i was in denial for the entire summer of 2014 that i was being sexually harassed by jake mcelfresh. i was a mess after an awful breakup nearly a year ago, and i numbed the pain by being a drunken mess and posting nudes for all of the world to see. i was a fan of front porch step for a very long time, and his music had helped me through the breakup and the death of my uncle in the beginning of 2013. i saw him as someone everyone should idolize, and it made me sad that not many people were aware of his music. i began showing him to all of my friends, who still continue to listen to him. i didn’t have the heart to tell them what happened. i was always a people person, but by people person, i meant a changer. i always tried to change people. i always believed that i was some supernatural force that could change everyone’s views in opinions in just the blink of an eye. well, i don’t know how i could be so wrong..
my experience with jake mcelfresh started on my birthday in february of 2014. i had just turned sixteen. i tweeted that all i wanted for my birthday was for jake mcelfresh to sing to me. i think that was my biggest mistake.
he direct messaged me on twitter and asked for my number. i gave it to him, and he immediately called me and sung happy birthday to me. i was extremely happy because i had no idea what he had previously done to girls. i thought i was special. i felt wanted for the first time. the video is still featured on my instagram of when he called me:
so that brings us to the following month. it was march 29th to be exact, and i finally got to see front porch step preform live. it was at the mixtape festival in patchogue, new york. i was ecstatic because i was basically the only girl who knew every lyric to every song. here is a video of him shouting me out for my singing:
i hung out with him for awhile at the show. he was literally standing by all of the merch tents and no one even knew who he was.
i left mixtape festival rather early because my cousin had gotten punched in the face and she had a bloody nose. i live back out in long island so it was a lengthy drive to and from the venue. upon arriving back at my house, i got a dm from jake mcelfresh. he asked me if i was still at the mixtape festival. i told him no and i remember he replied “:(” i asked why he was frowning and he told me it was because he was going to ask if i wanted to go out and drink with him and his friends. i literally said yes because i’m a fucking idiot and he asked how old i was and once i told him i was sixteen, he stopped talking to me.
may 2014, he began talking to me all over again as if he never ignored me. he would call me over ten times a day and we’d have conversations that lasted longer than two hours. he told me about all of his sex experiences and i told him all of mine. he always wanted to have phone sex and that was something i was never comfortable with. i did it anyways, because he was famous and i didn’t want him to leave me. i probably sent him about 50 nudes a DAY and he sent me two nudes in the total time that we’ve talked. i deleted them and i really wish i hadn’t, because he was sitting on the toilet and you could see his leg tattoo perfectly.
our conversations were always sexual, but i romanticized this gross notion inside of my head that jake mcelfresh genuinely liked me the way i liked him. like i said earlier, i developed feelings quickly and this situation was no different. we had a deep conversation one time about how we both struggle with depression and anxiety and that’s when i started to feel bad for him. that was also around the same time a girl on tumblr started talking about her experience with jake mcelfresh. i was going through the same thing, but i fucking stood up for this scumbag.
i called jake once when i was having a panic attack, and he helped me a lot. he started talking to me less but he would call me at really late hours of the night when he was masturbating and it started to scare me. i told my mom about him in the past and she agreed to let him stay at our house when he came to new york for warped tour. she would always talk about it and i wanted to tell her to forget it but i just couldn’t. my thirteen year old sister quickly developed a huge liking for this pedophile, as well.
here are the only texts, kik messages, and twitter direct messages i have left:
i swear to this day, he’s even subtweeted me before:
when he came to new york warped tour, he said he was coming down with a cold and refused to go to ihop with me because my mom was going to be there. my mom honestly didn’t care because she didn’t know the sexual aspect of our relationship. i think the true reason was because i had a best friend at the time named zack who jake absolutely despised. jake cursed me out on a phone call because i told zack about “us” and accused me of cheating on him when we were never even dating. i stopped talking to guys because i was so committed to jake when he didn’t even feel a thing for me. i hung up on him and he called me back a total of 46 times.
seeing him at warped tour was a nightmare. i tried to avoid him but he called my name and told me to go over to his merch tent and he hugged me and acted like everything was fine. he told me he was talking to this girl autumn and that he wanted to make her his girlfriend. i always worry about autumn. i know they dated.
after we took this picture, he told me i had to leave:
jake kept telling me to ditch my best friend, zack, and to go into his tour bus to have sex with him. he said it would have to be quick, but he’d make it worth it. we stopped talking.
we would talk occasionally. i would text him, wishing him a happy halloween, a happy thanksgiving, etc. only to get no answer :-)
the last time we talked, he was sad. he told me his girlfriend broke up with him. this time, i didn’t answer.
i honestly thought i was different and i try to find the humor in this, but there is none. jake mcelfresh fucking degraded me. i may just be one voice, but there are so many others.
we need to stop him while we’re still given the chance. i can’t stand to see this happen to another innocent girl.