self detonate


“I could have just left him there,” Trowa thinks, filled with regret. (x)

A hastily thrown-together apology for missing Monday’s post, and also a celebration for 100* followers. May you never take a moment to consider your life choices and cause my number to go down.

*number may be what some would consider “rounded up”

Trowa’s Questionable Medevac

It has always bothered me how Trowa treated Heero’s evacuation in episode 10, after 01′s self-detonation, ignoring most basic medevac procedures.

His methods of transferring an injured comrade were irresponsible and potentially harmful. Considering Heero had just been thrown off great height by the force of the blast, the last thing one should do was move him, let alone like this:

Goodbye spine! Hello broken neck! (Sorry for the bad quality of this GIF… I made it in a hurry).

Then Trowa just loads Heero onto his truck along with his Gundam, not even moving him to the driver’s cabin? Why? If the blast didn’t kill him, the bumpy ride in sub-zero temperatures certainly should have!

Despite his extensive combat training, Trowa displays a blunt disregard for standard battlefield stabilization and triage protocols. Initial field assessment of combat-injured soldiers follows strict Advanced Trauma Life Support (ATLS) protocols. Needless to say, first aid is the most critical stage of treatment, moreover when dealing with blast injuries that require a more aggressive treatment approach than that for most civilian trauma, especially when an individual is in proximity to the blast radius (or, erm… in the heart of the fucking blast!). Just saying: Trowa should have known better!

So I gave this some thought, refusing to believe Trowa could be so callous. 

Then it occurred to me that the only acceptable reason for Trowa to act as carelessly as he had, was if he was certain Heero was dead. That would explain why he’d choose the quickest method of pick-up and transport while retreating from enemy territory. The way he saw it, it was either leave a dead man behind, or use inappropriate methods to carry the body out of the battle zone; the end justified the means.

I can imagine what he must have felt like when he arrived at his destination, prepared to unload Heero’s body from the truck and then, much to his surprise (and most likely mortification), discovered that Heero was still alive. ((hmm, there’s a drabble here somewhere…))

Maybe that’s why he took such good care of him afterwards, nursing Heero back to health for over a month (during the coma and later on) and becoming a real mother-hen over the next few episodes (loved it!). It was more than just taking care of a comrade in need, it was a way to make up for his mistake - for almost finishing what the self-detonation thankfully failed to accomplish. Poor Trowa was feeling guilty. 

If you look it at that way, Trowa acted purely out of compassion: He refused to leave what he believed was Heero’s body at the hands of the enemy - risking his life by staying long enough to evacuate Heero from the battlefield, and then he dedicated himself to see Heero through his long recovery. That’s more like the Trowa I know and admire. Too bad it took me so many years to come up with this (quite obvious?) explanation to something that used to bother me as much as it once did.

Anyway, those were my pointless $0.02 on the matter… Thoughts, anyone?

Headcanon - J’s Claw and Heero’s CFR:

During his training, Dr. J had planted a Conditioned Fear Response (CFR) in Heero, conditioning the boy to respond to the sound and/or sight of his metal-claw hand with paralyzing fear, which elicits his utmost attention and total obedience.

When the old man contacted Heero prior to his self-detonation in Siberia (ep. 10), he had already planted the suggestions that Heero must make the ultimate sacrifice should the mission go wrong. He left him no other choice.

Later on, when J appeared on his screen during the battle, all he had to do was give the word, repeating the mantra: “I surrender, but I will not hand over the Gundams!” (note the emphasis on “I” in “I surrender”) and Heero self-destructed Wing, along with himself. He surrendered, but he didn’t hand over the Gundam, following J’s order blindly and to the letter: The CFR at work.

Originally posted by mecha-gifs

This CFR haunts Heero into adulthood, triggering his PTSD episodes at the mere sound of a similar creaking noise. Heero is aware of this conditioning and does his best to deal with it should the need arises. Sadly, he’s had little luck ridding himself of it completely. It would take years of therapy to help extinct J’s CFR programming, and in the meanwhile, anything might set him off, endangering not only himself, but also others.

Duo is the only one who knows about it. This crippling information is classified as TOP SECRET in his Preventer file, since no one wants to find out what might happen if this sensitive information fell into the wrong hands…

nice superpowers i associate with the signs
  • aries: self-detonation; teleportation; telekinesis
  • taurus: telephaty; petrification; infinite supply
  • gemini: duplication; omnilingualism; pyrokinesis
  • cancer: invulnerability; mental manipulation; pathifery
  • leo: mind control; disintegration; evolution
  • virgo: invisibility; enhanced vision; omniscience
  • libra: psychometry; time travel; aquakinesis
  • scorpio: vampirism; elasticity; summoning
  • sagittarius: immortality; flight; chaos control
  • capricorn: camouflage; melting; vocifery
  • aquarius: regeneration; death inducement; creation
  • pisces: aquatic respiration; intangibility; gliding
Steven Universe plot idea

[Minor Spoilers to the episode Same Old World]

Steven gets a distress call from Lapis to come to the barn quick, but without alerting any of the Gems. When he arrives, he sees Lapis but not Peridot. He asks for Peridot’s whereabouts and Lapis tells him this is why she asked for help.

She shows him Peridot’s gem. It is bandaged by some weird beeping device. Lapis tells Steven it’s a self-detonation device, designed to shatter Peridot’s gem if she ever tries to remove it or form. Lapis says there’s a chance they could safely remove it, though. But they need to work from both inside Peridot’s gem and out.

So Steven uses his astral projection ability to get inside of Peridot’s gem, all the while he’s still getting signals from Lapis. He starts exploring the weird labyrinth mindscape of Peridot’s gem until he sees Peridot herself. He asks her for help in removing the device, but Peridot is acting weird, and doesn’t seem to recognize him.

Then all of a sudden, Steven’s connection to Lapis and his body is cut off. Lapis bubbled the Peridot gem. It turns out, it’s not the CG Peridot, but a different Peridot that Homeworld sent to trap Steven’s mind inside. The “detonation device” was fake, just a distraction to keep Steven occupied while Lapis flew them out to a Homeworld ship in a different star system.

There, Lapis trades the bubbled Peridot gem with Steven inside for the captured gem of CG Peridot. She whispers “Sorry, Steven…” before she flies off back to Earth.