scent of books

what is the deal with writers detailing what every character smells like? it’s so weird. and always in the same format, like they all took the same writing class from some scratch-and-sniff obsessed teacher.

i don’t mean describing the scent of a lover or another key character like a parent someone misses a lot. but there seems to be this trend lately in books of every character’s scent being described in detail.

and maybe i’m just not as smell-oriented as other people?? but. i don’t need to know that each character smells like thing one (usually something naturey), thing two (usually something having to do with the character’s profession or hobbies), and ~uwu~ some unnameable thing ~all their own~. 

how to survive bad school days, from morning till night

my last year of high school starts rather soon, and i’ve had more than my fair share of days when i wake up wanting to cry. there aren’t many things you can do when obligations like school force you to get over it as soon as it starts, so here are some tips to make your day better.

1. dress opposite the way you feel. even though sweats might be super tempting, dress up. wear your favorite pair of jeans, or a dress, or your cutest sneakers, even. wear bright colors at least. sweatpants and such will just make you feel even more blah and unfocused throughout the day. 

2. moisturize! this might seem like an odd idea, but moisturizing and going into school glowy and soft definitely helps me feel more comfortable and less ugh during the school day. it helps keep me in my home-y comfort zone, if that makes sense. 

3. carry something from home. this can be a book (even if you don’t read it), a tube of chapstick, a big waterbottle, etc… i have even gone as far as wrapping myself in a small blanket and walking around like that for the day. if you like this option and don’t feel comfortable wearing it, fold it up and place it in your backpack, just so you know it’s there.

4. plan out your day. even if it’s just making a mental note, tell and remind yourself of the things your going to do and when. this will get rid of any unnecessary stress and pressure. if something unexpected comes up, this will also help you manage your time a little better.

5. eat and drink happy things! pick today to pack a lunch, no matter what your usual routine is. drink plenty of water throughout this day, and eat as many fruits and veggies as you can. fill a reusable water bottle with water, fruit (like lemon or strawberries), and chia seeds! it’s perfect to sip throughout the day for a reboot or just to boost your mood. 

6. when you get home, bathe immediately! wash off the day’s dirt. drop everything as soon as you get home, and either jump in the shower or relax in a bath with your favorite soaps and scents and a book. give yourself a break before you have to get back to work.

7. don’t ignore your work. by work, i mean school work. if you’re having a bad day, don’t hesitate to take a break from talking to people or running (low-priority) errands. you don’t want to ignore schoolwork, though, because teachers aren’t the most lenient people in the world, and getting it done will take a lot off of your shoulders. pushing it away will only gain you more bad days. 

8. go to bed. get sleep! you want to be refreshed and happy for the next day, even if it’s a weekend. there’s a good chance your bad day began because you didn’t get enough sleep, or because you were ripped out of bed. reward yourself with rest after a long day. 

