So last night I saw a midnight showing of “It” so I get home at like 2 am. For anyone who hasn’t seen the new movie it’s pretty scary. So I get home super tired and go straight to bed and for like 10 minutes I’m sitting there thinking about this goddamn shapeshifting demon clown scared out of my ass and I remember I forgot to take my meds. So I go to turn on my light and MOTHERFUCKING CLAWS COME OUT OF THE INFINITE DARKNESS AND START DIGGING INTO MY ARM AND I SCREAM SO LOUD BC MY ASS IS ABOUT TO FLOAT AND I NEARLY PISS MYSELF UNTIL I REALIZE THAT MY LITTLE SHIT CAT DECIDED TO GIVE ME ATTENTION AT 2 AM and anyways I now understand what true fear is.
what made me cry about jin’s solo performance during their second concert in chile was remembering that in the lyrics of awake, he wonders whether people will ever love him as much as they love the other members, and says he won’t fly as high as the rest of them because he isn’t capable enough…but i think all that was proved wrong when an entire arena full of people who didn’t speak korean passionately sang along to every word at the top of their lungs, and screamed so, so loud when he hit that high note flawlessly, a note he was struggling to hit only just weeks ago and i just….really felt how much people loved him, and i think he felt it too…i’m really glad he got that moment because he deserved it all