedures.

His methods of transferring an injured comrade were irresponsible and potentially harmful. Considering Heero had just been thrown off great height by the force of the blast, the last thing one should do was move him, let alone like this:

Goodbye spine! Hello broken neck! (Sorry for the bad quality of this GIF… I made it in a hurry).

Then Trowa just loads Heero onto his truck along with his Gundam, not even moving him to the driver’s cabin? Why? If the blast didn’t kill him, the bumpy ride in sub-zero temperatures certainly should have!

Despite his extensive combat training, Trowa displays a blunt disregard for standard battlefield stabilization and triage protocols. Initial field assessment of combat-injured soldiers follows strict Advanced Trauma Life Support (ATLS) protocols. Needless to say, first aid is the most critical stage of treatment, moreover when dealing with blast injuries that require a more aggressive treatment approach than that for most civilian trauma, especially when an individual is in proximity to the blast radius (or, erm… in the heart of the fucking blast!). Just saying: Trowa should have known better!

So I gave this some thought, refusing to believe Trowa could be so callous. 

Then it occurred to me that the only acceptable reason for Trowa to act as carelessly as he had, was if he was certain Heero was dead. That would explain why he’d choose the quickest method of pick-up and transport while retreating from enemy territory. The way he saw it, it was either leave a dead man behind, or use inappropriate methods to carry the body out of the battle zone; the end justified the means.

I can imagine what he must have felt like when he arrived at his destination, prepared to unload Heero’s body from the truck and then, much to his surprise (and most likely mortification), discovered that Heero was still alive. ((hmm, there’s a drabble here somewhere…))

Maybe that’s why he took such good care of him afterwards, nursing Heero back to health for over a month (during the coma and later on) and becoming a real mother-hen over the next few episodes (loved it!). It was more than just taking care of a comrade in need, it was a way to make up for his mistake - for almost finishing what the self-detonation thankfully failed to accomplish. Poor Trowa was feeling guilty. 

If you look it at that way, Trowa acted purely out of compassion: He refused to leave what he believed was Heero’s body at the hands of the enemy - risking his life by staying long enough to evacuate Heero from the battlefield, and then he dedicated himself to see Heero through his long recovery. That’s more like the Trowa I know and admire. Too bad it took me so many years to come up with this (quite obvious?) explanation to something that used to bother me as much as it once did.

Anyway, those were my pointless $0.02 on the matter… Thoughts, anyone?

nice superpowers i associate with the signs
  • aries: self-detonation; teleportation; telekinesis
  • taurus: telephaty; petrification; infinite supply
  • gemini: duplication; omnilingualism; pyrokinesis
  • cancer: invulnerability; mental manipulation; pathifery
  • leo: mind control; disintegration; evolution
  • virgo: invisibility; enhanced vision; omniscience
  • libra: psychometry; time travel; aquakinesis
  • scorpio: vampirism; elasticity; summoning
  • sagittarius: immortality; flight; chaos control
  • capricorn: camouflage; melting; vocifery
  • aquarius: regeneration; death inducement; creation
  • pisces: aquatic respiration; intangibility; gliding
Steven Universe plot idea

[Minor Spoilers to the episode Same Old World]

Steven gets a distress call from Lapis to come to the barn quick, but without alerting any of the Gems. When he arrives, he sees Lapis but not Peridot. He asks for Peridot’s whereabouts and Lapis tells him this is why she asked for help.

She shows him Peridot’s gem. It is bandaged by some weird beeping device. Lapis tells Steven it’s a self-detonation device, designed to shatter Peridot’s gem if she ever tries to remove it or form. Lapis says there’s a chance they could safely remove it, though. But they need to work from both inside Peridot’s gem and out.

So Steven uses his astral projection ability to get inside of Peridot’s gem, all the while he’s still getting signals from Lapis. He starts exploring the weird labyrinth mindscape of Peridot’s gem until he sees Peridot herself. He asks her for help in removing the device, but Peridot is acting weird, and doesn’t seem to recognize him.

Then all of a sudden, Steven’s connection to Lapis and his body is cut off. Lapis bubbled the Peridot gem. It turns out, it’s not the CG Peridot, but a different Peridot that Homeworld sent to trap Steven’s mind inside. The “detonation device” was fake, just a distraction to keep Steven occupied while Lapis flew them out to a Homeworld ship in a different star system.