  • Aries: Challenges, taking risks, winning a bet, winning an argument, winning anything, competition, coming first in everything, excitement and adrenaline, being admired, being liked, having freedom to do whatever they like, feeling in control of their life, feeling like they have the world at their fingertips, spontaneity, adventure, an uncomplicated life.
  • Taurus: A peaceful life, relaxation, tranquility, time to think things over, reliability, stability, dependability, having someone they know they can trust, working with your hands, being hands-on, taking things slow, good music, comfort food, luxury, beautiful surroundings, all of the good things in life, being in love.
  • Gemini: Conversation, reading, writing, talking, being listened to, imagination, solving problems, playfulness, youthfulness, people with a sense of humor, being entertained, feeling curious, being told that you're interesting, being told that you're well-liked, variety, novelty, change, multi-tasking, light-heartedness, people who can have a good time.
  • Cancer: Being told that you are appreciated, being told that you are loved and cared for, nurturing and helping others, depending on people loyal to you, revisiting an old friend, your family reaching out for you, the past, nostalgia, reading about historical figures, feeling safe, staying home, having a private sanctuary, soft kisses, warm hugs.
  • Leo: Beauty, flattery, compliments, being the star of a show, receiving all the attention you'd like, extravagance, glamour, bright and bold colors, giving advice, playing the hero/heroine, protecting loved ones, loyalty, flirting and romance, being the best possible, having the best possible.
  • Virgo: Being acknowledged as intelligent, being told that you are helpful, having someone notice things that seem effortless but really aren't, self-improvement, positive mantras, the concept of perfection, down-to-earth people, clean sheets, fresh scents, good books, deep thinking, the feeling of being understood, someone acknowledging your effort and hard work.
  • Libra: Smoothing things over, living a laid-back life, avoiding drama, harmony between everyone, peace and quiet, relationships, romantic movies, being in love, playing the devil's advocate, picking arguments for fun, honesty, gentleness, kindness, beauty, the finer things in life, large parties, being respected instead of underestimated.
  • Scorpio: Having someone that you can trust, having someone that you can tell all your secrets to, loyalty, devotion, sarcasm, discovering hidden things, late nights out, figuring out how other people work, psychology, kindness, softness, challenges, one-upmanship, being right, truthfulness, personal privacy, faithfulness.
  • Sagittarius: Exploring, going on an adventure, unplanned events, spontaneous joy, seeing the bigger picture, a philosophical point of view, travel, people who like to laugh, friendliness, fun and energy, easy-going people, having big dreams, forgiveness, honesty, being direct and to the point.
  • Capricorn: Being respected, having status, being an authority, being known as the mature one, being known as the reliable one, being in control of your life, solid relationships, organization, having ambition, personal space, persistence, constantly improving yourself, having independence, holding responsibility.
  • Aquarius: Individuality, being recognized as unique, being recognized as special, being one of a kind, living life only to your own standards, being unconventional, listening to others, thoughtful people, having deep conversations, new ideas, new concepts, new trends, spending time alone, dreaming about changing the world.
  • Pisces: Imagination, things that inspire them- art, cinema, literature, history, music, dreaming about being someone larger than life, solitude, having time alone to think, empathy, compassion, people who understand them without further explanation, people who can read between the lines, creativity, having no rules, having no restrictions, living a life where they have no boundaries.
Sensing the Gods

Touch: raindrops falling
Sight: flash of light through the rain
Scent: day after a rainstorm
Emotion: a slight startle when a large thunderbolt lights the sky
Hear: resounding crack of thunderbolts
Taste: the numbing surge of electricity when testing a battery

Touch: the feeling of the wedding ring
Sight: the tears of love as a betrothed walks down the isle
Scent: the welcoming familiar smell of home
Emotion: love as grey as the hair time and passion has aged like wine
Hear: sound of child laughter
Taste: home cooked meal hot from the oven

Touch: the cold pool of tears after a panic attack as sleep calms the suicidal
Sight: a funeral procession honouring the soul to the underworld’s gates
Scent: freshly dug earth in a cemetery
Emotion: peace after a loved one has passed
Hear: the quiet of a cemetery
Taste: salt of tears as a life is not taken

Touch: wind through a open car window
Sight: yellow lines and green lights ensuring a speedy travel
Scent: lingering smell of gas at a full station
Emotion: relief as a long awaited trip arrives
Hear: clinking of coins in a till
Taste: the dryness after a long walk along a gravel road

Touch: long dry grass crunching in the fall
Sight: auburn, reds and golds of Autumn
Scent: pumpkin spice and freshly mown grass
Emotion: solitude and a festival glow as December rolls around
Hear: a lawnmower’s growling as it works through tall grass
Taste: fresh fruits and the taste of nectar and milk

Touch: creamy texture of chocolate in your mouth
Sight: long distance partner smiling after being far away
Scent: lovers perfume/cologne
Emotion: heart pounding, misty eyed love as a smile comes from seeing a love in your arms
Hear: impassioned breaths of intimate moments
Taste: the passionate kisses between lovers forgetting time for a moment

Touch: the long embrace of a soldier and child/love as they come home
Sight: half mast flag
Scent: soldier’s sweat after taking off his uniform from all day
Emotion: pride in your country
Hear: the resounding “Daddy!” of a coming home surprise
Taste: fresh food cooked after time away from your country

Touch: aching feet of a retail worker as they slump in a break room chair
Sight: the clock
Scent: burning embers of a fire, stale ash
Emotion: relief and excitement getting a job offer after searching relentlessly
Hear: clang of an anvil and sizzle of molten iron in a cooling bucket
Taste: cast iron cooked meals, fire cooked steak

