This rant is about school. More so how school has fucked up so many students, that from going from being excited to go to school in preschool to dreading waking up every day in high school. Why is that? Is it because things get harder? Obviously, but it’s not helping that teachers these days are no longer caring about the education they are giving their students but more about the grades at the end of it.

At high school they force students to take part in classes they are not good at and then reprimand them for the exact same thing. They tell them they are shit and they are unmotivated simply because they aren’t able to throw a ball or solve an equation, maybe they are unmotivated because teachers are constantly tearing their students down? They tell you that being yourself isn’t good enough, and that if you get D’s in your Maths tests, that you aren’t worth being taught. It is fact that the average high school student has the same level of anxiety as the average patient in a psychiatric hospital in the 1950s. Does that scream fucked up to you? That scares me. It scares me that teachers and the school system is so focused on grades and making the school look good they simply don’t care about the health and wellbeing of the students or that maybe some students aren’t good at particular subjects or topics.

Many students today are more afraid of failing than anything else, they are afraid that if they fail everyone around them will laugh and joke and reprimand them for not trying harder, even if they tried their damn hardest and couldn’t even scrape a pass. It’s ridiculous.

Schools these days are enforcing things that some people are simply not able to do, public speaking for one, one of my personal friends has a very severe stutter when it comes to public speaking and she is still forced to do it, another one of my friends has anxiety and is forced to speak in front of people, even when it causes them to break down, this is the same as making people speak out loud. People on my personal Facebook are literally crying on the days leading back up to school because they aren’t emotionally ready to go back to a toxic environment.

Adults are constantly telling teenagers that they are in the best years of their lives, but that doesn’t make sense anymore. What with mean teachers, and ridiculous time limits on assignments and stressful exams. We are also told to stay healthy, to get the right amount of sleep, even though we have no choice but to stay up late because we were given an assignment two days ago that’s due the next day, and have to study for exams that we don’t understand, and also told to get jobs, whilst we try to have a social life. How is that fair? If high school is supposed to be the best years of our lives, we’re all screwed because it sucks. I understand that school is important and that education is important but it feels like there’s a huge difference between a healthy amount of challenge in order to improve and being so stressed about school that you mentally break down and cry, as you are being deprived of an enjoyable education, desperately doing anything to get a good grade; which will turn us into a generation that simply hates school.

They tell us it’s okay to make mistakes but then a low grade will get you dirty stress. However grades don’t mean anything, they only show short term memory and how good you are at remembering what your teacher wants to hear. Why do we even have to be tested? We’re so afraid of tests now we don’t even want to study or learn.

I don’t care about popularity, or the 9 hour school days. I care about the fact that schools do not care about everybody. They think if you don’t get a good grade you didn’t try, but nobody ever bothers to actually try and help you.

School sees everyone as a singular being. They put us in uniforms; dictate our makeup, hair and jewellery. They test all of us in the exact same way. Is it that hard to see everyone is different? Can we not look down on those who can’t cope with all the lessons?

People are constantly saying how stressed they are about going to school, and it’s a very clear view on the education system so that we’ve passed the ‘School sucks I don’t want to go,’ stage and have hit ‘School literally gives me more anxiety than anything else,’ stage. We’re supposed to be enjoying this stage in our lives, not forced to make decisions that will affect the rest of our lives. We are still just kids, but now we’re kids who are growing up way too fast. 

I found this doodle in my bf’s laptop, I think it was for that Magi twitter…I forgot its name, but the prompt was Sindria,… I think. I didn’t manage to finish it on time so I didn’t post it. But since I haven’t been drawing any Magi related thing lately and since I don’t dislike it, have this doodle of Sin putting a Maharagan mask on Ja’far ♥