There, Lapis trades the bubbled Peridot gem with Steven inside for the captured gem of CG Peridot. She whispers “Sorry, Steven…” before she flies off back to Earth.

Pacific Rim as Written by Moffat

Raleigh Becket is a broody and misunderstood Jaeger pilot who ran off to Alaska after an accident killed his brother. Without Raleigh’s Jaeger piloting skills, the Kaiju were killing off mankind. General Pentecost, a former Jaeger pilot himself, tracks Raleigh down to try to convince him to fight the Kaiju again. Being the arrogant man he is, Raleigh admits that it’s his fault the world is ending and that he is the only one who can save it. He begrugingly agrees to come back to the Jaeger program, but as soon as he does he’s just as enthusiastic about it and it’s like nothing bad ever happened.

He meets Mako Mori, a strong, badass woman with a mysterious past who we can only assume we’re supposed to like. Mako takes no shit from Raleigh, but is obviously in love with him and is constantly making sexual innuendos. We have no idea who she really is or where she came from. The two flirt all the time, but Raleigh seems to not really care about her all that much. Raleigh also meets Chuck, an equally arrogant Jaeger pilot whom he dislikes instantly. Chuck is jealous of Mako and Raleigh’s “relationship” but he’s definitely not gay, and no, there’s no sexual tension between Raleigh and Chuck, I swear.

Kaiju are attacking Hong Kong, and nobody is able to defeat them. Raleigh comes up with a ridiculous idea off the cuff to defeat the Kaiju by following one through the rift and self-detonating his Jaeger, which will probably kill him, but it’s clearly the only way. Raleigh’s plan to enter the rift works, and he’s able to detonate his Jaeger and close the rift without dying after all. When he comes back through, it turns out that it all happened in an alternate universe and everyone is living in a world where the Kaiju never invaded earth and Raleigh’s brother is still alive. It turns out that Mako is Chuck’s long lost twin sister who was abducted at birth. We still don’t know anything else about her.

And when at the end of the day you begin to crumble and there’s no one left to call, what do you turn to? When the silence is so unbearably loud inside your head you hear footsteps like gunshots, hear closed doors like atom bombs, hear all the breaking, all the blue. The tragedy of coming to terms with your own scarred skin is that you will never be more alone than when you are entirely yourself. No one wants to have to soothe your shaking spine, your shoreline cheeks, your stuttering fingers, your screaming chest. There is too much rubble in your bones for any friend to dig with their shovels, everyone has better things to do, their own battles to fight, you are not anyone’s everything. There are so many people you would stop your world for, but you have to understand that you are nothing but a city in theirs- a country at most- but you are no one’s gravity, no one’s reason to let everything else go, you are only you.

You are this trembling collection of atoms at eleven p.m. and your eyes are that water canvas that just wont dry- stop being this person. Stop letting the memories take you, you are bigger than them, than that day by that pool, bigger than everything that happened and all that you’ve forgotten. Let it go. How do you let something go when it has latched on to every waking, sleeping shard of you? When it has made its home in all your holes, in all your used to be wholes, how do you shake off a part of you without amputating the ones you need?

They say they’ll be there. They act like they care. But when you get down to the marrow of the hurt, the ache, that breath crumpling, self detonating pain, nobody stays. Your truth is too much of a burden for any outsider to hold, so home it in your bones. Get used to the weight. Get used to these Sunday nights shaking in the corner of your bed, shivering in the cold of all this alone, get used to the screams in the silence, the nightmares that cut through your dreams to make it to your pillow, get used to the jagged edges of this life. You are too broken by this point for anyone to touch without getting cut. Stop trying to replicate your wounds, you are better than this. Sink into your sadness, crumble inside it, make it your friend so it is no longer your fear. Get used to your alone. Get used to your alone. Get used to your alone.

And god, stop looking for the poetry. This is just the pain. This is that day eleven years ago playing again and again and again until it is today, tomorrow, and everyday. Until morning holds hands with the nighttime and forgets to turn on the sun. Until this is all you know. This loud loud silence. This crowded alone. Make it yours, and then let it go.

I’m a firestarter, twisted firestarter,
you’re the firestarter, twisted firestarter.
I’m the self-inflicted, punk detonator.
Yeah, I’m the one invented, twisted animator.

… So maybe I’m trying to make Torchic seem more badass than they are.
Sketchbook cover all done. Hope my friend likes it!