Touch: the calluses on your fingertips after months of practice in guitar strings
Sight: beautiful works of art
Scent: lemonades on a day in summer
Emotion: shivering goosebumps as an emotion is struck hard with music
Hear: the sharp and clear melody of a freshly strung guitar
Taste: slight moment of metal and ink as a pen is drawn to your tongue

Touch: animal’s soft fur like water through your fingers
Sight: doe slowly walking out of a dense forest
Scent: a forest with rich leaves
Emotion: awe as a baby deer and mother wait patiently for your car to pass before crossing
Hear: twang of a arrow releasing from a bow string
Taste: cooling water after exploring in the woods

Touch: stiff spine of a new book cracking open
Sight: a deserved verdict to a defendant
Scent: old pages/books
Emotion: peace inside a bookstore
Hear: hoot of a stirring owl in the evening
Taste: fingertips as they’re licked to turn a fresh page in a book

Touch: embrace of a love come home again
Sight: the first spring flower blooming
Scent: new morning dew in spring
Emotion: relief and glowing love as a partner smiles on a long awaited Skype call
Hear: buzz of bees in the summer
Taste: pomegranates

Touch: tide bringing you in to shore again
Sight: crisp blue of the ocean at peace
Scent: the sour smell of a seafood section of a supermarket
Emotion: awe inspired by an image of the open sea
Hear: hooves thundering along a dirt path
Taste: salt of the sea as it slashes into a smile while swimming

Touch: the padding comfort of a bandage on a healing wound
Sight: seeing a loved one feel well again after sickness
Scent: disinfectant
Emotion: the drowsiness of NyQuil as it lulls your symptoms away to sleep
Hear: fresh air after sickness has clogged your sinuses for weeks
Taste: the sweetness as a sigh of relief escapes your breath

Touch: your cheeks stretching against your teeth as a yawn escaped into the sunrise
Sight: painted reds and oranges of a sunrise
Scent: morning dew in springtime at 6 am
Emotion: excitement for a day ahead, full of possibilities
Hear: the morning birds stirring in the early morning light
Taste: morning coffee next to an open-curtained window

Touch: moments when you can feel comfortable with your body after dysphoria
Sight: the charcoal of a panther, eyes glowing in the night
Scent: draping aroma of a fertile vineyard
Emotion: Pride in being part of a LGBTQ community
Hear: chorus laughter of a raucous party
Taste: sweet tang of a well aged wine

things to do in autumn
  • go apple picking
  • light book-scented candles
  • buy mini pumpkins
  • build candy haunted houses
  • press/dry leaves in between the pages of a book/as a bookmark
  • make cinnamon rolls
  • make caramel sauce
  • wear tartan scarves and blankets
  • drink hot chocolate
  • coffee with cinnamon on top
  • buy squashes and big pumpkins
  • make squash soup
  • put up fairy lights in your room/house
  • decorate your porch
  • wear cozy sweaters
  • make pumpkin pie
  • go through a corn maze
  • dance in the rain
  • change the wallpapers on your devices to fall-themed ones
  • curl up with a cozy blanket, a book or a show/movie on netflix, a warm drink, and some fresh-baked cookies
  • wear chunky cardigans
  • take a walk through the forest
  • go on a hike
  • make apple pie
  • buy/make a pumpkin spice latte
  • try some fall makeup looks
  • wear knee-high socks
  • wake up early and meditate, sit outside, enjoy the autumn in the air
  • re-read your favorite book series (like harry potter)
  • roast some marshmallows
  • make some s’mores
  • make pancakes and cover them with maple syrup
  • eat apple cider/maple doughnuts
  • take long nature walks and step on lots of crunchy leaves, breathe in the crisp autumn air, and take aesthetic pictures
  • drink warm beverages out of fancy cups
  • have a picnic on the leaf-covered grass
  • drink apple cider
  • make pecan pie
  • make pumpkin bread
  • carve a pumpkin
  • eat halloween candy
  • wear cute boots
  • go to a fall festival
  • jump in puddles
  • jump in piles of leaves
  • go to/throw a halloween party
  • dress up for halloween
  • make a halloween costume
  • go to a haunted house
  • make/eat caramel apples
  • make/eat candy apples
  • go on a hayride
  • stargaze
  • have a fall/autumn/halloween movie night
  • watch the sunrise
  • watch the sunset
  • read on a balcony
  • read outside
  • do as many everyday activities as you can outside or in the fresh air
  • soak in a hot tub
  • plant a garden of seasonal plants
  • make squash soup
  • go trick-or-treating
  • eat candy corn
  • go to a pumpkin patch
  • eat caramel popcorn
  • go to the farmer’s market
  • go on evening bike rides with flowers in your bicycle basket
  • wear fuzzy socks
  • bake treats for friends and family
  • drink/make a salted caramel latte
  • go to the beach
The Queens

