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About VLive...

I already posted this on VLive, but I’m posting this here too. I’m sorry if I’m angry but this is something that doesn’t even need to be said.

TO ALL ARMYS:

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD STOP GIVING BTS SHAME AND STOP COMMENTING “DO YOU LOVE BTS” ON OTHER PEOPLE’S CHANNELS… I LTERALLY JUST WATCHED 2 LIVES A FEW MINUTES AGO WHERE SOMEONE IN THE COMMENTS WERE JUST LITERALLY LIKE “COMMENT IF YOU LOVE BTS”

THAT IS EVEN WORSE THAN LOOKING FOR ANOTHER MEMBER DURING A MEMBER’S LIVE.

I’ll stop it with the all caps but learn some respect, guys. How would you feel if other artists look down on BTS because of YOUR ACTIONS?

so it's the last night of camp...

and it’s super bittersweet, because it’s my last night at camp ever.

it’s been a pretty good summer, if someone up-and-down. the group i have this week isn’t super great, but i’ve had more good than bad, and i like everyone on staff and they all seem to like me too. but there’s been some weird staff drama, and some rocky-ness that comes with having a first year director. but overall, i’d say i had a good experience.

but i can’t go back to any camp next year, and that’s hard. on one hand, i know I’m ready. i want to go home and relax. i gotta move on to grad school. and this job is exhausting and stressful. but this has been such a huge part of my life. camp had a massive impact on who i became, to the point i can’t really imagine who i’d be without it. moving on from something that’s been such a fundamental part of your life is so, so difficult. i don’t even know how i’ll do it.

and i wish i could be at my camps from childhood, but do to changes in upper level admin, i was never hired and never felt comfortable enough to try a second time. i never got to give them a proper goodbye. they were special places where i made lifelong friends and found myself, and i took them for granted. it’s one thing i’ll always regret.

one more day. i’m both excited for it and dreading it.

  • me: maybe i'm not actually THAT unstable?? maybe i'm just making it up??
  • also me: *cries for 15 minutes bc my family ate some of my food*