warriors fandom: wow tigerstars death scene…..super gory and clearly not meant for kids…..cats dying from awful ways??? i dont know man i dont think this should be for kids,,,, this series is like watership down….so gory and violent….
also warriors fandom: okay but why are you guys complaining about homophobia and sexism in wc???? its for kids!! actual fetuses!!! kids dont know what a gay is!!!
notes from last night’s the subtle knife reread progress:
i realized that honestly, lyra getting almost immediately hit by a car when she first comes into our world might be the single most realistic thing to happen in the whole trilogy
i forgot - or never really realized - that will actually spends like, half of the book still having all of his fingers. i’m so used to thinking about him as hurting physically and not just emotionally that it almost feels weird to read
rereading john parry’s airmail letters, i suddenly realized that him and asriel are actually similar - in the aspect of them going through windows into other worlds and having their children follow them. but john went through a natural window, and asriel forcefully created his; and lyra was fully aware that she’s following her father’s footsteps, while will found out that his father discovered a window only after he’s found his own window from oxford to cittagazze; and these differences seem oddly fitting somehow.
lyra meeting mary for the first time - the whole sequence is so powerful, and i think that i realized for the first time exactly why - because lyra is telling the truth. just like the alethiometer instructed her. and she’s struggling with it - she’s constantly reminding herself that she’s got to tell the truth and mary doesn’t believe her so she’s got to repeat it multiple times, and she doesn’t get her words right and she’s frustrated - she’s doing something so unusual, so utterly against her own nature - she’s lyra, she’s the liar, lying is second nature to her, lying protects her, especially in this strange world that is like hers but also so unlike hers - and she’s got to tell the truth and it makes her vulnerable and her emotions are so raw. and tbh i feel sorry that pan is forced to hide during all of this because his own reactions to lyra’s emotions would’ve been really interesting to see. and damn this “young” unsuspecting mary is both so frustrating and so innocent in this encounter
will (and pan) saving the tabby cat from the kids in cittagazze - this scene is always super difficult for me to read, i actually repressed the memory of it so hard that i literally forgot about it up until i reached it in the book, then all the emotions came flooding back - it’s always physically hard for me to read the words because it’s such a brutal, brutal scene, and the subject is so sensitive to me and close to my heart (it’s been so since i was a child). and it did two things for me: 1. it cemented my hatred of the cittagazze kids 2. and most importantly - it cemented my love for will. he’s willing to physically fight like, 20 kids to save this cat and i love him so much for it. but it’s still a really really hard scene for me.