Queen of Wands is like that creative spark of energy. Your summer bonfire. Fireworks on the Fourth of July. She’s full of passion, energy and sparkle. Warm, friendly, and has the ability to charm her way. She’s also fiercely loyal. Sociable. She’s the best friend you know you can confide in and she will just hug you so tight while making plans in her head to either cheer you up or go after the boy who made you cry. She is a force to be reckoned with. She is the lioness who will always protect her cubs. She will defend the underdog. She’s like a field of wildflowers and dancing in the rain. She’s like the scent of sweet amber and sandalwood musk; sensual and romantic.
Astrologically speaking, she represents the Fire Signs: Aries, Leo, Sagittarius

Queen of Cups is like the perfect temperature of pool water. It’s not too hot or too cold, it’s comfortable. She’s like… that like feeling you have when walking into your grandmother’s house and smelling fresh baked cookies. She is the mom of the group. Her friends are her family, and her family is everything. She is homelike and nurturing. She’s like that feeling you get after you walk in the door from a long day at work and you take off your heels and bra. It’s like total comfort. She’s the care package your mom sent when you moved away for college. She’s like a vase of beautiful roses. She is the sound and tranquility of a quiet babbling brook, but her emotions can be dark and strong like a raging river. She’s beautiful and compassionate. 
Astrologically speaking, she represents the Water Signs: Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces

Queen of Swords is like that quick-witted girl you wish you could be more like. Have you ever played a scenario in your head over and over about what you should have said? Or like 3 hours later, you come up with a brilliant comeback? She already thought of those brilliant words, said them, and walked away. She’s like the sharp-tongued Great Aunt who cuts through the BS and won’t put up with it. She’s also quite clever, bit quirky, always thinking, and figuring things out. While the Queen of Wands can put on the charm to get her way, the Queen of Swords uses intellect and reason. She is a woman of her word. She means what she says, and says what she means. She has a good heart and has the best intentions, but would rather not sugarcoat things. She’s like the cool, crisp air in the early morning.
Astrologically speaking, she represents the Air Signs: Gemini, Libra, Aquarius

Queen of Pentacles is like walking into an old library and breathing in that familiar scent of books. Or a stack of money. She’s the boss lady. She has great work ethic and incredible dedication. She is seen as the “roots” of the family. The Matriarch. Where the Queen of Cups is the mother, this is the grandmother. The top lady that everyone respects and values. Someone who is grounded, stable. She’s the valedictorian at your high school and voted most likely to succeed. She is practical. She’s the foundation of the strongest building. She can be stubborn and set in her ways, but she can see what others cannot. She is down to earth, wise beyond her years, and very responsible. She is like the root of the strongest oak tree. It’s possible that she’s not wealthy in a monetary sense, but her wisdom and life experiences make her the richest woman in the world.
Astrologically speaking, she represents the Earth Signs: Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn

  • Aries: big groups of friends, action films, sugary popcorn, creamy drinks, the scent of sweet caramel, the colour navy blue, play fighting, sleeping really late, taking risks, the company of best friends, the cutest expressions.
  • Taurus: peaceful train rides, repeating songs, dark captivating eyes, silky hair, the taste of newly opened soda, smiling at strangers, daydreaming, grey scale with bright colours, high fiving friends.
  • Gemini: the feel of fresh paper, the taste and scent of dark chocolate, sarcastic replies, expressive eyes, bright emotions, gentle touches, kisses on the hand, warm scarves, fingerless gloves.
  • Cancer: soft sweaters, the scent of coffee, smooth clean hair, pale skin, vanilla, pattens in the stars, beautiful silence, holding hands, gorgeous eyes, cuddling, golden light, evening time, a good book, the colours brown and red.
  • Leo: warm sunlight, the feel of sand on your feet, the colours yellow and blue, cloudless skies, shining smiles, loose ponytails, freedom, ice cream on a hot day, playing childish games with friends.
  • Virgo: prolonged eye contact, comforting whispers, soft cheek kisses, quiet music, late night talking, warm blankets, the scent of a new book, shy smiles, rain against a window, steely grey sky, heavy rain clouds, blue jeans.
  • Libra: cups of steaming tea, fluffy hair, sweet licorice, big heavy hoodies, sci-fi novels and series, silly faces, dark lighting, the colour silver, messy beds, sleeping through alarms, the scent of s fresh morning.
  • Scorpio: little inside jokes, hugs with friends, kisses on the neck, hues of green, dew-sprinkled grass, playful nudges, cheesy selfies, carving into trees, the scent of a forest.
  • Sagittarius: the flicker of street lights at night, the gentle hum of cars in the distance, long and warm laughter, shorts and loose clothing, the cool midnight air, adrenaline rushes, short giggles, linking arms.
  • Capricorn: the scent of fresh fruit, neon colours, bright sunrises, singing slow songs, tracing patterns out of clouds, sweet ice popsicles, fuzzy socks, accidental hand touches, a glass of refreshing fruit juice.
  • Aquarius: clean pillows, hair in buns, a sip of fresh water on a warm day, amazing friendships, first crushes, the scent of coconut, showering in the morning, modern design.
  • Pisces: running with the wind on your face, perfect grins, seashells, drawing on rocks with chalk, painting in to wet sand, bright hair, soft sea foam, pastel colours, little secret gifts, surprise tickles.

the best feeling is rediscovering something you used to love like a candle scent, a book, someones eyes, your fav song from 3 years ago or some earrings you thought you’d lost

what to do if you are feeling gross

so sometimes I’m just sitting around being lazy, watching tv or getting distracted by internet things, or I’ve eaten too much or I’ve just had a super long day. and sometimes I’m even aware of how much of a blob I am being, I’m sure this happens to other people, too. anyways I wanted to share this little list to motivate me/others to stop being a blob:

1. very very first thing. shut off your internet. put all the tv and stuff out of reach. this is really important, but you will feel 100% better afterwards.

2. uncover your windows, let natural light filter in. if you can/want to open them, that’s also fantastic. it really helps lighten your mood, always makes me feel more connected with the rest of the world.

3. put on some music. it’s ok to use your phone/computer for this, but remember to just keep it away from arm’s reach. also, you can use whatever music you’d like, but I suggest something soft, like Frank Sinatra or Beegie Adair or Jack Johnson.

4. take a walk. look at the colors and plants people surround themselves with. pick out houses/buildings you like. look at the sky, listen to what’s going on around you. I don’t generally listen to music for this because I like to feel grounded when I walk, but if you’re more of a song person that’s okay, too. it’s really easy to forget how long it’s been since you’ve had some fresh air.

5. take a bath. if it’s hot out, turn on a fan and cool down the room so you’re all cosy in the water, put in some bubbles and scents. grab a book or magazine. exfoliate, do your nails, put on a face mask. throw yourself a little spa day. when you get out, put on lotion, put on new underwear and soft, comfy clothing.

6. make your favourite cup of tea or coffee, or maybe pour yourself some lemonade or just cold water is fine too.

7. go sit in a common area of your house, like a living room or dining table. if you’re not home alone and don’t want to be bothered, gently voice it to the people around you or go sit somewhere else where you feel comfortable and relaxed. just get out of the same walls, find a change of scenery. you could even leave and go to a café or a park if you’d like.

8. do some writing/doodling. whenever this happens, I always like to use a spare piece of printer paper or something not connected to a notebook so I’m less attached to it and less likely to care about the way it looks. let the pen do its own thing, don’t worry about messing up. if you feel that you’re getting frustrated, step away and do something else.

9. make some lists. this is one of my favourite pastimes. list nice things that you’ve seen recently that you think you’ll forget later on. list little details of your dreams, list things you want to do in your favourite season, list recipes you’d like to try. the possibilities are endless.

10. cook/bake something. important reminders—if you don’t find this relaxing, don’t do it!! find another hobby that you love where you can enjoy doing something productive. also, even if you’re making something fantastic, be sure not to snack too much or overeat (I’m very prone to this). you could also make something for a friend or a neighbour!! people always enjoy a heartfelt craft made by someone who cares.

11. catch up with an old friend or family member. ask them out for coffee or something, it’s always nice to talk. trust me, they will very much appreciate you reaching out.

12. write a letter to someone. you do not have to send it.

13. go to a park and look at the flowers or sit in the grass. grab a sketchbook, some sudoku, a book, a puzzle, your thoughts, or anything else you could tinker with while enjoying the fresh air. something to make your brain work a little.

there’s more, of course, but this is all I can really come up with at the moment—I hope it works! now get off that web and have a good time!!

Hindsight (Part 3)

By: ProMarvelFanGirl

Pairing: Bucky x reader

Summary: Hindsight is always 20/20. Sometimes it takes seeing people through someone else’s eyes to see the truth. (Friends into Lovers)

TAGGING IS OPEN -Updated Every Wednesday!


Three days later you had almost completely finished moving to your new Brooklyn apartment.   Steve had raised an eyebrow when he heard where you were going to be living, but you just ignored him.  You only had a few boxes remaining in your room and you had yet to move your yellow reading chair over.   After Steve had left your apartment from helping you unpack, you settled on your new couch and turned on a movie, maybe all this quiet is exactly what you needed.

Bucky returned from his mission unscathed but annoyed.  He had been on a solo mission, and with no one to talk to, all he could do was focus on what had transpired between the two of you and how your relationship had changed.  He also had to figure out what was going on between you and Steve.   Bucky had decided no matter what Steve or Jeanette said he was going to talk to you and figure out what is going on and get everything worked out.

Bucky was greeted in the hanger not by you as was usual, but Jeanette.  He walks up to her quickly and gives her a quick kiss on the cheek before turning and walking towards the entrance to the building.  “Do you know where Y/n is?  I need to talk to her.”

Jeanette just shrugs disappointed that his sole focus was you, before she could say anything Bucky was walking away from her searching for Steve.  Jeanette frowned after his form, even though you had removed yourself from Bucky as she asked, she hadn’t banked on how he would act in the situation.  He marched to your room only to find the door was locked and his knocks went unanswered.   He then made his way to Steve’s room, not bothering to knock before entering.

“Where is Y/n?”  Steve looks up from his book and moves from the lounging position on his bed to sit on the side.  He gives his best friend a roll of the eyes before standing to face him.

“Buck shouldn’t you be greeting your fiance?”  Steve still wasn’t sure how he was going to tell his best friend that you had left, he was still trying to figure out how to get your chair out without him noticing.

“I’ve already seen Jeanie, I need to right things with Y/n.  I know you know where she is so just tell me.  And why the hell didn’t you tell me you were into her?”  Bucky crosses his arms and fixes Steve with his winter soldier glare.

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Gryffindor is loud declarations of love. It’s holding your hand in public and taking you on cheesy dates. It’s making coffee exactly the way you like it. It’s standing up for the people you love. It’s holding doors open and paying for dates but giving you your own space as well. It’s throwing a party and kissing you in front of everyone. Gryffindor is loving loudly and proudly.

Ravenclaw is creating something with love illustrated in it. It’s smiling the special smile that’s only for you. It’s taking you to bookstores and inhaling the musky scent of old books together. It’s giving you art and writing that love has been poured into. It’s being there quietly, and holding your hand when you need it. It’s the simple joy of being together. Ravenclaw is loving quietly and contentedly.

Hufflepuff is eyes that look at you with love. It’s baking together and throwing flour at each other, and when you end up tussling on the floor. It’s kisses pressed to your forehead every day. It’s the knowledge of the love that’s there. It’s giving little presents every day and seeing the smile that bursts on your face. Hufflepuff is loving protectively and honestly.

Slytherin is lingering glances and casual brushing of hands. It’s soft, smitten eyes and long, protective hugs. It’s holding hands under the stars. It’s walking to the hidden tea shop and trying all the strange kinds of tea. It’s poetry from the heart. It’s meeting your parents and taking you on dates to the oddest places. It’s pointing out constellations and cuddling under a blanket. Slytherin is loving softly but surely.

The first night back at Grimmauld Place was horrific, to say the least. If it wasn’t bad enough being in his childhood home, a house arrest in place and a ban on how much whisky he could consume was for sure. 

In his frustration, Sirius headed out into the garden slamming the back door behind him as he did and relishing in the silence it created as he was cut off from the Order’s meeting. His eyes first took in the overgrown weeds, the bushes that he had once hidden in to avoid the usual talks with his parents, and then he noticed the stars, the moon. 

The sight made him smile. Not enough to be his trademark, but sufficient enough to change his facial expression, and cause his eyes to glimmer. 

Sirius heard a snap of a twig, turning on his heels to come face to face with the man who so often reminded him of the moon, and who he had also been avoiding like the plague. 

He could have shouted at him, the words were ready to be thrown; he could have lost his temper and ordered him away, far far away. Sirius that if he did, he would regret it immediately after. 

The mere sight of Remus’ sunken shoulders, hollow cheeks and sleep deprived eyes made him see that he wasn’t alone in self-torture. Clearly, the past few years hadn’t been easy on either of them, but Sirius was still sure he was worse off. It was why he spoke first; why the words fell from his lips almost childlike. 

“You left me…” Sirius whispered, unreserved and laced in pain. 

Remus stepped closer, more scars littering his face that there had been in the Shack a few years ago. “Never again. I promise! It would end me for -” 

Sirius cut him off as he closed the space and held him. The act happened quickly, and he realised that he didn’t wish to hash this out right now, a part of him never wanting too; hoping he could bury it deep beneath all the other pain and move on from it all. 

For now, however, he settled for holding Remus; breathing the scent of books and wisdom from his robes. Sirius relaxed into the man’s hold, allowing himself to fall back into the perfect mould they always were. Remus stared into his eyes, begging for them to talk tomorrow instead of now. Sirius nodded, he had been running for two years, missing him for fourteen and churning with madness for far longer. It was what Sirius wanted to, to push it to the side for tonight, to have a pause and revisit it another day so they could hold one another for a moment. 

He answered him with a kiss. A soft, but meaningful kiss, that quickly turned into one that had everything poured in, as though he was spinning his feelings into a song that Remus’ lips could only translate. 

Sirius was sure Remus understood. The feel of Remus holding him a little tighter, bringing their bodies a little nearer; he had to know. Remus always knew. 

It was why Sirius loved him; it was why he knew that a part of Remus had never given up. That level of love, it didn’t vanish under hardship, it strengthened

I’ve been tagged! Thankyou to @islandfeuer for tagging me to answer 20 questions. I thought I’d combine this with a personal post as I graduated yesterday and now officially have a degree in English Literature from the University of Sheffield! I sadly didn’t get to keep the hat. 

Name: Harriet
Nicknames: None really, though I once knew a guy who called me Haribo
Zodiac Sign: Libra
Height: About 5′8 or 176.784cm
Orientation: North (but also I like men) 
Nationality: British/English
Favorite Fruit: Raspberries 
Favorite Season: Autumn (the best colours to photograph)
Favourite Book: Difficult to say as I read so much! I recently read Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury and loved it! I also wrote my dissertation on H.G Wells’ War of The Worlds so that’s a firm favourite, and Kate Chopin’s The Awakening will always have a place in my heart. 
Favorite Flower: Forget-me-nots and daisies. 
Favorite Scent: Wood shavings, old books, cakes in the oven, an open fire, the smell before rain…
Favorite Color: Probably black, as it dominates my wardrobe.
Favorite Animal: Dogs (especially my dog), red pandas, penguins and otters!
Coffee, tea or hot cocoa: Fruity tea, and the occasional hot chocolate.
Average sleep hours: Maybe 8?
Cat or dog person: Definitely dogs
Favorite fictional character: I’m a big fan of R2-D2 and BB-8 from Star Wars (beep boop) 
Number of blankets you sleep with: One duvet and the occasional blanket
Blog Created: January 2015
Number of followers: 3845, but probably fewer if I had the time to filter out all the spam blogs.

I’ll refrain from directly tagging others as I’m terrible at keeping track of who’s already done this, but feel free to join in if you’ve not done already!